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So long, 2008 and hello 2009!

Wednesday, December 31, 2008

I notice a lot of people are blogging lately. Is it because the end of the year is usually a time for reflection, or just because we can now earn a point for it? Who knows. emoticon

Tunisia is famous for its dramatic, ornately exquisite doors. I think doors make a good metaphor for our choices. Sometimes, there just aren't that many doors available, and as we make choices, we open or close the doors we have. Sometimes, a good decision opens more doors and even creates new ones. Bad decisions can do the opposite.

A few days ago, my little MacDuff slipped through the front door and went on walk about in a city where people don't slow down for dogs. I couldn't find him and was shaking I was so scared. Had anything happened to him, it would have been a year to the day that my sweet Kadusha died. Thankfully, my neighbor found him, attempting to befriend the neighborhood tomcat, and I got him back safe and sound. It got me to thinking about this past year. Last year, I had a very difficult Christmas. A year ago today, I was in Disneyworld, hours away from being ditched by my friend and ringing in the new year by myself. And one year ago, I weighed 31 pounds more than I do today.

Thirty one pounds is nothing spectacular. Many people on this site lost three or four times that amount this year. But for me, with my health problems, it's a victory. I think my life is moving in the right direction in more ways than one, and I don't believe that is an accident. When we take control of one part of our lives, we often discover that we can get a grip on other aspects. It takes holding on, by your fingernails if you have to, until you get a moment to breathe and regroup. And then, step by step, making healthy choices day in and day out, those tiny decisions snowball into success or failure.

2008 hasn't been ideal, but it has definitely been better than 2007. My resolution for 2009 is to stay focused on my goals and make 2009 even better than 2008!

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MSEMBERSTORM 1/2/2009 3:06PM

    You have done great! This next year is going to be great! Keep up the great work!

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ZIRCADIA 1/2/2009 2:23PM

    WHATEVER, 31lbs lost is a great success! :) And I'm SOOOOOOOOOO glad you didn't lose your sweet puppy!

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JUSTKIMBERLY 1/1/2009 8:32PM

    Heck Cat.... I didn't know we got points for blogging. Guess it pays to have you as a friend huh?

Oh.... and by the way.... 31 pounds is AWESOME! Good job!

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WENDBUG34 1/1/2009 12:36PM

    I just want you to know how proud of you I am. You are one of the strongest people I know. Your heart is just huge and you are such a motivation for all of us on here. Those things that we all went through in 2008 can be looked at as a test.. to make us stronger than we were before! We are so much better off for having gone through it all. We can do this together! Keep the faith my friend! emoticon

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Baby steps, that's what we sometimes need to take. I figure that we didn't put the weight on overnight so why on earth should we think we can take it off overnight?

Just being here, blogging and keeping in contact with all your friends is probably the most positive thing you can do. If you are really determined to lose weight/get healthier, it will come in it's own good time.

Keep on keeping on with what you are doing, you're going in the right direction.

And don't forget, KEEP ON LAUGHING!!!!


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NEWSTART127 12/31/2008 11:25PM

    I am so proud of you and all that you have accomplished this year.
You are so right in that taking charge in one area spills over into other things...

And I'm SOOOO happy that you found MacDuff safe and sound! Hug him tight at midnight!

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IZZYBUBBLES 12/31/2008 5:47PM

    Beautiful picture, and even more beautiful words. Congrats on all of your 2008 successes, and best wishes for 2009!

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GINGER_LOSTALOT 12/31/2008 3:52PM

    As always, I enjoy reading your blog, so blog away. (I think we should earn points for reading our friends' blogs, not just the ones that SP deems worthy)

Anyway, you have a great attitude and you're going to continue to have great success in 2009! Just remember, 1 pound off your body is 3 off your knees, so you took off 93 pounds from your knees!

I'm SO glad you found MacDuff. Now, if we can only find out what happened to Fleance. Sorry, English teacher humor there. emoticon

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LUV_VICKIE 12/31/2008 1:08PM

    It is the points. I would do anything for points lol. If it were three I would had started already. emoticon
31 POUNDS! ! ! ! You are doing great. Keep up the good work. KEEP UP THE GOOD WORK. emoticon
Tell MacDuff, he had better behave better in the new year are he will not be getting any treats for a dev or two. emoticon
Take care and I will see you at the campfire.
Smiles, Vickie emoticon

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COLEISMYSOUL 12/31/2008 11:20AM

    In my dream world - 31 pounds! That is great. And each of us is different in our struggles.

