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Week 41- And one last gain

Sunday, April 08, 2012

Seriously, this will be my last gain. I took a mini vacation since my kid has been out on spring break. Me and vacations don't work. While I hate that my next vacation isn't until July, it is going to do me some good to have a set schedule so I can get back on track. I did pretty good with my eating last week and then this week just went to hell. I didn't make my 4 days at the gym but instead only made 3 because I was suppose to do my 4th day on Friday but we spent the whole day at Knott's. So I was going to make it up on Saturday but went back to Knott's again. Needless to say, after spending two days at Knott's, I was exhausted and did not want to go to the gym. So I didn't.

But it is a new week. And this gain, which may not be real, it still showing on the scale and I am not happy about it. I look forward to seeing the number on the scale decline each week. I miss it actually. But I am the only obstacle standing in my way. Time to get the hell out of my own way and let me progress.

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PARKERB2 4/8/2012 3:24PM

    Don't let one bad week spoil your jorney. You can do it. emoticon

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ABIGAILJ22 4/8/2012 3:21PM

    YEAH! I say it wasn't a gain in weight it was a gain in knowledge- so cheesy. I'm having that kind of week too- I didn't gain but I didn't lose and it kills me! I feel like the scale doesn't know squat sometimes...On to a new week! emoticon

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My Trainer Broke Up with Me

Thursday, April 05, 2012

I am feeling sad. I worked out with my trainer tonight and was sat down and told that he took another job and will be moving to Texas. I am so sad. I hate change and he wants me to work with another trainer who he says he trusts. I am torn. I need personal training because I do not trust myself to continue doing my strength training on my own. He is going to ask the other trainer to come join us with our last sessions next week so we can get to know each other and the other trainer can see the exercises we do and how I work and such. I am so nervous about the change. And sad because I really liked my trainer as a person. :(

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YOADDICTION101 4/6/2012 12:56AM

    It's great that his not leaving you to go find a trainer on your own. I would trust his judgment and try to get to know the other trainer. Who knows you might like them even more. Change can be hard to deal with but is good.

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RUN_BAKE_BLOG 4/5/2012 4:38PM

    Change can be good!
Embrace it the best you can!

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GIRLONFIRE1979 4/5/2012 2:47PM

    sometimes we go from using to food as a security blanket to something else. in both cases, we are not realizing that we are powerful and strong on our own. the trainer helps keep you motivated, and another trainer will do the same. Sometimes when things get switched up it forces us to push even harder. now you have someone new to show off to and show him how fit you are. i know you feel sad, but i also know YOU are the one who has come this far, and that is something that doesn't have to change.

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SHELLYK972 4/5/2012 12:58PM

    How sad! But, I think it's great that he's making sure that you're taken care of! Go for it!

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MAREANNIE 4/5/2012 12:34PM

    Give the new trainer a chance. Sometimes life throws us a curve ball, but we have to keep swinging.

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    I'm sad for you! Trust his instincts with this other trainer.

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VICKLET31 4/5/2012 8:32AM

    I hate when that happens, but trainers can be very unreliable when it comes to always working with the same person, at least in my experience. I'm sure you will get used to the new person. Hang in there! And just keep working hard!!!

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LIBELULITA 4/5/2012 4:21AM

    How professional and kind of him to look after you by finding someone else and inviting him along so that he's not going in blind. It'll give you chance to see if you think it'll work out...and who knows? It may be a blessing in disguise and you may like him even more!! Give him a chance....YOU are worth it emoticon

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Week 40 - Total Weight loss - 72 lbs

Sunday, April 01, 2012

I had a large gain last week and an even larger loss this week. I got on a scale and lost 7.2 lbs. Woo hoo! Let me break that weight loss down for you. I know it wasn't real just as I knew last week the gain wasn't real. There were so many factors that came into play with my gain last week that are also coming into play with my loss. Before my weigh in last week, I had gone a little overboard with eating and therefore I had way to much sodium in my system and also the food (I have stomach issues and don't "poo" like I should so I get backed up often). Also, I started my period this week so I had bloating and weight gain from that. Combine all of that together, and you get my gain last week of 4.2 lbs.

This week, I stayed low on sodium and ate within my calorie ranges for the most part, exercise, took exlax to clean myself out (otherwise I would end up in severe discomfort and pain) and the bloating from my period should be subsiding. Therefore, I got on the scale this morning and saw that I weighed in at 246.6 when last week I was up to 253.8.

