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Tea Time in the Garden

Wednesday, June 22, 2011


Green tea with fresh rose-aromatherapy heaven!



One of my favorite places is right in my back--and front--yard. Every year people flock to far away places to "get away from it all." Last summer I took a week of of work to enjoy my garden. Not to escape to some exotic location, but to be able to sit in the beauty that I helped create. I had completely redone my yard last year, and my yard is 100% garden. I labored to re-arrange, plant, clean up, and get ready to plant vegetables. I created little paths inside the gated part of the garden and put in benches, tables, and bird feeders. One could not ask for a better spot to spend a day.

I did not used to be interested in gardening. But as I watched the same plants come back year after year despite the neglect, I knew I should make it better for these plants. Spectacular climbing roses have come back every year with no work put into them. Bright orange Oriental poppies explode every spring. It seemed that many plants could simply be put in the ground and would take care of themselves.

Needless to say, I didn't really know what I was doing. Luckily, my mother is a Master gardener, and it was great to have such a resource when I had questions. I had also absorbed a lot of what she had talk me as I was growing up, even though I was only listening passively. She was a tremendous help in deciding what to do with my yard. It seems she knows the answer to every question about every plant.

Last year my focus was on planting perennial flowers and to create space to plan vegetables this year. My vegetables are still alive, so thus far I would call it a success. The only plant that has produces anything as of yet are my strawberries. I don't think I will ever forget the first fresh-picked strawberry I picked from my patch. It was the perfect balance of juicy and firm, of sweet and tart. It was like biting into sunshine.







My vegetable garden, strawberry patch, and blueberry plants



I have planted various lettuces, peppers, tomatoes, and eggplants, and herbs in containers, and broccoli, carrots, peas, summer squash, and beans in the ground. I may be successful with vegetables this year, I may not. I know vegetable gardening can have a steep learning curve, so I'm not expecting too much this year. The lettuces have done great, and I have been able to harvest a fresh salad almost every day; they're the best greens ever. I plan on creating more space for vegetables for next year, and will hopefully have learned more by then.

I have a week off in August, once again, to spend at home. I look forward to having my hands dirty the whole time. I plan to drink tea in the garden for hours, with the company of the resident chickadee. I will count butterflies and bees, and thank them for their help.



  
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PAMEDEN 6/25/2011 10:11AM

    What a beautiful garden!! Well done.
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DAWNMARIES 6/23/2011 8:56PM

    Keep us up on your success. Next spring would be great for inspiration. Thanks!

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EMRANA 6/23/2011 8:09PM

  Wow, it looks and sounds wonderful ~ especially those strawberries!

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HIKINGSD 6/23/2011 4:33PM

    Your garden looks amazing!!

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GEMINIAN1 6/23/2011 10:19AM

    I was drooling on my computer over that tea emoticon
Your garden looks fantastic.
Sounds like you were able to create some memories with your Mom out there ... bonus.
I'm can majorly relate to you, in regards to everybody trying to get away; but, wanting to stay home.
I don't really "get it" ... everything I love is right here.
Thanks for sharing; have an emoticonday.

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W5VEOTX 6/23/2011 8:03AM

    Neat!

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JENNSWIMS 6/23/2011 12:08AM

    What a beautiful garden, mine looks darn shabby! The tea looks amazing!

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KAYE454 6/22/2011 11:59PM

  Tea is great and your gardens are beautiful good job

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Breathing Life Into the Notes: Picking Up the Sax Again

Tuesday, June 21, 2011


My trusty saxophone




I played the alto saxophone from the time I was 8 years old until I was 20 years old, when I decided I didn't have time for frivolous activities any more. From watching my mother half-smile, half-wince as I blasted a rendition of "Mary Had a Little Lamb" to seeing her in the audience at a major concert hall performing with a semi-professional level group, playing the saxophone had been my life. I went from squeaking out my best "Jingle Bells" to being first or second chair in my high school ensemble. Although I had talent, I was unable to acknowledge it. I was never good enough, so I gave up.

My saxophone had sat in various closets ever since I put it down. I had written off that I would ever pick it up again: "I probably don't even remember how anymore," "I don't have time," "I'm not any good." I looked at the case, never opening it, and thought about selling it while I was having financial problems. But I couldn't do it. My saxophone sat there, unused, for over 10 years, knowing I would pick it up again someday. I could almost hear the whisper, "Don't worry, I'll wait...you'll need me again someday."

