Sunday, June 19, 2011
Well, itís about time that I ďStart AgainĒ... My journey of becoming healthier and weighing less is not going very well lately . I focus on one area that needs to be worked on and another area falls apart. My juggling ability was never that good. I get *really* excited when I start working on a new area and it gets stronger and I learn something and things start getting better. Then inevitably my world falls apart when one of the weaker areas falls apart. It feels like Iíve failed again. Devastation sets in and it gets harder and harder to start again.
There has to be a solution...I turn myself into knots trying to think of some way to figure out a solution. All of a sudden the knots smooth out and I come up with an idea ó working on all the areas at one time. ďYeah sure! That will *never* work.Ē And yes, if I donít try it wonít ever work! So how do I get several areas all working at one time?
As I was thinking of a solution the picture of a spiral comes to mind. The spiral has a beginning and an end but unlike a circle it is open and ever expanding. Like a circle each time the spiral comes around to the ďstarting placeĒ it expands to the next level. I am in approximately the same place but with the knowledge and experience Iíve learned. Now, I am ready to expand to the next level.
Since the next level of a spiral isnít an ending and doesnít stop where the beginning was, there can be many ďstartingĒ points. With a spiral there is no need to juggle, when I feel secure, I can weave something else in and weaving gives stability. Getting out of balance only happens when I try to weave in more than a few things at the same time.
That gives a whole new meaning to starting over again. Iím not at the same place I was when I started the first time, or the second time, or the umpteenth time, I have the knowledge and experience I had when I started and I have the knowledge and experience I gained in each and every preceding cycle. I donít have to start over again, I only need to recommit, putting into practice what Iíve already learned.
Weaving more than a few strand in at a time will throw things off balance... you can see the bulge in the weave, but if I weave a few strands in at a time it will weave smoothly and balanced. For example I will spend several weeks adding in daily drinking 8 glasses of water until I feel balanced and comfortable. Next I may cut down on the amount of chocolate I eat until the lesser amount feels satisfying. Next I will add in 10 minute of exercise 3 days a week. I will probably have to do that particular one for a month or longer before I feel balanced or comfortable with that one. Exercise is one of my bug-a-boos. I have fibromyalgia and I can stop exercising in a half a heartbeat when Iím hurting.
This may seem to take me a lot longer than if I did it all at once as Iím wont to do, but from experience, that was the juggling method and not the spiral weaving method. The spiraling method may be slower, but it will be sure and stable and I will be building on success until it becomes natural and I will have reached my goal.
Iíve got the idea and the plan, now... can I follow through?