Tuesday, September 27, 2011
I don't think anyone really lives to eat, but I can see how it could appear that way. I know for me, I love to eat. It's not that food tastes freaking awesome, but I think it's more of the whole ritual of eating. Seeing the food, smelling the food, anticipating that first bite. Then slowly scooping the food up with the spoon and bringing it towards your mouth as your mouth salivates with expectation. Then you take the food in your mouth and the flavor touches your tongue and the excitement begins. It triggers an emotional reaction. You slowly pull the spoon out of your mouth, cleaning it with your lips. Now your mouth is full of flavor and you begin to chew. As you bite down, on whatever it is, more potent flavor squirts in your mouth covering every inch of your tongue...the front, the back, the sides. Then the moment you've been waiting for comes. Time to swallow. You slowly brush the flavorful food to the back of your throat where OH! the flavor covers the taste buds on the back of your tongue causing even more excitement to begin and slowly down your throat leaving a path of flavorful debris. After all this, you want more. So you take another bite and begin at the beginning. See, smell, anticipate, taste.
I can see how people become addicted to food. Our taste buds nearly get an erotic experience every. time. we. eat. Oh has sex just once and says "Eh, I don't like it." Even if you did, you'd try with someone else until you found the right person. Food is the same way. I am disgusted by green beans, but I love hot Cheetos with jalapeno cheese dip. Just the thought makes my taste buds quiver with excitement.
So how do we learn to eat to live and not to live to eat? Do we fight our cravings to the death? Do we tease our taste buds into submission by eating just a little? I don't know about you, but I think that would lead to a binge.
So what do we do? How do we conquer that feeling of desperate want?
Sunday, September 25, 2011
So I made up for my gain last week by losing 5.2lbs this week. I know it's not real exactly because I believed last weeks gain wasn't real. I think I just had a lot of waste in my body that needed to get rid of which I did this week. So if I go off of my previous weeks weight, I have lost 3.4lbs this week. I had two really bad calorie intake days and only went to the gym once this past week since it opened back up. I've been walking to the dog everyday and getting my 8 cups of water everyday, with the exception of last Sunday.
Unfortunately, we have to give our dog to someone for a few months otherwise we will get evicted from our apartments. So I am going to be losing that activity everyday for a while until we can get everything taken care of.
This past week I have gotten my sister to join SP. She was eating less calories but not tracking and I showed her how much easier it would be to actually see everything in black and white. So she has been on here for the past week and has been doing good.
In regards to my competition with my friends, I believe they have given up. They both claim they haven't but even though I reminded them last night to weigh in this morning, neither of them did. It is my belief that if you haven't given up then you would be excited, anxious, nervous to see the scale this morning and it would be the first thing you do. Neither of them did.
We have 8 weeks left of our competition. I have no idea where either of them are. I really believe they have given up. Vivien claims she needs to lose the $250 to get serious about losing weight and the competition. She wants to start a new competition when this one ends and I definitely want to so I can ensure that I remain on track but she has already given up. I pretty much feel like I am alone in this. How can I count on her to stick with it a second time?
If we do start a second competition, Shayna and Vivien's brother may join, my sister may join and I am hoping we can find another person to join in because Shayna doesn't want to start another competition because she wants to have another baby. If everyone agrees to pay the winner $250, like our terms this competition, the winner could win $1000 if we have 5 people participating. That is a much bigger jackpot and I would love to win it. I am going to see Shayna, Vivien and her brother today so I'll talk to them about it.
Here are the stats, even though Shayna and Vivien's are from their last weigh in 2-3 weeks ago:
Wednesday, September 21, 2011
I wasn't going to post a blog this week because I did absolutely horrible this past week and ended up gaining 1.8lbs which brings me to a total of 27 lbs lost. It was my vacation from work which was more of a staycation since I didn't go anywhere and do anything. It was also the week of my son's birthday. On his actual birthday which was the 15th, I took him for his birthday lunch after school and gave into temptation. My whole lunch was roughly 1400 calories. I then said "Screw it!" for the rest of the day and the next few days. At his birthday party on Saturday I did the same thing and just grazed all day on chips and cheese dip, ate candies I bought for a candy bowl and pizza and who knows what else. So I was not surprised by the gain but ashamed of myself. Anyway, I am back to normal and going to the gym tonight. Hopefully this week will make up for last week.
Monday, September 12, 2011
I don't know how I did it, but I managed to lose 4.4lbs this week. I haven't been to the gym in 3 weeks though I have been doing some strength training at home and have been eating well into my calories range with the exception of the first 2 days of the week. But I still lost! I am not counting this as normal and do plan to start going back to the gym again next weekend when it opens back up (it's closed for renovations) and still plan to keep my calorie intake low to get have as much weight loss as possible.
So I lost 3.8 lbs last week (with no gym time) and 4.4 lbs this week. That has brought me to a total of 28.8 lbs lost in 11 weeks. It has also gotten me back on target for my goal. My goal for this 4 week period was to end the 4 weeks at 287. Since I weigh in at 289.8, it is definitely possible. Of course, with my luck, I'll gain or remain the same, but I am hoping for the best. Since we got a dog, I am getting a lot more activity then I usually do due to dog walking, but I don't count that as cardio because it will now be something I do regularly and my body will adjust. Maybe that is why I lost so much weight this week??? I'll take it! And hope it helps this week too. I try to make the best out of it. For the most part, I don't walk the dog...the dog walks me, but I like that because he makes me walk faster.
I also bought myself a heart rate monitor so I can hopefully get an accurate calorie burned count. I am curious to see what it has to say when I am out walking the dog. The heart rate monitor was my first reward for losing 20 lbs. Of course, I did not expect to be so close to 30 lbs so it looks like I might be buying my next reward here shortly. Oh well. I made sure the first few rewards were things that can help me on this journey so they will be beneficial.
As for my competition, I am still in the lead. Very happy about that. Shayna remained the same, though she did not send me a picture of the scale so I am thinking she might have actually gained and just doesn't want to admit it. She claims she hasn't given up but I am thinking she gave up a long time ago. I know first hand how easy it is to "fall off the wagon" if you allow yourself "cheat days". That is why I don't allow myself cheat days. I allow myself high calorie days, mostly to keep my body guessing, but I don't go all out. It's too easy for bad habits to creep back up that way. So I will usually plan my high calorie days in advance so that it is still controlled.
Today I ate way too many calories and unfortunately they are all guesstimated. We had a going away party for my cousin who is moving to Tennessee next weekend for his job. Well, anyway, the food was not healthy and I was hungry. I didn't really think I was getting a lot of food because I got a little bit of this and a little bit of that...it added up. And because I didn't have my food scale or measuring cups, I had to guess at the oz's and cups. So naturally I over guesstimated because I would rather be safe then sorry.
I am also on vacation this week from work so I will be home all week long. That worries me a bit because my days will not be structured. So I think I am going to plan out my meals for the next week and go to the store for a lot of fruit to snack on while I am home. I need to prepare for the worse, just in case.
Below are the stats for my competition...I love how far ahead I am. We have 10 weeks left:
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