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Feeling Discouraged

Saturday, August 13, 2011

This happened to me a couple of weeks ago. I busted my butt and did well, not perfect, but well in the nutrition area. I admit I didn't go to the gym that week, but that really shouldn't have mattered. I should have lost a least a pound, but I didn't lose anything. This week, I have consistently eaten around 1200 calories(with the exception of the past couple of days because of feeling discouraged) but even when I ate above the 1200 calories the highest I ate was 1580 which for a 300 pound woman should still be considered great! But because I am tracking my weight each day to see how the fluctuations work, I have noticed I have not lost any weight. I had a huge weight loss last week of almost 5 lbs but I still remained consistent and nothing appears to be decreasing.

I don't usually weigh myself daily. I just started that about 2 weeks ago because I wanted to see how the fluctuations work and then after the first week, I noticed something interesting. The fluctuations didn't bother me at all until this week. Likely because I was losing weight everyday. This week there were a couple of days my weight increase. Since it is obviously bothering me to see that, I am going to give it one more week and see what happens and then I will go back to weighing myself weekly instead. I don't want to feel discouraged.

It is kind of good I get to see this now because I put myself on a strict 1200 calorie diet(I am calling it a diet because I didn't know what else to call it...this is a lifestyle change but when referring just to what I eat, I couldn't think of a better word) and I am wondering if maybe I am not eating enough. I know if you don't eat enough to cover all your activities over a period of time, you could stop losing weight because your body will hold on to it as a precaution. Seeing that as a possibility over a weeks time is better then waiting a couple of weeks of not losing any weight, so for that, I am grateful. But I will give it another week to see what happens. If I continue not to lose, I will increase my food to 1350 calories for a while and see what happens.

Tomorrow is my official weigh in and so we will see what happens and maybe I will drop 2 lbs over night, but I highly doubt that. I am going to the gym tonight and tomorrow night, I will continue to track my food and strive to remain under 1300 calories. I will do my best to burn the calories and just wait the week to see what happens. Maybe I am not losing weight this week, but maybe I have lost inches. Maybe my body refuses to do both at the same time. lol. We'll see. I will continue to remain consistent with few hiccups during my journey. I will do the best that I can and try not to stress about some of the roadblocks.

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DEELYNNE1 8/14/2011 7:57AM

    My experience pretty much parallels CANNIE50's: I lose weight better if I vary the calories and exercise a little. I have also noticed that I tend to lose pounds when I add strength training to my exercise routine (which is mostly cardio, I have to admit). I only did it on my doctor's advice because I have hypertension and had read that lifting weights was inadvisable for people with that condition, but she told me to stick with light weights and I've found her to be right, it does make the weight come off a little faster. Just wish it wasn't so boring; but that's just me! Hope this helps!

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BS2678 8/13/2011 5:00PM

  Hey don't be discouraged....but if I can offer you a suggestion....the amount of time you are worrying about if you lost a pound or not...instead use that moment to move. I say this to you because I have been there in your same shoes....I would sit and ponder why the scale wasn't moving and when it did I was like "finally" only to be disappointed the next day. So, now when I get the urge to get on the scale or sit and wonder why....or feel the need to snack....I get on the treadmill (if you don't have one....walk around the block. When I started doing that...I was preoccupied, I stopped snacking, and I was so thirsty that I ended up drinking water which helped me fulfill the 8 glasses that I needed. I hope this helps. I will tell you that to see real need both, diet and exercise. Good luck and join me as a workout buddy.

