Sunday, August 14, 2011
So I did end up losing this week after all. I lost 1.8 lbs. I hit a milestone of being under 300lbs and weighed in at 299. Woo-freaking-hoo. I am so behind on my personal goal and wanted to be down 30 lbs by the end of august but now I have 2 weeks to lose 11lbs. Not going to happen. I did really well this week and should have lost more then 1.8lbs. I keep telling myself that really, I have lost 6.6lbs in 2 weeks. If I take the average, that is 3.3lbs each week. That is really good. But since I didn't lose anything a few weeks ago, it has really screwed up my goal.
I'm just venting. I need to express myself so that I don't do anything stupid like give up and pig out or fall off the wagon. So instead I am venting.
Now on to some good news that I am actually happy about and will not be complaining about. While I haven't pulled ahead in the competition, I have gotten much closer to the lead. Here are the percentages at this point:
Shayna didn't lose any weight this week and had skipped weigh in last week in which she may have gained and then lost this week, but we don't know. So she is exactly where she was 2 weeks ago. Vivien skips weigh in often and skipped this week so I am using last weeks percentage. But as you can see, I have gotten much closer to first place. I am determined to take the lead. If I had lost an extra pound this week, I would have taken the lead...or if I had lost 0.4 of a lb, I would have still taken the lead but only by a very slight amount. So now I know what I need to do to take the lead and damn it, I am going to do it.
This week I ate great until I started feeling discouraged. But even then, I never went above 1600 calories so it was still really good. But I had been putting myself on 1200 calories diet and when I posted my blog yesterday somebody responded saying that I may need to confuse my body by changing up the number of calories each day. I think I am going to try that this week and see what happens. Because of my new routine with having to get up early and take my son to school, it has really left me feeling exhausted in the evening and therefore I only made it to the gym once this past week. I am going to work extra hard this week to make it at least 3 times this week even if it is just for 30 minutes. I am going tonight no matter what. Then I can go on Wednesday and then either Friday or Saturday. Most likely Friday because I have a swimming party to go to on Saturday in which case, I will swim laps and tread a lot of water to burn more calories.
So here we go for a new week. I know I can do this and take the lead next weight in. I am determined, strong, capable and most of all, too damn stubborn to lose. To also give myself some more motivation, I changed my computer background and screen saver to motivational sayings and pictures so that way I have a constant reminder of why I am doing this.
So here is to a new week and good week. No giving up. No quitting. And most of all, no more feeling discouraged!
Saturday, August 13, 2011
This happened to me a couple of weeks ago. I busted my butt and did well, not perfect, but well in the nutrition area. I admit I didn't go to the gym that week, but that really shouldn't have mattered. I should have lost a least a pound, but I didn't lose anything. This week, I have consistently eaten around 1200 calories(with the exception of the past couple of days because of feeling discouraged) but even when I ate above the 1200 calories the highest I ate was 1580 which for a 300 pound woman should still be considered great! But because I am tracking my weight each day to see how the fluctuations work, I have noticed I have not lost any weight. I had a huge weight loss last week of almost 5 lbs but I still remained consistent and nothing appears to be decreasing.
I don't usually weigh myself daily. I just started that about 2 weeks ago because I wanted to see how the fluctuations work and then after the first week, I noticed something interesting. The fluctuations didn't bother me at all until this week. Likely because I was losing weight everyday. This week there were a couple of days my weight increase. Since it is obviously bothering me to see that, I am going to give it one more week and see what happens and then I will go back to weighing myself weekly instead. I don't want to feel discouraged.
It is kind of good I get to see this now because I put myself on a strict 1200 calorie diet(I am calling it a diet because I didn't know what else to call it...this is a lifestyle change but when referring just to what I eat, I couldn't think of a better word) and I am wondering if maybe I am not eating enough. I know if you don't eat enough to cover all your activities over a period of time, you could stop losing weight because your body will hold on to it as a precaution. Seeing that as a possibility over a weeks time is better then waiting a couple of weeks of not losing any weight, so for that, I am grateful. But I will give it another week to see what happens. If I continue not to lose, I will increase my food to 1350 calories for a while and see what happens.