As far as blogging - I know for myself, it is such a hard time of the year, lots of pressure all around, so I blog more. Now, I am giving back with a bit of humor.

I certainly understand about being ditched. Happened to me on an overnight trip to NYC. People don't realize the lasting impression things like that leave.

Oh, poor MacDuff, I could feel your panic. I am glad that all ended well. The photo of the door is beautiful. How lucky you are to be able to have these experiences - although, I am sure there are downsides also.

Happy New Year to you and my furry friend!
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SHINYSILVRVOLVO 12/31/2008 10:39AM

    31 pounds is something to be very proud of, and I'm glad you're sharing that with everyone! I'm glad that MacDuff is home safe and sound. Love the picture of the door, and your analogy for it. I am going to remember that!

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SHORTTOOTH1 12/31/2008 10:24AM

    This is the first I heard about the blogging for points. Good info.

31 pounds is amazing. What makes it even more amazing is how much you worked at making it happen. Most people I know would have given up with all of the trials you faced. Not only did you have to overcome medical difficulties, but the support from the people in your life (eh heh, co-workers) has been decidedly in the wrong direction. So, stay motivated and keep coming on here. You inspire us all.

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NIGHTSKYSTAR 12/31/2008 9:18AM

    Lets see. 31 pounds. a small child...6 bags of flour. or sugar. 4 bowling balls. and 46 more than i did!!!! You are my inspiration, my hero. (i said heroine but it looked too much like a drug) You are doing SO well, and you are so kind and willing to always help, so encouraging!

I am so glad you found MacDuff. I remember when my best friend, Sam, used to escape. We lived on 20 acres of woods and the other side of the woods was a 4 lane highway called "route 7" better known as suicide 7. We would call the the dogs missing. 5 Newfoundlands frolicking does call attention--but the fear was real. How much more it must be with one small dog in a foreign city. I am glad he is home safe with his girl!!!

The door is gorgeous, and I love the analogy. You are gorgeous, my friend. You have had a tough time and come through it wil flying beautiful colors. My wish for you this new year is that you lose another 31, know you have friends that would give their all to be with you at Disney (or anywhere!) and peace, love, hope and happiness.
Love you my friend...

PS. i am blogging daily because i have gotten lost and need to refind my center. I have made a calendar of goals and this was one of them. I started before they started giving points for it! but that doesnt hurt either!

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MAPLELEAFMOM 12/31/2008 8:24AM

    Love the picture, what a beautiful door! I am so glad MacDuff is safe, I know how quickly those little white dogs can get away. I also love your door analogy... very true.

I do have to say that I think 31 lbs is FANTASTIC!!! Be proud and know you have done extremely well. My wish for you is to have 2009 turn out to be the best year ever!! I can't wait to meet you in March emoticon

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MILLER32807 12/31/2008 7:33AM

    Beautiful picture!! You make such a good point with comparing our choices to doors. Sometimes it is hard to know which door we should take, and when we take the wrong one initially, we have a hard time seeing that other doors do present themselves to us in the learning we gained from our mistakes. Along this road of life, we will see many doors, and take many of the wrong ones, but as long as we learn from it (good or bad) we will be much better off in the end.

Your accomplishments this year have been great... keep it up! And glad you found MacDuff safely.

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TIME4JUDI 12/31/2008 7:13AM

    As always, a pleasure to see you blog (points or no points) emoticon

31 pounds is certainly nothing to sneeze at, and no small feat under any circumstances! We can always compare ourselves to others, and find some who have done better, and some who have not done as well, but you must look at yourself - which you have! - and ask how have I done?

Clearly you have had a successful year in many ways - I wish you a 2009 that is even MORE successful! In particular, I wish you good health, which can only lead to improvements in all other aspects of life!

{{{sweaty hugs}}} Judi

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KIMCATUS 12/31/2008 7:06AM

    Oh we get points now for blogging? *makes note*

You make a lot of great points and I'm so glad little MacDuff was found safe and sound!!

May all your doors in 2009 open easily and you pass through with love and laughter; for the doors that don't open easily may you have the courage and determination to pass through and put them behind you!!

Love you! Muah!

Beautiful pic btw!

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Camels, Deserts, and Rude Cow orkers (hee hee)

Saturday, November 22, 2008

I traveled down to the southern part of Tunis for several days last week. I was determined to stay on plan despite having very little control over my schedule, so I packed an entire suitcase full of foods I can eat. It was a business trip, so there wasn't a lot of goofing off, but we did have our moments.

