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Sunday, October 02, 2011

I'm very happy about the arrival of Ms. Poppy (I think I'll call her Ms. all her life, I don't know. I called her Bump before she was, born, but that's another story..) so I wanted to document that separately. Overall, this has been an emotional weekend from h*ll and I didn't want to taint the goodness, pure beauty and love that is a new baby, with my issues.

I'm honest with you all, by extension of being honest with myself. I don't always share everything though, and that's simply the nature of living your life privately and only allowing glimpses at the bigger, more general picture.

I think things have been building up lately, moreso than usual. There are always stresses and issues and ups and downs in life. For whatever reason, it's all built up and spilled over Saturday morning.

I'm registered to run the Girlfriend's Half Marathon on October. 16. I'm registered. I've been training half-heartedly. I was supposed to run 7 with the Galloway group Saturday morning, and wrap up with an extra 3 to 5 on my own, since last weekend's run of 14 miles was a failure. Why? My legs were hurting, my right shin was aching, and to top it all off, I got stung by a bee, on my ankle, between the tongue of my shoe and my ankle. Sigh. It just was not meant to be. I may have been able to continue on if it weren't for the fact that the floodgate of tears opened up. I cried all the way back to my car because.. well, just because. It didn't hurt that badly, but it did sting, and I was just a mess.

I'm not overtrained for that Half. If anything, I'm undertrained. My head though. My head and my heart simply are not in it. I don't have the excited anticipation that I had with the Foot Traffic Flat Half in July. I have a senses of blahs. Not quite dread, but nothing really positive. Well, that's not entirely true. There are other Sparkers and friends who are doing the Girlfriends, so I think that makes it a cool event, from a personal standpoint. But from a running standpoint? Nope. Just not feeling it. I feel like I've paid for it, so I should at least show up and make the attempt. I may feel better emotionally between now and then. It could happen. Or I could feel worse, and totally avoid the event all together. I don't know yet. I just don't.

Yesterday, all that not knowing came pouring out. As I got ready to leave to meet up with the Tribe, I paused and told Bill that my head and my heart just aren't in it. Then I fell apart. More waterworks, more sobbing, more... emotional wreckage. He gave me permission not to go if I didn't feel it (not that I needed permission, or maybe I did need someone to say 'it's ok'..) so I stood in the kitchen crying my heart out for a half hour. Then I went a little sideways, and got out of my running capris and changed into jeans. I asked Bill to help me harness up the puppies, and to drive us out to the Gorge.

I've been wanting to go to the Gorge, to see our waterfalls, all summer. We just never took the time to do it. I love reading Roxxxit's blogs about her hikes, and the pictures she shares, because I WANT to do those things. I don't feel like I have time to do them though because I'm running on Saturday mornings, then playing catch-up the rest of the weekend with chores and errands.. or by sitting watching every episode of Grey's Anatomy on Netflix and not stirring off the love seat except for going potty and to eat everything in the snack cabinet. Yea, I did that last Friday and Sunday. Nice, huh?

So he got himself together, we got the girls in their harnesses, and got in the car. It's a short drive out to the Gorge, and we stopped often to let the girls out to potty and stretch their legs. One of the main waterfalls I wanted to visit was Bridal Veil falls. I've only been there once before, years ago. Like 5 years ago. At that time, I was able to walk down to the water, but could not walk up a series of steps to the platform to view the falls. It was too much for me. Walking back up to the parking area was too much for me, then, too. I had to stop several times along the way up stairs and the inclined paths.

This time? We made it all the way down to the platform.

It was beautiful, and it was good. This is not to say that I didn't cry 60% of the trip out to the Gorge, or along the way down to the falls. Or during the rest of the trip. I did. We spent 3 hours driving through the Gorge, stopping at falls, walking the girls, simply being outside. I knew enough that if I stayed in the house, I'd end up staring at the tv all day, or curled up in bed all day. I didn't want to give in to that completely.

After our getaway, we then did a little bit of errand running. I didn't realize until we were done and home for the day how horrible I looked. I hadn't put on make up, my eyes were swollen, my face was blotchy, I must have looked as bad as I felt. I don't normally go out in public looking horrible if I can avoid it. I'm vain enough to want to look at least presentable, and I simply didn't.

What I did do was eat a bag and a half of potato chips for dinner. Lovely, eh? Whatever. I logged it. I mean, really? What's the point of logging it? So I can say I did? So I can claim it and be righteous and say I'm starting over? I don't know if I am. I'm not out of this funk. I'm not crying as much today, but there are tears. There's also a plan.

