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What's the best Spark-advice you've ever received?

Monday, July 23, 2012

Can you tell me the best Spark-advice you've ever been given?

What one thing have you learned that you feel is VERY important to pass along and share with someone who is just starting out on their own Spark journey?

Inquiring minds want to know!
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MUSTANG_SALLY2 7/26/2012 11:11AM

    From IRISHBEANERGAL: When all else fails - remember this: Struggling is better than giving up. You can only fail when you decide to stop trying.

From YOOVIE: Starting today, you are no longer allowed to utter the words: "I don't have time." Instead, you will say, "It's not a priority." (quoted from another blog)

These are the two I'm clinging too today.

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ANNESYLVIA 7/24/2012 9:06PM

    Track your nutrition, learn portion sizes, read labels...YOU ARE EATING MORE THAN YOU THINK! Track your fitness/activities...figure know how many calories you are burning with the activities your are doing or not doing....YOU ARE BURNING LESS CALORIES THAN YOU THINK!



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SUSUSUZZZIE 7/24/2012 5:56PM

    There are so many things at different stages but there are two things that got me started and keep me going to this day..

1) Moderation. I don't have to give up anything I don't want to give up. I don't have to do a lot of anything I don't want to do. Having some foods I want that aren't on a typical "diet" are ok in moderation. And doing exercises that I don't love in moderation will help me and may even lead to me liking them.

2) Start with small-teeny-tiny goals. Work on them until you have them mastered and then add a new goal or a new challenge...keep adding and improving. If you hit a wall or hurdle, just step back to the goals that work and start working up again. Repeat and repeat and repeat and suddenly you'll find that you can look back and see how far you've come without feeling like you had to make major changes.

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MRS_EVA_K 7/24/2012 4:26PM

    I've learned persistence + consistence = success. not perfection It's much more important to be fit and healthy than it is for be skinny.

Sometimes your scale moves in ounces not pounds, but just like pennies, those little ounces add up.

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TERRYT55 7/24/2012 2:46PM

    The importance of exercise! I've been able to keep most of my weight off for 18 months, longer than ever before and I think exercise is the key for me.

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JANEMAR2 7/24/2012 1:42PM

    This is a journey for life and don't let one set back stop you.

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FEISTYOWL 7/24/2012 11:23AM

    Only make one change at a time. Once you have that one conquered then add another one! I still think of that one often when I try to change everything at once!

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CINDYSDAY 7/24/2012 11:14AM

    Track everything. What you eat and your exercise. Never give up!

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KJDOESLIFE 7/24/2012 10:41AM

    Track everything, but don't be afraid to change things up if they stop working. If you get in a slump (which happens to EVERYONE and has happened to me pretty regularly), just remind yourself of the positive side of staying on track (feeling better, better sleep, less tummy problems -for me anyway) and start making little changes to your life again.

Don't make any changes you aren't willing to stick with. :)

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ROEBUNCH 7/24/2012 8:14AM

    track everything...food, fitness. water, ect. When I sign up for challenges I also sign up for the daily check list to hit the goals...keeps me accountable

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CHEETARA79 7/24/2012 8:05AM

    Track all your food and make your tracker public so you can't do any secret eating. Don't beat yourself if you mess up.

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HEALING_LORI 7/24/2012 7:44AM

    Never EVER....... EVER give up! Not just physically, but mentally too!
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ONENEL 7/24/2012 7:05AM

    How important community support is, that I don't have to be alone in this journey. Others have been where I am at (both good and bad) and are always willing to offer support when I need. The journey is much easier with others and way more fun.

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GETFIT2LIVE 7/24/2012 12:16AM

    Perhaps the most important thing I have learned here is that there WILL be times when I completely mess up, but as long as I am willing to learn from those times and get back up again, I will make progress. This journey is not a straight line; there are curves and bumps that we don't always see coming. That's life. Thinking that we are going to do everything perfectly sets us up for major disappointment when we fail. Progress, not perfection, that's what I'm after.

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LOSING4LASTTIME 7/23/2012 11:56PM

    Never do anything while trying to lose weight that you will not be able to maintain.