Several months ago, I moved my saxophone from the back of the closet to a prominent location in my living room. I found my music stand. I could not, however, find my old sheet music. I looked in every box I could think of to look, and it was nowhere. I decided I would by some new books when I had more money, and once again wrote off playing.

I went to my mother's Irish singing recital last week at the Center for Irish Music in Saint Paul. I always love hearing her sing and have been a little jealous for years that she has music as an outlet. I realized how much I have missed having music in my life. I decided I would have to go out and by some sheet music so I could start practicing. I couldn't actually imagine that I would remember how to play. Then, 2 days ago, my basement started flooding from all of the rain. I was moving boxes so they wouldn't get soaked, and at the bottom of one of the boxes, I saw the word "Saxophone." There they were, all of my books, and all of my old sheet music.

Yesterday, I opened the saxophone case, and it was if light radiated throughout the room. I put my saxophone together, looked it over, and with some trepidation, put the mouthpiece to my lips. I had picked a relatively easy piece to play to see if I even remember how to play. Breathing into the mouthpiece and hearing notes spreading through the air was like breathing life into myself again. And I remember how to play; I remember almost everything. After all of these years, my brain and my muscles remember. The saxophone is ingrained in my head, and was meant to be picked up again.

I plan of joining a group of some sort and taking lessons again to review how some things, and to improve. I'm not going to regret all these years that I denied myself the pleasure of playing; I will simply pick up where I left off.

Now, the question remains, is my dog's howling while I play a compliment or a critique?

  
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KVARNLOV 6/23/2011 9:37PM

    I still have my clarinet, and hope to play that again sometime. We will maybe have to find some sax/clarinet duets. (: Either way, I am loving the guitar. I wish that I started when I originally wanted to play it, like when I was 5 or so. (: Still, I am glad that I have finally had someone support me and force me to get into it. Now I don't want to stop. One thing about getting back into music, is finding how you want to do it. For me, the concert bands was just not where I wanted to be playing, so I just found it difficult to stick to it, and I was never interested in solo clarinet playing. Find that and you will stick with it.

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MNNICE 6/22/2011 9:57PM

    I sold my sax right after high school and didn't play again until my son joined band in 4th grade and chose alto sax! I was able to get involved with a local jazz/swing band made up of all ages from high school to over 60s. Am now trying to get together a trio or quartet of saxes in our church. (We've practiced but not yet played for a service.) I really love playing sax.

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PHEBESS 6/22/2011 1:23PM

    Yay for starting up with the sax again!

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SAXYSAI 6/22/2011 12:11PM

    Good for you. I'm a saxophonist of 18 years and even have my masters degree in saxophone performance. Now, I teach band and choir and I'm perfectly happy with that. I got burned out on practicing. Now, I take my horn out once or twice a week and just play for fun. Enjoy playing again. Happy practicing!

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MILLISMA 6/22/2011 8:48AM

    I use to play the tenor sax but donated it to the soldiers over in Iraq together with my daughter's keyboard.

Glad you started playing again!

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LHLADY517 6/21/2011 9:46PM

    After letting family members borrow my saxophone I got it back about 10 years ago and have been playing it fairly regularly (read weekly) at church. I was also asked to play at a funeral. I didn't start as young as you did, but from 5th grade until I was in my 30's I played, and then again in my late 40's to now.

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SYZYGY922 6/21/2011 6:49PM

    Congrats! I just picked up my guitar again for the first time in years! I played sax in high school band, but I quit because I was so self-conscious. I'm pretty mad at myself about it.

Hooray for creative outlets!

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ISLANDBETH 6/21/2011 5:20PM

    I am so proud of you!! My alto has been gathering dust for years... I think you have just inspired me to pick it up and try it again! Thank you, thank you and good for you!!!



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ANDREA409 6/21/2011 4:49PM

    What beautiful writing. And a beautiful story. I had a grin on my face the whole time I was reading it. I can practically see you lighting up the room with your playing. I'm SO GLAD you have rediscovered your passion for music. It must feel incredible.