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CANNIE50 8/13/2011 4:58PM

    This is strictly my humble opinion, and based upon my experience, but I will share it with you and you can do with it what you will. The "steady Eddie" approach does not work for my body in terms of convincing it to let go of weight. I find if I vary my food intake from day to day, and change up my exercise week in and week out, I have better results. For example, I will eat 1500 calories one day, 1400 the next, 2200 another day, etc. In terms of exercise I will do 30 minutes one day, 2 hours the next, etc. I began SP weighing 193 lbs and I am committed to losing 50 lbs and I have 20 lbs to go. I simply cannot function well on 1200 calories. I need fuel to have energy, and I especially need protein to build muscle. I am not interested in thin, I strive for strong. When our bodies carry the burden of extra weight, whether it be dumbbells or body weight, they are under stress. They need proper fuel, adequate sleep, regular hydration, and some TLC. I am sorry you are discouraged but I don't know anyone who transforms their body who does not get discouraged. I find committment works better than motivation. Hang in there - you've got this. Take care.

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Week 6 and 17.8 lbs down

Sunday, August 07, 2011

So I busted my ass last week and reaped the rewards today. I got on the scale and lost 4.8 lbs this week. I know this is rare and may not happen again because I never lose this much on the journey. Only in the first week. But I am ecstatic. I am getting closer to my personal goal. My first goal was to lose 5% of my body weight in the first 4 weeks. I didn't do it in the first 4 weeks but I did in 6 weeks so that's still good. Now I am working on my second 5%. I have 13.4 lbs to go to be at 10%. I know losing those 13.4 lbs in the next 2 weeks in order to be one goal is going to be impossibly, but I am going to bust my ass anyway. Maybe I can lose it all in 3 weeks(still a dream, I do realize).

I was really proud of myself this week. I ate below 1299 calories each day except for Thursday which I totally blew my calorie intake and yesterday I went to 1354 calories. But I also burned 2943 calories at the gym. Would have been more but for some reason 24 hour fitness was closed last night when I tried to go. I am not going to be able to work out as much as I did this week because my son starts school so I just gotta focus on doing the exercised that burn the most calories in less time. I have decided that I will go to the gym 3 days and a week and do strength training 3 days a week. Then of course I will rest on the 7th day just like God. lol. Strength training I can do at home so that won't be a problem fitting in.

Wish me luck! My 4 year old starts kindergarten tomorrow and it's going to be the beginning of a whole new routine for us. I'm not really looking forward to it. I am a night owl but will have to start waking up earlier then usual to take him to school. It'll cut into my sleep, my exercise, my life. I am a Pisces so I am supposed to be flexible so let's hope the Pisces shows up in me and it's a smooth transition. I am still going to try to work on getting at least 7 hours sleep at night. I know I am supposed to get 8 but I figured I should first attempt at 7 which is closer to the usual 5-6 I get. It's more manageable and some time in the future I will strive for 8 hours sleep.

So on to the competition. I'm happy to report that both of my friends believe they did horrible this week and therefore did not weigh in. I am the only one who weighed in. Maybe this will give me some edge to beat them out and not only get caught up. As you may remember last week, I fell into last place in the competition with my friends. Then I lost the 4.8 lbs this week and they both believe they may have gained weight so I may have inched my way into the lead, but we won't know until next week. If my friend Shayna just gained 2 lbs I will be in the lead. My fingers are crossed. And yes, I know I shouldn't be hoping for a gain for my friends but this is a friendly competition and competition means wanting the other person/people to fail!

So here at the stats (I'm using their numbers from last week since there are no new numbers for them)

Shayna: 6.25%
Me: 5.58%
Vivien: 4.11%

I am going to Shayna's birthday party today. She has admitted to eating all morning, plans on grubbing all day and night and getting drunk. Calories, calories, calories! I will enjoy watching. I, myself, will be very cautious about what I eat and try to stay under 1299 calories. I am taking a fruit plate so that shouldn't be too difficult. But we'll see how I do later.

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    I think its great that you have some friendly competition and u don't necessarily have to hope for her to gain just hope to succeed more! I hope you all reach your goals. I just told my daughter one of the things I can't wait for is to be smaller than most of my friends. Most of them are overweight but not obese like myself and I look forward to the day I feel more in place. I hope your fisrt day of the new routine went smoothly. I have three kids two in school and this year will be a change for me since I will have to get my middle school child who sleeps like a rock out of bed and out the door an hour and fifteen minutes early. Lord help me. Have a great day :)

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Why does bad have to taste so damn good?

