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18 Weeks In and 42.2 Pounds Down

Saturday, December 29, 2007

I'v e been sick for the past week and a half. I did horrible on tracking my food and not exercising. I seriously haven't exercised since I got sick. Well, I got on the scale this week and showed a 5 pound loss. I couldn't believe it. I literally didn't track any thing I ate for 3 days this week and didn't do anything for exercise but still lost a big amount of weight. I don't know if I am going to show a gain next week, to level out this big weight loss, and I hope I don't, but if I do, I know it will be just level it off. I am getting my appetite back and am back to tracking, although I am still not exercising because I still don't have the energy to do so, but next week, I will definitely be happy with a small loss.

Losing these 5 pounds was a big deal for me because I was getting disappointed about not being close to my goal of being down to 250 by Christmas. This weeks loss brought me down to the 250s which was more than I could ask for. I was really ecstatic. I still am.

On one of my teams, we started a new goal which is to lose 25 pounds by April Fools day. April 1st, 2008. I know I can do and when I do, I will be down to 233.8. My main goal is to be down to 243 by my birthday which is March 6th and I know I can do that too. I am only 15.8 pounds away from that. I can make that goal and surpass it. Wish me luck! I am off to a new start!


17 Weeks in and 37.2 Pounds Down

Thursday, December 20, 2007

I am copying and pasting most of this blog from a post I made in one of my groups.

I didn't do so well this week. Not only have I totally lost my motivation, but I seem to have lost most of my committment and determination as well. I have done absolutely horrible this week. Eating way over my limit and haven't exercised at all this past week. Every day I say, "Tomorrow is a new day. I will do better." And I don't. I will literally sit there and know I am already over my calories and not hungry, but still eat and just shrug my shoulders, like it really doesn't matter.

It's funny. Just a week or two ago, I was thinking about moving on to stage 3 of the spark diet and today, I moved myself back to stage 1. I need to start over again. Somewhere along the way, this past month or so, I have lost focus. It's time to start again with a new lease.

It hasn't been as cold lately at night, so I might start taking my son for walks again until it starts getting really cold again. I've started my new goal which is to be down to 243 by March 6th, my birthday. That will be 20% of my body weight from the time I started. But really, my goal is to be between 240-250. This time around, I know I shouldn't set a specific weight to reach because things come up and sometimes the scale doesn't always work out in our favor, so I am giving myself some room to play with.

Regardless of how I feel about my first goal not being met, which was to be down to 250 by christmas, I still did awesome. I am pretty much just saying this to myself, to put a positive turn on things. I reached our goal for one of my groups named Lose 25 Pounds by a Specific Date, which was to lose 25 lbs by christmas. Not only did I reach it, I exceeded it and that is great!

But what I can't feel that way? Why can't I be happy about that? I guess, just because I am losing weight and thought I have been changing my lifestyle, I really haven't. Isn't our mindframe and way of thinking suppose to change with our lifestyle? I've been at this for 4 months and my way of thinking hasn't changed in the least. Does that mean I haven't really made any progress? Yes, some weight came off, but am I treating this as just another fad diet? That even if I lost all the weight, I would still be a part of the 95% that gains the weight back in a year? How do I change that or how do I work on changing that? How do I change the odds to be in my favor? Anyone know the answer or are we all here, seeking that answer?

I'll end this with another positive which is that I lost 0.2 pounds this week. Not fantastic, but still great considering how horrible of a week I had. Now it's time to start all over! Here I go, once again....

  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

DEEDLEBUG64 12/20/2007 1:12PM

    Hey you. I have been going through the same identical thing. I thought I was the only one going through this right now. I have gained 1.3 lbs this week though. I thought I was just failing. But after reading your blog I think we can do this as long as we do it together. I have noticed that alot of people are not posting right now with being so busy and all but I think if we keep in contact with each other we will make this. We just have tto realize that we don't have anything to hide from one another. If we fall down we tell the other and we get the help that we need to succeed. I am here for you. Let me know what I can do for you.


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SHIRLEYX 12/20/2007 10:31AM

    Hang in there. I think that you have done fantastic. The holidays are really hard for us, but eventually they will be over. Is there anyway you can go to a spa and have something done, even something little (eyebrow waxing is really cheap up here $15). Maybe you just need to reward yourself and pamper yourself just to recognize the great job you've done so far.

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16 Weeks in and 37 pounds down

Sunday, December 16, 2007

I just completed my 16th week and lost a total of 37 pounds. I lost 2 pounds this week. However, I was very very unhappy. I worked so hard this week. Did extra good and it didn't show up. I didn't reaslize how disappointed I was until, it appeared, subconsciously, I gave up. I quit tracking my food, for the most part, I haven't exercised in days and don't even think about exercising, I just overall, don't really care.

This is bad. I don't want to give up. 2 pounds is soooo very good. Why can't I get that through my thick skull? Why is that so hard to understand and accept, that that is a very good amount to lose and a very healthy amount to lose. Why do I want to lose the weight quickly even though at the same time I am afraid to? Maybe because I am aftaid I am going to give up. But here I am about to give up regardless. What is wrong with me?