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What Kind of Man Would My Brother Have Been?...A Letter to My Brother Brian

Monday, June 20, 2011

Today is the 27th anniversary of the car accident that killed my older brother Brian. He was 8 years old, and I was 5 years old. I have spent a lot of my life remembering his death and the aftermath of the accident, but today I want to remember his life. I had written a couple of letters to Brian when I was a child, but I have never done it as an adult. Part of me felt that because I don't believe in an afterlife that it was a waste of time. But I know the letter is really for me, and so I am going to free-associate writing a letter to Brian.





Dear Brian,

I was looking at a picture of you and I together; you were probably 6 and I was 3. You were very gangly in the picture. I try to picture what you would look like now, and I think you would have been a tall and skinny runner. Maybe you, John, and I would have done some running events together; John and I have had a lot of fun doing them. I know you may not have still been climbing trees at the age of 33, but I imagine you would have still enjoyed hikes and being active.

I wonder what you would have done for a living. Would you have been drawn to math and physics, like Dad, or would you have wanted to save people, like Mom? Would you have followed your passion for animals and made a living caring for them? Anything you would have done, I know you would have brought creativity and brightness.

I know you're gone, but you are remembered. Every time I see a rainbow, I think of you. I can't seem to help it because you loved them so much. A few weeks ago, I saw a rainbow outside my office building. It was enormous and bright. And I saw the end of the rainbow--it is apparently at the parking garage across the street from work. Family members still have the numerous pictures you have drawn, mostly of rainbows, and they will be forever treasured.

And of course, you are carried on the back of every turtle I see. I have no doubt you would have still loved turtles today. Your love for animals overall sparked something in me; I care for animals for a living, and I'm sure you would have appreciated that. Every time I worked with a turtle, I felt a little bit like you were there (except maybe when the giant snapping turtles were trying to bite my hands off--but I can't blame them for that!).

I have no doubt that you would have still been a sci-fi nerd, and thanks a lot for turning me into one! I just finished watching Star Trek: The Next Generation from beginning to end. It took months, but I did it. You are one of the few people who would consider that to be a life accomplishment. I love how almost every picture of you has some sort of Star Wars reference in it, whether it's your t-shirt, pajamas, or bedroom. I still have the Star Wars pillow case from your bedroom to this day.

I still miss you, and I still wonder what kind of man you would have been. You were such a sweet kid, I have no doubt you would have been a very kind man. I know you would understand why I have put the sadness from this day behind me; every time I picture you, you are smiling, and I know you would want your family to be happy. I want you to know I am a happy woman, with awesome friends, a good job, and a fulfilled life. The biggest thing I have to do to let go of the day of the accident is to let go of all this weight on my body. Eating has been the way I've punished myself for letting you slip out of my hands, and I'm ready to stop punishing myself now.

I love you, brother.

Love, your little sister,
Erin

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GEMINIAN1 6/21/2011 2:00AM

    I need to drink 9 glasses of water today with all the tears coming out.
This is very thoughtful.
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My Brother's Death Anniversary--a Father's Day Reflection

Sunday, June 19, 2011

I just got off the phone with my dad wishing him a happy Father's Day. We chatted, and both said "I love you" before hanging up. He was not able to get together today, but we are meeting later this week. I meet with my dad for coffee or dinner every couple of weeks at a minimum. One would never know that at one point he did not want anything to do with his children.

Tomorrow is the 27th anniversary of the car accident that killed my older brother. Prior to the accident, my dad had left our family. He had been a very angry person and was overwhelmed by trying to balance work and family. He is a genius, and focused his efforts on his career in electrical engineering instead of his family. He chose work over his children; we seemed to be in the way of his career goals.

I think my dad became very confused when my brother died. I stayed with him after the accident because my mom had broken her pelvis and was in the hospital. He didn't seem to know what to do with me. I mean, he sheltered me, fed me, and took me to the hospital to see my mom, but I don't think he knew what to say to a 5-year-old girl who suddenly had to deal with a very adult situation within the matter of a day. He was my dad, but I didn't know what to say to him either--I had barely seen him in 2 years. What I remembered of him was mostly his anger.

The time after the accident started a time of healing not only from my brother Brian's death, but my relationship with my father as well. It was not until he lost his son that he realized what children mean to a father, and that he could either nurture the relationship with his children, or risk losing them forever.

Even as a child, I knew he was trying to be a better father. He was far from perfect, and no one was harder on him than himself. I think my dad's problems were rooted in perfectionism, and his anger stemmed from expecting too much from himself and becoming frustrated when he did not meet those standards. When he worked on letting go of being perfect, he was able to enjoy those around his more, including his children. He learned to love himself in learning to love and appreciate his children.

