Thursday, December 17, 2009
i don't feel good, and i'm grouchy, and i'm stressed... and frankly, i don't feel like dieting or eating well or any of that stuff tonight!! not feeling it at all.
instead of the chef meg recipe i brought for dinner, i want pepperoni pizza. with extra cheese and pan crust. right now! my mouth is watering just thinking about it.
i am totally craving soda. i'm on my second one right now. i think i'm coming down with a cold and the carbonation feels refreshing to me. and no, its not diet. because i am sick and tired of diet coke with cherry, which is all we have here at work. frankly, right now all i can think about is how sick and tired i am of watching what i eat
i am pissed at work and stuff going on here, i'm in the dumps about money and stuff at home, and i just wanna eat whatever the hell i want.
i want a big hershey bar. and chili cheese fries. and homemade mac and cheese. all my comfort foods. and i think i deserve a day to eat whatever the heck i want.
i'm done whining now. i guess i'll get back to work.
Thursday, October 22, 2009
my username is easy-- ccso is the initials for where i work, and of course, i'm a girl. so there you have it. nothing special to say, i just wanted it to be different from my regular username on email and stuff.
Sunday, October 18, 2009
i mean really, really hungry, all the damn time!! i am eating my calorie range every day, sometimes even over it!! and definitely getting enough fat, carbs, protein, fiber, and i drink tons of water!! ( so much that i'm up sometimes every two hours when i'm sleeping)
what gives!!???? if my body can't adjust already to this new eating plan, then i'm not going to make it....and i've already been on it about a month!! my tummy is literally GROWLING right now, and i'm up to midrange on my calorie scale. i would prefer to not eat anymore tonight. but sh*t, what am i supposed to do?????
i feel like i am just hungry hungry hippo like the game, gobbling everything in sight =(
Thursday, October 15, 2009
ok, so i have not worked out all week long, and i went over my calories yesterday. and i weighed myself today and i am back to 276, having gained back all my weight to the point i was at when i started here at spark.
what!!! i nearly cried. it felt so sh*tty. i could cry now writing about it!! i wavered back and forth in my head while getting ready for work tonight-- saying either "fine then, i give up, this sucks" and crying or saying "ok this is not going to kick my ass" and getting back on track.
i packed my lunch with a pragmatic attitude and walked in to work tonight on the cusp of opening the floodgates.
but then about a half hour ago, i measured myself, and i have shrunk!! i have lost ONE INCH on my thighs (totally amazing, my thighs are what made me finally decide i needed to change), a half inch on my arms (which are buffed, thanks) and a half inch off my waist!!
SO WHAT GIVES?
Sunday, October 04, 2009
so glad everything worked out yesterday at the shower! no drama, no family stuff, just a good time! AND my girls did fine with a babysitter for the first time! they had fun! yay!!!!!
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