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10 lbs lighter and feeling mighty fine!!

Sunday, March 03, 2013

Oh hey....that's me!!

I'm addicted to my camera, so I figured I'd post a picture for anyone who may read this, so you can see the mind behind the blog!

I'm proud to say that I have reached my February goal and have shed 10lbs, bringing me down to a slightly slimmer 255! I am beyond thrilled, believe me.... but I have been dwelling on one simple fact all day: I can't see a difference. Don't get me wrong; I completely understand that I won't see a difference THAT fast....but still, I've always been self-conscious in a way.

In 2006, I weighed about 190lbs. When I looked in the mirror, I saw someone who was beyond fat. I saw a blob in the mirror; I saw fat rolls; I saw chubby thighs. I had a VERY negative opinion of the way I looked. NOW, I look back in photos and just stare.... I wasn't fat at all. How did I see myself as this blob when I was wearing medium sized shirts....when I was wearing size 14 jeans.... I would KILL to wear those now. I looked good in the things I wore; the pictures look wonderful! But what I saw in 2006, was exactly what I see in the mirror now.....FAT.

I'm very comfortable with my body now. I'm not as self-conscious as I was. I've learned over the years that it's just something you have to live with; you should love who you are no matter what. My ex-boyfriend made me relapse into that negative self image by telling me I needed to lose weight and that I wasn't allowed to have certain things (someone tell me that I CAN'T have one soda? I don't think so...). However, with the love of my current boyfriend and the support of my family and close friends, I've learned to believe in myself again.

So here it goes....time to go meet another goal! Watch out March....here I come, and I plan to be another 10 lbs lighter!



This is only the beginning...

Wednesday, February 27, 2013

Towards the middle of February, I received a shocking surprise.... one of my best friends asked me to be bridesmaid of honor in her wedding! I had no idea... I thought she was going to pick a college friend, but she chose me! I've never been in a wedding before, so I had two thoughts:

2) Oh crap.... I have to wear a dress.

I'm a big girl.... 265 lbs big. I'm not one to look stunning in any sort of clothing. So here it goes: The beginning of my weightloss journey to look kickass in a dress by October. Let's get this thing started!

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AKATHLEEN54 2/27/2013 12:44PM

    Best of luck... you can do it! Sometimes the best motivators to really get the job done is to have something special to work toward and now you have it! You will be one of those women who go for their fitting only to find out that they ordered a dress that is now too big and they have to take it in 2-3 sizes!! Yeah!! The best part is that the wedding isn't until the fall so you have a reasonable amount of time to do it in a healthy way!! Good luck. We'll be cheering for you! emoticon emoticon

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