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Do what's good for me..

Tuesday, June 01, 2010

I just spent 30 minutes enforcing my love/hate relationship with my treadmill. We argued about the incline - she thought it should be much steeper, and I tried to keep up but had to ease up on it. I'll get there eventually. I'll keep up with her one day. She needs a name.. any suggestions?

Anyway, I cranked up the ipod and got to moving, and this was the last song of the set as I was winding down. I almost didn't want to stop - almost!

2 Unlimited - Do what's good for me

You know I'm movin' on up, movin in
Movin' out, movin' on aw
That's what I'm gonna do
That's what I got do, yeah

Keep movin'!


~tap tap tap..~ Is this thing on?

Sunday, May 30, 2010

Hi. My name is Candy, and I'm about to contradict my SparkPage statement - I don't normally share a lot about myself, as far as blogs or public postings or suchlike things. But I'll take a stab at it now.

One winter night last year, after having our favorite dinner of spaghetti with meatsauce, I'd eaten way more than was good or healthy or sensible or logical - way more. I had the makings of a good cold going on as well, which included being congested and coughing and all-around miserable. We went to bed around the normal time - maybe 3 hours after eating dinner - and I started coughing. I was still so full from scarfing down all that spaghetti that I couldn't catch my breath while I was coughing. I couldn't lay down, I couldn't sit up, I was propped on my side, coughing. My stomach was too full, I felt like I was smothering. So I sat there coughing and struggling and crying, which didn't help the situation any. My husband rolled over to ask if I was ok, and through the tears and gasps and sobs I told him no, I was killing myself, eating myself to death, and I couldn't take it anymore.

Did I do anything about it after that? Not a whole lot. I tried to cut back on the amount I ate. I tried walking a few times, bought some scales, cut back on the multiple diet sodas I had each day and night, but it was all half-hearted. I didn't see any dramatic pay-off for these few things, and gave up. But that sad sobbing statement stuck with me from that night - I was killing myself with food, and it had to stop.

My sister had gastric bypass surgery a year previous to that, and had amazing results. I don't know exactly how much she lost, but it's probably safe to say she was half the person she used to be. I started considering that for myself, but I couldn't afford the whole deal - she'd flown to Columbia (the country, not the city) and had the surgery done there. I wasn't flying off to anywhere for any surgery. But, maybe I could do it here, at home. The expense though.. we're not rolling in money by any means, and I just didn't think I could swing it.

Time passed, as it's wont to do, and I kept thinking 'I've got to do something'. Thinking and doing are two different things, aren't they? Then, one day last month, my friend and manager at work (she's SO much more than those mere words!) asked if I'd seen this website - I glanced at it, thought it was neat, wondered if it was similar to W.W., but didn't really delve into it. Then a week or two later, I went back. Maybe there's something to this site? It's free, what did I have to lose? Well, a LOT!

This site turned out to be exactly the right thing, at the right time. The food tracker, the exercise tracker, the blogs, the articles, the emails, the recipes, the people! Molly may never know, but since I've signed up and started really using the site, I'm crediting her with helping to save my life.

So there. There's my story in brief - how I came to find I'm tracking my food, I'm tracking my exercise, I'm reading and learning and lo! I'm seeing results. I'm down 6.6 pounds since I started. I haven't lost that much weight in.. years. I couldn't tell you when. This makes sense. This makes it easier, because it's NOT easy. I tried to explain it to Molly, to my husband, to my mom.. for whatever reason, this Spark thing has struck and stuck - I'm bound and determined to kick fat's *ss off my body. Little bits and pieces at a time, I'm going to whittle down the outside, build up the inside, and claim the ME that I've always wanted to be.

Hi. My name is Candy, and I'm on my journey to a better, thinner, healthier, fitter, more fabulous me!

  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

MAKING140BY40 6/2/2010 2:17PM

    Great post! Awesome! I know we can help one another kick fat's *ss! One day at a time is how I am thinking about it. I love your last 2 sentences the most! We can do this!

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GINGYCAT40 5/31/2010 8:40AM

    Cancy..what a wonderful blog.. Thanks for sharing and I am sooooo glad you found this site. I too found this site a few years ago and only played around with it. I came back a month ago bound and determined to make lifestyle changes and become healthier.

I know YOU CAN DO THIS.. I can read and feel the determination in your blog.. You go GIrl.. your words have inspired me too!!!


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NEWYEARME 5/31/2010 7:37AM

    I'm glad that you found Spark People. I have found it to be very helpful in my weight loss journey. I have gone down this road many times before but this time, with Spark People, it seems to have turned a light on that wasn't there before. I have to look at this as a lifestyle change... not a diet.

We can do this together!!!!

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CBAILEYC 5/30/2010 7:51PM

    Thanks so much, Sherwood and PMay0313! emoticon

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PMAY0313 5/30/2010 2:43PM

    You can do it with Spark People. I had a bypass 7 years ago and lost 100 pound. I was thrilled but I gained about 15-20 of the 100 and then lost it and gained it and lost it. You get the idea. I have now lost 113.4 all together. I found SP while looking to see how many calories were in some food. I joined since it was free. Since then (Feb. 28, 2010) I have lost a little over 23 pounds and I only need to lose about 17 pounds more. I turned 50 and realize I had come into MY time. Once I decided that with the help of SP I know I will get to 142 and be health and happier with myself which is the key to happiness with with everything else. Just remember it is a journey and there are hundreds of tolls (bypass, SP and loads of others). They only work when you are ready to do it. Sounds like you are ready. Good luck and remember we are all in this boat together. Yell out if you need ever help!!
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    Hey! I am so glad you found Spark People. It really is a great source of tools and, well...inspiration.

And I am so wishing you a continued success with this Spark journey. It sounds to me that you are well on your way.

All the best,

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