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Week 20 and a gain

Sunday, November 13, 2011

A gain that was planned for and a gain that was welcomed.

I took the week off. I didn't plan it in advance but by Sunday or Monday, I decided I might as well enjoy it. So I took the whole week off. I walked once which was on Tuesday evening. But other then that, I didn't do any extra walking or visit the gym. I ate anything I wanted, however much I wanted, but luckily not to the point of getting sick. Everyday, I ate between 300-500 calories above my high point in my calorie range. Only twice this passed week did I eat more then that. On Thursday, I ate 1000 calories above my calorie range and worse yet, on Friday I ate a guesstimated 2900 calories above my calorie range. Yep, you read it right, I ate around 4800 calories that day. But it is guesstimated because we went to a restaurant that doesn't have any nutritional information available. I found out the law in California is only that restaurants with more then 50 chains are required to have the nutritional information available. Seriously? I think the law needs to be changed to "any restaurants with 2 or more chains."

Anyway it is was guesstimated so I could be lower or higher. It doesn't matter. I got on the scale this morning to a gain of 2.2lbs. I really don't believe I really gained 2.2lbs. I may have gained a pound or less, but I think a lot of it is water retention because with the more calories you eat, the more sodium you eat. I still drank my 8 cups of water every day, but if you are eating 3000-5000 mg of sodium every day, 8 cups isn't going to cut it. So I expected the gain and am not surprised nor boggled down by it.

It was actually interesting though. I have never really done a trial period of eating what I want, however much I want, when I want and tracking it to see exactly how I was eating before I started counting calories. While the first 3-4 days I can't actually count because I was still pretty mindful of what I was eating, the last couple of days certainly did shine some light on my previous eating habits. I also learned that no matter how much you want to give up, you have a few days to start back up before totally blowing it. Like I said, the first 3-4 days I only went 300-500 calories above my calorie range. That really isn't that bad. I could have turned things around at anytime and probably still would have managed a weight loss. But I had consciously decided on Monday that I was just going to blow this week and go out with a bang, so each day just got worse and worse.

But I am starting over. Today I am back on track. I will be going to the gym tonight and tomorrow have an appointment with a personal trainer. I will be watching and measuring my foods again and making healthier choices. I plan to go grocery shopping to make sure my fridge is stocked with healthy choices. I may even go through and throw out any crap...though I kept looking for crap yesterday and really couldn't find any. (Seriously, I was looking in the fridge and cabinet saying to myself, "I gotta eat everything today that I don't usually allow myself to eat.." Unfortunately, I couldn't find I made hot chocolate...two packets, with marshmallows in soy milk. It really wasn't that bad. Yesterday was probably best day of the whole week. I knew I was starting over today and honestly even considered going to the gym last.

I felt lost. I enjoy keeping track of my foods and being active. Not to mention that I did not lose sight of my goals this week. I think my goals kept gnawing at me all week but my stubborn self would not let me get back on track. I had already made up my mind to blow this week. You can imagine the interesting argument my fat self was having with my skinny self. Quite entertaining. lol.

So I have 1 week left of the competition and I guess I have decided to join the next competition though I fear my friends won't keep at it. But as long as it helps me keep at it, it doesn't matter what they do. I will discuss the new competition more next week with my final weigh in for this current competition. I am kind of hoping for a large weight loss next week if I really bust my butt and make up for this week. But we'll see. Even if I have a small weight loss, that will be OK. As long as I am back on track.

Me: 13.11%
Shayna: 6.25%
Vivien: 1.17%

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BUTEAFULL 11/15/2011 2:24PM

    I did pretty much the same thing and gained 3 lbs

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GENOLA36 11/13/2011 3:33PM

    my week was similar to yours, so yes my scale gave me a wake up call..
we both are jumping back on the wagon emoticon

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LIBELULITA 11/13/2011 3:28PM

    You know,you've probably given your metabolism a boost by doing that.I've done this in the past past and it always gave it a kickstart when I got back on track and I lost weight more easily than before.However,*sigh* the last time I didn't get back on track *sigh* kidding myself that I would in a few more days...which stretched to 4 years *long drawn out and mournful sigh*.

Just be careful and don't believe that you'll always get awy with it. emoticon emoticon

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Week 19 and down 44 lbs

Sunday, November 06, 2011

This will likely be a short blog. I weighed in today and found that I lost 2.6lbs. I was hoping for more since I lost so little last week, but I will take what I can get. It was still a good loss. Now I have to lose 3 lbs each week for the next 2 weeks to meet my goal of 50lbs lost by the end of this competition. My recent track record says that is not going to happen. I am going to be really busy at work with only 30 minute lunches so staying low in calories should hopefully be in the cards for me.

I am still truckin'. I haven't given up on myself nor this competition. I will do what needs to be done.