I am not getting very excited about this because really, in order to know this weight loss was real, I have to maintain it or lose more next week. But I am just happy to see the numbers down. I will be sticking to my calorie range and exercise schedule this week...hell, all this month. March was a horrible month in weight loss. I only lost 2.8 lbs for the whole month of March. I was clawing my way back and it was a uphill climb, but I think I have finally gotten there.

I weigh in with my trainer tomorrow and he knows not to expect much of a weight loss if any. But I know he is going to be disappointed because he says I am his favorite client. He gets so excited at our weigh ins. I mean, seriously, he gets more excited about my weight loss then I do. It's so cute. So I know even though he knows not to expect anything, he is going to be disappointed.

But I will make up for it at our next weigh in come May. I am determined to make up for my lack of weight loss in March by kicking ass in April. I am thinking maybe, just maybe, my body may be confused enough or have gotten comfortable enough with all the extra calories to maybe let me drop more then the average 2 lbs per week. If I only lose 8 lbs this month, that is ok, but I am aiming for double digits. When I hit double digits in January, my trainer was so excited. I wanna see if I can make him "shine" again.

We'll see. But either way, I am going to do better this month then I did last month.

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TDEVONA70 4/1/2012 4:23PM

    Keep up the good work! Any weight loss is better then none, and you should be as excited as you want to be. Who cares about the what or why?! You did it! Be proud!

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Week 39 - And yet another gain

Tuesday, March 27, 2012

I am seriously trying to claw my way back to weight loss. I ended up gaining 4.2 lbs this week. I did really well up until Thursday and then everything just went down hill from there. So I showed a weight gain. I have my monthly weigh in with my trainer next week and I don't expect good results. I am just hoping to be exactly where I was at the beginning of this month. He wants a loss, but at this point, I think that might be asking a bit too much.

I am just going to say this month was a bust...I was practicing maintenance...and we will take it from there.

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    We all hit bumps in the road. It's a blessing that every day is a fresh start. (Or even every hour or minute, if you choose to look at it that way!) From the looks of your sparkpage, you have come a long way on your journey. I know that 4.2 pounds seems very large right now, but in the grand scheme of things, it's not. Not compared to the over 60 pounds you have conquered!
Hang in there!

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LIBELULITA 3/27/2012 1:45PM

    I think you need to work out why you've gone in to self-sabotage mode after doing so very very well. Hope you work out why you are doing this to yourself emoticon

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Week 38 - Total Weight Loss: 69.4 lbs

Monday, March 19, 2012

Thank God for my personal trainer. If it wasn't for him, I think I would have quit this journey. I am trying to get back into the swing of things by counting my calories and getting into the habit of going to the gym. It's so freaking hard and if I didn't have my scheduled, paid for session with my trainer, I think I would just quit. My motivation is completely gone. I am working on pushing through it and just doing it. I don't want to quit. But right now, I am running on sheer willpower and let's face it, that isn't so strong right now either.

I did pretty good last week. Only made it to the gym once last week and that was last Monday for my session with my trainer. He kicked my ass and my legs were sore for the rest of the week. He cancelled our session for Wednesday which I was very grateful for because my legs were killing me. My calorie intake was OK. I kind of blew it two days last week but the other days were good.

I got on the scale yesterday morning and found that I lost the 6 lbs I gained the week before plus an additional .2 lbs to boot. So I am looking at it as though I really maintained the week I went to Vegas and since last week really wasn't that great, I lost .2 lbs last week. But whatever. I am just glad I lost the 6 lbs I had shown as a gain because when I told my trainer I thought it was from too much sodium, he was skeptical. I look forward to telling him tonight I was likely right.

So I am on a mission to find my motivation. If you see it, please let me know.

I am not giving up though. I refuse to give not. And when my sessions with my trainer run out, I will purchase more to keep me going. That is how committed I am. Motivation comes and goes, I know this. And I will do whatever I need to in order to keep myself going during my weak moments.

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LIBELULITA 3/19/2012 5:21PM

    You absolutely must NOT give up! All this time and effort you've put in and you're seeing amazing results. I just posted a lot of "FAT" photos of me on my blog to remind me that I never want to go back to looking like that or feeling like that ever again. Have you forgotten what it was like??? emoticon

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