Tomorrow is my official weigh in and so we will see what happens and maybe I will drop 2 lbs over night, but I highly doubt that. I am going to the gym tonight and tomorrow night, I will continue to track my food and strive to remain under 1300 calories. I will do my best to burn the calories and just wait the week to see what happens. Maybe I am not losing weight this week, but maybe I have lost inches. Maybe my body refuses to do both at the same time. lol. We'll see. I will continue to remain consistent with few hiccups during my journey. I will do the best that I can and try not to stress about some of the roadblocks.
Sunday, August 07, 2011
So I busted my ass last week and reaped the rewards today. I got on the scale and lost 4.8 lbs this week. I know this is rare and may not happen again because I never lose this much on the journey. Only in the first week. But I am ecstatic. I am getting closer to my personal goal. My first goal was to lose 5% of my body weight in the first 4 weeks. I didn't do it in the first 4 weeks but I did in 6 weeks so that's still good. Now I am working on my second 5%. I have 13.4 lbs to go to be at 10%. I know losing those 13.4 lbs in the next 2 weeks in order to be one goal is going to be impossibly, but I am going to bust my ass anyway. Maybe I can lose it all in 3 weeks(still a dream, I do realize).
I was really proud of myself this week. I ate below 1299 calories each day except for Thursday which I totally blew my calorie intake and yesterday I went to 1354 calories. But I also burned 2943 calories at the gym. Would have been more but for some reason 24 hour fitness was closed last night when I tried to go. I am not going to be able to work out as much as I did this week because my son starts school so I just gotta focus on doing the exercised that burn the most calories in less time. I have decided that I will go to the gym 3 days and a week and do strength training 3 days a week. Then of course I will rest on the 7th day just like God. lol. Strength training I can do at home so that won't be a problem fitting in.
Wish me luck! My 4 year old starts kindergarten tomorrow and it's going to be the beginning of a whole new routine for us. I'm not really looking forward to it. I am a night owl but will have to start waking up earlier then usual to take him to school. It'll cut into my sleep, my exercise, my life. I am a Pisces so I am supposed to be flexible so let's hope the Pisces shows up in me and it's a smooth transition. I am still going to try to work on getting at least 7 hours sleep at night. I know I am supposed to get 8 but I figured I should first attempt at 7 which is closer to the usual 5-6 I get. It's more manageable and some time in the future I will strive for 8 hours sleep.
So on to the competition. I'm happy to report that both of my friends believe they did horrible this week and therefore did not weigh in. I am the only one who weighed in. Maybe this will give me some edge to beat them out and not only get caught up. As you may remember last week, I fell into last place in the competition with my friends. Then I lost the 4.8 lbs this week and they both believe they may have gained weight so I may have inched my way into the lead, but we won't know until next week. If my friend Shayna just gained 2 lbs I will be in the lead. My fingers are crossed. And yes, I know I shouldn't be hoping for a gain for my friends but this is a friendly competition and competition means wanting the other person/people to fail!
So here at the stats (I'm using their numbers from last week since there are no new numbers for them)
I am going to Shayna's birthday party today. She has admitted to eating all morning, plans on grubbing all day and night and getting drunk. Calories, calories, calories! I will enjoy watching. I, myself, will be very cautious about what I eat and try to stay under 1299 calories. I am taking a fruit plate so that shouldn't be too difficult. But we'll see how I do later.