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IRISHBEANERGAL 7/23/2012 11:22PM

    Fall down 7 times, get up 8... it's a Japanese proverb. I read it on a blog (wish I remember where) about 3 weeks into my time here at Sparks. And it has fit every single time.

Hang in there gal - we are all works in progress.

~Irish

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JUNEPA 7/23/2012 8:10PM

    Not the most important thing in my life, but an important thing and one I learned from Spark

How to enjoy a community of like-minded people and how we synergistically help each other reach our goals.

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SLENDERELLA61 7/23/2012 5:34PM

    The most important thing is to never, never give up!

Find out what works for you. I found out that I had for years made 2 mistakes repeatedly: 1) I ate too little and couldn't keep it up -- but I can lose on 1200-1500 and feel good; 2) days of rest after strength training is crucial to build strength and muscle

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Non-negative blog title here..

Monday, July 09, 2012

That's the closest I can come, at the moment, to an acceptable blog title.

I appreciate the message, goodies, and notes - thanks gang.

I'm well-ish. I spent several good hours at OHS this weekend, and the rest of the time at home, mostly inside away from the heat. I'm struggling, truth be told. I'm trying to find a way back to where.. I was going to say "where I want to be" but right now I'm not even sure where I want to be. Not here, in this headspace certainly.

I hope you're all much Much better, and continue to be so. It's hard for me sometimes to be around the positive and successful when such is not the case for myself. I don't like to vent or whine or bemoan my own situation, such as it is, so it's easier/better for me to be quiet. Bear with me. I'm laying low, which is ok for right now.
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ANIMAL_L0VER 7/20/2012 3:32PM

    It sounds like you and I are in a similar boat right now. I am thinking of you and hoping us both some motivation, good choices, and success. Let me know if there's anything I cna do to help at anytime. *hugs*

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NIGHTSKYSTAR 7/17/2012 1:26PM

    i know how you feel. i try to think of something wonderful when i'm in that place!!

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SUSUSUZZZIE 7/13/2012 1:32PM

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Take care of yourself and do what you need for you.

Wish there was something I could do to help.


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ONENEL 7/13/2012 7:18AM

    Sorry you are feeling this way but totally understand- it does happen. Take all the time you need to find where you want to be. I have been there many times and sure that I will go back there one day- (not by choice).
Thank you for taking the time to blog - it does help to know that when we go thru those feelings- that we are not alone and to see that it can be normal.

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ANNESYLVIA 7/12/2012 10:45PM

    That''s fine Candy. Your feelings are just that YOUR feelings. This maybe what you need right now.

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GAYEMC 7/10/2012 2:30PM

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I was sitting at the desk drinking my coffee early last Saturday and as I looked out at the beautiful day I thought of you running with the Tribe. So sorry to hear your're feeling blue!

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FEISTYOWL 7/10/2012 12:15PM

    I think it's good you know where you need to be right now (laying low) and you're okay with it. This too shall pass. emoticon here's something to cool off with (iced water!).

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HEALING_LORI 7/9/2012 6:02PM

    Great BIG HUGS from me to you!!!
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There is always sunshine after the rain...
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SEABREEZE64 7/9/2012 4:15PM

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Don't feel alone..... many of us feel like we are getting no where and wonder where we are actually headed anyway....

It has to do with paying too much attention to "thinking."

Hope you get back on track to somewhere soon!

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IRISHBEANERGAL 7/9/2012 1:43PM

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Wish I was there to give you a hug in person! I'm a sympathetic ear, if you want/need one.

Stay strong!

~Irish



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4MY2KIDZ 7/9/2012 1:16PM

    I wish I was there to lay on your desk and annoy you!

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HOLLYL7 7/9/2012 1:14PM

    Ugh - I feel your pain. If it makes you feel any better, you are not alone. I got overextended and overwhelmed with some great SP challenges (totally my fault, and not the fault of the SP chllenges), sick of what felt like treading water (staying the same or gaining)...BLECH! Sometimes I think you just need a break to recharge. I'm forcing myself to the gym at lunch today, but I'm not even going to worry about the workout/intensity/etc... Goal for today: do something!! Hang in there =)

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GETFIT2LIVE 7/9/2012 1:08PM

    Wish we could get together and just hang out awhile, Candy--no pressure to run, walk, or otherwise be active. Do what you need to for YOU, whether that's laying low here or something else; know that I'm in your corner and thinking and praying for you.