Friday, August 05, 2011

So yesterday we went to the Orange County fair. We did a lot of walking and a lot of standing. I'm sure I burned plenty of calories that I can't even count. I was worried I would eat terribly there because fairs aren't known for having healthy choices. I mean c'mon, they were selling Deep Fried Butter(eww), Chocolate covered corn dogs(eww), deep fried this, chocolate covered that. It was just all bad. So I went prepared. I brought plenty of water and healthy snacks. And when it came down to actually eating something other then a snack, we happened to be by a Hot Dog on a Stick. Score! At least it was a place I knew and could actually look up the nutrition data online. So while I was in line, I pulled up the nutrition data on my phone. A turkey cord dog was only 250 calories. Awesome! That's what I got. By this point, I was only at like 500-600 calories for the day and it was like 4-5 pm. I was doing great.

We left the fair at 7pm and decided to go to Denny's for dinner before heading home. Since I was so low on my calories for the day I decided to indulge in one of my weaknesses....the double cheese burger. Usually I cut it in half so I don't eat the whole 1400 calories and I did last night. But the other half just sat there in front of me and it wasn't long until I looked at my friend and sister and said, "Don't judge me. I am eating the other half." So I ate it all. And drank all the soda. And at all the fries. This brought me up to over 2700 calories for the day. Bad, bad, bad. If I balance it out between my 1200 calories days that I have had the rest of the week, it doesn't look too bad. Comes to about 1500 calories a day. But I wanted to stay at 1200 a day.

So we came home, I was super stuffed and I decided that since I overindulged then I would have to pay the price. After walking all day at the fair with the sun beating down on me, I went to the gym last night. I skipped the treadmill all together and forced myself to do the elliptical and bike all night. I wanted to do an hour but did 51 minutes instead. According to SP, I burned just over 1000 calories. I wanted to burn a whole 1400 calories to at least burn off the hamburgers calories. Since I didn't do it last night, that extra time will be spread over the next couple of nights.

Oh and while I am here, I will say that I have been weighing myself everyday to see just how my weight fluctuates . Well I noticed something interesting. I really only lose weight on Mondays, Tuesdays and Wednesdays. Whatever I am on Wednesday, I will be on my weigh day which is Sunday. I am going to continue to weigh myself daily to see if that is consistent for a couple more weeks but last week and this week appears to be the same. I lost 4 lbs over Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday, but remain the same weight on Thursday and Friday. So we'll see. I wouldn't mind losing another 2 lbs by Sunday. It would bring my much closer to my goal otherwise I am going to remain a week behind for a while now.

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BUTEAFULL 8/7/2011 11:26AM's not an every day occurrence, and you HAVE been losing wt so we'll let it slide

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SHERYL_B 8/5/2011 3:28PM

    Congrats on being aware of the balancing out over time of the calories - both burned and eaten.

Your weigh in observation is interesting. I wonder how that will turn out.

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Week 5 and down 12.8lbs

Wednesday, August 03, 2011

I just realized while reading other motivational blogs that I didn't blog this week about my weigh in. I was quite disappointed in my weight loss. I lost 1.4lbs and really I know that is great for one week, but since I didn't lose anything last week and thought it was because of my period, I was expecting a larger weight loss. So I felt negative about it all day on Sunday. I even skipped going to the gym Sunday because it felt pointless.

However, I am happy to report that Monday was completely different. Because of not losing any weight last week and only losing a small amount this week, I have fallen into last place in the competition with my friends. That makes me angry. That makes me motivated. I started thinking Monday about one of my spark friends blogs that I had read. It said, and I quote, "I never regret going to the gym, but I always regret not going." I have been quoting this to myself all day yesterday and today. And I will continue to repeat it to myself whenever I feel like saying "screw it" and not going to the gym.

