Thursday, May 15, 2008
My poor hubby emailed me to say that he is bone weary at this stage. Not only giving IT training by day, but been working well into the evening to stave off home sickness. I haven't been working well into the evenings, but I must admit I'm bone weary tonight as well. I had quite a run around day today. I had agreed to take my niece & nephew to the airport this afternoon at 4pm. That meant I had to get everything I needed doing by 3pm. Yesterday I heard my son on the phone to a client saying that he wouldn't be available today - till after 13.00 this afternoon because he would be in Oudtshoorn (a neighboring town). Hearing that, I assumed (my friend says never assume...it makes an "ass"-out of-"u"-&-"me" cute!) but I did assume that he was taking Michelle through for her pharmacy work. That meant I had plenty of time - heck I had the whole morning, so I didn't prepare for her bible study that we do together. We usually study early so that she's free for the rest of the day. At 8.30 I'm still lazily sitting at the kitchen table, drinking a cup of coffee when she pops her head around the door and asks..."aren't you going to study with me today?" Smiling at her I said, "Yes, but when you get back from Oudtshoorn." She looked at me strangely and says, "thats tomorrow." Turns out, Daniel got the day wrong. So here's me...unprepared. Oh goodness. I had to ask her to study at 10am so that I could prepare first. It was the strangest feeling, preparing and then immediately sitting down and doing it again with Michelle. That meant I only got finished after 11.30am. Thats the morning written off...Next my mom comes through and asks for a lift to the mall, her necks too stiff to drive herself and she has to collect her prescription. Heck I don't mind, she would do it for me - she's great that way.
So off I go...but... first we have to stop and have a cup of coffee at Cuppacchino's. My moms addicted to coffee shops (and I can't help her cos I'm just as bad lol) While she went to the pharmacy at clicks, I went to PnP to get a few things. I hurried home after that to box my younger nephew's Care Package which Rory was taking to him for me, cos I missed the Bethel truck (with this mornings confusion, I clean forgot) He was also taking some shoes and stuff to my sister Gale and some radox bath foam to her and her husband from Michelle. They are missionaries in a little town and rely on us to send "hard to get" items to them, either on the Bethel truck or with whoever is going that way. I squeezed in a quick lunch up at Rory and Romy (those are the names of my nephew and his wife...really). Met Daniel and Michelle there getting the keys from R&R.
Finally we left for the airport and en-route Rory remembers that he forgot to buy pregnizone for his dogs itching. So a quick stop at the usual pharmacy they buy it from.....which yields nothing.... they cant get it anymore. Another stop at the next pharmacy and they at least still have a bottle. Then up to the airport. Had a half hr wait with them and left when they boarded. Rushed back into town. Almost at home when my younger son, Cole calls, he needs to link up to get money to pay for the Astra's repairs. Meet him, take him to where the Astra's parked and drop him and go home. Once home, I manically start preparing for my Christian meeting tonight. We are currently studying the book of Revelation and it is very in-depth and takes quite a bit of concentration to understand the symbolical beasts etc.
After the meeting my mom asks if on the way back we can stop at the local cafe, she's dying for a chocolate......err dribble, drool, slurrrp imagine what that did to my taste buds. I was dying for one myself because I'm so flipping tired. Anyway one tiny little question from my mom..."can you have one?" set me back on track. I came home and made myself some strawberries, jelly and yogurt....and feel awfully proud of myself.
Tonight I go to bed tired and with a clear conscience. I have been it for almost everyone today and I'm beginning to understand
RENA1965's when she says she's always been "it" for everyone. I guess, it keeps me out of mischief....lol If I didn't take that view, I might go MAD.
So although I had a seriously hungry day today and ate to the top figure of my calories allowed....at least I was still in the prescribed amount.
Can you see the glow in the night sky....well that's my halo?
Wednesday, May 14, 2008
I woke up this morning feeling like I needed - a responsibility free day - and my husbands coming home to spirit me away from "it all" is taking just waaaaay too long. So I woke up, (kids went off to work) (Mother went off with a friend) so having the house ALL TO MYSELF, I put a CD on and slid into a lovely deep bath and just relaxed. I had barely gotten out, when my d.i.l sms'd to ask if I would like to join them for some coffee......yeah man would I ever....I'd had enough of my own company by then.