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MUSTANG_SALLY2 7/9/2012 12:54PM

    I too find it hard to be around the happy/successful blogs on here when I'm feeling low. I'm sending loads and loads of hugs your way. Toby and Maureen want to send puppy kisses. Maureen is such a caregiver. When she thinks someone is sad or upset, she runs to them and lays her head in their lap... usually mine. I'd be lost w/o her but I can share! I'm wishing you all the best. Hang in there and don't forget to take care of yourself. Baby steps... start with breathing in and breathing out. Move on from there.

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ROXIT22222 7/9/2012 12:52PM

    emoticon emoticon If you need or want anything you know you can message me either on SP, or you have my phone number and can send me a text. We can do coffee and talk, or go for a slow, short walk... You know I live close enough... let me know if there is anything you need.

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NUTTYSNOOPYFAN 7/9/2012 12:39PM

    Do what you need to do for yourself, and know that we're here if/when you need us. Take care of yourself. I'll be thinking about you and hoping you get what you need. I understand needing to be away from here and be quiet. Sometimes you just don't want to hear that it will be ok and all the encouragement...sometimes you just have to go through the sh*t and know that you'll come out the other side at some point. Message me privately if you need to.

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ROEBUNCH 7/9/2012 12:19PM

    this has been a summer of struggles to find/want motivation. Hang in there and be 'quiet' as long as necessary. You know we are all here when you need us emoticon

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LISA01605 7/9/2012 12:16PM

    If I can help in any way, please let me know. After a rather successful 2011, 2012 has been... less so. I have seen my fair share of ruts lately. I am realizing more and more that this journey isn't easy.

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KAREN42BOYS 7/9/2012 12:09PM

    candy,
i'm sorry life sucks right now. do what you need to care for yourself. maybe it's time for counseling? i know i had to deal with a lot of yuck to get my head on straight.

wish we were closer, so i could at least sit sympathetically with you.

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Once more, with feeling...

Tuesday, June 26, 2012

Ok, I'm getting my fitness ducks in a row. I'm running consistently now when I'm supposed to be. I guess actually DECIDING that YES I AM going to run the PHM in October was what it took (and Holly's reaching out sure helped as well) to get me committed to the plan.
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This is the start of changing up my routine to work around our training classes with Maggie. I ran last evening, and while mile 1.5 to mile 2.5 was killing my shins for some reason, I worked through it, slowed down, and loosened up those muscles and was able to finish the whole 4 mi run in a respectable manner and pace.
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Now, to rein in the eating component. My face has been informing me lately, via breakouts, that I'm eating too much nut butter. Making our own nut butter at home is great! However, it does NOT mean I can eat it by the craptonne (new metric measure). It means I can only eat it in moderation, and pigging down half a bowl with half a box of Wheat Thins (low fat, mind you) is not a healthy way to deal with an urge to snack.
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Yesterday, I went over my calorie range by about 60 cal. That, my dears, if a far sight better than the 600 cals over previously! I'll take it as a sign of positive progress. If all goes well, I'll be down within the middle of my range today, and I won't feel deprived or starved or compelled to clean out one side of the cabinet of snacks because I'm "hungry".
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I'm up to 240.2 again. I'm not happy about it, but I'm working on it. I've decided I can use the scale again as one tool among many to help with my progress. I kind of kicked it to the curb a while back and ignored it completely, which.. Hello?! I believe contributed to the broadening of Eunice and her new friends, Bertha and Betty. Sigh. They've taken up residence below my belly button now and are in the form of a spare tire. Time to evict all of them, post haste!

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Lather, rinse, repeat.
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TIGGER622 7/2/2012 8:24PM

    i hear LOTS of positive progress! YAY!!! keep it up girl, you are motivating me to keep pushing! HUGS!