One evening, we rode camels in the desert as the sun set. As we were selecting camels, I walked up to one camel, only to have the owner say to me, "No. You're too fat. I'd rather have (pointing to man over six feet tall with a big gut) him ride my camel." So I slunk off, humiliated, but I did get the last laugh. A skinny man actually rode that camel, and sure enough, going up a big hill, his camel raised a fuss and abruptly quit! Yes! He just knelt down in the sand and went on strike! The man had to walk, and I was spared the much greater indignity of "breaking" a camel!

At the summit, we stopped to marvel at the view. Some people talked about running down the steep dune. I decided to go for it, handed my things to the fat friend I've mentioned before, pretended I was Carrie Ingalls, and rolled all the way down to the bottom! In just a few seconds, I was going so fast, it was almost scary. I started to laugh but ended up eating a lot of sand -- definitely not on the food plan! I knew everyone was watching, so I made sure to laugh hard when I reached the bottom. The dune was much steeper than I'd thought, and getting back up to the top proved to be a major challenge. At one point, I even suggested that they just toss me a pillow! I'm glad I did it, though. Everyone was amazed and strangely impressed, and the fat friend just couldn't get over it. He talked about how cool I looked, and how everyone was mondo impressed that I'd casually done what they were afraid to do.

I couldn't understand why they thought it was a big deal. Later on, reading the guide book, I discovered that I'd been in prime scorpion territory, and I was grateful I hadn't known that at the time!

But it wouldn't be my workplace if coworkers (cow orkers) didn't make my weight an issue at least once. My boss displayed her trademark lack of tact when she asked about my suitcase of food and said, "Do you have health problems because you're fat? Have you always been fat? Are you even trying to do anything about it? What did you weigh in high school?" Yes. Lovely woman. Walking behind her, I couldn't help but notice that she might soon "develop health problems" herself!

My absolute favorite moment of the trip was on the final day when we stopped in a big, open air market. A man went by on his scooter, cuddling a full grown, live sheep in his arms!

Now I'm back in Tunis, the capital city, and life is getting back to normal. Unfortunately, my computer is not working at home, and I have very limited access to the internet at work. boo hoo!

I miss you guys!

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UP4MORE 12/30/2008 10:28AM

    I swear this post made me smile and giggle I can totally relate to your 'laura ingalls' moment! how much fun and a little work getting back to the group was good for the muscle's after the camel sitting time!

You know I would give an arm or a leg to do what you did, how fun and worldly. And you managed both the rude camel guy and the rude boss so well. I think i would have walked away after the camel guy thing - but what luck - God had a better plan!

Thank you for posting this - it was a wonderfully uplifting read about how to live your life!

Have a happy new year!


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DOTSLADY 12/26/2008 2:04AM

    emoticonI laughed, I cried ...

You're TOO much, and I love living vicariously through "Beary Gyrllz"-like life in WOMAN vs WILD (from camels to cows!) ;0)

Check this out to see what I mean, and why I think of you (language and sarcasm warning):

at a life! And I'm just eatin' it up! emoticon

Keep rockin' honey - we're with ya!

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BROOKE1979 12/22/2008 12:02PM

    I love reading your blog enteries because they are always so REAL and insightful. It's awful how rude and disrectful your boss and cow orkers are!

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PA-TRAILRIDER 12/2/2008 10:19AM

    Great blog! I love your writing and thanks for the goodie! Be safe over.

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MSEMBERSTORM 11/28/2008 9:18PM

    Wow it sounds like a great time except for the ignorant boss and the camel. Jenkies! How long are you going to be in Tunis? Is this home for good?

Keep moving forward!

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GINGER_LOSTALOT 11/26/2008 2:32PM

    I thoroughly enjoyed your blog. You write so well and are so funny. I can't believe people have no tact. There are so many ways to handle a situation. I wish someone took a picture of the guy and the sheep. PS: sand is a low-fat, low glycemic, and high fiber food.

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NEWSTART127 11/26/2008 2:39AM

    ARGH! I'm late getting to the party - I didn't get a notification! Glad I finally made it here though - I wouldn't have missed this Blog for the world! You're a gifted writer - I think I actually rolled down the hill with you! (I've rolled down some snow and grass hills in my day, but never a sand dune!) I probably would have rolled with you - provided I also did not know about the scorpians! That would have kept my butt firmly planted on the camel! But WAY TO GO on getting in the ride and for having such an amazing adventure!