When I was a teenager, my dad apologized to my younger brother and me. He said he was sorry for not being there more and that he was working really hard on becoming a better person. I know it took a lot out of him to talk to us about his mistakes. My brother and I had already forgiven him long before he apologized.

Now my dad is my biggest supporter. I can talk to him about any adversity and he can help me work through it logically, and without judging me. He has taught me to never regret pursuing my dreams, even when they don't pan out in the end. He sees success in pursuing the opportunity; trying my best is the achievement, and if I actually complete what I set out to do, that's a bonus. My dad is the only person capable of steering me in the right direction without telling me what to do. I am dazzled by his brilliance, and wish I had inherited his talent for math and physics. And most of all, I'm glad we share a crass and dark sense of humor.

Now, when my dad and I talk, we always say "I love you" before we part. And we both mean it very much.

  
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GEMINIAN1 6/21/2011 1:55AM

    I am so jealous of the relationship you and your Dad have.

From what I understand, perfectionism is hard to deal with, internally and for the outside world.
(Not trying to "make excuses"; just sayin')

How wise you are to forgive before there was an apology. I really admire that; good for you.

You are a beautiful person.
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SASSISPRING 6/19/2011 9:39PM

    What a wonderful father you have, to be able to teach you the meaning of love, compassion and understanding. Your father sounds like a strong man with deep feelings and wonderful he was able to "grow" to become the father you know today. Thank-you for sharing such a great story.

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KRISTIARLINE 6/19/2011 5:22PM

    What a blessing to come out of such a awful accident.

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THEWINNER33 6/19/2011 4:49PM

    Thank you for sharing. I am so glad you had a happy ending. Hugs, Marcia

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MARVEEME 6/19/2011 4:33PM

    With age comes wisdom.

(Though, sometimes, age has been known to show up alone.)



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My Brother's Death Anniversary (and the day the binging started)

Saturday, June 18, 2011

Many people have been overweight for as long as they remember, and some of us may not know what started this battle with our bodies, while some of us do. I remember the day my battle started. June 20th, 1984, started as a normal summer day. My mother was going to take my two brothers and I on some errands. The day ended with my family in shambles, my mother's soul crushed by the loss of her son, nearly losing another child, and her own physical pain. A drunk driver can change a life in a split second, as I learned from a young age. As I approach the 27th anniversary of that day, I have been reflecting on how that day changed my life. I had worked hard to work through the grief, but working through the lasting changes has been a life-long process. SparkPeople has helped me look deeper into myself than any other source, so I would like to share my experiences with the SparkPeople community.

Rather than spell out the details of that day, I would like to share a short story that I wrote in a creative writing class last year. I am going to blog later about the lasting impact of the day my older brother was killed. Grieving does not necessarily last forever, but the impact from life-changing events forever shapes who we become.


"Blond Brothers"


"Brian!" my mother yells. "Stop bothering your sister!" She shoots the picture as I triumphantly yank the yellow balloon away, my golden blond pigtails bouncing as I skip away. Brian has the same blond hair, a short boy's haircut, although the slight curls make his hair unruly. His pants never fit right, always hanging off of his skinny waist to reveal half of his butt, even though he could tighten his brown leather belt to hold them up. He knows that I started it. I always do.
I win only because he lets me and he adores me.

The photograph shows an average moment between siblings, a typical memory: A gangly eight-year-old boy holding a prized possession, a twerpy little sister wanting it only because she knows she can win. Brother and sister thumb through a photo album, come across this picture, shaking their heads and giggling.

"Do you remember how much you used to piss me off?" one says to the other.

"Whatever, you always started it!" the other retorts. They laugh together and are so glad they have outgrown such childish ways.

I ask Brian in my head, "Do you remember how much you used to piss me off?" The only response is the call of a tall waterbird in the lake near his grave. I will never know if we outgrow our childish ways. I don't want the damn yellow balloon anymore. I want more fights with my brother. I want to let him win for once. My hand absently rises to my forehead, the round bumpy scar one of many reminders. I accept the tranquility of my brother's grave, the turtle carved into the flat gray granite headstone posed just like the turtles basking in the sun by the lake.