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NAYPOOIE 7/2/2012 7:08PM

    "Fitness ducks" made an interesting visual.

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ENDUROVET 7/2/2012 4:44PM

    Great news! I am still on the lookout for my missing mojo...

At least I made it by the gym yesterday for a half-hour "special".


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KAREN42BOYS 7/1/2012 4:48PM

    LOVE the word craptonne. Love it!

We're barely home from Catalina (home about 11 pm last night), so I've plowed through washing and drying the laundry but not folding yet. Ready to go buy a moleskin because I have a creative desperate need for one, and I want a half flat of strawberries.

Exercising went great! Hiked daily while we were on the island. Lap swam in the ocean one day for like 20 minutes and had plenty of playtime in the water other days. Even managed to get my 11 year old to get the snorkling bug, esp if we held hands (aw)! I could really tell that my training paid off on this year's big hike to Avalon -- other than a couple blisters from my SmartWool socks being on the verge of wearing out, I had no ill effects. 3 years ago, I napped on a concrete bench post that hike I was so spent.

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ROXIT22222 6/27/2012 10:39PM

    YAY! I'm so glad to hear this! Sometimes we have to go back to the baby steps that got us going in the first place. I know I'm still working on figuring out my new food to activity ratio. It's HARD.

Quick question (no need to answer me)... Have you reset your current weight on your body bug, and on Sp tracker? And re set your goal weight loss? Just a reminder if you haven't... I know I forget to some times esp when the weight goes UP.... it's always feels like admitting defeat.

Keep it up and I will see you at the PHM in Oct... if not before.. (I'm sure before)

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GETFIT2LIVE 6/27/2012 6:04PM

    Way to go, Candy! It's one step at a time, and you're well on your way. Homemade nut butters are the BEST but so easy to overdo! We make our own version of Nutella with cashews and semi-sweet chocolate morsels, and it is dangerous to have in the house, to put it mildly. Wish I could join you for the Portland Half; you are gonna ROCK IT, girl!

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GAYEMC 6/27/2012 4:27PM

    There's the Candy I know and love! I knew you would come back to us! Keep up the good work!

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FEISTYOWL 6/27/2012 1:18PM

    Good for you for getting back to it!! You are moving forward!

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SUSUSUZZZIE 6/27/2012 10:23AM

    I'm so happy to hear that you are back to running. And it sounds like you are loving it! Have FUN training for the PHM in Oct! Soon Bertha, Betty will be gone and Eunice will be on her way out. LOL!

Awesome that you are getting closer to being within your cal range. It's so hard to get back. And then add to it those things that urge us to eat a "craptonne" of them. For me - chocolate chip yesterday. Sigh. (Any my issue was purely because I haven't slept well the last few nights and yesterday was an early and long day. I do horrible without sleep.)

You are doing awesome and I can't wait to see a bunch more of these as you keep working on your goals!
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ANNESYLVIA 6/26/2012 9:14PM

    Great job Sweetie! Best of luck in your training for October race.



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IMIN2GENES 6/26/2012 8:24PM

    Keep up the great work! You are such an inspiration for me. Seriously! I let my spare tires creep back a little too much and have been frustrated. Reading your blogs and hearing your strategy has re-energized me. Thanks!
Chris
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PARASELENIC 6/26/2012 1:31PM

    In reading about running, etc., the more you run, the larger your appetite. The fact that you are eating a little over your limits right now makes total sense to me as you are just getting back into regular runs-- your body is used to regular running, and is adjusting its hunger accordingly, even if you're not mentally back in full swing yet. Makes total sense.

I'm glad you're back to it, and that you have an October goal to work towards-- not oo far away to seem like forever, but far enough that you have a comfortable range of time to build up your runner's brain again!

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4MY2KIDZ 6/26/2012 12:26PM

    You are my hero! I'm a better procrastinator, but I'm following your good examples. I have always found it interesting that a lot of diet advise says skip the scale (I too have kicked mine, well not to the curb, but under the bed). I find when I use it daily, generally same time every day to be consistent, it helps my mindset for the day. It may be up or down, I could be retaining water, or eaten a bad of Doritos, but it seems to help give me a boost to to treat myself better through the day. If its down, yay me, keep up the good work. If its up, dang it, show it whose boss. You will kick the half marathon's butt!