As for the cow orkers... they are just tactless... but hopefully you'll be able to teach them a thing or two about motivation, inspiration, support, and attitude while you're there!


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ANGELBLEU 11/24/2008 2:10PM

    your awesome! you shoulda pushed your fat cow orker down the hill.. now that woulda been funny! :) hehehe glad you had fun...!

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CJBAGGINS 11/23/2008 11:24PM

    Sand hill rolling? I bet you got sand EVERYWHERE. How long were you pouring sand out of your knickers that night?

As to the cow orkers - not gonna waste any energy on that lot. Not worth it.

You're beautiful, my friend.
Hope to see you back in the common room soon. We miss you!


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RAVEN1025 11/23/2008 11:04AM

    Other than the rude folks, it sounds like a pretty amazing trip. Rolling down the dune sounds delightful. I am very glad you did not get stung by a scorpion!!!

I love the image of the guy with the sheep in his arms. You certainly don't see that sort of thing stateside.

Keep up the great work. Your dedication will pay off!!!

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    Goodness gracious the rudness of these people is outstanding. Glad to see the camel had a better take on the whole thing.

I love camels, I think they have such a dignified face plus they have the ability to spit at people who get up their nose. Hang on that seems like a plan I think that your boss needs a big wet one lobbed at her.
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I liked Linda's comment about the "orker" except she forgot the "p" in front of that word emoticon

Keep on smiling,


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WANT2CHNG17 11/22/2008 9:45PM

    I think your cow orkers are actually as*es! Loved this blog - especially love your attitude!

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~*LINDA*~ 11/22/2008 5:28PM

    Send me her address!!! i`ll sort that cow out.... oh should have put orker in there!! LOL emoticon emoticon

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COLEISMYSOUL 11/22/2008 3:31PM

    I have a better list of vocabulary words to describe your COWorkers, but I would get turned in for inappropriate language. But, you once again have outshone them. More power to you my friend! emoticon

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MAPLELEAFMOM 11/22/2008 3:13PM

    emoticon on doing what no one else would but you knew they probably wanted to!! Ick on the scorpions and I am sooo glad you are safe and didn't know that before going down the dune LOL!

I cannot believe the people you work with, how nasty are they!! You keep going and doing the fantastic job you are and soon they'll be the ones eating 'sand'!!!

You are doing amazing and are very inspirational emoticon

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    Prime scorpion territory?! I'm SO glad you didn't get stung, but also glad that you let go and had a blast doing what you did. And that you made it. Hah! That'll show them.

Totally disgusted at lack-of-tact lady. For one thing, it's none of her business. For another, hello!! Has she never learned that there are some subjects that are just plain off-limits to the workplace? But I do love that you called her a cow-worker. Tee hee!

Glad your trip was good, glad you went prepared, and mostly glad that you're back!

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LUV_VICKIE 11/22/2008 2:47PM

    Sounds fun. Sorry about your computer and the Cow orkers. I hope things improve soon.
Smiles, Vickie emoticon emoticon

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KIMCATUS 11/22/2008 2:34PM

    I am just amazed at the stupidity and ignorance of your cow orkers! What *bleep* (sorry had to censor myself there)!!! Oh well, f-em...they're so stupid I'm surprised they remember to breathe! Anywhooo...what a cool trip! But the sand dune rolling? Not so much! I've around in sand a few times thinking it'd be romantic and whatnot and freaking sand gets everywhere! lol But I'm so glad you did it and showed your stoopid cow orkers that you could! You rock and I just love you!! But I want that dude's sheep...I love sheep! Not eatin' sheep...cuddlin' sheep...and not in that way either! rofl

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SMILINGEYES2 11/22/2008 2:22PM

    What a serendipitous moment. You are learning the gifts of living in the present and not letting others' views be your own self. God bless.

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MILLER32807 11/22/2008 2:18PM

    Everyone has pretty much already said the things I was thinking :) I'm sorry but your boss is really b!+chy!!! I'd have been like "Have you always been so discrete with your insults?! Is it a health hazard to ask such dumb questions; you must get punched quite often?!"

But the rest kinda sounded like alot of fun, and I wish I could go ride a camel at sunset. That sounds like it must have been a beautiful view!!


