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My "healthy me" half anniversary!

Monday, September 09, 2013

Tomorrow (9/10/13) marks the 6 month point since I buckled down and got serious about changing my life for the better. And, while it's easy to get down on myself when I have a day or two where I make less-than-healthy food choices, I have to remember that I am still making progress, and each day brings me one day closer to being a fit, strong, happy-in-her-own-skin again version of me.

I am more than halfway to my goal weight, according to the scale, but I know that the weight will probably not come off quite as quickly in the next 6 months. However, these next 6 months are going to pass anyway. When March 10, 2014 rolls around, I can either feel good about having continued to make mostly good choices for myself, or I can feel bad and vow to start over (again...) Well, this is a no-brainer for me. I don't want to EVER have to start over again.

I have been a yo-yo dieter for years. Years. And, if I had a nickel for every time I heard "it's a lifestyle change" over the years, I'd have... well, I'd have a pile of nickels anyway. But it never really sunk in until now... it IS a lifestyle change, folks. It's that simple (but that truth/realization is probably the only simple thing about this process.)

One of the biggest things I have been doing for the last 6 months is actually one of the smallest things to do, and it sounds corny as all get out, but it's working. Positive self-talk. Yep. I mean talking to myself in the car after I leave the gym to say "great job! I'm so proud of you," or looking myself in the eyes in the mirror and saying "you're doing great! You've got this! You're getting stronger every day." Of course, blog posts like this help me out too. :)

Sure, I am still carrying lots of extra flab, and I wish I was a size perfect-for-me instead of size 16. But, this fat girl can run 5k without walking, and she can lift weights there's no way she could have lifted 6 months ago. All of the size 22W, 20W, 18W, 16W, 18, 3XL and 2XL clothes have been banished from my closet and dresser, never to return again. The fit, strong, healthy woman inside me is becoming more visible every day, and she is rejoicing that I've stuck with this for 6 months now.

I am looking forward to the amazing changes I'm going to make over the next 6 months. Look out, world!


Ran a 5k with No Walking Breaks!!

Saturday, August 31, 2013

I am on TOP of the world today. I was finally able to overcome the little voice inside my head who likes to tell me that I need to take walking breaks when I start to run more than 1.5 miles outside. I was able to run 5k on the treadmill back at the beginning of July, but haven't been able to run more than 2 miles outside without feeling like I HAD to stop for a walk break. Well, that's all history now.

Ran a 5k this morning and MADE myself keep running, even when I wanted to stop to walk because it would be easier. Also finished in 35:59, meaning that I averaged less than 12 minutes/mile. To put that in perspective, when I run on the treadmill at the YMCA, I am usually going at a 12:30 or 13:00 pace. Not anymore!!

I had already scheduled a massage for tonight, but now I am REALLY going to enjoy it. :)

Working my way back toward "Onderland", one step at a time. Hoping to be there by the end of September. For good. :)

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NEWKATHYNOW 8/31/2013 11:47PM

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TCHANEZ 8/31/2013 9:50PM

  Way to go! Hoping I get to that point within the next month as well. emoticon

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BLUENOSE63 8/31/2013 7:20PM

  You have earned that massage ! Enjoy it and that is a great run time.

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Jeans with No 'W'!!!!

Thursday, August 01, 2013

I bought a pair of jeans today, size 16. That's right. 16. No W behind that size! I haven't worn clothing without a "W" in YEARS (since some time in late 2008, early 2009!)

Down 62 lbs since January 1, and 57 lbs since I really started in earnest on March 10. Progress is good, people!

Never thought I would be happy with size 16, but compared to the 22Ws I was busting out of in February/March of this year, I am THRILLED.

Onward to size 14 next (September sometime?) and from there down to, {{gasp}} size 12! :)

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CCDLOSING 8/2/2013 6:23PM

    Thanks all, for your wonderful comments and support! :)

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UFEDAK85 8/2/2013 11:07AM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon That's so great! Keep up the great work!