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MRS_EVA_K 6/26/2012 11:53AM

    You pulled in your own reins and you've done it well. Your unwanted visitors won't stay around for long!

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JANEMAR2 6/26/2012 11:15AM

    Keep up the great work!

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MUSTANG_SALLY2 6/26/2012 10:57AM

    Sounds like you're on the right track. I like the direction in which you are heading! I've never named my "tires", well not names you'd use in polite society but maybe I should so I can encourage them to move on! LOL

Keep us posted on how things are going. I'm excited for you!

Can you teach me how to make my own nut butter? Is it hard to do? It's so expensive to buy it at the local organic store.

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LINDAKAY228 6/26/2012 10:43AM

    Congratulations on getting back on track so well! Great plan you've got going.

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IRISHBEANERGAL 6/26/2012 10:38AM

    Well balanced, as usual... when you jump back on track, you do it so well...

My "marines" are still hangin' around too- right around my belly button - wish they would figure out that this war needs to end soon and move OUT...

Keep up the good work - It's great to read (hear?) the excitement in your voice about your running again.

~Irish

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Check!..

Thursday, June 21, 2012

Thursday morning, 5 a.m., 3 mile run?

DONE!
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IMIN2GENES 6/26/2012 8:18PM

    Awesome!


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TIGGER622 6/25/2012 9:10PM

    AWESOME!!! WAY TO GO!!!!

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ROXIT22222 6/22/2012 2:32PM

    way to go! I was too busy playing to check in on you yesterday... Hope you have a great weekend.

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GAYEMC 6/21/2012 5:00PM

    Awesome sauce!

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TERRYT55 6/21/2012 4:55PM

    YAY for you! What a great way to start the day......

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MUSTANG_SALLY2 6/21/2012 2:38PM

    Woohoo! I wondered if that was you that went flying past when I was out with the pups! LOL

You go girl! Great job!

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IRISHBEANERGAL 6/21/2012 2:32PM

    Roger that, 10-4!

Good job gal!

~Irish

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KAREN42BOYS 6/21/2012 1:24PM

    Ahwoo! And here I slept in because we head off Saturday for Catalina Island where I won't sleep as much, so I chose to gather me some sleep to sustain me!

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SHERWOODCYCLER 6/21/2012 1:20PM

    Good to go, then?

I am doing my women's running group at noon. Hope it isn't too warm....

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Being me, only better..

Wednesday, June 20, 2012

I did not realize how long it's been since I last blogged. I've been dealing with the typical (for me lately) struggles and ughs. Let's get those out of the way now, shall we?
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That's enough of that.

Weekend before last.. that would be the weekend of the 9th and 10th.. was a great one. Bill and I were lucky enough to meet up with Sususuzzzie and her DH, and Roxit22222, to do the Grand Floral Parade walk on Saturday. You can check out either of their blogs for a glimpse into the event. It was wonderful to get to meet Susie and her DH, even if it meant we subjected them to oddly long wait times in-between all the action LOL

That Sunday, we then did the Run for the Love of Dove 5K. Bill hasn't done much in the way of running since The Event (as we're calling it now) and even his walking stamina has declined a good bit, so we had planned on simply walking it slowly together. As it happens, they needed a sweeper crew, and we were happy to oblige. That simply means we were the last people to cross the starting line, and we walked the route at a steady 20 min. mile pace to keep the whole shebang moving along so police could open the roads once we were past. We even got to carry big bundles of balloons so participants could see us and make sure they kept ahead of us. We enjoyed the walk, and got to see a lot of great dogs have so much fun with their owners.

The week following was sort of a blur. I'd started, previously, trying to 'steal time' in the mornings to get in some sort of exercise before having to get ready for work. That lasted one week. I ended up so tired I had to give it up. I know, you wouldn't think just getting up a half hour earlier would wear someone down so much, but it's not really the getting up time that zapped me. I don't know about you, but for me, it's nearly impossible to get to bed while it's still light out and expect to be able to sleep. I gave up the plan and sort of wallowed for a bit.

