Wednesday, August 03, 2011
NEWHORIZONSR4ME has a great blog that has inspired me today! She shared with us some of the quotes on her 'war wall' where she's reminded of things that she's working on. What a great idea, and her quotes resounded with me, and made me think of those things that I've saved over time that speak to me in such a way as to be worth remembering.
I figured I'd share them here with youse guys!
There are moments when one feels free from one's own identification with human limitations and inadequacies. At such moments one imagines that one stands on some spot of a small planet, gazing in amazement at the cold yet profoundly moving beauty of the eternal, the unfathomable; life and death flow into one, and there is neither evolution nor destiny; only Being.
- Albert Einstein
"only Being" I try hard to remember to be. Somehow it seems as if it shouldn't be hard to 'be', you know? But to move outside of yourself, to put yourself into perspective against the world's population, the Earth herself, the universe.. "only Being" can be liberating.
To be enlightened is simply to be absolutely, unconditionally intimate with this moment. No more. No less.
- Scott Morrison
Again, more being. Be present. There will always be something to worry about in the future. There may be things that you always look back on and regret. What does either activity get you? We may never be able to completely give up worry, but harbor it less. Be in the moment. Live the present, drain every drop of experience from it, every bit of life to be had.
"I, not events, have the power to make me happy or unhappy today. I can choose which it shall be. Yesterday is dead, tomorrow hasn't arrived yet. I have just one day, today, and I'm going to be happy in it."
Groucho that is, much funnier than the other one....
I sense a theme here... LOL You are in charge of your emotions. Not that donut on the neighbor's desk. Not the too-loud cubemate whose personal phone calls provide you with FAR too much insight into their personal lives. Not the jerk who cut you off on the highway. Not the super size order of fries from the drive-thru.
It is important to recognize the power of our emotions--and to take responsibility for them by creating a light and positive atmosphere around ourselves. This attitude of joy that we create helps alleviate states of hopelessness, loneliness, and despair. Our relationships with others thus naturally improve, and little by little the whole of society becomes more positive and balanced.
- Tarthang Tulku
"attitude of joy" That is the way I want to live my life. I want to be joyful in my day-to-day experiences, and to share it with those around me. I want to be a positive spot in my interactions with others. When trouble visits, whether invited or unexpected, I will fight to find something to laugh about, joke about, to find something positive to counterbalance the negative.
I don't always succeed. I often don't succeed. I also bury my head like an ostrich to avoid dealing with troubles, struggles, negatives, what-have-you. But I believe more often than not, I am on a positive bent.
Maybe it all is a bit too Pollyanna-ish, but I'm ok with that. I am much happier on the positive side, and foster that within myself. I wasn't always like this - I was a gloomy-gus, a sour puss, down in the dumps and more often depressed than not. I wish it hadn't taken me until age 42 to get my feet under me and learn to live life rather than watch it go by, but it did. I'm making the absolute best of each day that comes my way now.
Monday, August 01, 2011
So I'm a Saturday weigher. Saturday is my official weigh-in day. It falls on Saturday in hopes of avoiding an end of the week binge. Makes sense, right?
So when I weighed myself on Saturday, I got ticked. I mean, in my head, I was livid. WTH? I did NOT gain 9 lbs in a few days! Swear-curse-swear-naughtywords-swear-swear
And then I took a breath, and looked at the display again.
No, my weight/the number on the scale had not shot up to 229 in a few days time, which is what my mind's eye initially saw. I'd actually gone from 220.8 down to 219.6. I'm so unfamiliar with a 1 trailing that 2, I was confused. Confounded. Confuzzled even!
I didn't record it though. I didn't trust it completely. I can't explain WHY I didn't trust it, other than when I record good numbers like that right off the bat, I turn around and gain back X lbs again. Not this time, skippy!
So I left my ticker alone - it's enough that I have that number in my head as do-able now.
Last night, as I sat up past my normal (8:30-9:00) bedtime until 11:00 p.m. (with my normal 4:30 a.m. wake-up time looming), watching The Bachelorette The Men Tell All (????? Really? What about that show had any bearing on my life? Sigh....) I decided I needed a snack.
Four slices of turkey breast lunchmeat, four slices of Provolone, two slices of Cheddar, and one String cheese later.....
THAT is why I don't record the initial good number. I'll lose my ever-lovin' mind and shovel unneeded calories and fat down my gob.
Welcome to August! This is NOT how we'll be spending our time this month!
I earned 2,063 fitness minutes in July.
I released 2 lbs.
I resumed running.
In August, we'll be...
Aiming for 2,100 fitness minutes.
Releasing at least 2 more lbs.
Improving my running.
Cutting back on binges and ate night mind-numbing TV viewing...
Altho that Mickey is HAWT! OhMy!
August 6th, I'm meeting up with several SparkPeople members at Race for the Homeless in Vancouver to run a 5K!
August 13th, I'm running the Pineapple Classic 5K with 4My2Kidz to raise money to fight Leukemia.
August 26th, I'm volunteering for our very own Sparkin' Hood to Coast Relay team by (wo)manning Exchange 14 for a few hours.