Our baby brother John is contentedly gazing out the back window of the car. He has never had a hair cut, his straw-blond baby hair in rambunctious curls around his cherub face. I watch him watching the cars going by from the safety of his car seat; he doesn't know how often I watch him watching things. It is a warm and sunny summer day and Brian and I are excited to go to McDonalds for ice cream. I was dragged to Brian's doctor appointment and I know I deserve a treat. Today we are not squabbling. My mother pulls the car into the left turn lane at the stop light and we wait patiently for our turn. She turns and smiles at me, her five-year-old daughter sitting next to her, and eight-year-old
and two-year-old sons in the back.

Brian picks at my hair and tells me it is like spun gold. He takes off his seat belt and leans over the to the front seat, wrapping his arms around me. I don't resist. I pick fights with him, but secretly I covet his ability to catch turtles and to recite most of the lines from Star Wars. He hugs me every chance he gets, when I'm not being such a brat to make it impossible.

I turn to look at him. The truck is the biggest and fastest thing I have ever seen as it barrels toward the intersection where my mother pulled out after our light turned green. My scream comes too late to warn my mother.

The impact makes no sound.

The car is spinning forever. The sky and ground outside the car melt into a whirl of blue and brown. I turn around during the slow-motion moment to look at my brothers.

Brian's arms are not around me anymore. John's eyes are closed, blood trickling from his ear, his mouth slightly open, his head tilted back as though he is napping. My mother is asleep and her head is pointed at the ceiling.

The car stops after an eternity in the grass median. I clamber to open the door, to go where, I don't know. A tall blond-haired man whisks me up and runs with me through the grass, despite my confused protests. He lays me down on my back and I turn on my side to see the sky blue Chevy sitting gracelessly in the grass, crumpled like a used newspaper. The grass is too high for me to see my mother or brothers. Even though I can
walk, I cannot move from where I am. Sirens wail from a distance, a chorus of them gets louder, then stops.

A paramedic comes and gingerly picks me up. I can say nothing, only scream. He puts me in the ambulance. John's tiny body is surrounded by people, counting out loud as they press on him and squeeze a balloon-looking plastic bag over his mouth. They stop and start to busily poke at him and put a plastic mask over his mouth. All of the equipment seems too big for him.

Outside I see police officers talking to the blond man who took me from our car. The doors close and the sirens blast again as the ambulance starts to move. The ride only lasts a second. We are bustled into the hospital and I am taken by a nurse to a bed surrounded by cloth curtains. My bare feet dangle over the bed. I ask where my shoes are and the nurse tells me they were lost in the crash. The nurse has tweezers and a metal bowl on a table next to the bed. She tells me she needs to remove the "windshield" from my skin.

The first chunk of glass plops into the metal bowl with a staccato Plink. The nurse tells me I'm doing a good job. She finds another piece of windshield glass and digs slightly to pull it from my forearm. Plink. I tell the nurse I want to see my mother, and she says I can in a little bit.

"Where's John?" I ask. The nurse pulls back the curtain next to us to reveal my baby brother nestled amongst beeping machines. Plastic tubes are sticking out everywhere. He is napping and does not look uncomfortable.

The nurse turns back to her task. She sees a sliver of glass on my chest and gingerly tugs at it with the tweezers. Plink. I look at the nurse, who is looking closely at my arm.

"Where's Brian?"

"I'm sorry, he's dead." Plink.

I don't feel any more glass under my skin, each Plink into the bowl sounding more distant, the beeps from machines rushing away.

My Aunt Theresa is walking towards me, smiling with a trembling lip. Her eyes are puffy and wet. The nurse does not stop picking at me as my aunt approaches. Plink. Aunt Theresa sits down next to me and holds my hand. I say again that I want to see my mother. Aunt Theresa squeezes my hand more tightly. Dozens of Plinks later, the nurse stops, and then washes my skin.

Aunt Theresa takes me down the hall, my bare feet almost squeaking on the white linoleum. My father is sitting next to my mother's bed and is holding her hand. He is sad. I have never seen him sad, only mad. That is why we don't live with him anymore. He turns to look at me. We have nothing to say to each other right now.

I cautiously approach the bed where my mother is laying. A machine with squiggly lines on a screen beeps rhythmically next to her bed. She looks beautiful and flawless, but now her eyes are empty.