Hunt, scratch, search....but no vehicle keys to be found.
I realized by then that Daniel had moved my vehicle to get his Tazz out this morning, so a call to him established that the keys (blush) were in his pocket. But he redeems himself by offering to come home and fetch me. We ended up going to a quaintest little coffee shop with water features everywhere and giant palms...really cute. Its called Travel Bugs and was originally designed for people to sit outside the travel agency and have coffee/tea and biscuits while waiting for their travel documents etc. Now its open to the public. They serve coffee with 2 little biscuits (NO I NEVER ATE THEM - I gave them to my son - I'm on a 7 day challenge with Jackie & Ashley remember?!) From there they went up to the house they are house sitting for two weeks to get the feeding program for the pets. I left vehicle parked where it was and walked all the way down to the bottom of town window shopping as I went. I even managed to find two cutes little tee-shirts for my d.i.l and younger sons gfriend for a bargain (I buy them what I would love to wear and will when I'm thinner lol). I bought an apple from the veggie shop and a bottle of water for myself, crossed the road and walked all the way back. Thats about a 2 kilometer walk.
Then mother phones and wants me to join her for lunch at a restaurant called Palms Nursery & Restaurant just outside of town....turned out ghastly. Beautiful decor, the food was great, just expensive and the atmosphere could have been that of a morgue....I finally asked for music to be put on and they turned on the radio. Some radio station waffling on and on and so quietly they might not as well have bothered. I asked if they didn't have a lovely quiet music CD...the ans...they do, but they don't know where it is. What??? Anyway, they wont get me there again...I'd sooner have mediocre food and great atmosphere, than great food and lousy atmosphere.
Since mother had been dropped off with me in town - because she had driven up to her friends house in the morning and gone off in her friends car - she asked if I would mind taking her to fetch her car after lunch. Of course I didn't mind, except, coming from that side of town, using the short cut, we both clean forgot. At 75 she has a good excuse....me....I'm still blushing.
In the meantime, mother decides she's going to walk up to her friend with her dog, for exercise just as soon as it cooled down. I decided to join her, because my last walk was on Monday. So the two of us set off at 17.15pm. Its a 3.5 kilometer walk to mothers friends house. Once there, I used the loo, drank a glass of water, bummed an apple (horrible floury thing) and walked back. But this time, I was on my own and it was getting dark but I didn't mind. (Its still relatively safe in our neck of the woods) In addition, I stuck close to the houses and lit up areas and I made the whole trip in just under 2hrs. 1hr 45mins to be exact. Admittedly by the time I got halfway back, I thought of phoning the kids to fetch me because my knees were sore, but decided just to get to the end of the long str - then call. But once there, I decided just to get to the next str...and so on. By the time I got to around the corner from home, I was weaving and hobbling like a drunk person...but still I didn't phone. And in the end I made it all the way home. I warmed up the veggie soup I made for myself, drank water and swallowed an anti-inflammatory tablet. And tonight I'm so chuffed with myself, I could just burst. Tomorrow of course is another story. I may hate every single person who invented....tar roads, grassy paths, hiking shoes, pots, microwaves, husbands, kids, pets......and love the guy that invented pain pills. lol
SO WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THAT!!!!
If there are no further blogs from this evening on....I most likely did not survive the night.
PS AND I DIDN'T EXCEED MY CALORIE COUNT!!!
Tuesday, May 13, 2008
Today I had a ton of things to do. I was sitting in my kitchen enjoying my first cup of black coffee for the day and making up my "to do" list, while listening to the white eyes (birds) cavorting in the playground they had created for themselves in my garden. Next thing my younger son bursts in (as only young men can do) through the door, face wreathed in smiles and says ... "guess what Mom, its Jess and my 1st anniversary and I want to treat her to a special dinner, but I'm a bit broke, so thats where you come in", and hands me a gorgeous (but inexpensive) vase along with 2 roses he picked out of my garden and says, "this is my contribution". kids lol. My son is a reasonable enough cook (for a guy) but I guess he's a bit nervous to try his hand at a special evening, with a special woman. So I galvanized into action and got my stuff done, then went and did a little shopping. I had barely set my foot into my home when, in walks Jess all sad eyed and....just hanging about with us feeling miserable because she thought my son forgot. I felt so sorry for her, I nearly let the cat out the bag.....but didn't. Now what to do about the fact that Jess is hovering??? First send her next door for 2 eggs - I don't need. (I have no idea what my neighbor thought...I never borrow...I will have to explain to her tomorrow) then I sms my son and say "GET JESS OUTA HERE!" He comes and takes her with him to have the cars brake pads fixed. Poor thing, so romantic, and sitting inside a workshop on her "anniversary" day. But never mind Jess...all will be well in just a few hrs time.
