Sunday, July 24, 2011
That's right. Today I am loving myself. It is my rest day from exercise. I turned the alarm off and slept in. I got up at 9 and enjoyed breakfast. I only ate 3/4's of it, found myself full before finishing. Because today is about me I am not giving myself permission to go off my healthy eating. That will be enforced. But just for once I am I am allowing myself to be free of the worries of the week past and week to come. I am indulging myself in my own mind, thinking of good things, feeling good about the progress I have made, not the failures. Maybe the scale isn't going in the direction I want but there are other things going right in my life. I have a great husband, who loves me despite everything, and treats me kindly. I have a loving, if dysfunctional, family. I have wonderful pets who love me like family and are treated as such. Finances may be rough, but I am working on a plan. I've never in my life, that I can remember said I loved myself, but today that changes. Today I love myself. Maybe if I take time to "believe" that, it will carry through to another day, and then another day. But, for today, it is all about me!
Wednesday, July 20, 2011
I am at day 15 of my hypnosis. I weighed myself at the two week mark as directed. Surprise, no loss!!!!!! What does it take to lose a pound or two?? I've been here on SP for 9 months with no significant weight loss. BUT...I am NOT giving up. I will continue with the hypnosis as the skills I am learning are great. If the doctor can't come up with a reason why I dont' lose weight I don't expect my addled brain to come up with one!!! I bought the Atkins diet book. Not sure I can do that diet. Low carbs. I do not meet my carb allotment as it is, so it shouldn't be a problem, but I like milk, cheese, and bread with my eggs. They advocate getting only 20 net carbs during the first phase of the diet with those carbs coming from veggies. As the diet continues you add in more foods. I do use their snacks because they are low sugar and low carb and fit well in my diabetic diet. they taste great too, especially the peanut caramel cluster bar, almost like a PayDay. I did bring in my exercise bike but I am having trouble using it. I have limited range of motion in my right knee and I have a hard time doing the pumping motion with it. I do a little on it a day to try and work out the range of motion. I wanted to add it to my walking routine. Like I said, I'm not giving up!!!!!!
Tuesday, July 19, 2011
My binge yesterday was a disaster! I was so full and bloated after dinner. I felt terrible!! Actually felt like I was going to be sick. I was miserable. It was not the way to go. I didn't make myself feel better. It certainly didn't solve the problem, not that I expected it would. Of course at the time I was eating I wasn't thinking of the consequences. Now I can see the light. I doubt I will do that again. No problem is worth eating all that food. I don't know how I used to do it all the time! As badly as I felt last night cured me. To think I used to feel like that all the time. Stuffed, bloated, full to being sick...ugh!!!! I am back on track today. I am laying off the carbs today and am filling up on veggies. I did my walk on the treadmill. I feel better and am coping with the finances and doing the best that I can.
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