My mother is staring straight at me, but is not looking at me. Aunt Theresa tells me my mother broke her back and hurts a lot right now. My mother normally has all the answers, so I don't know what to say to her. I place my hand on hers, and she squeezes her eyes shut, tears leaking from her tightly-closed eyelids. My mother says nothing. I study her gorgeous face, her brunette hair cascading on her pillow. My father and Aunt
Theresa are talking about the "drunk" man and "running the red light." Then something about John being in a "coma." Something about Brian "going through the windshield."

Aunt Theresa puts her hand on my shoulder and tells me that it's time to go and buy new shoes.






The flowers my dad left are fresh in the vase by Brian's grave. Hours ago my dad stood over my brother's grave, a different man than the one who received the call twenty-five years ago that his oldest son was dead, the rest of his family in shambles. He became a real father that day. Today I am my father's daughter, my dark blond hair, gray eyes, large figure, and smart mouth are all from him. The anger is long forgotten.

John's hair is no longer blond, but brunette like my mother's, no longer curly, but coarse and chopped close to his head. He does not remember the day of the accident, but knows very well that it shaped him forever. Standing six feet tall, he is handsome and his lean body shows that he frequently runs marathons. He looks at other graves, at the lake, at the sky, at the car. Anywhere but straight down at the granite slab with the turtle and the engraving "...each seed is each seed's child."

John squirms from one foot to the other as he stands with my mother and me. My mother looks up from Brian's grave and grabs my hand. "What do you remember the most about Brian?" she asks.

I pause awkwardly. "His death," I answer honestly. She gazes with hope for more answers from my face, and nods. The wounds continue for my mother all these years later, although she now knows it was not her fault. The tall blond man who had taken me from the wrecked Chevy, the same man who took my older brother's life, had said he was not sorry. She forgave him anyway.

I can remember Brian if I think hard, in thoughts, and in pictures. But the silver truck grill is always bearing down on us in the one second that changes our lives. My mother gazes at the lake, remembering her eldest son, thankful for John and me. "Have I told you how proud I am of you?" she asks me, beaming.

"Yes, earlier today."

She takes John's hand. "I love you so much," she says, squeezing and shaking his hand. He rolls his eyes with slight indignation. "Yeah, I know. I love you, too," he mutters, even though he means it.

My brothers, my mother, and I are together as a family.







Thanks for reading.

  
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GEMINIAN1 6/20/2011 6:10PM

    The only response is the call of a tall waterbird in the lake near his grave.
This is me since the above sentence ...
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I wish I had a time machine and could make this never happen or a magic wand to make everything, for lack of a better word, "ok"; dispite what happened.

Thank you for sharing this.

You have my condolences my friend.
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(I started yo-yo'ing, within my "healthy weight range", after I broke my ankle, in two spots. On a *way*, *way* smaller scale, I can understand.)

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MISSME1223 6/19/2011 11:27AM

    sending lots and lots of hugs your way...I'm so sorry for your loss...your story was so moving I read through tears...

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MARVEEME 6/19/2011 8:28AM

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KRISTIARLINE 6/18/2011 11:54PM

    WOW! That was powerful. 27 years can seem like forever ago or just yesterday. My hope for you is that you can remember more of your brother rather than grill. emoticon

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HIKINGSD 6/18/2011 10:29PM

    You have a great talent. Thank you for sharing your story. I am so sorry for your loss and struggle.

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DR1939 6/18/2011 8:34PM

    emoticon Our middle grandson was killed in an auto accident 6 years ago. He was 19. It still hurts.

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ALISHAB3 6/18/2011 8:21PM

    emoticonYou are an excellent writer. I am so sorry for your loss. I know it was a very long time ago now, but the memory still holds this sadness, so I am sorry.

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FREECANDY 6/18/2011 8:13PM

    OMG, how sad. I'm so sorry for the loss of your brother. :(

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LEONALIONESS 6/18/2011 3:38PM

    *biggest hugs ever*

I had no idea. I'm so sorry to read this.
You're SUCH a strong person and I feel that even more having read this.

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ARCHIMEDESII 6/18/2011 3:05PM

    How tragic ! I am so sorry for the loss of your brother in such a horrible accident, Your blog is a poignant remembrance for your lost brother as well as a way to heal.


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GABENSEBSMOM 6/18/2011 2:33PM

    I'm so so sorry for your loss. Your story was so heartbreaking. I'm sure it must be very therapeutic to write. I'm a writer as well. You're very gifted at it. Nothing but good thoughts to you on this difficult day.

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