Monday, January 30, 2012
I was going to blog this morning, whining and whinging about how horrible yesterday was. See, I woke up and did my weekly weigh-in. I was up nearly 2 lbs, even though I did everything right last week. I hit the gym, I ran, I walked, I ate on plan, I didn't cheat, I just had a good week and my efforts weren't reflected by the number on the scale. I chalked it up to water retention, because I had a couple of meals last week that were too/high in sodium. That's a logical explanation, right? Yes, it is, but rather than deal with it logically and not allow myself to be derailed, I indulged in a pity party. What pity party would be complete without cake? Or in my case.. scones.
Whatever. Yesterday was a bad day. But it was also a good day, a day that I should have been thankful for, rather than a whiny brat about. It was a good day because I was alive.
CH0718, a team member on the Half Marathon SparkTeam, created a discussion thread on the team board about this. Hat-tip of thanks to CH0718.
Please read this blog:
THAT is why my crappy Sunday was a good day.
That could be any of us. Recall my blog a long while back about the creep who cruised me in his car? Yea, I do.
Will you join with me and who knows how many others as we run to honor Sherry Arnold? As Beth, the original blogger at Shut Up and Run said...
"GO. Run as far and as long as you want. Walk, hike, cycle, rollerblade if you donít want to or canít run."
I will take my crappy day anytime compared to the alternative.
Thursday, January 26, 2012
Today is a Penguin toe-sock kind of day.
Yes, I'm walking around my floor without my shoes, because Penguin toe-socks should be shared.
Tonight, I run. 3.5 - 4 miles.
Tonight, I play shoot-'em-up with Bill and take out marauding Zombies in Resident Evil Darkside Chronicles.
Tomorrow I sleep in, then snuggle with marauding puppies on the couch, then take them walking as a pack.
Saturday, I run with the Tribe for the first time since last October. I'm super-excited about that. It'll be another easy 3.
Beyond that, I have no idea what the weekend will hold, and I'm kind of liking it that way.
What are your weekend plans?
Tuesday, January 24, 2012
What drives you?
Persistence (I probably drive Karen42Boys up the wall since she revealed her superhero name is Persistah! I LOVE that name, truly, and refer to her as that a LOT because she is raw awesomeness). Patience. Determination. Want-power. Stubbornness.
Nowhere in there do you see the word Ďperfectioní Ďcause it just ainít happeniní now, lemme tell ya!
Sorry, slipped back into my back-home twang there for a moí.
Anyway.. how often have we heard that phrase? ________, not perfection. Fill in your own blank, itís different for each one of us.
I exchanged messages the other day with a dear friend (the owner of one third of my brain, Gayle). She asked how I got myself re-motivated, and I fought long and hard on how to respond to her question. See, I donít consider myself motivated. In fact, I consider myself de-motivated. Or maybe that should be re-de-motivated. Let me explain.
Last year was the year of 10 lbs. It was also the year of two Half marathons, tons of Zumba classes, lots of lifting, lots of training, and lots of healthier eating.
Letís not forget it was also the year of lots of Struggle Ė more emotionally than physically. Yes, it deserves a capital S.
This year, Iíve changed tactics. This year, Iím easing up. Last year I went full bore (or at least it felt like it to me) and I burned myself out. I can see this in hindsight (what a grand thing it is, eh?).
This year, Iíve cut back on Zumba Ė itís a great workout and I love my Zumba ladies, but I realized I was tired of getting home at 7:45-8:00 at night, when Iím used to going to bed at 8:30 (especially when itís so flippiní dark so stinkiní early). I was tired of eating dinner so late, being starved because of it, burning oodles of calories but then eating them right back on when combing my Zumba burn and running burn. It was too much, and something had to give.
Well, I gave up EVERYTHING for a while, and now Iím slowly getting back to feeling good, and feeling better about myself and my efforts. Still and all, thereís a part of my brain thatís shouting ĎSLACKERí because Iím not working as hard as I was. I keep reminding myself that itís alright. I have a plan.
Monthly release of poundage? 2.5 lbs. Thatís right Ė 2 Ĺ lbs. 40 ounces. A month, not a week, a MONTH. Thatís IT. Thatís all I want. That will be 30 lbs in a year, yíall. Check out my ticker Ė yep, thatís my plan for the entire YEAR.
Calorie burn per week? On Spark, the calorie burn per week is around 1320. Thatís all. I will increase that number as my mileage increases with training, and Iíll adjust/allow for that.
Iím also using my BodyBugg, and on that site, Iíve set my desired calorie burn per day to 2700. Most days, I achieve that burn. Sometimes, itís in the low 2400s, but then itíll average out with a few low 2800s. Overall, Iím averaging a pretty good burn each day.
Zumba classes may be added back into the schedule once the days lighten/brighten up some and it doesnít appear to be midnight by 5 pm. Thatís important to me, as it likely is for many of you Ė the want and NEED for more sunlight in our lives.
The thing is.. I was unhealthy, unmotivated, and unhappy for a large part of my adult life. Letís say from age 20 (when I had my daughter, lost some babyweight, but then started packing on more and More and MORE lbs) on. Iím 44 now. I started Spark two years ago in May.
For 22 years, I lived an unhealthy life and lifestyle. Who am I to expect that suddenly, Iím going to lose 120 lbs in one year? Really? One year versus 22? Hmm.