I've mapped out how far it is to run a while from my office, along the waterfront. I know the distance. I know approx. how long it'll take. I don't know how my legs/muscles/shins will react. I don't know if I'll be able to run it, or if I'll be walking it. I don't know.

I don't know.

I don't.

Maybe I'll run. Maybe I'll cry my way along. Maybe I'll have some revelation, some epiphany, some resolve. Or maybe I'll give up, come home, and turn on Grey's Anatomy and use that as an excuse to cry some more. I'm a mess guys, and while I love supporting you and cheering you on - and I appreciate the fact that you do the same for me - right now I don't even know if I can do it for myself, and I know no one else can do it for me. But I'm trying.

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MILLY61 10/6/2011 1:59PM

    I have been busy and have not managed to get to Spark for a week or so and so I have only just read your blog.
Wow, you are so honest and so reflective about yourself. I admire that.
And you know how to take care of yourself too, you knew that staying home would make you feel so much worse and your spirit cried out to be in the fresh air, experiencing the natural world...that is so healing.
If running, is causing stress, is it the right thing to do? If the fact that you're not inspired to run this time is making you feel lacking in some way, is that ok? Is it ok to be telling yourself that you're failing at something?
Run if it feels good and right..........hike if it feels good and right........whatever you do is right and you are wonderful.
Be happy Candy xxxxxx

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REALLY_ROBIN 10/4/2011 8:50AM

    Candy...sorry you are feeling down. And you truly are such a great friend to all of us! I agree with the others, sounds like you need some rest and I think going to the waterfalls was a great choice. Sometimes it gets really hard just how much time getting into shape takes. And then add to that the aches and pains that go with it, it can be very discouragaing. Sounds like maybe things are out of balance, which is so easy to do. The highlight in all of it is've made remarkable progress...I'm sure you made it back to the parking lot with incredible ease, compared with five years ago. Time to celebrate the little and not so little victories!!! My heart is with you as you work through this. Lots of love...Robin

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WALKAWAY 10/3/2011 3:00PM


I hope that your feeling better today. Wish I knew what to do to help, but all I can do is send emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon and more emoticon's. I truly believe that every now and then you just have to have a good old fashion cry (and I usually eat my way through the kitchen too.) I get really emotional at times and my DH just gives me that look like emoticon(like really?????) I let too much "stuff" weigh me down, usually other peoples "stuff", try to be too much of a people pleaser and make everyone but me happy. Sunday I made a point of sitting outside and soaking up the sun between loads of laundry, etc. Felt good.

Hang in there. You've got so much to be proud of don't forget that.


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BLACKROSE_222 10/3/2011 12:50PM

    I'm so sorry to hear this. I wish I could make it all go away, but I can't. I think a good rest might really help - listen to your body. HUGS

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KIMSPDX 10/3/2011 11:45AM

    Huge hugs to you. And thank you for sharing your downs as well as your ups. I don't have any words of wisdom. Just wanted to tell you I hear you.

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HEALING_LORI 10/3/2011 11:17AM

    Candy.... First of all I need you to know how much of an extra super-duper special friend you are to me and so many others!
You have picked me up so many times when I've been down and I appreciate it so very much. I think it's this honesty that makes you even more special, to let us know you are human like the rest of us. We all fall into these ruts once in a while and need support to drag us out. I wish I was near you so you could take me to see those "BEAUTIFUL" falls and go hiking in the fresh air. I think everyone could use the fresh air once in a while to clean out our lungs, minds, souls, spirits, ect....
I hope you are feeling a bit better today, but if not - meh - take the time for yourself! Sit and watch Grey's, cry if you need to! We all need "ME" time to reset our minds and search for what we are truly missing to make us feel better. Maybe, like everyone is mentioning, you need to take a break from the "races" and the "tribe runs" and just do some fun running. Maybe you could try something new!?!?!

I bet seeing that beautiful "Ms." of yours at the end of the month will be extra special. Look forward to that time to rejuvenate!!!
It also sounds like you have a great hubby by your side! And those two furbabies of yours...... sosososo CUTE!

Sending BIG HUGS your way!!!

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BAILEE_GRAVES 10/3/2011 5:46AM

    Awwww heart just broke reading this blog. I just want to make it all ok for you.

