Wednesday, July 20, 2011
I am at day 15 of my hypnosis. I weighed myself at the two week mark as directed. Surprise, no loss!!!!!! What does it take to lose a pound or two?? I've been here on SP for 9 months with no significant weight loss. BUT...I am NOT giving up. I will continue with the hypnosis as the skills I am learning are great. If the doctor can't come up with a reason why I dont' lose weight I don't expect my addled brain to come up with one!!! I bought the Atkins diet book. Not sure I can do that diet. Low carbs. I do not meet my carb allotment as it is, so it shouldn't be a problem, but I like milk, cheese, and bread with my eggs. They advocate getting only 20 net carbs during the first phase of the diet with those carbs coming from veggies. As the diet continues you add in more foods. I do use their snacks because they are low sugar and low carb and fit well in my diabetic diet. they taste great too, especially the peanut caramel cluster bar, almost like a PayDay. I did bring in my exercise bike but I am having trouble using it. I have limited range of motion in my right knee and I have a hard time doing the pumping motion with it. I do a little on it a day to try and work out the range of motion. I wanted to add it to my walking routine. Like I said, I'm not giving up!!!!!!
Tuesday, July 19, 2011
My binge yesterday was a disaster! I was so full and bloated after dinner. I felt terrible!! Actually felt like I was going to be sick. I was miserable. It was not the way to go. I didn't make myself feel better. It certainly didn't solve the problem, not that I expected it would. Of course at the time I was eating I wasn't thinking of the consequences. Now I can see the light. I doubt I will do that again. No problem is worth eating all that food. I don't know how I used to do it all the time! As badly as I felt last night cured me. To think I used to feel like that all the time. Stuffed, bloated, full to being sick...ugh!!!! I am back on track today. I am laying off the carbs today and am filling up on veggies. I did my walk on the treadmill. I feel better and am coping with the finances and doing the best that I can.
Monday, July 18, 2011
I thought I had the finance problem solved with a debt management program. Today while I was doing my walk I got a phone call from Novadebt, the debt management company, and they said Bank of America, my creditor, wouldn't accept the proposal for the loan I have. Bank of America recommended the debt management to me to solve my problem with not being able to make the payment on the loan. Bank of America didn't want to budge on lowering the monthly payment. Well, they lowered it $42 which is a drop in the bucket. What part of "I can't pay the loan" do they not understand? The payment is $466/month. The debt management proposal was for $255. No dice, they want $424 or nothing at all I guess. I have been only able to pay $166 and it was going to be tough to make the $255, but I was willing to do it. Now they make me not want to pay anything at all. I have applied for a home equity loan to see if I can get the money to pay of the loan with Bank of America. I'll never do business with them again. The problem is they call several times a week asking for payment. They ask me every time why I am late and I have to explain myself over and over. From now on I am hanging up. So...my coping mechanism today was food. Mistake, I know, but I was at my wits end. I ate a tomato sandwich for lunch, then had 2 Smart Ones dinners, a mini bag of popcorn and some potato chips. After that I went to bed, never finished my walk, actually didn't care if I ever saw the treadmill again. Besides that I plan on having a nice big bowl of pasta tonight with homemade spaghetti sauce. I know, I know, I'm not hurting anyone but myself. I feel guilty enough already, but I can't stop the wheels.
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