Saturday, October 01, 2011
Another month ends. I was so excited to wake up and see how I did this month. Here are my stats and I must say, there is definitely improvement from last month. From 08/28/11 to 09/25/11, I lost a total of 11.6lbs. I am undecided if I want to wait until my weigh in tomorrow to add that to my total weight loss for September. So this might change.
Anyway, I met my goals of 8 cups a water a day, exercise, eating below 1600 calories and getting 6 hours of sleep 82 times out of 120. That comes to 68% which is up from 52.4% in August. Definite improvement. I am keeping my same goals for October. I changed my goals slightly from August to September which could possibly explain the improvement but they were changes that needed made.
Friday, September 30, 2011
I've been feeling really down lately so I have been working on trying to be happy. I am unhappy at work, I am unhappy with myself and unhappy with life in general.
I have low self-esteem. That is a given. If I didn't, I don't think I would be here. So I am trying to work on building my self-esteem. One thing I am doing is creating a list of affirmations. I want to write at least 5 affirmations about myself everyday. I came up with 14 today. It will be a work in progress. I want to use them as reminders so that if I am having a down day, I can read them.
Another thing I am going to try to work on in not thinking negatively about myself. Whether it be my looks, personality, or mistakes I make. Whatever. Nothing negative. If I do think something negative, I have to want to come up with 3 positive things about the thing I thought negative about.
This has all been brought about because my competition will be ending in 7 weeks and I feel like I will quit. I am working on trying to guarantee that i won't quit. I don't want to quit. So I need to find what will keep me going.
I figure if I build up my self-esteem in the process, I will be more motivated to keep going. Hence the daily blogs. Once I complete my list of motivators and get a decent amount of affirmations listed, I will post separately blogs for each.
I've been working on my outer self and I did so last time, but I now know that I need to work on my inner self too.
Wednesday, September 28, 2011
I keep telling myself this. Eating right, counting calories, going to the gym for 30-45 minutes 3 times a week, and doing strength training 3 other days a week is not hard. So why do I have such a hard time of making it a habit???
I have been at this for 13-14 weeks now and nothing is a habit. I could go back to eating crap and not caring how much and just laying around and sitting around the house tomorrow...and there wouldn't be one single urge in me to track my food or get up and move. I have to be very conscious about everything I do to try to lose weight.
I know we all says it's so hard and it takes a lot of work, but it's not hard at all. We make it hard. It's not hard to say no. Maybe if I start believing this and it gets stuck in my head, maybe then I will actually stick with it. Maybe then it will become a habit.
I am trying so hard. I have only lasted this long because of my competition with my friends, but what about when that ends? I need to change my thinking. I need to realize it's really not that hard and that I can do it because I have been. Yes, I may have a few slip ups, but skinny people don't ALWAYS eat 1200 calories or burn as many calories as they consume in order to maintain their weight. They have days full of calories too. They have lazy days. So why is it that if I eat over 2000 calories in one day I am a failure? Why is it if I don't go to the gym, I am a failure?
I am not a failure. I am human. I will stumble, I will fall, but damn it, I will get back up.
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