I don't know what is the right thing to do but I do know this; if running is creating that kind of stress in your right now, maybe it's time to put it to the side and just do it for fun. Forget the runs; the races; the Tribe. And just let it be about you and the pavement. It sounds like you and Bill had a wonderful time out and about with the girls and congrats for making it up the falls!! I know that success is incredibly rewarding.

But I personally think your heart has been missing those kind of things and perhaps that's why your having a hard time. If you're focusing all your attention on running and not enjoying life.....maybe it's time to change course for a little while.

What's the point of getting healthy if you can't enjoy it??

I know that you'll find it in you Candy. I know that this time will pass and you'll move forward stronger than ever before. BUT don't beat yourself up for how you're feeling now. We all go through the valley; there's nothing wrong with that. Unless you stay there. So allow yourself this time. IT'S OK! You have the tools and the skills to wallow in it for a time and then you'll have the strength to pull yourself out of it. I know you will.


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GETFIT2LIVE 10/3/2011 1:28AM


Running and especially running races should be FUN. When it stops being fun, it's time to do what you did, STOP and go do something you really want to do. Leave the running behind and do something else for awhile that brings you joy, like going for a walk with the dogs, dancing around the house, or whatever does it for you. I hope the funk lifts soon for you; take good care of yourself and do what you need to for yourself. You're worth the effort.

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IRISHBEANERGAL 10/2/2011 10:26PM

    I'm saving (most of) my comments for an email I'm composing for you. Just know that you are appreciated, and most importantly - strong and courageous for being so honest.

Look for my email. In the meantime, big (((HUGS))) to you ... and to Bill for being the support you need right now.


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IMIN2GENES 10/2/2011 8:18PM

    Oh, my dear friend! I'm so sorry you're in such a funk right now. I'm with Bill though... it's okay not to do the Girlfriends half. If it's making you feel like this then you're heart isn't in it and it just isn't worth forcing yourself to do it. It's just not worth it when you're not 100%, full on, full heart into it. Give yourself a chance to recover so your feet and shins don't hurt. Sit down and listen in the quiet. Your heart will tell you what it wants to hear. You have accomplished so much and done so well. You know you can do it.

I was so glad to read that you went hiking to the falls. That sounds like a really good soul food kind of day. You said it yourself, the last time you were there you couldn't do what you did on this trip. Be proud of that. Those pics were beautiful! Your pups are quite cute! DH isn't too bad either... LOL!

Hang in there my friend! Don't give up on yourself, 'cause I'm sure not going to give up on you! You are worth it!

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DDESERTDDAWN 10/2/2011 6:44PM

    I'm not a runner. Not even near. But you've been an inspiration to me in your honesty. so thank you!

Sounds like you need a good cry! Go for it, blotchy and all. I love what was said about sweat and tears looking a lot alike. Go for it. Cry and don't fear what needs coming out. Ad what needs calming.

thanks for the honesty and the perserverence and the reminder that being healthy is about enjoying and being part of life! Even if that means crying into a beautiful waterfall.

cheers for tears,
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JOELLEY23 10/2/2011 6:43PM

    i'm sorry you're in such a funk. i know how difficult those can be. all i can really say is that it won't last forever, and in the end you'll be stronger when you come out the other side of it. also, if your not up to your half-marathon, don't do it. i would hate for you to kill your love of running because you forced yourself into it when you weren't mentally up for it. emoticon i hope you feel better. also, bees suck, i would have cried too.

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NEWHORIZONSR4ME 10/2/2011 6:28PM

    Hi Candy~ I'm sorry you are having a rough patch. I know you worked really hard to get where you are and that you don't want to go back to where you were. I don't have any wise words for you, but I wish I did. Staying fit and healthy takes time, commitment, and determination. If you want to stay fit you need to work at it. There is no alternative. Myself, I've lost a lot of the "high" feeling of the journey and am kinda just dragging along. It takes a lot of self-talk to get on my bike, but once I'm on it, I have a great time. I guess the honeymoon is over, and it's onto the hard work of doing this for the rest of my life! On another note, I owe you a HUGE THANKS for posting about all your running experience. I started the Rookie C25K in August and haven't exactly kept up with it, but I'm doing my own thing and I'm getting stronger all the time. I totally credit you and your enthusiasm for piquing my curiousity about running and "could I really run?" I love it. My favorite time to run is around dinner time to sunset which is really weird because generally I like to exercise early in the day. Anyhow, I hope your funk passes and that you learn what is triggering your emotions so much. Until then wear some tighter pants as a reminder not to eat too much. It works for me!

