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I found the part of my brain that knows the truth

Friday, December 20, 2013

I got to walk with a friend today! That hasn't happened in months, and it was just random--she saw me out walking yesterday & asked if she could join me today. And I wasn't even planning to walk two days in a row!

I am not a big plan ahead, schedule kind of person. I should probably give that some thought. I could make a list of household things that need to be done that I just keep putting on the list in my head. But I won't call to make an appt. to get my brakes done, or go to the lab to get the bloodwork done this month, or several other things.

And my plans for better choices haven't happened on a regular basis either. I am just floating through life, letting it happen to me instead of taking charge. I'm thinking that eliminates my responsibility if I'm not actually making the choices.

That was a surprising thought to write down.....No responsibility for my choices. Is that what my brain is really thinking??? I have believed all my life that I am here on earth to make choices and learn from them, so I can become the best person I can be. And I certainly know that making no choice is just an illusion. Well, I'm not going to fall for that!

I'm taking charge of my life. I'm not floating any more, because that is just a lie. If I'm not moving in a positive direction, them I'm moving in a negative one and that's what my scale is telling me, although I've been discounting that fact as well.

Thank you to the part of my brain that was brave enough to face the facts! I support you!

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There is a plan inside my head somewhere

Sunday, December 15, 2013

Today is a good day to record some thoughts. I've been struggling with my eating choices for several months. There are several reasons all having to do with life. And its pointless to list them all, because even though they are different issues from a year ago, or 5 years ago, I'm still using the same old habits to deal with them.

I had a thought a few days ago, that since I started this journey 5 years ago, I have always gotten back on the right path after straying. So there is no reason to think that I can't do the same now. I just need to organize my thoughts, plan my actions, ask for help, and follow through.

And that's where the blogging comes in. Writing things down organizes my thoughts and helps me deal with all the naggy "feelings" that try to hijack my brain. I am through with that. I want to create my happiness through good choices. Eating to find happiness only leads to disappointment. I have to repeat that to myself over and over.

The other parts I am promising myself: making time for exercise every day, making time for prayer and scripture study every day, and focusing on discovering what I am really hungry for and satisfying that.

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WATERMELLEN 12/15/2013 11:03AM

    I so agree with you: the planning is key. If it's not in my house, I won't be tempted to eat it!! If I've pretracked yesterday what I'm going to eat today, it's already decided!!

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CHALLENGER15 12/15/2013 6:25AM

    Yes! You could have been me writing this!

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RENIESSPARKIN 12/15/2013 12:52AM

    You have inspired me! Thank you for sharing your insights. I'm going to 'borrow' a couple of your ideas--okay?

Best of luck to you and all of us, emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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Adding daily reminders to my life

Sunday, September 01, 2013

I just finished the latest BLC here on SparkPeople. It was my third round and the least successful if all you're measuring is pounds lost. I think it was valuable time spent learning about myself. Especially how I handle stress. But enough about the past, I am looking to the future.

I am setting daily and weekly goals. I am old-fashioned, so I got out my Spark Journal and made a chart to check them off:

Track food--that means record (I use SP for this) everything I eat
Record calorie total for the day--good, bad, or ugly, I own it
Record fitness minutes--I am committed to minimum 15 minutes when I first get up
Post scripture--every morning on FB w/my thoughts about the message
Job done--what extra task did I accomplish that day

That's for the first week, then in following weeks I plan to add more columns--tapping, gratitude, me time,blogging, mileage, who knows.

Its not exactly a 10 day challenge like I've done in the past, more just a daily reminder of what I need to do to reach my goals. My brain is so adept at distraction that without this I would be merrily going down some other path that leads away from my goal.

I am grateful for all my Spark friends and examples, as well as for my family for their support. Its a great day for Sparking!

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DAS92687 9/5/2013 9:24AM

I am an AVID "To Do List" person. (Please do NOT read OCD here emoticon) Just that without a good list, I tend to lose focus and not spend my time as wisely as I would like to.

I also read scripture in the morning - Great way to start the day. Sure keeps me centered and feeling like no matter what else happens today, it will all work out just fine.

And food logging - you have to OWN it!! Start using the Nutrition reports on Spark to see where you can improve. Look at them at the end of every week. They have some emoticon data tools here that can help you continuously improve !!

I also just posted a Weekend Challenge on the Chat Thread. Step on over and check it out.

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WATERMELLEN 9/1/2013 8:45PM

    The reminder thing works for me too . . . and like you I'm very grateful indeed for Spark people!!