Also, I have revamped my daily goals. While I was being a little lenient on my calorie intake and trying to remain around 1500 calories, I have decided that if I am going to win this competition and really change my lifestyle, I need to be more strict. So now my goal is to not go above 1299 calories a day. I need to shrink my stomach so that a sandwich fills me up. I need to rethink my portions of food. I need to control my food addiction. Today will be the third day I have eaten below 1299 and I am not hungry. And I wasn't hungry yesterday or the day before. I can survive on 1299. I want 1500-1600 calories to be a splurge to me.

I am going to get back in this competition with my friends and damn it, I am going to win. I am too stubborn, too strong willed and too damn determined to lose. I refuse to let my best friend beat me! Mark my words. Come November 20th, I will be posting a blog about how I won this competition!

Shayna: 6.25%
Vivien: 4.11%
Me: 4.01%

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Week 4 and a possible gain

Sunday, July 24, 2011

So depending on what weight you looked at for my weight last week, I either gained 0.8 lbs or stayed the same. Since I logged my weight at 306.2, technically I gained 0.8 lbs. However, before I weighed in at 306.2 lbs, earlier in the morning, I had weighed in at 307 lbs and that is just what I was this morning. So it could go either way. None of that is important though, because my personal goal was to be at 302 this morning and I wasn't. I didn't make my 5% weight loss that I wanted to these first 4 weeks. I had a bad week and ate above my personally chosen calorie range. I still ate below the sparkpeople calorie range, but I have my own goals. I also didn't go to the gym at all and it's that time of the month. So I am just happy I didn't show a real weight gain. Since I weighed in at 307, I figure I am still about the same I was last week. Now it's time to buckle down and eat low in calories and go to the gym to try to make up for the weight I didn't lose this past week. And I'm gonna do it. Especially if I remained the same due to water retention or whatever else biologically is off due to my period, hopefully I can show a great weight loss next week and be back on track.

As for the competition with my friends, I believe I am still in the 2nd place. Since I didn't lose any weight this week and possibly gained, I am at 3.64% while my friend Shayna lost a total of 5% of her weight in the first 4 weeks. That was my personal goal for myself. Vivien hasn't weighed in for whatever reason, so it's hard to know exactly where she is, but I doubt she pulled ahead of me percentage wise.

Me: 3.64%
Shayna: 5%
Vivien: ?

On another quick note, here is something interesting. If you look at my previous blogs from when I first started SP and lost 50 lbs, my fourth week I did badly as well. So badly I skipped my weigh in. And if it weren't for this competition, I would have skipped my weigh in this morning too. I just think it is funny that I did horribly the fourth week last time and this time as well. Maybe a few weeks after getting started, I just need a mental break in order to build myself up again. I still tracked all my food. Every last morsel that went into my mouth. And though I saw the total calories for each day increasing, I didn't say "Screw it. I've already done bad today, I might as well just end the day with a bang." Nope, I still tried to make healthy choices even if it was taking me higher then I wanted to be. For example, on Thursday, I was already at like 1800 calories for the day. I went out to do karaoke with some friends and they wanted to go to Denny's afterwards. Part of my mind was telling me, "Get the burger. You already ate too much today anyway. Start fresh tomorrow." Instead of listening to that food addicted side of my mind, I ordered off the nutrition fact menu they have. I looked for the lowest caloried foods they have for the Build Your Own Grand Slam and chose the foods with the lowest calories. That is a proud moment for me, especially since I absolutely adore their double cheese burgers which are 1400 calories alone. Instead of giving in to myself, I still ate sensibly and enjoyed my evening.

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CHERN009 7/24/2011 4:39PM

    It is all about progress and not perfection. Progress comes in many forms, it can be mental or physical, so great job on realizing the progress you have made. emoticon

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