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BIGMAMAT 10/2/2011 5:51PM

    My precious sparkfriend. emoticon it must have been the week for melt downs, or maybe you felt my pain all the way across the country which lead to your melt down or visa versa.
At any rate, we are not to be stopped. We are sparkers afterall. Sending love across the miles. Tricia emoticon

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NUTSNUTSGETEM 10/2/2011 5:37PM

    Sorry you are having a s%&^y couple of weeks. You're entitled to feel the way you do.

Maybe if you look at the girlfriends half as a long training run/walk for the next big thing, that will help. Going in just to finish - not to PR. Going in to run a little, walk a little. You know, sweat can look a lot like tears. So, if you're still feeling down, you can cry, and no one will be able to tell.

Next time though, cut back to just a bag of chips instead of a bad and a half - there's always room for improvement!

Congratulations on becoming an Aunt again!

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TURTLERASKIN 10/2/2011 5:09PM

    Candy, first of all, I think you're terrific, not just for how inspirational you are, but also because you're being so honest here. You're definitely going through the wars right now, and I wish there were something I could do to help. I also track my bad stuff, because it's a habit now to track and also I don't want to pretend I didn't do it. I got where I am in life, in many different aspects of life, by lying to myself (or at least not being totally honest).

Hang in there. The funk will pass. Maybe you just need a couple weeks off, and then a rededication. All I know is that you're a terrific person, no matter what, and I'm behind you.

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TRILLIUM22 10/2/2011 4:27PM

    Candy, no matter what your exercise is you have to have time to enjoy your new fitness. You can't push, push, push. Your hike is proof positive that you have gotten more fit. If you are doing tough "exercise days" without activities that you enjoy you will emotionally and mentally burnout. Give yourself a break to just enjoy.

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CASSIOEPIA 10/2/2011 4:05PM

    Sometimes life just catches up with us and our crazy ideas and patterns. Take a couple days off, or toned down, and try to get some extra rest the next few nights.

Sounds like your visit to the Gorge was fabulous, and what a realization that you can now do things that not very long ago, you couldn't. There are successes to find and celebrate, even on our lowest days.

Hope you feel better soon.

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ROXIT22222 10/2/2011 3:42PM

    Candy what a blog! I've always appreciated you cheering me on, it's gotten me through some tuff spots. I'm glad I've inspired you to come out and see my 'gym' it's soo pretty right now. Funny is the Bridle Vail falls is one we haven't done during this time. I hate that road down with all the loose pea gravel.

You've inspired me to want to run more, or not be afraid to run more. I am thinking of doing the Hot Butter Run Thanksgiving weekend and I hope you will be feeling more like doing it then too.

It sounds like it could be burn out. Having pushed so hard on one actiite that you are now 'board' with it. To be honest I'm kind of boared of my gorge hikes. I'm actually looking forward to a month of gym work out with some hikes on weekends.

It's ok to cry and be frustrated. You did great with getting out and still doing something, by not staying on the couch and watching tv all day you won the fight!

You will get through this. It's also hard because of the weather change, with so little summer this year it's hard to see that forcast with all the rain. Interesting as I'm writing about this my husband is on the phone talking to his brother about the winter blahs!! So it's already starting....

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SUSUSUZZZIE 10/2/2011 3:05PM

    Candy, you brought tears to my eyes too. I'm so sorry you are feeling this way and I wish I could give you a hug and cry with you in person. LOL! I think it is awesome that you took the opportunity to go for a drive and see the falls. And awesome that you were able to do something you couldn't do last time. I think being out in nature is super-good for the soul. So even if it didn't cure your woes, I'm sure it helped.

I track my bad stuff because I feel like it makes me own it and take responsibility for it. I'm afraid if I didn't track it, I would let that open the door to eating more chips and cheetos and not tracking and I don't want to go there. So good for you!

Keep listening to your body and take care of it and your heart and soul. I hope you find a way out of the funk really soon! Wishing you a marvelous Sunday! (Even if you cry some more).

By the way, as much as it makes me sad to hear about your crying, I understand. I'm a crier too. Sometimes I think we just got to let it out. Hope you feel better soon!

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DARK_CINDERELLA 10/2/2011 2:55PM

    While you are right in saying no one can pull you up but you, I want to reiterate that you have friends here. Amazingly enough, just as GAYEMC said, there's a funk in the air. We feel you. We care. We love you, even if it's just over the interwebs. We support you. And whatever is in our power, we will be for you. I won't tell you to "chin up" or things will get better. I don't know that. What I know, though, is you are not alone.

