Tuesday, May 04, 2010
I've been sparking about as long as Anne was queen. Just about now, she was getting her head lopped off, so even though losing weight wasn't her goal, she STILL did better than I did!
Whether it's good, bad, or just ugly, we need to take an honest look at ourselves if we ever want to improve our lives. I'm "heck-bent" on turning 40 healthier than when I turned 30. It's harder than it sounds, but I'm determined. When I turn 40, I want my finances in check, blooming health, a centered emotional life, and career success. So how am I doing?
HEALTH - I've had three surgeries since January and have another one in the works. I wish they were cosmetic, but sadly, I'm just falling apart. Yesterday, I was diagnosed with connective tissue disease based on results of blood work and scans. They think it's a big part of my pain, but it can be controlled. Unfortunately, the medicine is not available here. I'll find a way - trust me!
As for weight loss, not exercising much has made that very difficult. However, I signed up for a couple of races to help me structure my program and motivate myself. I am sooooo weak right now that it's scary, but I'm not giving up. Rather than focus on weight loss per se for the next 100 days, my health goal is to stay with the plan I made, work it every day, and complete the races. No time goal - just to get over the line.
FINANCES - Several surgeries and rubbish health insurance have drained me financially, but I live frugally and am squeaking by. My goal for the next 100 days is to be at the same level of debt, despite needing another surgery, so careful planning is in order.
PROFESSIONAL - I am not going to resit my exam any time soon. I just don't have time to properly prepare. I got an amazingly good review this year and am grateful that my insane workload is being rewarded. I'm up for promotion this summer and should know in a few months if I got it. The extra $$ would be a Godsend.
EMOTIONAL - I'm keeping my promise to focus more on what I need, I've dialed back my time online to get in more exercise and sleep, have stepped back from stressful situations whenever possible, and am trying to find joy in everyday life. I've created an urban jungle of a garden on my balconies, am trying to improve my real-life relationships, am forcing myself to socialize more, and am chatting with God regularly. Of all the categories, I think this is the one where I've made the most progress since day 900.
So, my goals:
1. Get the next surgery taken care of
2. Commit to training schedule
3. Complete races
4. Accrue no additional debt
5. Make time for sleep and play
I wish I were wealthy and could spend all my time traveling around, hangin' with my lovely Sparkfriends. I am thrilled that I will meet a few of them in June and look forward to meeting more in future travels. Thanks for being there through the ups and downs, and I hope you are all making progress towards your goals and realizing your dreams!
Tuesday, April 20, 2010
I'm on a Spark break, but I miss everyone and still check in whenever I have time. My knee is doing much better following this latest surgery -- I did a slow 8 miles today! My eye infection is clearing up although I don't see that well yet. Soon, I hope!
Although I am not online often right now, I love hearing from people and was saddened to learn that Casia-Anne has deleted her account. I don't know why but hope she'll come back one day soon!
Thursday, January 28, 2010
One hundred days ago, I blogged about 800 days on Spark, covering what I think I've done well and what I need to do to turn my dreams into goals.
So after 100 more days, where am I?
1. Finances. Make a budget. Done. The credit card debt has been trickier. I injured my knees and am in fact undergoing surgery today. I'm cruising through money like I have it, and I have not paid down my debt like I'd wanted.
2. My home. Done. I unpacked all but once tricky set of boxes, decluttered a lot, and I'm turning my four walls and roof into a lovely little home. It makes a big difference in how I feel.
3. Complete the Tower of Terror race. Done! I'm especially proud of this one.
4. Health: I wanted to lose 20 lbs. I lost 10, but with not being able to exercise and walking with a cane, I still think it's a good accomplishment. I log what I eat, even when I'm not proud of it, and I have been serious in my commitment to getting enough rest and sleep.
4. Professional: I haven't done anything towards getting my test resat, and I need to, but I have taken a good hard look at my image and office situation and been proactive in managing my relationships so that I'm in a strong position in my office. My supervisors love me, and my subordinates are happy, and I feel that i'm doing a good job. So I'll give myself a provisional "atta girl" for this one.
5. Emotional: I have been focusing a bit more on my needs. I'm trying to learn to set boundaries and be a bit selfish. If I don't look after myself, who will?
The next 100 days:
1. HEALTH: I'm having surgery today. I hope to be up and around soon and have already mapped a fitness plan for myself. However, I do need to pay more attention to what I eat. I eat well for a few days and then go off the wagon for a few days, undoing my earlier success. I need to understand my body better and make choices that I can implement consistently.
