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just not feelin' it tonight

Thursday, December 17, 2009

i don't feel good, and i'm grouchy, and i'm stressed... and frankly, i don't feel like dieting or eating well or any of that stuff tonight!! not feeling it at all.

instead of the chef meg recipe i brought for dinner, i want pepperoni pizza. with extra cheese and pan crust. right now! my mouth is watering just thinking about it.

i am totally craving soda. i'm on my second one right now. i think i'm coming down with a cold and the carbonation feels refreshing to me. and no, its not diet. because i am sick and tired of diet coke with cherry, which is all we have here at work. frankly, right now all i can think about is how sick and tired i am of watching what i eat emoticon emoticon

i am pissed at work and stuff going on here, i'm in the dumps about money and stuff at home, and i just wanna eat whatever the hell i want. emoticon

i want a big hershey bar. and chili cheese fries. and homemade mac and cheese. all my comfort foods. and i think i deserve a day to eat whatever the heck i want.

i'm done whining now. i guess i'll get back to work.

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RONNIEHUEY 12/20/2009 1:57PM

    Start over in a few days! This time of the year is hard on all of the adults out there. We worry about money,work and our families etc...Take it easy and you will get thru it!I promise ,things will look better in a week or so.

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MOONLITEPASSION 12/17/2009 11:09AM

    Hang in there! None of us can be perfect on our diet and sometimes you need to indulge but pick yourself up and move forward.

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LADYIRIS313 12/17/2009 2:58AM

    Awww.. when I don't feel well, or I'm tired, or stressed, I get really triggered too. If you blew it, don't worry .. just .. let it go. Success is not being 100% perfect all the time - that is unreasonable. Success is doing well 'most' of the time. Pamper yourself a bit, & know that tomorrow is another day. You can and will still keep your goals in mind, and 'treat' yourself with success. One grouchy, tired, sick, grumpy, craba-rific day does not make a life.

Rest well .. here's to a brighter tomorrow.

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JANTWO 12/17/2009 2:35AM

    We all have had those kind of days. Whether you give in or not, just keep in mind that you are worth all of the effort that you put into your weight loss. I will say that the junk food makes you feel terrible. Just take it one step at a time. I hope things get better for you and you can de-stress. emoticon

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TRACKMOM64 12/17/2009 12:14AM

    Despite how you currently feel you will feel much worse if you give in to your cravings for comfort foods. Hang in there you are worth it emoticon

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why i chose my spark people user name

Thursday, October 22, 2009

my username is easy-- ccso is the initials for where i work, and of course, i'm a girl. so there you have it. nothing special to say, i just wanted it to be different from my regular username on email and stuff.


omg..... i am soooooo hungry!!!

Sunday, October 18, 2009

i mean really, really hungry, all the damn time!! i am eating my calorie range every day, sometimes even over it!! and definitely getting enough fat, carbs, protein, fiber, and i drink tons of water!! ( so much that i'm up sometimes every two hours when i'm sleeping)

what gives!!???? if my body can't adjust already to this new eating plan, then i'm not going to make it....and i've already been on it about a month!! my tummy is literally GROWLING right now, and i'm up to midrange on my calorie scale. i would prefer to not eat anymore tonight. but sh*t, what am i supposed to do?????
i feel like i am just hungry hungry hippo like the game, gobbling everything in sight =(


HUH?? am i happy or sad??

Thursday, October 15, 2009

ok, so i have not worked out all week long, and i went over my calories yesterday. and i weighed myself today and i am back to 276, having gained back all my weight to the point i was at when i started here at spark.
what!!! i nearly cried. it felt so sh*tty. i could cry now writing about it!! i wavered back and forth in my head while getting ready for work tonight-- saying either "fine then, i give up, this sucks" and crying or saying "ok this is not going to kick my ass" and getting back on track.
i packed my lunch with a pragmatic attitude and walked in to work tonight on the cusp of opening the floodgates.
but then about a half hour ago, i measured myself, and i have shrunk!! i have lost ONE INCH on my thighs (totally amazing, my thighs are what made me finally decide i needed to change), a half inch on my arms (which are buffed, thanks) and a half inch off my waist!!


so glad!

Sunday, October 04, 2009

so glad everything worked out yesterday at the shower! no drama, no family stuff, just a good time! AND my girls did fine with a babysitter for the first time! they had fun! yay!!!!!


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