One thing I found interesting is that I went to the Santa Monica Pier and walked around a lot. It didn't mean crap on my pedometer, I only got up to 5000 steps. I was really shocked. After coming home, I went to the bar and then when I got home, I looked and saw that I was only at like 8500 steps. It was about to become the next day per my pedometer and I had 10 minutes to try to walk in place to make up the steps to get to 10,000. I didn't make it. :( Should have paid more attention to it earlier.

As for the competition, here are the stats:

Me: 13.81%
Shayna: 6.25%
Vivien: 3.88%

They have given up.


It's called Commitment

Thursday, November 03, 2011

I am losing it. My motivation is slowly receding. I am in my 19th week and I have done great, but the motivation and willpower to continue on is slowly disappearing. I definitely do not want to quit, but I could easily stop tracking my calories and making myself exercise at any given time. I have not been as diligent on making sure I eat healthy in a couple of weeks. In fact, in the past 7 days alone, I have completely said "screw it" and eaten high calorie foods like 5 of those 7 days. My calories haven't been horrible, but definitely high in fat and simple carbs.

I am going to try to plan my meals in advance and stick to them. I don't need to be perfect and I know this, I just gotta make sure I make healthy choices. I am nearing the end of my competition with my friends and I know this is playing a big role in my motivation and willpower being so low. While we have planned to start a new competition, the reward just isn't worth it so I am thinking about backing out. So I don't have that to keep me going. I need to make a commitment to myself to continue on even when this competition ends. I need to find my own reasons to go on. That was my assignment for myself like 6 weeks ago but clearly I kind of let it go. Time to resume the assignment to get myself rejuvenated again. I've got 18 days left of this competition. 18 days left to find what will keep me going. 18 days to find my motivation.

Time to get to work!

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LIBELULITA 11/5/2011 1:53PM

    You also need to keep going because this was never really about winning a competition surely? wasn't it about wanting to be slimmer and healthier.You also mention that the prize for the new competition isn't worth it. When you win a competition it is never the prize that makes you feel fantastic;it's the knowing that YOU won,and that everyone else knows it!! I think you should do it if it helps keep you focused.Beware's not too late for you to lose this competition at the last moment.beware the fable of the hare and the tortoise emoticon

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CAROLYN_ROSE 11/3/2011 11:55AM

    Motivation only takes you so far. Doesn't last very long. You need to treat this as your JOB. Schedule it in and do what needs to be done. If you treat it like yuo have to do it, aka your job, it will get done. I can't tell you how many times I lost motivation, but I never stopped going to the gym and eating right because it was my duty. YOU can do this!

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Tracking My Progress- October

Tuesday, November 01, 2011

So as you can see in the picture, I did 77% good in October. August was 52% and September was 68%, so I am definitely making progress. I am getting better at choosing goals and meeting them, even though I am not perfect. But it is about progress, not perfection.

My goals for October was to drink 8 cups of water, exercise in some form, 6 hours sleep and eat less then 1600 calories. I drank at least 8 cups of water every single day, so I removed that from my November goals. I figure if I am able to do it every day, I might as well not use it as a goal because how will I show progress? I worked out in some form 24 days out of 31, so that is really good. Ever since I included walking around my apartments on the days I don't go to the gym, I have been meeting this goal more often, though I obviously have taken a few days off. I have eaten at or below 1600 calories 15 days out of 31. Not great but not too too bad considering the low point of my calorie range is like 1560. And I was in bed in enough time to get 6 hours sleep 25 days out of 31. That is really great.

So obviously I need to work on meeting my calories more often. The reason I chose 1600 calories despite what my calorie range says is because my "ideal weight" according to all the websites for my height is 135lbs. I don't think I will ever get that low but to be at the top of the Healthy weight BMI range, I need to weigh 149lbs, so I think it is a good weight range to stick with. My BMR for each for these weights is roughly just under 1500. So I tacked on an additional 100 calories and rounded up to make that my goal. I don't want to eat 1560-1910 calories a day and then reach maintenance and have to decrease my calories. I would rather stay around the number of calories I will need when I do lose the weight. So that is my goal. I kept it the same for November.

While I did great on my exercise, I am obviously going to keep that as my goal for November because otherwise I could easily just quit. I am trying to get my body to crave the activity and the only way to do that is get it used to being active. I just have to remember that when I need to go to the gym, I need to go to the gym and not substitute the gym for walking. Walking is great but I need something a little more endurance building a few times a week. I also need to make sure I strength train 3 times a week. I haven't figured out how to fit that in just yet into my progress tracking. Maybe I can figure out a way for December.