Friday, August 05, 2011
So yesterday we went to the Orange County fair. We did a lot of walking and a lot of standing. I'm sure I burned plenty of calories that I can't even count. I was worried I would eat terribly there because fairs aren't known for having healthy choices. I mean c'mon, they were selling Deep Fried Butter(eww), Chocolate covered corn dogs(eww), deep fried this, chocolate covered that. It was just all bad. So I went prepared. I brought plenty of water and healthy snacks. And when it came down to actually eating something other then a snack, we happened to be by a Hot Dog on a Stick. Score! At least it was a place I knew and could actually look up the nutrition data online. So while I was in line, I pulled up the nutrition data on my phone. A turkey cord dog was only 250 calories. Awesome! That's what I got. By this point, I was only at like 500-600 calories for the day and it was like 4-5 pm. I was doing great.
We left the fair at 7pm and decided to go to Denny's for dinner before heading home. Since I was so low on my calories for the day I decided to indulge in one of my weaknesses....the double cheese burger. Usually I cut it in half so I don't eat the whole 1400 calories and I did last night. But the other half just sat there in front of me and it wasn't long until I looked at my friend and sister and said, "Don't judge me. I am eating the other half." So I ate it all. And drank all the soda. And at all the fries. This brought me up to over 2700 calories for the day. Bad, bad, bad. If I balance it out between my 1200 calories days that I have had the rest of the week, it doesn't look too bad. Comes to about 1500 calories a day. But I wanted to stay at 1200 a day.
So we came home, I was super stuffed and I decided that since I overindulged then I would have to pay the price. After walking all day at the fair with the sun beating down on me, I went to the gym last night. I skipped the treadmill all together and forced myself to do the elliptical and bike all night. I wanted to do an hour but did 51 minutes instead. According to SP, I burned just over 1000 calories. I wanted to burn a whole 1400 calories to at least burn off the hamburgers calories. Since I didn't do it last night, that extra time will be spread over the next couple of nights.
Oh and while I am here, I will say that I have been weighing myself everyday to see just how my weight fluctuates . Well I noticed something interesting. I really only lose weight on Mondays, Tuesdays and Wednesdays. Whatever I am on Wednesday, I will be on my weigh day which is Sunday. I am going to continue to weigh myself daily to see if that is consistent for a couple more weeks but last week and this week appears to be the same. I lost 4 lbs over Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday, but remain the same weight on Thursday and Friday. So we'll see. I wouldn't mind losing another 2 lbs by Sunday. It would bring my much closer to my goal otherwise I am going to remain a week behind for a while now.
Wednesday, August 03, 2011
I just realized while reading other motivational blogs that I didn't blog this week about my weigh in. I was quite disappointed in my weight loss. I lost 1.4lbs and really I know that is great for one week, but since I didn't lose anything last week and thought it was because of my period, I was expecting a larger weight loss. So I felt negative about it all day on Sunday. I even skipped going to the gym Sunday because it felt pointless.
However, I am happy to report that Monday was completely different. Because of not losing any weight last week and only losing a small amount this week, I have fallen into last place in the competition with my friends. That makes me angry. That makes me motivated. I started thinking Monday about one of my spark friends blogs that I had read. It said, and I quote, "I never regret going to the gym, but I always regret not going." I have been quoting this to myself all day yesterday and today. And I will continue to repeat it to myself whenever I feel like saying "screw it" and not going to the gym.
Also, I have revamped my daily goals. While I was being a little lenient on my calorie intake and trying to remain around 1500 calories, I have decided that if I am going to win this competition and really change my lifestyle, I need to be more strict. So now my goal is to not go above 1299 calories a day. I need to shrink my stomach so that a sandwich fills me up. I need to rethink my portions of food. I need to control my food addiction. Today will be the third day I have eaten below 1299 and I am not hungry. And I wasn't hungry yesterday or the day before. I can survive on 1299. I want 1500-1600 calories to be a splurge to me.
I am going to get back in this competition with my friends and damn it, I am going to win. I am too stubborn, too strong willed and too damn determined to lose. I refuse to let my best friend beat me! Mark my words. Come November 20th, I will be posting a blog about how I won this competition!
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