Donít take me wrong. I love Love LOVE the inspirational stories and people here on SparkPeople. I absolutely DO, and they help me when Iím feeling down and out. Theyíre not me, though. For whatever reason, I was not persistent enough, driven enough, determined enough, consistent enough, stubborn enough.. _______ enough to be one of those people who drops all the excess weight in 12 months.
I WILL be one of those people in 3 years.. 4 years.. at some point in my lifetime. I mean, what else do I have to do? Iím battling 22 years worth of bad choices. 22 years worth of not caring. 22 years worth of unhealthy eating. 22 years worth of emotional baggage. 22 years worth of taking the easy way. 22 years worth of fat having made itself at home on my frame. I have FAT older than some of you out there!*
I didnít reach my goal in 12 months? 24 months? Boo-to-the-*blEEpiní*-Hoo for me.
Prepare for a simple statement of fact:
I cannot undo 22 years worth of negative with only 20 months worth of positive. Maybe you can. Maybe someone else can. I cannot.
Yíknow what though?
Iím learning to be ok with that. I have the next 22 years to decide what kind of life I want to live, what kind of body I want to have, what kind food I want to eat, what kind of person I want to be.
So yea.. Iím re-de-motivated. Iím doing things differently. Iím taking my time, trying really hard not to sweat the small stuff, learning to appreciate loses and gains of all kinds, and working hard at being ok with being me. THAT is what is driving me.
Iím not motivated. I am learning, still, to be patient. I am stubborn. I am determined. I will do this, no matter how long it takes.
What are YOU doing for the next 22 years?
*(Ok, not really, I know, fat cells regenerate, but allow me the silly license with reality to make my point, please and thank you)
Thursday, January 19, 2012
Tonight wasn't anything special, but in a way it was. I went for a run tonight. The rain had slacked off enough that I was able to get outside. I ran my usual route, through the neighborhood, down to the gym with an extra block thrown in to make sure I got at least 3 miles. I ended up with 3.25. Nice.
The thing is.. it was a Great run, and it was Great because of you.
If you're cooped up in the house because of the weather..
If you want to run but can't for whatever reason..
If you've just finished a 5K, 10K, Half or Full Marathon..
If you're training for your first walk or run event..
If you're sad and lonely..
If you're on top of the world..
If you're struggling..
If you can't kick those last few pounds..
If you're supporting your Spark Family..
If you're supporting me..
If you're in need of support..
If you've lost 2 lbs or 120...
If you're trying to live the healthy lifestyle, one day at a a time..
I took you with me this evening, so grateful for how you have buoyed me up lately and kept me on the positive side of things.
I listen to techno when I run, for the thump, the bass, the beat. Tonight, this song queued up and really made me think of you.
Ok, so it's not exactly deep on meaning when you listen to the lyrics, but there are a few gems.
Let's join hands, it ain't to late
Let's keep on focus and concentrate
Money can't buy you love that counts
It's only for real when your heart starts to bounce
Keep on concentrating and bouncing. We may slow down, we may need to catch our breath, we may even stumble, but we will not be stopped.
Wednesday, January 18, 2012
I was on a mini-streak clear up until Thursday last week. I had gotten out to run on each scheduled day and gotten my mileage in. And then Thursday came along and we started our quest to add another puppers to the family and I allowed myself.. chose.. decided.. to not get my run in on Thursday or Saturday, and did not make it to the gym on Friday. I also bagged Monday's gym visit, claiming to be too tired. Yep, that's right, I was too tired from doing nothing.
Apparently change, even GOOD change, can set me off-kilter and for some reason my brain takes this as a signal to turn into a she-slug for multiple days.
So.. to rectify the situation, I ran 2 miles with Coach Nicole last night.
See, we've had a few days of colder temps and rain, and last night we were suppose to receive several inches of snow. I knew I needed to run - it was imperative, I MUST RUN! But I was feeling whiny and didn't want to go out in the cold and the wet, so I cut myself a deal - use the treadmill and you can go only 2 miles.
I headed downstairs.. what? Yes, I have a treadmill in the basement. I know, you're right. Absolutely right! There's NO excuse not to get my runs done. I know.
So I got downstairs and decided to pop in a DVD to watch while I'm running. It's been far too long since I've been down there, so I checked to see what DVD was in the player. It's Coach Nicole's Fit Firm and Fired Up. Awesome! I still need to find her new DVD at Target soon. Maybe this weekend.
I set the DVD to play all the workouts, turned on the giant oscillating fan, and climbed on the treadmill. So while Coach Nicole was her sunny shiny self leading Sparkers everywhere through awesome workouts, I was running away on the treadmill with music playing on my headphones. I said I wanted to watch a DVD, not listen to one.
2.2 miles and 30 minutes later, I opted to stop. It's been a while since I've been on the treadmill, but it went alright. I used to walk at 3.5 mph and run at 4.0 Last night I walked at 4.0 and ran at 5.0. I appreciate improvement.
Tonight, the gym. No really, I mean it! While I was running last night, Eunice was bouncing around uncontrollably and it made me feel sort of nauseous. Not from the motion, but from the fact that Eunice not only still exists but is so much bigger than she used to be. Sigh. So, ST tonight, with core work to see if I can't whittle my middle back down to what it was, and what it can potentially be. One day at a time, right?
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