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ZIRCADIA 11/22/2008 2:01PM

    Your coworkers seriously shock me with their complete insensitivity. What the heck??? I guess it would be your boss in this case that I'm thinking of... what business are you in anyway??? I'm hoping they're this way because they only ever have to deal with computers or something and not people... and they're all socially awkward and don't know any better... *yeah right*. Anyway, sounds like you had some good stuff going on in spite of the crap! :) I agree with NIGHTSKYSTAR -- that camel was heartbroken because it could have had you and got rejected. :( hahahaha. And running down a sand dune!!! HOW COOL!!!! :D

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BEAUTIFLDZSTR 11/22/2008 1:52PM


Oh my gosh and WOW.

I am glad the camel gave up on a skinny person. EVEN HAPPIER YOU WERE NOT ON IT.

SCORPIONS WOW okay so ya it prolly was better you didnt know about them, but great job on getting back up that sand dune.

I have a great imagination and could totally picture you running down it (I was thinking as I read sure hope you dont end up with a face full).

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NIGHTSKYSTAR 11/22/2008 1:45PM

    you make me laugh!! the camel went on strike because it wanted YOU. Good camel.
as for your boss. i think for Christmas you should get her a sign and discretely tack it to the back of her chair. it should say "cation--wide load." then almost saw through the legs.
ok that was mean. but so is she. you are the most tactful person i know..surely you can think of something to say that will let her know what an idiot she says but she will have to really think about it..and wonder..

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Life as a Superfattie

Monday, November 10, 2008

A lot has been going on in my personal life. I've been dealing with setbacks - nothing life threatening, just difficult. Despite being put on blood pressure medicine and continuing to lose weight, my blood pressure was a frightening 158/112 this morning. (which makes me wonder what it would be without the meds!) My arthritis has become a real problem lately. I'm struggling to get up and down my stairs some days, and basic twist and bend functioning is almost gone. The good news is that I suffer from the waist down, so the hands are still good for typing!

On the job front, I've been working closely with some of the most difficult people in my group. I've earned a reputation as an emotionally stable, calm, "grown up." ... So my boss rewarded me by pairing me with a young, brash, arrogant, obnoxious, socially unskilled boar with whom no one else wants to work. (Hmm ... maybe we DO know why my BP is so high!)

Also at work, there is a nice man who is morbidly obese and terribly insecure. We've become friends, but he says things that shock and hurt me. He recently informed me that "we're not popular, and people don't like us because we're fat." ??? I had no idea I was back in junior high school! He has made several comments that denigrate me in the guise of commiserating with me because "we're so fat". And then he came to dinner at my home recently and spent the evening mocking my taste and critiquing my home. I know he's projecting his own insecurities, but if he's one of the nice people at work, you get the idea what the others are like!

To cap it off, I visited the company nurse recently. She's quite fat and Christmas tree shaped. (I'm an apple.) So she says quite casually, "I really struggle with my weight, too, but then when I see you, and I feel better about myself, because I know I can sort of hide my excess weight." (Umm, no, Patty, you can't.)

I guess it's human nature to compare ourselves to others, but it horrifies me to realize that I'm the person who makes the fatties feel good about themselves! And I think it's interesting that the very people who should know the most about getting dumped on and feel some empathy are the first ones to do it to anyone they think they're "ahead of".

Well, I'm using it as motivation. I am not saying anything, but I've started going to a local street vendor and getting pureed banana-strawberry shakes for lunch and then walk around for the rest of my break. It gets me out of the office, away from co workers, and burns some calories. I'm going to keep plugging away and slowly, quietly lose the weight. Then one day, I hope these other fatties wake up and realize that I'm just not "one of them" anymore, and they need to finds someone else to shore up their fragile egos.

In any event, I'm trying very hard to make healthy choices. I leave for a four-day business trip tomorrow. All meals are included, but I know that there will be nothing there I should be eating. So I went shopping today and bought apples, oranges, nuts, and cheese to take with me. Every pound I lose takes pressure of my poor arthritic joints, possibly reduces my BP, and certainly makes me feel better about myself.

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UP4MORE 12/30/2008 10:30AM

    gah - its not wonder the BP is high you are a flower amidst weeds my dear!!! But you bloom inspite of it all!!


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GLAUCKENSTUCK 12/3/2008 1:56AM

    You freakin rock so hard.

I'm subscribing to your blog. Immediately.

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MSEMBERSTORM 11/28/2008 9:23PM

    oh hun! It doesn't sound like these guys are what you need to have around. Thank goodness it is only at work. I hope they wake up and realize the ignorance they have spewed. Your positive disposition will hopefully will touch their lives and they find a good path! Keep moving forward. You have the right attitude!