August 27th, I have to decide between doing an 11 mi run with the Tribe or going to Seaside to see our HTC'ers cross the finish!
Yea, I've got things to do, pounds to release, healthy food to enjoy in moderation, and big bootay to kick! My own, of course.
Friday, July 29, 2011
Today is my Friday off - W00T! We just had a delish healthy breakfast of microwave poached eggs with baco-bits on a crispy english muffin with spinach artichoke cream cheese. Mmmmmmmm'mm!
We're fixin' to get on our bikes and head out for a ride around the neighborhood before riding down to the gym to get our ST on. After we're home, we'll get cleaned up to take Maggie to the vet for her month+ check up after her epilepsy episodes.
Pretty much an uneventful day, but good none the less.
I received an email yesterday from SparkPeople - this really is the point of my blog today. That email informed me that I had been voted a SparkPeople Motivator. KBearsMama noticed the symbol on my Spark page - good eye, Robin!
Gang, I burst into tears when I read that email. Yes yes, we ALL know I'm a ninny and cry at the drop of a hat LOL Thankfully it was relatively quiet at work at the time so I could pull myself together before anyone saw me at my ninniest! Still and all, I was surprised, shocked, honored and humbled. I don't think I have sufficient words to say 'thank you' and 'who, me?' enough.
I am grateful to whoever out there among you voted for me in such a way. I'm mostly grateful because it is all of YOU who motivate me and keep me going, and keep me honest!
Thank you, my Spark family, for the Spark love. I hope I can live up to the honor.
Sunday, July 24, 2011
If you would have told me a year ago that I'd be willing to post unflattering pictures of myself on a public website, I'd have snorted.
Uh.. here we go.
July 2010, 2 months on Spark; January 2011, 8 months; July 2011, 14 months
I wish there was more change from January to now, but I'm happy for the little there is. I'm curious what the next 6 months will bring.
Friday, July 22, 2011
So I'm going through a rough patch with my hair lately. I went to get it trimmed a couple of weeks ago, after the Half (it was like I refused to get my hair cut before the Half because it might jinx me somehow).
I went back to the place where I got it cut last time, to the same girl, and told her what I was looking for - more shorter layers, less bulk, trimmed bangs, ends tidied up a bit. I had to ask her three times to thin the sides. She simply wasn't going to do it, but really, the sides were the reason I finally gave in and went back for another cut - that, and the Half was over.
Finally, she used the thinning shears on my side hair.. erm.. the hair on the side of my head! It helped take the bulk out, which is exactly what I wanted.
Now, though, I find myself with hair that's.. not quite what it used to be. It used to be more curly, or I suppose wavy is a better description. I've never been blessed with those adorable corkscrew curls that I long for. Ever. I got a perm last year, and explained I wanted corkscrew curls, but instead got really tight, close to my head, bad curls. It took a while for me to stop crying.. and for the perm to relax and be something I could deal with.
That's all gone now. Now it's sorta.. straight, but in a frizzy way. So I've been experimenting with how to style my hair. I'm a die-hard Bang-er. I love me some good ole fashioned, curled up and almost in my eyes Bangs. This week, I've been not curling under, simply going with the part, and letting it all kinda.. hang out. People at work have gotten used to my hair going from burgandy to cherry to brown to black to purple and back to red again. Now they must be wondering what has crawled atop my head and died, because it's just limp and frizzy. Can you be limp and frizzy at once? Meh.
So today, I decided to use my big barrel curling iron for GOOD. Today, I'm channeling my Inner Farrah.
Man I loved those ladies. Every girl in my grade had Farrah wings. Except me. I had short burr-cut hair. Like, it was MAYBE all of two inches, three inches all over my head. My mom didn't want to have to deal with my hair in the mornings before school, so the answer was to cut it off.
Anyway, here's my Inner Farrah look:
Yea, it's grainy. It's a Crackberry, in a poorly lit bathroom. It happens.
While I'm channeling my Inner Farrah, I'm also feeling a might skinnier.
My status says one of my coworkers yelled that I'm a skinny girl now. Karen42Boys said that would have rated them a kiss LOL I went for a bashful duck of my head, colored pink cheeks, and a great big thank you! I'll have to bust out with my July 2010 side-view pic up against a new July 2011 side-view pic. I think I'm going to be pleased!
I've got to come up with a workable hairdo. Right now, it's too long to not be pulled back out of my face somehow for running and Zumba. But, it's too short to all fit back in a ponytail, headbands don't stay in place (maybe I have an oddly shaped head?) and I hate barrets. Usually, I resort to wearing a ball cap, which is fine, but they get awfully sweaty awfully fast. I've also learned how to tie a bandana around my head, which has become a cute way of dealing with my hair as well.
Maybe I'll get it all cut off - I know, I've threatened this before, but maybe I mean it this time.
Maybe I'm more of a Jaclyn than a Farrah. Hmm.
Ah well. I may never be Charlie's Angels material, but I sure am SparkGuy's Lifestylers material!
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