My goal for October was to get 6 hours sleep. I gotta start low to work my way up since otherwise I would only get roughly 5 hours sleep each night. On weekdays, I wake up at 7:30am which means I need to be asleep by 1:30am to achieve 6 hours sleep. I had found that I would lay down at 1:10am but not be asleep by 1:30 because I was watching the clock to see if I would make it. Kind of counterproductive. So midway through the month I changed my goal to being in bed within 6 hours of having to wake up. So I gave myself a sticker as long as I made it into bed, lights off, TV off, the works by 1:30am. I figure, the sooner I get to bed, the sooner I will fall asleep and as long as I know I already got the sticker, I wouldn't stay up to watch the clock. So for November, I changed it to 6.5hours sleep. So I have to be in the bed by 1:00am to get my sticker. After trying that out for the month, if I do good, I will bump it up to 7hours, if not, I will do 6.5 again. We shall see what happens.

Now since I am not rewarding for 8 cups of water since obviously that is not a problem for me, I have changed my goal to 10,000 steps a day. This may be a little tricky for me because I work 8 hours a day and on those days, I get off at 8pm and by that time, I only have like 2500 to 3000 steps. So all the extra steps will need to be done through the gym, walking around my apartments or walking in place while watching TV. To make my 10,000 yesterday, I had 1000 steps I walked in place before going to bed. It's boring as hell, but if I don't want to have to walk in place, then I am just going to have to figure out a way to get the steps in during the day.

So all in all, October was a pretty good month even though I technically only lost 7.2 lbs during the month. I am going to try for a larger weight loss in November.

Here is to another beginning!

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BUTEAFULL 11/2/2011 11:19AM

    you can do the walking in place watching TV to get your steps, especially for commercials so you don't snack during commercial time

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Week 18 and 41.4 lbs lost

Sunday, October 30, 2011

So I weighed in this morning to find that I lost 0.8lbs this week. Not great, but it's not a gain either. I think a lot of things played into it. The biggest thing being that I ate popcorn last night with too much butter and some added salt. Can anyone say "water retention?" But we will know if that was the culprit or not next weigh in. Usually when I show a "gain", I follow it up the next week with a large weight loss. Though I didn't actually show a gain this week, I expect a relatively large weight loss next week still. But only time will tell.

There were a few other things that could easily play into such a small weight loss such as I didn't make my average of 10,000 steps a day this week. My average came out to 9,116 a day. Close, but no cigar. I could have done it, but I also skipped the gym and walking two days this week. I didn't go any exercise on Wednesday because I went to the bar instead and last night, I just could not get myself up to going to the gym. I did get dressed to go, but then sat on the couch and watched re-runs of The King of Queens. It's a cute show and I never really watched it until last night and they had like 3-4 playing last night right after another. So I kept telling myself, "I'll go when this episode is over." Then the next would start and I would then tell myself "after this episode." Needless to say, once the last episode was over, it was like 1:25am and I decided not to go to the gym.

On top of "lack of exercise", my eating hasn't been all that great. I only went above my calorie range one day last week which was Thursday, but even then, I only went above my calorie range by 84 calories, which is virtually nothing. But my calorie range is so high only because the system believes I will work out everyday and I didn't 2 days this week.

Not to mention, I also haven't done any strength training this all. I need to focus on that more. I really hate the idea that I may be losing muscle as opposed to fat, though I also know I will lose muscle along the way because as I lose the fat, I won't need as much muscle to survive. I won't have as much weight to carry around. So that is a must for the upcoming week. Strength train 3 days this week. It's not hard, but boring. But no matter what, I just gotta do it. And I will! Hold me accountable please!

We only have today and tomorrow left of October. I love the end of the month because I get to change my monthly goals. I won't post about it yet because on Wednesday or Tuesday night, I will have a blog specifically for my monthly progress and next months goals, but it feels so great to be able to change it up a little. Anyway, before giving too much of my next blog away, I will just say "stay tuned."

As for my competition with friends, we have 3 weeks left. I still want to reach the 50lbs gone mark or at the very least 15% of my body weight which would leave me at 48lbs lost by the end of the competition. That means I need to lose 8.6 lbs in the next 3 weeks. That is 2.86lbs each week. Since I didn't lose 2 lbs this week, I have to make up for it over the next couple of weeks and I think I can manage it. I am going to try. However, I am only 4.2lbs away from my next reward. Can't wait!

I believe my friends have completely given up. I haven't asked if they weighed in because they usually don't so I am just going to leave it as it has been.

Me: 12.99% (so mad I didn't make it to 13% and was so close)
Shayna: 6.25%
Vivien: 3.88%

Check back in 3 weeks to see the final numbers. As I may have said before, I wouldn't be surprised if Shayna is not weighing in because she really is losing weight and just trying to throw me off my game. We shall see!

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JUNA89 10/30/2011 6:18PM

    emoticon emoticonKeep It Up!!!! emoticon

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RETURNOFSARAH 10/30/2011 4:17PM

    You are doing GREAT!! xx

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LIBELULITA 10/30/2011 3:46PM

    You're still doing great....have you worked out anymore details of your next competion? emoticon emoticon

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