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You Earn Your Body

Monday, September 26, 2011



This is the background on my computer so I see it everyday. I want to be reminded that I didn't just end up with this body, I earned it. I earned it through eating unhealthy foods in unhealthy portions. I earned it by sitting on my butt all the time watching TV or playing video games. I earned it because I didn't participate in life. I sat by and let life happened.

I will no longer sit by idly and let life happen. I want to be a participant in my life. I want to control what happens in my life, at least the things I have control over.

I want to be the person I always dreamed of being. I want to have the body I always dreamed of having. I want to do the things I always wished I could do.

I can do anything I put my mind to and I am putting my mind to being healthy. I didn't get this body over night and I won't get rid of this body over night. It will take time. It will take work. It will take dedication. I can do it. But will I?

I was thinking tonight that I am only here again because of this competition with my friends. I am just chugging along and even though I have lost 32.2 pounds in 13 weeks, what is going to happen in 8 weeks when the competition is over? Will I continue on, or will my motivation and determination slowly fade away into the background and I slowly gain this weight back?

The competition got me started. But what will keep me going? That is the question I am currently working on. My goal is to have the answer before the 8 weeks is up.

  
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MAMACAT2_3 9/28/2011 9:50AM

    So true! You will just have to find another competition to help keep you going. Yeah you do have to want it badly enough for yourself, but we all have to find a way to keep motivation in various ways, so there is nothing wrong with that being one of the main things that keeps you going. I think you're doing great, keep it up!

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LIBELULITA 9/26/2011 5:13AM

    All that hard work lost....that should be your motivation to keep it off and keep going. Back to feeling tired and sluggish and fat and ugly....is this really what you want? Organise yourself another competition or get yourself sponsered for every pound lost to give money to charity. Me personally am signed on a the dietician and knowing that once every 3 months keeps me on the straight and narrow because I'm accountable to someone. My pride won't let me go back weighing the same or more and see the pity and disappointment (or worse, an "I didn't expect any different from you") on her face. emoticon

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DAIZYSTARLITE 9/26/2011 1:19AM

    Very true

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RAPUNZEL53 9/26/2011 1:11AM

  Good Luck!

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Week 13 and 32.2lbs lost

Sunday, September 25, 2011

So I made up for my gain last week by losing 5.2lbs this week. I know it's not real exactly because I believed last weeks gain wasn't real. I think I just had a lot of waste in my body that needed to get rid of which I did this week. So if I go off of my previous weeks weight, I have lost 3.4lbs this week. I had two really bad calorie intake days and only went to the gym once this past week since it opened back up. I've been walking to the dog everyday and getting my 8 cups of water everyday, with the exception of last Sunday.

Unfortunately, we have to give our dog to someone for a few months otherwise we will get evicted from our apartments. So I am going to be losing that activity everyday for a while until we can get everything taken care of.

This past week I have gotten my sister to join SP. She was eating less calories but not tracking and I showed her how much easier it would be to actually see everything in black and white. So she has been on here for the past week and has been doing good.

In regards to my competition with my friends, I believe they have given up. They both claim they haven't but even though I reminded them last night to weigh in this morning, neither of them did. It is my belief that if you haven't given up then you would be excited, anxious, nervous to see the scale this morning and it would be the first thing you do. Neither of them did.

We have 8 weeks left of our competition. I have no idea where either of them are. I really believe they have given up. Vivien claims she needs to lose the $250 to get serious about losing weight and the competition. She wants to start a new competition when this one ends and I definitely want to so I can ensure that I remain on track but she has already given up. I pretty much feel like I am alone in this. How can I count on her to stick with it a second time?

If we do start a second competition, Shayna and Vivien's brother may join, my sister may join and I am hoping we can find another person to join in because Shayna doesn't want to start another competition because she wants to have another baby. If everyone agrees to pay the winner $250, like our terms this competition, the winner could win $1000 if we have 5 people participating. That is a much bigger jackpot and I would love to win it. I am going to see Shayna, Vivien and her brother today so I'll talk to them about it.

Here are the stats, even though Shayna and Vivien's are from their last weigh in 2-3 weeks ago:

Me: 10.1%
Shayna: 6.25%
Vivien: 2.35%

  
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THROOPER62 9/25/2011 3:47PM

    WOW! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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LIBELULITA 9/25/2011 2:21PM

    Wow...your weight loss in such a short time is stunning. Sounds like you're going to win the competition!! emoticon

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BANDMOM2012 9/25/2011 2:19PM

    Congrats on your loss this week emoticon

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Week 12 and a gain

Wednesday, September 21, 2011

I wasn't going to post a blog this week because I did absolutely horrible this past week and ended up gaining 1.8lbs which brings me to a total of 27 lbs lost. It was my vacation from work which was more of a staycation since I didn't go anywhere and do anything. It was also the week of my son's birthday. On his actual birthday which was the 15th, I took him for his birthday lunch after school and gave into temptation. My whole lunch was roughly 1400 calories. I then said "Screw it!" for the rest of the day and the next few days. At his birthday party on Saturday I did the same thing and just grazed all day on chips and cheese dip, ate candies I bought for a candy bowl and pizza and who knows what else. So I was not surprised by the gain but ashamed of myself. Anyway, I am back to normal and going to the gym tonight. Hopefully this week will make up for last week.