Then Saturday the 16th was my first group run back with the Galloway Tribe. It was a warm morning, but not hot. It was an easy 3 mi run. I hadn't gone any maintenance runs the previous week, or month or whatever. I was hoping I could slide in and pick up where I left off.
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I did alright the first mile and a half, keeping pace with everyone. Once we turned around though, and started back, I started falling behind, further and further. I didn't have water with me, but then I don't carry water for a 3 mi run as I don't normally need it. I did this time, and even though it wasn't HOT it was warm enough to tax me. Add in the additional pounds bouncing around on my body, lack of preparation, lack of consistency, lack of anything even remotely resembling being a runner and... POOF! I sucked.

Holly is our pace group leader, and to her credit, had the whole group walk up the one hill involved on our route, and dropped back to walk with me once we reached the top. We chatted a bit - she really was one of the reasons I was back with the group after my 5 months hiatus. Her encouragement brought me back, her encouragement kept me going (well, that and my shame at being such a lame*ss and conking out on such an "easy" run..), and her encouragement gave me a lot to think about.

Sunday, I spent the morning with Kashmir and hundreds of our closest running friends! LOL I volunteered at the Vancouver USA Marathon and Half. It was great! We got to work the bag check, and had spurts of activity prior to the Marathon start, and then again prior to the Half start. Of course, as the finishers started trickling in, our business picked up once more, but my shift ended at 11, so I eventually had to pull myself away around 11:20 LOL It was a great time for a good cause. I'm really enjoying the volunteer opportunities I'm taking lately. More on that in a bit...

Anyway.. the whole weekend, run/walking with Holly.. working with Kashmir.. staring in awe at the winner of the Marathon (who finished 26.2 in 2:34!!!) the whole thing helped me realize... I want to run again. Like, really. I do. I haven't WANTED to for so long, I'm kinda hesitant to say it out loud, like I'll jinx myself again or something, but.. it's out there.

I'm signed up for the Portland Half in October. I will never go into another Half like I did the Rock'n'Roll last month - unprepared and stupid. I was very lucky I didn't hurt myself doing that race as I did. I will do the Portland Half (from now on to be known as the PHM) as a Galloway runner, and that means putting in the miles and effort.

Sounds all cream-cheesy-easy-peasy goodness, right?
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Yesterday was Tuesday. That's one of my maintenance run days.
Yesterday was the start of TOM.
Guess who didn't want to or feel like going for a run?
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I texted Bill about my dilemma. His very wise words to me.. either suck it up and do it, or don't.
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The man had a point. I was either going to do it or not. I could whine about cramps and wanting to eat the entire world, or I could put on my gear and get the h*ll out the door and see what I could do.

I chose the latter. In fact, I was psyching myself up to run to such a point that I missed my usual turn while driving home LOL I didn't have to go too far out of my way to get to the house, but it made me chuckle to realize that visualizing a new route allowed me to zip right by the turn.

I got my gear on and got out the door. I headed down the new route (still within the neighborhood, just a different approach/route) and concentrated on not going fast, just going. I'd been doing :45/:45 intervals before, but the group runs :30/:30, so that's what I'll stick with for now. I kept a good steady pace for the first 2.5 miles (better than Saturday!) but then finally started slowing down and feeling the effort. While I was feeling winded though, my body seemed to start feeling better. I guess I was finally warmed up as I was ready to finish. Figures.

No it wasn't a great run in any way, shape, or form, other than.. when I was done, I felt good, and I felt like a runner again. For like the first time in a very L_O_N_G time. I wish I could bottle that feeling, or record it somehow so the next time I whine at Bill that I don't feel like running, he could make me look at that snapshot in time to remember "oh yea, I DO like how I feel when I'm done so it's worth doing".

Thank goodness there's no limit on the number of times we get to resume this journey. Note the word 'resume' and not 'restart'. I didn't stop. I just wasn't making forward progress. I was dithering about off the beaten path, but never straying too far away. Eating a full sleeve of Ritz crackers.. half a dozen slices of cheese.. two or three servings of pasta at once.. not good choices, but not the end of me and my world as I know it.