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AUNTKITTY 10/2/2011 2:42PM

    Oh my goodness - you need a rest. It sounds like your tear ducts are just trying to tell you something - and maybe it's that - RIGHT NOW - you don't need to be running/pushing so hard. Maybe you just need to go to that beautiful gorge and just BE yourself?

Whatever it is, try to listen, and you'll get through it.

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GAYEMC 10/2/2011 2:39PM

    Oh Candy, you just brought tears to my eyes. I had a melt down Tuesday and had to take the rest of teh week off. There must be something in the air, or is it just the clouds. Poppy is beautiful!

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Sunday, October 02, 2011

My little sister (she'll always be my little sister, she's 6 years younger!) had her first girl, third child on Friday. I'd like to introduce to you...

Ms. Poppy Elizabeth

My sister grew up calling me Sissy, so now I'm Aunt Sissy to the boys

**Edited to explain** This is ME with Liam (left) and Zak, not my sister.

I'm flying down to Ft. Worth (they live an hour or so southwest for Ft. Worth) on the 21st of this month to meet the newest member of our family. I can't wait. Poppy has some very squeezable cheeks, and I'm pretty sure baby toes are fat/calorie free! I'm very happy to be an Aunt again, and can't wait to see my boys and my newest girl!

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BESTCK 10/4/2011 1:45PM

    Congrats on your new addition!

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BLACKROSE_222 10/3/2011 12:42PM

    So cute! Thanks for sharing, and congrats Auntie!

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HEALING_LORI 10/3/2011 10:28AM

    Awwww..... so so cute! Congrats Aunt Sissy and welcome to the world Little Ms. Poppy!
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BAILEE_GRAVES 10/3/2011 5:37AM

    She is a beauty!! And a couple of handsome boys there with Aunt Sissy!!

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IRISHBEANERGAL 10/2/2011 10:54PM

    This sounds amazing! Congrats, Auntie!


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IMIN2GENES 10/2/2011 8:05PM

    Aww! They are all too cute! Congratulations aunt Sissy!

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DDESERTDDAWN 10/2/2011 6:30PM

    AWwww what a happy addition!


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BIGMAMAT 10/2/2011 5:41PM

    She's beautiful! what a nice addition to already a beautiful family. That makes me smile emoticon

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TURTLERASKIN 10/2/2011 5:06PM

    Aww, cute baby and cute boys! I think being an aunt is one of my greatest joys in life -- so happy you'll get to see li'l miss Poppy soon!

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TRILLIUM22 10/2/2011 4:29PM

    Congratulations Aunt Sissy.

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SUSUSUZZZIE 10/2/2011 2:50PM

    Congratulations! Poppy is precious and what a cute name! Awesome that you get to fly down for a visit (and maybe it will be warmer and dryer there)!
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AUNTKITTY 10/2/2011 2:44PM

    She is beautiful - and what fun it will be spoiling a girl after the two boys!

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GAYLEP67 10/2/2011 2:20PM

    Gorgeous family, Candy! Glad you're able to fly down to see them in a few weeks. You can definitely tell that you and your sister are family but I don't know that I buy that she's 6 years YOUNGER than you.

Congrats again, Auntie!!


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ROXIT22222 10/2/2011 2:03PM

    Awe.... And yes baby toes are fat/calorie free. In fact they my even be a 'fat reducer" :)

How fun is that going to be for you guys.

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I have a Dilemma…

Thursday, September 22, 2011

It’s a good dilemma to have I suppose, although it does leave me feeling a bit sheepish.

So last weekend, I weighed in, recorded that weight, and my measurements. I’ll do the same thing this Sunday to keep consistent. Last weekend, I weighed 229.6. I expected the gain from the family visit and allowing myself to over-indulge far too often on too many not-so-healthy choices.

I weighed this morning, because I’m nosy. I weighed 222.2. Now, we all know it’s not logical for a body to drop 7.4 lbs in just 4 days. At least, not this body, at this stage of my journey.

Why sheepish? I guess because maybe I should have been more patient, waited out the water weight, etc. and so on. Then again, I have been kickin’ big ole bootay this week, hitting the gym three nights in a row so far and sweatin’ my patoot off in a serious manner.