  
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YOGIBLISS 9/21/2011 12:58AM

    From everything I heard you say you are a success AND you allow minor variations without the all too easy 'throw in the towel altogether' attitude. Well done! emoticon

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LISAFRAME2 9/21/2011 12:37AM

  Shake it off and get back on track. You will have some bad days, but don't get too discouraged.

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Week 11 and 28.8 lbs down

Monday, September 12, 2011

I don't know how I did it, but I managed to lose 4.4lbs this week. I haven't been to the gym in 3 weeks though I have been doing some strength training at home and have been eating well into my calories range with the exception of the first 2 days of the week. But I still lost! I am not counting this as normal and do plan to start going back to the gym again next weekend when it opens back up (it's closed for renovations) and still plan to keep my calorie intake low to get have as much weight loss as possible.

So I lost 3.8 lbs last week (with no gym time) and 4.4 lbs this week. That has brought me to a total of 28.8 lbs lost in 11 weeks. It has also gotten me back on target for my goal. My goal for this 4 week period was to end the 4 weeks at 287. Since I weigh in at 289.8, it is definitely possible. Of course, with my luck, I'll gain or remain the same, but I am hoping for the best. Since we got a dog, I am getting a lot more activity then I usually do due to dog walking, but I don't count that as cardio because it will now be something I do regularly and my body will adjust. Maybe that is why I lost so much weight this week??? I'll take it! And hope it helps this week too. I try to make the best out of it. For the most part, I don't walk the dog...the dog walks me, but I like that because he makes me walk faster.

I also bought myself a heart rate monitor so I can hopefully get an accurate calorie burned count. I am curious to see what it has to say when I am out walking the dog. The heart rate monitor was my first reward for losing 20 lbs. Of course, I did not expect to be so close to 30 lbs so it looks like I might be buying my next reward here shortly. Oh well. I made sure the first few rewards were things that can help me on this journey so they will be beneficial.

As for my competition, I am still in the lead. Very happy about that. Shayna remained the same, though she did not send me a picture of the scale so I am thinking she might have actually gained and just doesn't want to admit it. She claims she hasn't given up but I am thinking she gave up a long time ago. I know first hand how easy it is to "fall off the wagon" if you allow yourself "cheat days". That is why I don't allow myself cheat days. I allow myself high calorie days, mostly to keep my body guessing, but I don't go all out. It's too easy for bad habits to creep back up that way. So I will usually plan my high calorie days in advance so that it is still controlled.

Today I ate way too many calories and unfortunately they are all guesstimated. We had a going away party for my cousin who is moving to Tennessee next weekend for his job. Well, anyway, the food was not healthy and I was hungry. I didn't really think I was getting a lot of food because I got a little bit of this and a little bit of that...it added up. And because I didn't have my food scale or measuring cups, I had to guess at the oz's and cups. So naturally I over guesstimated because I would rather be safe then sorry.

I am also on vacation this week from work so I will be home all week long. That worries me a bit because my days will not be structured. So I think I am going to plan out my meals for the next week and go to the store for a lot of fruit to snack on while I am home. I need to prepare for the worse, just in case.

Below are the stats for my competition...I love how far ahead I am. We have 10 weeks left:

Me: 9.03%
Shayna: 6.25%
Vivien: 2.35%

  
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DRKEYEZ820 9/15/2011 1:22PM

    Sometimes your body needs to be confused lol, i know thats weird to say, but because you put ur body in shut down mode in one way or another, u tricked it. So i can only imagine how well u will do when u get back to the gym and follow the calorie range more accurately. WTG on the weight you have lost! Thats amazing! Super proud of u!

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MYMISSKITTY 9/12/2011 6:44AM

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Week 10 and 24.4 lbs down

Sunday, September 04, 2011

So even though I totally blew my calories the week before last and didn't exercise at all this past week and ate pretty good, I still lost 3.8lbs. I am very happy about that. I don't know for sure if it is because I took ex-law to clean myself out because of my week long binge or because my body finally realized that I am not starving it. Either way, I am glad to see the number down. It doesn't look like I am going to reach my goal of having lost 10% by 09/18/11 but I am OK with that. I have yet to reach any of my goals. But I am fine with that because the weight is coming off and that is all I really care about.

I am so happy to report that I finally took first place in my competition with my friends. Both of my friends gained weight. It appears they have both practically quit. Which is fine by me. $500 in my pocket! I am just so glad I took the lead...I have been trying to for over a month. It's only by 3.5 lbs but as long as I keep losing, I'll stay in the lead. I have 11 weeks left. Unfortunately my gym is closed for renovations and I really don't want to go to one of the other gyms so exercise may be out for the next 2 weeks. So I am going to buckle down on my eating and make sure I stay below 1600 calories.



We also adopted a dog that my son named Gummy Bear. So I am getting some exercise by taking him for a walk every couple of hours. The walks only last about 15 minutes right now because he was just neutered and is still healing, but a walk is a walk. Once he heals and gets to know us better and we get to know him better, we will take longer walks outside of our apartments. I am actually looking forward to that. Maybe I will start jogging with him. :GASP: I am so not a jogger or runner for that matter but attempted it for a minute yesterday. Maybe we can work up to it.

Me: 7.65%
Shayna: 6.25%
Vivien: 1.76%

  
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GBELLOUS 9/4/2011 11:38PM

    Awesome! Keep up the great work! emoticon

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