In amongst all this, I'm extending myself out beyond the normal boundaries of my world. We've enrolled one of our Lhasas in a Reactive Rover class. Maggie simply goes BONKERS when she sees another dog out on a walk, to the point where it's nearly impossible to walk/drag the 13 lb growling snapping snarling buzzsaw away from the situation. She's totally unpleasant and unruly and embarrassing. We'd LOVE to be able to take her (and the other two) out in public for things like the Doggie Dash or Run for the Love of Dove - dog-friendly events, or even walks on the waterfront, whatever. She's just not socially acceptable from OUR point of view and we want to help her change that. As she's the most alpha of the three, we feel the other two will hopefully, easily, fall in line with the changes we can effect in Maggie.

The classes are every Thursday evening.. which means I won't be able to run Thursday after work. I have a plan, though. I'll be coming in to work a bit later than usual this Thursday, so I can run before work. Next week, I'll switch up my run days to Monday/Wednesday, gym days to Tuesday/Friday, and leave Thursday for Maggie-Bug training.

In addition to that, I'll be taking my first training session to volunteer for the Oregon Humane Society. That's where we found our Bubbie. I'm aching to make a career change, to get out of IT completely and into the veterinary field somehow. I'd LOVE to be able to go to school to become a Vet Tech, but right now the available courses are day classes. I cannot afford to give up my job to go to school (in my mind at least, right now). Instead, I can volunteer at OHS 12 hours a month, give something back to the community, do something that I think I'll enjoy, and learn lots of new things.

Yesterday, I made good choices. Better than the ones I made Monday. Today, I'm aiming for better choices again. Good healthy food. Proper portions. Needed nutrients. Actual weight training. A brisk walk. There are my choices today. Choices that will help change me, improve me, sustain me.

All these changes must add up to something new. A new phase in being me. Being me, only better. I hope.
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NIGHTSKYSTAR 7/1/2012 10:45AM

    Great Blog!! wanted to get on board with it...this team is going to be fun!!
Holly

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NUTTYSNOOPYFAN 6/28/2012 12:09AM

    Sounds like you and I are leading parallel lives again! YES, thank goodness there is no limit to the number of times we get to resume this journey! I really like the way you put that. I've been off track since March when we bought our house, and I'm just now getting my a$$ back on the path I need it to be on. Not that I would ever want you to be off the healthy path, but I do receive just a tad bit of comfort knowing I'm not the only one who has to readjust the compass from time to time.

I LOVE the idea of you volunteering at the Humane Society! I'm sure it will be a rewarding and VERY eye opening experience! After I had to quit my job at PetSmart (I loved that job) I volunteered for a couple years with an animal rescue group and I was amazed at the things that go on with rescue animals. You're gonna be amazing! Can't wait to hear more about your experiences there.

Hang in there honey! Love and hugs are being sent your way!
Christine

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IMIN2GENES 6/26/2012 8:17PM

    Cheers to all the changes! I can hear the lightness coming back to you. It's wonderful and inspirational. I'm so happy and excited for you!

Good luck with the puppy classes too!
Chris
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TRIANGLE-WOMAN 6/26/2012 12:55PM

    Cheers to changes! Keep up the good work!

-M

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ANIMAL_L0VER 6/25/2012 1:29PM

    What a lovely, well written blog. I'm so glad your head is in the right place and you're continuing to make progress. I've learned so much from you and your outlook and positivity... thank you for that! And keep on doing what you're doing-you're great!

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CJANNESS 6/22/2012 2:50PM

  Go get em! Cant wait to hear about your updates for your half!! Thats awesome that your volunteering at the OHS, We just adopted our kitty from there about a month ago :) Keep up the great work!

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GAYEMC 6/21/2012 5:00PM

    So glad to see you back bloging and running! Sounds like you've got lots of stuff going on to keep you out of trouble, lol!

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SUSUSUZZZIE 6/21/2012 11:41AM

    Awesome words! -- " Thank goodness there's no limit on the number of times we get to resume this journey." It's wonderful to read that you are making your way back to something you have enjoyed so much.