2. FINANCES: These medical bills are killing me, but I need to ride that wave, and figure out a plan to allow me to mange my debt.
3. PROFESSIONAL: I will set up a study schedule to resit the exam by June.
4. EMOTIONAL: Being here in London right now, I realise how much I miss going to church and will find ways to nourish my soul more. In Beirut, Christians are Catholics, Orthodox, or Maronite, and their services never feel comfortable for me. Even if it's reading the Bible and quiet contemplation, I need more God in my life.
Thank you to everyone on Sparkpeople who has supported me, offered advice, and been a friend. You really are wonderful! I am looking forward to blogging about 1000 days and sharing my successes!
Monday, December 14, 2009
Here's the background:
A meniscus is a disk-shaped piece of cartilage that acts as a shock absorber inside a joint. Each knee has one lateral meniscus under the outer knob of the thighbone and one medial meniscus under the inner knob of the thighbone. Each meniscus acts as a natural cushion between the thighbone (femur) and shinbone (tibia). The two cushions prevent excess wear and tear inside the knee joint by keeping the ends of the two bones from rubbing together. Each meniscus also absorbs much of the shock of jumps and landings and helps to distribute joint fluid evenly to lubricate and nourish the knee.
In the United States, a torn meniscus is the most common reason for knee surgery; approximately 850,000 operations for meniscal tears are performed in the U.S. each year.
The symptoms of a torn meniscus can include: Knee pain, usually on one side of your knee, tenderness at the side of the joint, knee swelling within the first 12 hours after injury, a "locked" knee that can't be bent, a knee that catches during movement, or can't be fully straightened, a click, pop or grinding inside your knee when you move it, a knee that buckles, gives way or feels generally weak.
Yep. That's been my situation for about six months now. Last week, the knee locked, during a cardio challenge for Hogwarts no less, and made my life really uncomfortable. I've been hobbling around with a cane, earning me a lot of ribbing from my colleagues. Then yesterday, while walking around in my home, I heard a wet popping noise, and I went down. Hard.
Today, I saw the orthopedist. He says I pushed through the pain of the torn meniscus, creating the "edema" I thought I was dealing with, which was actually a growing cyst -- that - you guessed it - burst yesterday. He shot it up with cortisone, gave me some strong pain killers, and I'm scheduled for the custom brace fitting tomorrow. More time with the cane, then the MRI to see what kind of surgery will be needed.
Saturday, October 17, 2009
I've been Sparking for 800 days. In that time, I've completed a 5K and two half marathons. I've lived in four countries, moving three times. I've made wonderful friends, and have even met a few of them in real life. I started Hogwarts, one of my joys in life.
What I haven't done a lot of is losing weight.
Just as I've decided that losing 100 lbs. is too daunting to be attempted but losing 10 lbs. ten times is perfectly achievable, I've decided that I need to look at my life and break it down into achievable goals, because to be honest, there is no area of my life that is going especially well right now.
Immediate priority goals
1. Finances. Make a budget. My medical bills are sinking me, and I need to pare down other parts of my life to accommodate that fact.
2. My home. My things arrived in September but I've been so busy that I have yet to unpack anything. The clutter and mess literally drain me. It just needs to be cleaned up and put away.
3. Complete the Tower of Terror race. I am super excited about running a night time race in Disney World, and I love this bling! However, I took a nasty tumble on Wednesday and have been laid out on my sofa ever since. I badly bruised my tail bone and injured my back. I don't know if I can do the Beirut - Frankfurt - Toronto - Orlando flight in cattle class, and the doctors think it would be a bad idea for me to try to run. ... Of course, they told me not to run the Princess Half, too, and thank goodness I chose not to listen!
Just as I'm breaking down my weight loss, I'm going to specify my timelines.
The Next 100 Days
1. FINANCIAL: Pay off Citicard. Consumer debt is a tool of the Devil!
2. HEALTH: A) Lose 20 lbs. B) Log absolutely everything I eat. C) I have had trouble sleeping and often operate on 3-4 hours of sleep. I'm going to make a real effort to get at least 7 hours a night.
3. PROFESSIONAL: I need to re-sit an exam if I want to advance professionally. There were a lot of politics with my last go-around, and I got shafted. I'm in a different work group, and it's time to re-focus and pass that exam. I will devote at least 10 hours a week to preparing.
4. EMOTIONAL: I spend a lot of time looking after other people, and I think I need to focus more on myself if I want to succeed in making these changes and achieving my goals. (BONNIE, remember our deal: pinkies!)
Right. I00 days. Making changes. Working towards my ultimate goals.
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