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KIMBOLEENA1974 8/2/2013 7:31AM

    That must feel GREAT!!! :) thanks for sharing! I'm more motivated this morning now. :)

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CHANGE4FIT 8/1/2013 8:59PM

    WOW that's great!!! emoticon

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-SATRIA- 8/1/2013 8:45PM

    Hurray! Great job! Keep up the amazing work!
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YOUDUNN 8/1/2013 8:33PM

    I noticed that you blogged on losing a percentage of weight. That's a great way to log your journey down.
I'm thrilled for you. Huge accomplishment.

Kae from Ontario

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SWEETSOUNDS11 8/1/2013 7:51PM

    Aweome that's a huge deal! It's an amazing feeling to be able to shop in "normal" stores and sections. I thnk you should celebrate being in a 16 really hard...then do it again at 14...and 12... You got this!

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JAMBABY0 8/1/2013 7:45PM

    Awesome, congrats

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15 Weeks Into this Journey - down 15%!

Sunday, June 23, 2013

I am on my way, people! I am now 15 weeks into this journey and there is 15% less of me to love than there was 15 weeks ago. :) I'm continuing to work with my personal trainer once/week and have no intention of quitting that; she gives me the motivation and accountability I need to keep going. I still have a long way to go, but I'm on my way and feeling great!

Here's a pic of me at my heaviest which was actually 10 lbs more than I started at 15 weeks ago (I was 283 in this photo on 1/1/2012 and started this journey again on 3/10/2013 at 272.5):

Here's a shot of me today. Down to 229 and feeling great!

Not so much a before and after, as a before and not-quite-halfway picture. Can't wait to see what I'm going to look like in another 6 -9 months. :)

Have a great day, Sparkers!

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CCDLOSING 6/23/2013 6:53PM

    Thanks for all of the comments!! emoticon

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HARMONYAGAIN 6/23/2013 1:03PM

    Wow that 15 percent really really shows


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CCDLOSING 6/23/2013 12:42PM

    Thanks for your comment! :)

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Reclaiming Cindy in 2013

Tuesday, April 30, 2013

So, this is my first blog entry in 2013. Here goes:

I had a really rough end to the year and beginning of this year, resulting in my weight climbing back up to 278, almost back to my beginning spot in 2012 (283.5 - my all-time high.) I half-heartedly tried to lose the weight, and lost 5 lbs in the first couple months of the year, but my head wasn't in the game... I was depressed and miserable, and knew I needed to make some big changes.

So, starting on 3/10/13, I cut out coffee. I cut out pop (all kinds.) I started making a conscious effort to drink water all day long, and to eat more of a plant-based diet. I started going to the Y again in the mornings before work. Before long, I noticed that I wasn't having the junk food cravings I usually struggle so much with. Is that attributable to giving up the diet soda (artificial sweeteners)? Maybe. Whatever the cause, I am glad for it.

Here I am, 7 weeks back into this journey, and I am feeling great. I am down 26 lbs, with 97 more to go to get to my goal. Has it been easy? Heck no!! But, I really, really want to succeed this time. For me. For my husband. For our 13 year old son. It is really humbling to realize that I still have almost 100 lbs to lose, and of course I want it to just melt off overnight. I KNOW that's not going to happen, and I also know what I need to do to create real changes in my body.

To help me keep my motivation strong, and as a reward for staying on track for the past 7 weeks, I made an investment in ME this week: Personal Training. Yesterday, I met with a personal trainer at the Y and had my consult and my first training appointment. I feel like I "clicked" with her, and I am already sore. Really sore. But in a good way. I am really looking forward to my appointment next week. I also signed up for the Resting Metabolic Rate (RMR) assessment, which I think I will have next week sometime. It will be interesting to see how that number compares with my Sparkpeople number.

I am going to be 40 years old in December, and I want to start my 41st year in a much better place, health-wise, than I started my 40th year.

Here's to good choices and healthy decisions this week!

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CCDLOSING 5/1/2013 9:50AM

    Thanks! I enjoyed my first meeting with my trainer and felt like we "clicked" and that she is going to push me harder than I would push myself, which is all good. :)

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MOTHEPRO 4/30/2013 3:31PM

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Great progress! I hope you enjoy your trainer. I love mine. She's finds muscles I didn't know I had. lol

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