I need to see if I can find a "Reactive Rover" class for our little unsocial one. Thank you for the tip!

Wishing you much success and fun volunteering for the OHS! It can't be an easy job and it's wonderful that you are making time in your life to help!

Here's to your new phase of being you. Being you, only better!

And we had so much fun with you, Bill and Roxi! Waiting and all. By the way, we ordered my little niece a strider bike like the one that little tiny girl was riding for her birthday. Can't you just remember that little cutie whizzing by like she a big kid?! So funny! Anyway, hopefully we can see you guys again soon. Maybe we'll come cheer you on a future race or something.


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TIGGER622 6/21/2012 6:24AM

    That sweeper crew duty with the balloons sounds like fun!!! Way to get Bill out there and stay in it! Sooooo glad you got your running mojo back - keep it up, you are AWESOME!!!

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KAREN42BOYS 6/20/2012 9:04PM

    Bill gave you good words. Volunteering to help the pups sounds good as is squishing in your runs as you're able. Things sound fairly nice right now, Candy! :D

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MUSTANG_SALLY2 6/20/2012 3:13PM

    The puppy class sounds good. Could you take Toby with you? He could use some manners. Of course, anyone else walks with him and supposedly he's fine. They want me to believe it's me he's protecting when he acts that way. I'm not sure how I feel about that... yes, i am, I hate it!

I love to hear that you are taking care of yourself. I'm excited for the changes you will see in the near future. I too am refreshing my steps here. I hope we both see success.

I'm cheering for you!


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REALLY_ROBIN 6/20/2012 2:56PM

    Love it, Candi!!! I really like the idea of you volunteering before you dive head long into school too! I've just gotten back into making progress again as well! Last night was weights and tonight is my first cardio in the gym in along time. I had been going on walks outside, but it's not the same as pushing it on the machines at the gym for me. I love your comment about not restarting....but making forward progress again!!! I'm chearing you on girl....from the north!!! We can do this!!!

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IFDEEVARUNS2 6/20/2012 2:17PM

    Welcome back among the running! And carry water at all times - that's what my Galloway group insists on.... emoticon

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IRISHBEANERGAL 6/20/2012 1:59PM

    To quote Charlie Sheen... "WINNING" (LOL)

I love all the positive stuff here - and that you are gettin' your groove back. It's time for both of us to kick this into high gear again!

Keep up the great work!

~Irish

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PARASELENIC 6/20/2012 1:50PM

    "Thank goodness there's no limit on the number of times we get to resume this journey. Note the word 'resume' and not 'restart'. I didn't stop. I just wasn't making forward progress. I was dithering about off the beaten path, but never straying too far away. Eating a full sleeve of Ritz crackers.. half a dozen slices of cheese.. two or three servings of pasta at once.. not good choices, but not the end of me and my world as I know it. "

Oh man, like words out of my mouth! I'm on my 3rd or 4th resume right now, too....

I love your plan with the dog training and the humane society! Please keep us updated on how Maggie is doing! (By the by: how old is she? Is she still puppy, or is that just her personality-- "high-energy"?)


As much as I would love to volunteer at the humane society, there is no way I could do anything that so directly relates to animals-- we have enough already, but I know I would take more home!

And:
Way to go on the running, even when there was significant pull not to, and how fitting that moment was the one where your "runner-ness" was validated!

It's weird, the times when you push yourself, beyond your own desires, how utterly rewarding and accomplished that can be.

This blog was full of triumph. Keep posting!

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LIVE2RUN4LIFE 6/20/2012 1:43PM

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LISA01605 6/20/2012 1:16PM

    I love hearing from you! Sounds like you are doing well!

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GETFIT2LIVE 6/20/2012 1:01PM

    Yay for you, Candy! This really is just a time to 'resume' rather than 'restart'--and you're doing it the right way. One choice at a time, trying to make the best choice we can at the time. Great idea to take Maggie to the Reactive Rover class, I hope it helps a whole lot--and volunteering at OHS should be both fun and a learning experience. WOO HOO for you!

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COOP9002 6/20/2012 12:57PM

    Sounds like you're making progress.

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