Saturday, January 19, 2013
I had a 5 day long binge this week. Fortunately, there wasn't much damage from it, and I was able to press on.
The problem is that I love being active to the point that I'm burning an INSANE number of calories, which also means I have to eat a bunch of calories to make sure that I stay healthy. With the number of calories, I am headed towards that slippery slope of compulsive overeating again, which scares me.
However, I am at a loss as to what I give up as far as exercise, since I'm training for a half marathon, need to continue the strength training to preserve my muscle, swimming and stair climbing help my VO2 capacity, plus stair climbing will help me with climbing those hills during my races this year, and I love my spin classes. It's definitely a struggle to figure out how to cut back, but if I don't, I worry about going back to some of those old habits.
I know I'll figure it out, but just needed to put it out there in words and vent about my struggle a bit.
Hope all of yas are having a great weekend!
Thursday, January 10, 2013
Anyone who knows me knows that I don't have a lot of love for the BMI measurement, because it doesn't take into consideration several things that impact me personally: the fact that I have a large skeletal frame, and the fact that through strength training since day one of my weight loss journey, I have quite a bit of muscle on me, and of course the density of muscle is greater than the density of fat, so more muscular people weigh more.
However, despite the fact that I have a healthy body fat percentage as well as blood sugar, blood pressure and cholesterol numbers that are within the healthy range, I couldn't help but be excited that I am inching closer to that magic 24.9 BMI number (or for my height of 5'5", 149 pounds). Granted, the only advantages that I can think of are that if I maintain it for 6 months, I can apply to get my life insurance rates decreased and I would be a more acceptable candidate for plastic surgery in order to get the extra skin removed from various areas of my body, but it's still exciting to get back to a weight that I haven't seen since I was a freshman in high school and to achieve another goal per se (and I'm DEFINITELY a goal-oriented person!).
So I'm still in weight loss mode, looking for that 24.9. Yes, even those who have disdain for such an arbitrary measurement can be suckered in.
Thursday, January 03, 2013
I'm a little emotional saying goodbye to 2012 and saying hello to a new year with new challenges.
2012 was a HUGE year for me, because I lost 125 pounds and gained a whole new life for myself that I never thought was possible. However, this blog entry is not about me getting all sentimental and dramatic about the changes in my life. This entry is about something I wanted to share that most people would find surprising...
When I saw my family at Christmas, I really didn't hear anything about my appearance. And for the first time in my life, I was fine with that. When I told my co-workers about this, they were very surprised, but I also live in an area where people tend to be a lot more demonstrative with their emotions than my family is. I'm far and away the most demonstrative person in my family when it comes to expressing my feelings, and it was something I struggled with for years, since my expectations from my family were a lot greater than the reality of the situation.
Yes, the last time I saw my dad and my brother and his family prior to my trip a week and a half ago, I was at my fattest point EVER. The last time I had seen my mom was in May when I was still over 200 pounds. But they really didn't say anything about the dramatic changes in my appearance when they saw me this time. However, they also didn't say much of anything when I was at my fattest either. They love me, no matter what the package wrapping looks like; they just want me to be happy.
I talked to my mom about this last night and how it wasn't a big deal to me like it was in the past, because I know that ultimately, I lost the weight for ME. NOT to impress anyone or make anyone else happy or to improve my dating prospects, but for one person and one person alone: ME. My own sense of accomplishment and the knowledge that I can do so many more things that were so difficult before eclipses any compliment that I may receive. Granted, I'm grateful to receive the compliments, but that's not why I did this.
So I look back on 2012 and feel good that not only am I in a healthier body, I have a healthier mind, with an attitude of gratitude, and less of a need for external validation. That is priceless.
Saturday, December 29, 2012
So I traveled to Upstate New York this week to spend time with my parents. My trip started with a delayed flight from Memphis to Detroit, a 10 minute sprint from A11 to C22 in order to catch my flight to Montreal (yep, my folks are THAT far Upstate that I fly to Canada!), then the realization that my flight to Montreal was delayed due to an inept gate agent. I was winded and dripping sweat for nothing. *sigh*
It was a wonderful visit with my family, including my brother, sister-in-law and nephews that drove up from Pittsburgh. There was plenty of snow on the ground, so my nephews played in the snow a bit, being pulled by their aunt on the sled (something I couldn't do a year ago when I was 285 pounds), and we also went sledding 3 days during everyone's visit.
We also admired the tree and got some pictures of the boys in front of it:
On Boxing Day (the day after Christmas), we went to Ottawa to the Museum of Civilization and the Children's Museum. They had a nice motorcycle that my younger nephew and I posed on:
I also discovered another NSV that day: because I'm so much smaller than I was last year, all 7 of us fit in my brother's minivan for the drive up to Ottawa! It was much nicer to all be together for the trip rather than take two separate cars. HOORAY!
Of course, my mom fixed all of our favorite foods while my brother and I were home: Hungarian goulash with homemade spaetzle, roast beef with Yorkshire pudding, plum pudding, and of course, her amazing Christmas cookies. I did enjoy all the food I ate, though I made sure that I kept the portions reasonable and exercised every day. My sister-in-law and I did some fitness DVDs and did a long walk around the village while we were in town together, though due to the ice and snow, we didn't want to risk running.
Then there was the snow overnight on Wednesday into Thursday morning. Fortunately, my dad had done a pre-emptive strike and re-scheduled me onto an earlier flight on Thursday morning, so I was able to get out of the Northeast before it got too bad with the snow. When all was said and done, the village where my parents live got 20 inches from that storm! They even got more than Syracuse, which is typically one of the major places for snow!
So although my trip was cut a few hours short, it was definitely a good one. I hope to visit with the family again in May when my older nephew turns 7 and my sister-in-law runs the Pittsburgh Half Marathon!
Saturday, December 22, 2012
Now that I have proven that I can fulfill a New Year's resolution (learning to eat healthy and exercise regularly so that I can get healthy was the one I made in 2012), it's time to think about a resolution for 2013.
I've decided that I really need a more balanced life.
Planning my food and exercise has really been a HUGE part of my life this year, to some respects at the cost of my focus on work and my personal life. I know that I need to cut back a little on the exercise (been doing a TON, especially the past few weeks) and work on those aspects of my life.
It will take some trial and error, and I will probably make some mistakes, but I figure with the amount of monitoring that I do, they're easily correctable (well, unless it's an injury, but I don't want to think about that!).
I just know that I need to be more emotionally healthy than I am at this point, and that means working on my social relationships. My first step is going to a New Year's Eve party when I get back after Christmas. It should be fun....and I'll just make sure that I commit to at least one social activity a month for now with at least one of the social groups I belong to here in Memphis (Fabulous Women over Forty and the Memphis Movie Group). I've also started dating again after a 3 year hiatus, though that's more of a side-burner thing. Men may come and go, but girlfriends are forever!
Alright, got to get in the shower and start getting ready to head to the airport. Have a terrific Saturday, everyone and if you travel this weekend, BE SAFE!
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