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Starting Over

Sunday, August 03, 2008

I am back, yet again. I don't know my exact weight because I forgot to weigh in this morning, but will weigh in tomorrow and be back to log it. I am hoping I didn't gain back every single pound that I lost, and especially no extras on top of those, but if I did, I deserve it. I guess we will find out tomorrow.

I was on here for 5 months, starting August 22nd, 2007 and had lost 50 pounds by January 31st. I became really sick in December, just before Christmas, that lasted for 2 months. I was unable to exercise and either didn't eat for days or ate a bunch for days to make up for not eating. I missed my son's second Christmas because I simply could not get out of bed. After a couple of weeks, I was able to get up and get moving, but I still could not exercise because I would end up hacking up a lung if I exerted myself. I still tried to track my food most days, and continued to lose weight, even though I couldn't exercise, but getting out of the habit I was in during those weeks of being sick, just blew it for me. I lost all motivation, all my committment, everything and kept trying desperately to get back on the wagon, but couldn't.

Then I lost my job, and didn't have a set schedule everyday, made it very difficult to get back on. I just couldn't re-commit myself. I let it all go until now.

Now, I am back and slightly motivated. The one thing I learned last time around was that I can not rely on motivation to lose weight because motivation will come and go. I have to commit myself and that is what I am doing.

I want to lose weight for myself, for my son, but most of all, I want to be healthy. I want to be around for a long time. I want to be active. I want to go to amusement parks, water parks, the beach, bike riding, hiking, mountain climbing, etc. I want to do all these things, and while I can do most, I can't make the most out of it all with this weight.

So here is to a second chance!

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BONMACK 8/3/2008 9:49PM

    Good for you! I think you're approaching it exactly in the right know, this is just nothing more than a daily re-commit, for me. As mush as I want to lose the weight, you're right, the motivation just comes and goes, and eventually, we have to set aside our 'emotional' selves and just knuckle down and do what we know we need to do, whether we feel like it that particular day or not. So kudos to you for coming to this've got the winning attitude now! YOU GO GIRL! emoticon

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22 Weeks in and 49.8 Pounds down

Thursday, January 31, 2008

I missed last weeks blog, so this is two blogs in one.

Last week, I lost only 0.2 pounds and this week I lost 2.8 pounds bringing me to a total of 49.8 pounds lost total. In just 22 weeks. Next week I will be at 50 pounds lost total! I can't wait.

I really don't even know how I lost that much weight. I did absolutely horrible this week. I allowed myself to eat anything and everything and however much I wanted, most of the time without even logging my food. I usually paid the price of eating too much with a stomach ache, but I was still very aware of what I was eating and how much. I didn't exercise. I guess in a way, I needed a small break from tracking and worrying about losing weight. I expected a gain and even welcomed one. I accepted it. I was still happy.

Today I am starting a bet with my best friend. It will cost the loser( or the person who isn't the biggest loser) 50 bucks. It's sort of like the show biggest loser. Whoever loses the biggest body weight percentage wins. I am counting calories and she is counting carbs. She wants to see which one works, but overall, we both just want to lose weight and be healthy. This is really good for me. I always work better when I am competing against someone. I am very competitive. When I first joined SP, I was competing with my friends husband until Christmas day to see who could lose the most weight. It turned out he gave up and I won, but we never officially set down the rules or what the winner gets, so I didn't win anything except having lost the most weight. My best friend actually made me write up a contract. Today is the beginning date and it ends 20 weeks from today on June 18th. I really don't want to have to pay her 50 bucks but at the same time, I can't stand the idea of her paying me either because neither of us can afford it. But it's a great motivator. Her starting weight is 203 and mine is 251.2.

Keep checking back to see how I am doing. I'll post both our weight loss stats on here. Wish me luck!

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BLONDEGIRL10 2/2/2008 8:00PM

    Congratulations on your 49.8 pounds down!!! WooHoo! That is awesome! Keep it up!

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DEEDLEBUG64 1/31/2008 4:08PM

    Good luck! You have alot of support her. Keep us informed.


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20 Weeks in and I gained 1.6 pounds

Friday, January 11, 2008

I did horrible this week apparently. I gained 1.6 pounds. No worries. I am starting all over again and next week I will definitely have a loss. Luckily it's warming up here so I am going to start taking my son for walks again. Hopefully I will be able to go walking every night again. I feel like I have to start all over from scratch with the exercise portion, seeing as how I haven't exercised in 4 weeks. Hopefully this time around, the walking will be enough just like last time.

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NAN71486 1/22/2008 6:42PM

    Cindi, you can do it. Maybe you just needed a break. We miss you on Lose 25 Pounds. Come home! LOL


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19 Weeks In and 45.6 Pounds Down

Friday, January 04, 2008

I weighed myself this week, after only logging my food and no exercise to find that I had lost 3.4 pounds bringing me to a total of 45.6 pounds lost since August 22nd, 2007. This has been such a wonderful way to start off the new year. I plan to keep at it, even when the weight loss slows because I know I deserve it.

I was talking to an associat at work today and had stated that even though I do not notice the weight loss myself, it is still great to see the scale say a much lower number than when I started. 301 was such a high number to see on the scale, that seeing the scale say 255.4 this week was absolutely great.

My manager use to be over weight. She use to weigh 225 pounds, but over the course of 1-2 years, she lost 75 pounds and now weighs between 150 and 155. Now, to be perfectly honest, I am not very fond of her body, but at the same time it may be because she chooses to wear clothes that aren't very flattering. However, I don't know what weight I would be happy at because I have never weighed a normal amount, and seeing her (she is thin) at 150 makes me believe that I might be happy at 150. She also stated that she can not seem to get lower than 150 (probably because she doesn't eat very healthy most of the time). Even so, I now believe that I may even be happy a little heavier than 150. I know all of our bodies work differently, but I look forward to see how my body will look as I begin to lose more weight.


Before and During Pictures

Monday, December 31, 2007

If you look in my photo gallery, you can see that I have taken before pictures. The clothes I am wearing in those pictures, I have not tried on until tonight. I was a big happy, but more disappointed then anything because the clothes weren't as loose as I had hoped. Granted, the pants fit me much better now then they did at the time I took the pictures, but they aren't as loose as I thought they would be almost 50 pounds lighter.

No biggie. I am going to keep trying to lose weight and maybe after another 4 months, they will be too loose to wear. One can hope, can't they?

I will post the pictures as soon as I find the cord to upload the pics onto my computer, but I must say, I compared them already myself and there really isn't a big difference, so I may not post them and just wait for a while longer.

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DEEDLEBUG64 1/2/2008 10:59AM

    Happy New Year! With the pictures you may not see a difference but I am sure when you put them up or when people see you that they notice the weight loss. You have been doing so well you should be proud of yourself. When it comes to the clothes you would be amazed at how tight some of us where our clothes and where we bulged in places. I bet you that your clothes really fit alot more different than what you think. I know that I am so hard on myself and it seems like you are the same. You are doing fantastic don't get down on yourself. I can't wait to see the pictures. Take care of yourself.

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