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MAKOTODFW 11/15/2008 3:11PM

    YIKES!!!!! emoticon

Nothing will perk a person up as much as moving halfway around the globe to be paired with these winners!
(SHEESH!! What a bunch of Bozos!)
Have a relaxing trip away from the cow---orkers. Hopefully that will help short term with the blood pressure
Hang in there schweetie! We're all pulling for ya!

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GINGER_LOSTALOT 11/15/2008 9:56AM

    Heavens to Betsy! I'm sorry to say this, but I'm glad I don't work where you work! This is Harrassment! You know, I taught junior high for three years and I never the kind of embarrassment and humiliation you have been subjected to! But after five years of teaching, I knew that my health was suffering too badly and that I had to find another job. So I did. Now, I'm happy and my bp (sorry to brag) is 98/60... and I weigh 338! Anyway, what I'm trying to say is, stick to your plans and show those people just how much grace, style, and intelligence a "fatty" can have!

Have a safe and healthy trip!

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DOTSLADY 11/13/2008 2:21PM

    emoticonLawdy, I'm embarrassed for these people. They think you're in the "Club", huh? I'm glad you're above it, not getting caught up in their baggage and movin' on. Hugs, Cat - your head's in the right place, so your body has to follow! Keep moving is all I gotta say. YOU ARE S O .... F A N T A S T I C O! You'll be helping THEM before long ... they need some of your spirit (that's why they like being around you).

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DIZZYKITTY 11/13/2008 7:48AM

    Oh dear, some people have some serious issues! Well done on keeping your head with them, I think I would have punched someone by now if I were you!! And well done on making the healthy choices, you can do this!!

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ZIRCADIA 11/11/2008 10:30PM

    OH MY GOSH WHAT IS WRONG WITH PEOPLE. You know what? They're probably making themselves feel better by classing themselves with you because you're doing better than they are. I think I used to do that... Like... I know I'm overweight, but I probably don't look worse than so and so and they don't look so bad... so maybe I'm ok. By "commiserating" with someone who they admire a bit, it makes themselves feel like they're not that bad off. Even to the point of deluding themselves into thinking they're even better off than you are. I'm sure you know the strong power of denial when it comes to weight!!! (I SURE DO!) But making comments like that to you??????? How socially ignorant and inept do you have to be not to realize that you're INSULTING someone. I'm sorry you have to deal with people like that. I'm glad you're strong enough to use this as motivation. *HUGS* (It ticks me off that people are being mean to my super awesome Cat!!!!!! I wanna go kick their butts and hang out with you and go on those walks with you!!!)

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HOFMAE 11/11/2008 8:22AM

    I cannot believe the immaturities of people! They have nothing better to do than to criticize you-just like high school. Sounds to me like they are insecure with themselves, as well as need to pick-me-up of criticizing somebody else.

These people likely also need the support of a good friend. But it sounds as though they are burning bridgs before they even cross them.

Do what you need to do for yourself to get you blood pressure lowered. I know how you feel about arthritis, I have it in lower body as well. No fun, but it can get better.

We are all here to support you, Cat. And we think you are awesome-no criticisms from any Sparkies.

People like this just remind me of why pets are better than a lot if people...

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MAPLELEAFMOM 11/11/2008 8:13AM

    You can do this Cat, you are amazing!! The world is full of idiots and it sounds like you are surrounded by them emoticon and that makes the journey harder. That also makes the challenge more tempting emoticon Show those jerks what a real winner can do and how being positive can get you further ahead than being nasty !!

We believe in you and know you are going to succeed. We are here cheering you on every step of the way... go Catiatm!!!! emoticon

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JUSTKIMBERLY 11/11/2008 6:14AM

    Cat... I can only reiterate what everyone else has already said. I'm so sorry you're dealing with all this nonsense and please know that we all love you.

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Don't you just love those nutters? As the saying goes "I may be overweight but I will lose weight, you on the otherhand will always be an a$$hole"

I feel for you about the blood pressure, mine is all over the place at the moment, I had to have my meds upped this week as well, I must be in sympathy with you re the pains as well, it's an absolute bummer when the joints act up.

I hope you can get the BP down soon and make sure your doctor keeps an eye on your kidneys as well because high BP can stuff them up.


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NEWSTART127 11/11/2008 12:26AM

    Good for you on making good choices and for moving forward AND for not letting your coworkers get you down!