Having said that, I am considering suspending my attendance at the group workout class until AFTER the Girlfriends’ in October. I’m still pretty frustrated with the class and how it's being run, and made some poor decisions about the state of my legs and my muscles, and now because of those poor decisions, my legs are shot. I’m supposed to run 14 this weekend with the Tribe as a last long run before the Half. Fortunately, I have an extra week on the rest of the team (they’re running the Portland Half on Oct. 9, I’m running Girlfriends’ on Oct. 16, one week later) so if this long slow one goes badly, I have a chance to recoup and try again next weekend.

Anyway, there’s always a chance that I could go hog wild and eat back on 5 lbs between now and Sunday. It’s not likely of course, but we just never know, do we? Heh.

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DDESERTDDAWN 9/25/2011 2:30AM

    What a great dilemna. What great honesty and support from people who know you. Thanks for sharing it all here. Hope all goes well with the 'real' weight, the real decision and the legs!

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LOSING4LASTTIME 9/23/2011 10:52PM

    Yay for you. I agree you should suspend the class if you are frustrated with it, take care of the legs.

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MALKS_ARIA 9/23/2011 3:43PM

    So I have never had quite that big of a "sneak peek" coming in that big (but i have had 6) ... the next day.. I was back up at the "average" so don't focuz on the 7 so much... as keep doing what you need to do!

and also... I agree if you are having issues, and are concerned about the class, skip it!! You and your legs are worth more than a badly ran class!


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BARBGEO 9/23/2011 1:03PM

    I think you have to do what your heart says... and dang it! if even half of that 7 lbs is truth you ROCKED IT! Let us know what the outcome is!!! Inquiring minds and all that (nosy women!!!)

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MUSTANG_SALLY2 9/23/2011 9:44AM

    Wow! That's quite the dilemma. I think if the running is more important, then it'd be wise to focus on that for a bit, especially til after the big race in Oct. Then all you'd have to do is focus on that and eating well. Not too difficult. I'd love to know what you decide and how the long run goes this weekend. I'm cheering for you!


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DITZYCHICK 9/23/2011 9:32AM

    First of all...CONGRATULATIONS on your sneak peek!!! Every once in a while I'll hop on the scale for a peek, just for a little encouragement to make it through the weekend. Your peek is definitely encouragement!

As for your workout class...I think you just need to listen to your body, it'll tell you what it needs. If you feel like it's too much on your legs, then perhaps it is. Just listen closely so that you can keep doing those things that you enjoy...injury free!

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SUSUSUZZZIE 9/22/2011 8:58PM

    Congrats! That must have been a wonderful surprise! And I really don't think you're going to give up your plan and risk putting those pounds back on. LOL!
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It's wonderful to know it was just the sodium, etc. and getting back on plan helped. I'm so happy for you.

Make sure to listen to your legs so you don't get sidelined. I can't wait to hear about your running progress!
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IMIN2GENES 9/22/2011 7:26PM

    LOL! I'm so happy to know that I'm not the only "nosy" one who sneaks peeks every now and then!

Sorry to hear about your class. Taking a break might not be so bad. It'll be good to reduce the stress/frustrations with it and give your legs a break. Take care of those babies. They're going to carry you to the finish in that half!

Have fun with the Tribe! Can't wait to hear all about Girlfriends'.

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KAREN42BOYS 9/22/2011 7:23PM

    yup, sodium bomb happened and you're recovering.

however imagine my eyes doing all sorts of contortions (narrowed eyes, furrowed eyes, eye rolling, etc.) about you go hog wild between now and Sunday. NOPE, not gonna happen. :)

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    psst... serves you right for sneakin' LOL (I'm kidding)

Seriously though, think about how you ate while the visit was going on... bet lots of sodium in there (fair food for one!) and now you are on track with good food, and water, etc. Wouldn't be surprised if the "dip" on the scale (no, not YOU LOL, the weight LOL) stuck around ...

Candy, you inspire me. You are so honest and upfront with your program/journey and do so with a great big healthy dose of reality balanced with a great sense of humor. You are going to be just fine!

Can't wait to hear about the runs, (umm that didn't come out right lol) and if the weight drop sticks.

~Irish (aka The Incredible Shrinking Mom)

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COOKWITHME65 9/22/2011 6:40PM

    I sneek on the scale to but never saw that much of a drop. Wouldn't it be awesome if it stuck. Take care of those legs.

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Race for the Cure - Portland, OR 9-18-2011

Monday, September 19, 2011

This weekend was the Race for the Cure event here in Portland! Here's a great video to show you just a smidgen of what it was like.