First my daughter in law and I lay a gold cloth over the wooden picnic bench outside under the stately trees...all private in its own lush garden...so romantic. Next we find all the photos of the two of them and put them on the table along with the roses in their vase and a few truly beautiful ornate candles donated by Michelle. I made mushroom sauce burgers (her favorite) and salad to go with that because shes watching her weight too - got a wedding coming up. Then we hauled out my cute heart shaped plastic picnic plates covered in butterflies and dragonflies to put their burgers on. After that we cut cucumber into heart shapes with a cookie cutter and placed them all around the inside of a glass salad bowl and filled the center with salad. We also cut the feta cheese into two heart shapes and placed them on top. Lastly we changed the outside globe for an orange one which gives the whole area a golden glow....creates an almost surreal look.
My older son (it became an absolute family affair lol) had a really lovely idea and that was to line the passage leading to the garden with lit tea candles and to litter the passage with yellow flowers from my acacia tree. It really looked gorgeous. Finally we put little gold wrapped heart shaped chocolates (compliments of the remains of mothers day in the shops) on the saucer which would house the cup for their cappuccino. Lastly with a romantic cd playing, it was time for the rest of our family to go off to our Christian meeting which would leave the lovebirds 2 hrs to enjoy their romantic dinner. I hope they took photos for me, esp a photo of Jessica's face when she saw that he didn't forget after all.
But above this all, I'm so delighted with myself because even though I had a frenetically busy day, I STAYED WITHIN MY CALORIE COUNT.
Friday, May 09, 2008
Today started out fine. I played my weekly game of scrabble and ate a healthy lunch. Once I got home, I found my daughter in law in tears and my son looking at me with those hollow eyes???.....oh my BAD NEWS! Michelle had a check up scan today and the cancer has returned. The cancer marker has grown 7.8 and they have scheduled her for an op on the 22/5 to remove her second ovary in the hopes of catching it all this time. I only hope that when they cut....it doesn't spread, which is a possibility that can't be ignored. She and my son were so forlorn and I felt helpless to do anything except hold them and help them to be strong. I can't tell her it will be okay. The last time someone told her that, she had her first ovary removed. So I just held her and told her what my sister (a young mommy with 3 small children) said when she found out that she had incurable colon cancer..... "I intend to live until I die, they can't take that away from me!" And she did. She home schooled her children to have more time with them, went hiking, cycling, boating, singing, put home stage productions together etc. She really did live until the end. My sister was very courageous, strong and dignified. I want to help Michelle be like that. Its hard though, because Michelle's own mother died in Dec 07 of spinal cancer.
We will have to wait until then to face whatever the future brings. I don't intend to let her go "there" emotionally if I can help it. For now, she must live and have the fun of the young. To take her mind off constant negative and non-constructive worry, we went to a local school production of The Sound of Music tonight. It was brilliantly done. One could hardly believe those were just school kids. Crystal clear cherubic voices filled the school hall. It lifted our spirits immensely. My daughter in law bought me a small Cadbury's crunchie to say thank you for supporting her in the afternoon.....I didn't turn it down, how could I, but I did share it with my mom. Then at interval she bought me a bar-one...which I again shared with my mom. Sigh....I didn't mean to eat it....but I just couldn't say NO to her today.
Bad news verses Good news...
Bad news is...I ate it...Good news is...only half of each!!!
Monday starts my challenge and then I will have to take any "food" gifts and stash them till I can pass them on.
Time for me to turn in and sleep this nightmare away. Things always seem better in the light of day.
I will be thinking about Ray too and hoping his Dr doesn't have bad news for him either.
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