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RAVEN1025 11/10/2008 11:00PM

    That's a drag that people around you can be so petty. However, you are definitely miles ahead. Regardless of what they see, you are working so hard, and making great strides. I think their bitterness comes not from their weight, but because they are not as committed to doing something about it. It is easier to pass judgment than to make potentially hard changes.
I am so very proud of you and what you've accomplished. You have forged ahead when most would have given up. Every positive choice you make will reward you in triplicate.

Besides, maybe you will inspire some of those people around you to take positive action in their own lives, as you have inspired many of us around you in the virtual world!!

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SIXFULLERS 11/10/2008 10:17PM

    It never ceases to amaze me how insensitive people are. I'm sorry you've been put into the position you're in, but it is heartening to hear you turn this in to a motivation. Keep that fire burning deep in your heart Cat and let it fuel your journey. And we're here for you along the way to fan the flames. :)

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CJBAGGINS 11/10/2008 10:07PM

    At my course tonight I heard something that I believe applies well to this situation:

"True nobility comes not from making oneself superior to someone else; true nobility comes from being superior only to what one was yesterday."

This is a concept that seems to have escaped your coworkers. Fortunately, it is something you have internalized wonderfully. You will go far, my friend. You are making the right choices and getting somewhere without the need or desire to reduce others in the process. True nobility!

Hmmm...I feel a goodie coming on...


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BEAUTIFLDZSTR 11/10/2008 9:35PM

    Oh my gosh cat, all I can say is DITTO DITTO DITTO DITTO with what everyone has replied. WOW. Okay hope your trip is a safe one.

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COLEISMYSOUL 11/10/2008 8:10PM

    You put me to shame my friend. And you are right, they are acting as if they are in High School.

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~*LINDA*~ 11/10/2008 6:43PM

    Invite the "Fat boy" back to yours for dinner again, tell him he looks terrible in what he`s wearing,,, put some stuff in his food that`ll make him s**t for a week,,, stop being friends with him,, you`re NOT part of that group you`re part of our group,,, beautiful supersexy,,,,,,, any more problems and i`ll come and sort the muffin munchers out!!!!!
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SHORTTOOTH1 11/10/2008 2:36PM

    First, I almost stopped reading and started ranting when I saw the title. You had better know that the title does not apply to you!! That said, I agree with all of the other comments. You work with a bunch of idiots. I think you should start standing up for yourself. Since you have the nice girl reputation people may think that they can walk all over you. Let them know that you are not there to make them feel better! And actually by comparing themselves to you they should feel worse.

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    Whoa...this really makes me wonder why some people even open their mouths. Did they never learn that it's not acceptable to put someone else down to make themselves feel better? Apparently not. And for that, I am sorry. I'm sorry that you're having to put up with that right now, but know that in the end, you'll have the last laugh. As you quietly go about your work and make positive changes, you prove that you're the better person and deserving of so much more.

I hope the arthritis gets feeling better!

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KIMCATUS 11/10/2008 1:46PM

    Oh my beautiful friend, I agree with will NEVER be one of "them"....not because you will someday be skinny and even more gorgeous on the outside, but because you've always been gorgeous on the inside!!!

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DANIMITE2 11/10/2008 1:42PM

    Ugh Cat...Sounds like you work with a bunch of morons! But I think you've got the right attitude about it...Just use them as motivation!

I struggle with a disease called Fibromyalgia. I see a rheumatist for it, and my case is very similar to Arthritis. I cannot BEGIN to tell you how much my weight loss has helped the way I feel on a daily basis. My knees and hips feel SO much better. I still struggle with jar lids due to my wrist pain, but I'm working on strength exercises to counteract those pains. You are right...every pound you lose will help.

We are gonna rock this race girl! I just replied back to your question about places to eat...I've gotta go have some lunch now because my mouth is watering thinking about it!

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RIANES 11/10/2008 1:38PM

    Ahh, Cat,

I know just how you feel. I, too, have lost some motivation and it's even harder when the people around you are making it worse. I'm sure that the coworker and the nurse (well, the coworker at least) is just trying to form a "I know how you feel" bond with you. The problem is that when folks do that, they end up sounding rude (Hey! You're fat like me!") or like a whiny little victim (Nobody likes me, blah, blah, blah, where are the worms for me to eat?). I have fallen into both categories but have tried to overcome it.

Life is way to precious for us to let the "rain cloud people" ruin our days. We love you!