It was incredible - reports estimate around 35,000 people filled Waterfront park. We were lucky to be just a few of so many. We were also very lucky to get to meet Joelley23!

This was going to be her first-ever 5K, and I was so excited for her! As it happens, BSchrantz and Roxit22222 were also running their first 5Ks as well!
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It was such a madhouse, I mean it literally when I say we were lucky to meet up with her LOL She spotted us, and we stuck together through the line up, start, and finish of her race.

Ready to run!

Near the starting line.

Joelle running for the finish line!

Amost there!

Joelle with the MOUNTAINS of bananas LOL

We didn't get a picture of it later, but by the time we finished our 5K walk later (more on that in a moment..) the mountains were down to mere hills. Incredible!

Everywhere you looked, there was pink. I was careful not to let myself think too too much about why we were all there - y'know, that ole weepy ninny thing of mine LOL It was wonderful though to see Survivors racing through to the finish line, walking tall and strong and proud.

Bill and I, and daughter Courtney formed Team Katy. As you may (or not) recall, we lost Bill's sister Katy to cancer in May.

Bill wore his 'Real Men Wear Pink' tshirt - love it! We also printed out some pictures from our visit with Katy, and 'took her with us' on the walk.

I think she would have gotten a kick out of the whole event. The sea of people was so dense on the walk that we ended up dodging and weaving through people, trying to keep moving at a brisk pace. It still took us nearly an hour to finish, and that's alright. It was worth it.

We missed BSchrantz and Roxit22222 and GayeMC and some friends from work. Here's to having better luck finding each other at the next event!
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DARK_CINDERELLA 9/21/2011 10:17PM

    Great pics! And what a great race!

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WALKAWAY 9/21/2011 3:42PM

    emoticonon a great run. Love the fact that you took Katy with you. I'm sure she was smiling down on you. emoticon

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JOELLEY23 9/20/2011 7:06PM

    yay! we had so much fun! can't wait for the next one...i almost can't believe i got out of there in any timely matter since i was parked so close. it was a sea of people!

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GAYLEP67 9/20/2011 5:23PM

    Love the pics Candy and what a wonderful cause to support. I think taking Katy with you the way you did was lovely.

You are a class act all the way, my friend!


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KAREN42BOYS 9/19/2011 8:07PM

    sounds like it was great, and i love the way you honored katie.

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MALKS_ARIA 9/19/2011 7:52PM

    You all are awesome!!! Thank You for all you do!


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ROXIT22222 9/19/2011 7:32PM

    I'm so sorry we missed each other. If you saw Joelle off on the timed chip run than we probably where standing right next to each other! It looks like she was at the start line early too. I looked at the pictures I have and the video but don't see her or you. That doesn't mean you wheren't in them. Sooo close yet so far. We will meet up at one of these.

Nice to have taken Katy with you. I am thankfull every year that I don't have to take a picture of my mom with me. I get to take her anyoing wonderfull self. :)

My blog hopes to be up tonight.

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GAYEMC 9/19/2011 5:10PM

    I got down there about 7:15 and looked around at the fountain. The crowd wasn't too bad at that time. I also looked around at the start of the timed race but it started getting crazy crowded. Sorry I missed all of you. We'll have to make a point of meeting up and taking the bus together for teh Mayor's Race.

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SUSUSUZZZIE 9/19/2011 4:31PM

    It sounds like you and your family had a wonderful Race! Thank you for participating for all of us! And I'm sorry that you have lost someone close to you. It was very nice of you all to take her with you!

As someone who hasn't participated in a 5k or anything like it, I love reading your blog and getting a taste of what it's like. LOL!

Have a wonderful rest of your day!

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BLACKROSE_222 9/19/2011 3:42PM

    Awesome blog! Looks like a good time had by all!

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GETFIT2LIVE 9/19/2011 3:23PM

    I love that you took Katy 'with' you on your walk, because I know you did in your heart. The events that support causes near and dear to you are hands down the best of all to participate in. They can be emotional, but so worth the effort; great job!


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MUSTANG_SALLY2 9/19/2011 1:48PM

    Wow! Looks like a great event. I love the idea of your signs. So cool! Way to go!!


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Time to put my head down...

Sunday, September 18, 2011

I recently explained to Karen42Boys that when I'm running, and I get tired but know I have a ways to go yet, I'll put my head down and simply make up my mind to keep going and finish what I started. One foot in front of the other. Continual forward progress. Keep moving, and you get there eventually.

