Friday, February 24, 2012
Where is yesterdays motivation? Date night was reality check night. My husband and I went to dinner early and realized the restaurant was not open yet. So, to kill time we went to the local park where to our surprise his daughter was at. We stopped and saw my almost 13 year old step daughter her brother and sister and my hubands ex-wife. We are all friendly to each other so there is never any animosity or anything like that. Unfortunately she had brought the kids to the park to take pictures with a new camera she had gotten. Yep. This is when reality check set in. My step daughter, Haleigh, wanted a picture with daddy and step mommy. I had no choice but to allow my husbands ex-wife snap a shot of us. Thank god I was dressed for date night and not looking like my usual funky self. Ugh pictures, yuck.
To make matter worse, we went back to the restaurant we were planning on eating at and they weren't open still. Come to find out they had a big catering job to do and would not be opening at all. Where I live is very small we have one place that is open for lunches only, one restaurant to sit down and eat at, one fast food place (Jack's), and a subway. With those options I decided to drive to the next town over and go to their only restaurant (a pizza place). I had a couple pieces of cheese bread and a slice of my personal pizza and then got nauseated. I love pizza, I don't know why it made me so sick. Weird,
Then it got worse. We got home and I laid down to try to get my bearings. I felt like I had sea legs. When my husband pointed out that his ex had posted the picture of us and tagged us in it on facebook. F---ing facebook. I wish that site would disappear. It's like a train wreck, I hate that it happened, but I keep going back to it. Here it is...
I feel so sorryfor Haleigh. Im so disgusting. So, I went to bed sad and depresssed. I got up at 6:30am and walked two miles. That will most likely be the extent of my work out today.
I have so much to do today. We are going to my brother in laws for the weekend. I have to pack everything up, load everything, pck up Haleigh and Michael (Haleighs brother whom my husband is like his father), and head out to a country weekend. Lol, yes I'm going even more country than I already live. Sticking to calorie intake and working out shall be interesting this weekend. We will see. I won't be on here this weekend because my brother in law is stuck in 1995 and does not have internet.
Hope everyone has a great weekend!
Thursday, February 23, 2012
Thursdays are my cheat day. This is because the hubby gets [aid today so we have a date night. Plus by this tie of the week the groceries are low, so I tend to meet him out for a quick lunch to get his pay check so I can go run errands. So, on thursdays I eat 3 meals out. Today is no different. Except I will be eating a healthy lunch at home. I love thursdays! Most of the tie I feel guilty about my indulgences but this week I've done such a good job of staying on task I do not feel that way.
Now given all of that I still workout on thursdays. Mostly because I know on Sundays I want the day off, so I tell myself I have to stay on the motivation train even though I am eating not as well as normal. Today's workout thus far was only one mile. Not nearly what I normally accomplish, but the day is still young. When I went walking I felt queasy and weak, so I stopped. Now my nauseated feeling has me wondering.
A little background...My husband and I got married in October. He is 36 and I will be 30 in a week. We have recently started trying to conceive. Okay, maybe not trying as hard as we should but more than before. I haven't gotten out a calendar or anything like that yet. It's only been two months. I was not on any type of birth control previously, due to family history of blood clots. Last month I was a week late for my monthly visitor and I thought for sure we got it right on our first round. I took several test that all came back negative. A friend of mine was convinced I was pregnant and the test were coming back negative because I drink such a high amount of water. I finally gave in and started to think she was right. Then my monthly visitor came and it upset me. I didn't think it would affect me in that way.
Today feeling the way I do I can't help but wonder. Is this it? Am I feeling sick and weak and tired because I'm pregnant? I don't want to get my hopes up, but I guess that happens naturally in this situation. I feel really positive although I only lost 1 pound this week. I feel like I can do it. But I'm just feeling icky.
The rest of my day will consist of running to the bank and post office and hopefully I will get some more cardio in. Although, it's looking unlikely. My cheat day menu: Breakfast: egg & cheese biscuit hash rounds and diet sunkist Lunch: turkey on wheat with light mayo sunchips and diet sunkist Dinner: a big cheeseburger salad and water with lemon. Yummy :) Can't wait to get that big burger. I rarely eat red meat, but today I look forward to it.
Wednesday, February 22, 2012
I love coming on here and getting inspiration. This website is my new addiction, now if only it could take over snacking! I havent snacked yet today, but I know its coming. I will end up snacking tonight. My worst hours are 7pm-9pm. Hopefully, I will not over do it. These past two days have been great. I really feel able and willing. Well, for the most part. Lol.
So far today I have done about half the workouts I need to do, got an oil change, grocery shopped, and made/delivered the hubby lunch. Now, I rest! At least for a little while anyway.
Tuesday, February 21, 2012
I am reminded of my short time goal. All I want right now is to be what I was on my wedding day. That was four and a half months ago and I only have 6 pounds to make it back to my weight. I am setting small goals for myself at a time. That way I can avoid the failure feeling. I have a great impowered feeling today. Which is great considering the past two days I did not work out and I ate bad. But today I know I can do this!
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