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IAMTHEPRINCESS 12/18/2007 9:15PM

    Cindy, I know how you feel. I so wanted to be at a forty pound loss by Christmas. The losses slowed down for a while and my goal is not going to be met. I was so disappointed. I had wanted my husband's whole family to notice when we saw them during the holidays. I'm afraid not one of them will see any difference. But I'm not going to let it stop me. I'm doing this for me, not for them. I shouldn't feel discouraged by losing 31 pounds, but it still feels like I failed because I didn't hit 40 pounds. I read an article on Spark about how you should only set goals of 10 percent and when you reach that, set a goal of 10 percent of your new weight. Ten percent is a much more attainable goal than looking at the whole big picture. Just think of how much better you feel by losing 37 pounds. You have done an amazing job and you are worth the time and effort you have put into this!

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ASETHI17 12/16/2007 3:55PM

  hi there, i know what you're going through. same thing happened to me. a word of advice: don't let it go! i lost it, and hoping to get back soon now. get through it and another week will go by... you'll loose it eventually.

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15 Weeks In and 35 Pounds Down

Thursday, December 06, 2007

I got on the scale this morning and found that I had lost 1.6 pounds again this week. I am very happy that even though I am not exercising everyday and only eating "a normal amount" that I am still losing weight. Now I just got to get it in my head that even though I am not losing 3-4 pounds a week, I am still losing weight. I know it is important to live life now just as I would when I reach my goal, but I can't help thinking, "Well, I can eat and live like I am on a diet and lose weight quicker and then when I reach my goal, I can live and eat like a skinny person." Ha Ha. I know that can't happen. I know I need to do now what I will be doing to maintain my weight loss. I just wish I could be more happy about losing a big 1.6 pounds, as I am when I lose 3-4 pounds in a week.

Quite frankly, I do not want to spend every waking moment thinking about how many calories I am eating or burning. I don't want to spend every waking moment exercising, just to show a big weight loss at the end of the week. I really don't. What kind of life is that to live? This past week, I have eaten between 1200-1800 calories and exercised only 4 days and still lost weight. It wasn't a huge amount that we all want, but I still lost weight. That is the point. This week was easy. I didn't think I would show a weight loss because I didn't push myself to exercise more or make myself go to bed hungry because I only wanted to eat 1200 calories every day this week. I ate what I wanted, when I wanted and was comfortable with that. Happy with that. Yes, I did have to force myself to exercise, because we need exercise, fat or skinny, young or old. It's just a simple fact of life. No matter what, you gotta exercise, even if it is just a few days a week.

I think this past week was a very good example of the life I will be living once I reach my goal and begin to maintain my weight life and you know what, I was comfortable and happy with it. This week has showed me that even though it may take me longer to reach my end goal weight(which I stil don't quite know what that is), I can do it.

I know we all have the fear of reaching our goal weight and then wondering, "what do I do now?" This week showed me what I will be doing and showed me that I can do it. I believe, this past week, just in itself, has made the fear subside. I am grateful for that. Fear is the biggest motivator to quit and I no longer have that motivator nagging at me. That fear being gone has given me one more reacon to continue my weight loss journey.

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IAMTHEPRINCESS 12/9/2007 10:55AM

    I think you are doing great Cindi. I had a week pretty much like you. I lived! I took my son out 'on a date' and ate pizza and onion rings. Most of all, I ate well stayed towards the middle of my calorie range and only exercised a little. But I lived life and enjoyed myself with my kids. That is what this is all about. Don't stop living your life in the quest for a better life. You will miss the one you have and time doesn't turn back for any of us.

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BKWERM 12/6/2007 5:24PM

    A previous Weight Watchers leader once told me that losing weight is like water in a sponge. At first, there's so much water in the sponge, huge amounts drop off at first but as the amount of water lessens, the amount dropping off also lessens. I definitely think that losing weight is like this. It does feel great to lose 3 or 4 pounds a week and it is disappointing to get down to just 1 to 1 pounds a week but you're still LOSING. And, that's what is most important. Keep going. You can do it!

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DEEDLEBUG64 12/6/2007 12:19PM

    Way to go. I am not at the point that you are yet. I think that if I even deviate a little bit I will fall back into my old lifestyle. I am so proud of you for having the will power to do that and stick with losing the weight. A weight loss is a weight loss no matter how much or little it may be. Keep up the great work and thanks for commenting on my blog the other day. It is great to have kids around to keep you young and remember what this all is really about. Have a great week.


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Decemeber Goals

Sunday, December 02, 2007

I stole idea from a team member from my spark team Lose 25 Lbs by a Specifc date. I thought it was a great idea to set monthly goals because I am sure every month, I need something different to work on.

Unfortunately, I need to work on pretty much everything. I need to eat better, exercise more, and well, my water intake is good, so I don't need to work on that. So here are my goals for December. I don't want to start out too difficult so I am going to go easy on myself for my first monthly goals.

1. Eat below 1900 calories at day.
2. Exercise for at least 10 minutes
3. Drink at least 8 cups of water every day
4. Name 1 positive thing about myself everyday and make a list

Ok, that is all for now. I'll update everyone on my weekly blog.


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