That's what I'm going to do now.

I've allowed myself to not only come to a standstill, but to actually slide backwards. This has been the first time in my nearly year and a half stint with SparkPeople that I've gained back anything substantial. If I have my way (and there's no reason why I can't have my way) it'll be the last time.

I've weighed, and I've measured, and I've recorded. I've adjusted my ticket - the little icon on the ticker is now me, kicking fat's *ss. Time to live up to my original goal. I've gotten complacent, and that's just about enough I think.

Date - 06/26/2011
Weight 222
Neck - 15.5
Chest - 38
Up. Arm - 12.5
F.Arm - 11
Waist - 38
Hip - 41
Thigh - 25.5
Calf - 18
Lean Mass - 151.87
Fat Mass - 72.21

Date - 09/18/2011
Weight 229.6
Neck - 15
Chest - 39
Up.Arm - 13.5
F.Arm - 10
Waist - 40
Hip - 41
Thigh - 26
Calf - 17.5
Lean Mass - 146.79
Fat Mass - 82.21

I've also adjusted my BodyBugg program. What's the point of having the tool if I'm not going to use it for any good?

One pound a week is all I'm aiming for. I'll even accept 1/2 lb. As long as I'm making forward progress. No more backsliding. No more complacency.

Time to put my head down and get back to work.

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DARK_CINDERELLA 9/21/2011 10:21PM

    I put my head down, too, when I hit that moment of "just-quit." This really hit home. Thanks so much! And way to have really got some spunk, girl! Way to hit those goals!

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NETGYRL 9/19/2011 12:21PM

    Time to kick some ass, lady! You can do it!

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MUSTANG_SALLY2 9/19/2011 11:34AM

    Wow! Good for you! I am right there with you. I'm stuck and not losing anything. I need to stay focused!

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NEWHORIZONSR4ME 9/18/2011 11:51PM

    You can do it!

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GAYEMC 9/18/2011 4:52PM

    I wonder how much your mother's visit played into that, lol.

I've decided that not only is there something wrong with the scale, but the measuring tape also. I took my measurements for the start of BLC17 and most had increased. I think maybe I need to tattoo measuring lines so I hit the same place.

Sorry I missed you today, but glad the rain stopped.

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SUSUSUZZZIE 9/18/2011 3:55PM

    Great job for not letting this temporary slide stop you! You have a great attitude and you can do it. And we're all here for you.

I do the same thing with putting my head down when walking up hills, running just a little longer and riding my bike up awful hills. I like the idea of relating "putting our heads down" in challenging times to other areas where we are struggling. I may use that at work.

Have a wonderful rest of your day!
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BANKER-CHUCK 9/18/2011 1:49PM

    Your Blog emulates much of my story. I to have been with Spark for over a year-and- a- half. When I injured my knee and shoulders in February my training has suffered. I put in the time but not the quality. I have introduced food back into my diet that I need to take control and push them out.
As for the running and determination I agree with you. Finishing is matter how tired you get the finish line will appears sooner-or-later. My 1st race in 7 months was the Warrior Dash this month. My lack of training reared its ugly head but my goal was to finish the entire race and all obstacles and I did and proud of the finish. Next year??? Maybe??
Thank you for your Blog and good luck to you.

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BLACKROSE_222 9/18/2011 1:28PM

    Way to refind your Spark! You can totally do this! So motivating to see you hit the bricks again! Hope the Run For The Cure is fun!

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    Great attitude! You can do this!

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TURTLERASKIN 9/18/2011 12:37PM

    Glad to see you recommitting to yourself! You can definitely do this; identify your obstacles and go over them. And if you need a kick in the pants to keep you going, let me know!

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KAREN42BOYS 9/18/2011 12:14PM

    It's fun to reignite, and I like watching you when you're feisty! Go chase this and make it happen!

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THOPPES 9/18/2011 11:36AM

    You can do it! Your inviting personality and positive attitude is what keeps me coming back. emoticon

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REALLY_ROBIN 9/18/2011 9:30AM

    You can do it! Glad to see how much determination you have, it's really inspiring to me! Hugs...Robin

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BESTCK 9/18/2011 8:03AM

    Love your attitude and love your mantra. Might have to borrow it for myself.

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CAM2438 9/18/2011 7:44AM

    Good for you! You have a great attitude.

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    I loved this motivated me to get back on track! You'll do're determined! Thanks for sharing....have a happy day!!!! emoticon

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