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RUNNERRACHEL 9/1/2013 11:55AM

    Sometimes the mental work it's the most important and while we love to see more visible changes those are important, too. I had that happen this summer.

Good to plan ahead and set goals. It's helpful in helping achieve them! emoticon emoticon

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LILYGAL 9/1/2013 11:51AM

    Awesome blog!! Keep up the good work!!

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Time for Reflection--halfway through

Sunday, July 21, 2013

Looking back on the last six weeks, I see a lot of ups and downs instead of steady progress on my goals. A lot of it has to do with stress at work and vacation thinking. I had family visiting for a couple weeks, and even though all of my children are currently focused on health and nutrition, I thought I should take a vacation from healthy eating. Just ridiculous!

And my answer for stress at work is to go in earlier and come home later, leaving no time or energy for exercise. The unhappiness also makes it easy for me to turn to food for comfort.

I have spent most of 50 years hiding the truth from myself. I am done with hiding. I am successful when I draw on my inner strength, my mental and spiritual toughness. That is what I commit to do the next 6 weeks:

I will pray & meditate at the beginning of each day to make that daily commitment to be the best I can be and making choices to reach my long term goals.

I will be productive at work, and then leave the problems there, leaving time for exercise and ME time.

I will give myself positive self-talk every day for the good things I do.

I have the ability and skills I need to accomplish anything I want to do. And I want to have a strong and healthy body!!

Writing this blog is such a good way to focus. I really appreciate how I always get great feedback and support from my Spark Friends!

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MIAJOEB 8/1/2013 2:10PM

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DAS92687 7/23/2013 9:40PM

    Carolyn, A prayer at the start of the day helps me too.
And the evening pryaer goes like this ... 3 things:
What went well that I can be thankful for.
What went not particularly well, and how can I improve that next time.
What am I worried about tomorrow, and how can I give it over to God to help me.

Keep up your good habits. How about tracking a streak here on Spark under other goals?

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LIVEDAILY 7/22/2013 3:23PM

    Early on in my teaching career, I learned that despite my best intentions, if I brought work home with me, it would not get done. I learned to do what I needed to do at school, so that when I went home, it was "me" time. I've held on to that over the years. Yes, it occasionally makes for some long days at school (trust me, school teachers NEVER work 8-3, lol), but I don't have the specter of work hanging over my head once I get home.

So, a question for you: does going in to work earlier and staying later help with the stress at work, make it worse, or somewhere in between? If the stress is coming from the actual job, try to figure out how to work smarter, not harder. If the stress is coming from certain people at work, if you can, avoid them or distance yourself from them.

You ARE strong Carolyn!! You should give yourself a positive self talk every day! Oh..and LISTEN to yourself when you do it!!

The ups and downs will stop, and you will see progress!!

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RUNNERRACHEL 7/22/2013 1:33PM

    emoticon I think you're right on track for organizing your day, prioritizing what is important to you, what will help you be successful! This sounds like a great plan and I know you can accomplish what you set out to do! This summer I've also made it a priority to start out my day with prayer and it has made such a big difference. Still trying to get exercise done in the morning after quiet time. That is my next goal. Good for you for doing this. emoticon

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ELSAT137 7/22/2013 7:20AM

    Great Blog Carolyn! I'm sorry it has been a struggle this first part of the round but you still have 6 more weeks to turn things around!! And I know you can do it! Great plan. Take those small steps forward and focus on a healthy lifestyle, not a diet or losing weight. Good job on leaving the problems at work! I'll have to check in with you and make sure you are doing that!!!

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MAGGIEVAN 7/22/2013 12:11AM

    It is good to stop and take stock. I think you have done well by realising you are really, really in control. Good on you.

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Fitness test results and some thoughts

Wednesday, June 19, 2013

I did my fitness test this week, as requested by my team. Here are the results:

Push-ups: 29 in 1 min.
Squats: 28 in 1 min.
Crunches: 52 in 1 min.
Lunges: 29 in 1 min.
Bicep Curls: 27 in 1 min.

I think the numbers look pretty good. We'll see how I can improve them over the next few weeks.

The last few days I have been eating without thinking, and the scale reflects it. I will make better choices today. I will remember to believe that I am a daughter of God, that he loves me, and that I show love to myself when I turn away from food. Every time I seek his face instead, he will support me. I just have to ask.

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DAS92687 6/21/2013 7:52AM

Nice work on the reps !! Time to focus on good choices.
You CAN do it!! I love that you are sharing your trackers and posting to them.

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STEVEN_D 6/19/2013 10:39AM

    Nice numbers, i should go exercise! Keep up the great work!

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