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FROLIC838 11/10/2008 1:33PM

    My dear, you truly aren't one of "them." Take strength and encouragement from that. You are here. You recognize what is required to be healthy. You are working to better yourself. But more than that, you are secure in yourself. You have the confidence that comes from being at peace with your limitations. You know it is a struggle, but you also know you will win. And you don't need to project on others to make yourself feel better. You have a network of friends who will lift you up when you fall and will be here to listen when you need to vent. Your reaction to the situation speaks volumes about who and what you are. Congratulations on holding yourself above such pettiness. emoticon

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NIGHTSKYSTAR 11/10/2008 1:31PM

    ahh Cat. some people are such imbeciles. and in the business you are in you would THINK...well..maybe thats why the world is in such a state!!
ok here...i have a friend i go to tops with and after all this time we finally shared stats. we are within 20 pounds of each other, and she is 3" shorter than me..we wear the same size clothing. we looked at each other in awe...i said..but seriously? YOU dont look that big!!! at the VERY same time she said the VERY same thing to me.
I am always asking Kevin how bad i look. he refuses to answer...i guess his wife would say do i look fat in this and he would be honest and she would go into a huff. I honestly want to know when i ask. Now i have a comparison, and i'm not so embarassed any more!! Too bad your cow-workers arent less bull-ish.
I love ya....i think you are doing great, and if you invited ME to your party i wouldnt look at anything but YOU and the food table!!!my house is a mess, as i'm sure yours ISNT. he sounds like he needs to make his own slug club.
Love ya...hang in. i'm in this with you!!

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ANGELBLEU 11/10/2008 1:30PM

    Girl...First off tell those other jerks to SOD OFF.. if they feel they have the right to say ANYTHING about your weight to you, you should throw their own weight back at them full force! Iknow that is childish, but NO ONE has the right to make you feel like crap to boost themselves up! NO ONE!

YOU my love have more self esteem then these people. YOU know you are going to do the right thing, while these other "fatties" will still grab that donut! YOU are doing everythng right for YOU! And you are right, your weight WILL come off! and you will be healthy! you have already changed your mind to be healthy, now you just have to wait for your body to catch up! And it will....You can only start with your mind and you have done that all ready... Tell these other fools to SOD OFF! and btw... i think that jerk shouldnt be allowed in your home either.. oh I just want to go punch him in the face! jeez critiquing your home.... you know he prolly lives in a pig sty ! ok you know I love you and I commend you for everything you have done in your journey.. You are awesome! keep it up!

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Life in the Baaaaaaaaa Lane

Wednesday, October 08, 2008

We've been in Tunis for almost two months, and it feels like home. We've developed a routine, and the house looks pretty put together. I have turned my patio into a nascent Greek taverna, with lots of flowering bushes and a nice place to sit and relax.

Life most Muslim countries, the architecture is Islamic. High walls and inward looking design give the women privacy, and it's MacDuff's whole world. Since we arrived, he has patrolled the garden and the patio, wandered around the house, but he has not gone beyond our walls, except for one brief break for freedom which didn't last long.

The weather here is gorgeous right now, and so I decided to take MacDuff for a walk. I've been worried about stray dogs, but my neighborhood has a lot of foreigners living in it, and they tend to adopt the strays, making it safer. MacDuff quivered with excitement when he realized that freedom (on a leash, but still) was his. We sniffed and peed our way up the hill to the sea and then to a fabulous little bakery I recently discovered. A dog challenged MacDuff, but he was too busy hiking himself up on tippytoe to squirt his calling card to even care.

Westies are rare in this part of the world, and the little guy drew his share of admiring glances as we toddled along. We passed an old man and his two sheep, and the man called out a pleasant greeting. Not wishing to be rude, I stopped to talk. MacDuff was extremely well behaved, calmly, slowly walking up to "meet" one of the sheep. Although she seemed to be curious about him initially, she soon grew skittish and backed up. I started to reel MacDuff in when she went on the attack, charging him. MacDuff dashed back and then behind me as fast as four inch legs can go, both putting me right in the irate sheep's pathway and tangling up my legs at the same time. Luckily, the man leaped forward and grabbed her horns! You know what? Sheep are surprisingly large and mean looking up close and angry!

The whole time, the old man smiled at me and called out apologies!

MacDuff was so shaken up that he freaked when we saw a miserable little street cat, and it was just time to go home. Now the little guy is sacked out on the sofa, no doubt dreaming about his big adventure!

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MSEMBERSTORM 11/28/2008 9:15PM

    How funny! Poor McDuff!

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UP4MORE 11/3/2008 2:11PM

    Oh wow!! Amazing place it sounds like - amazing adventures for both you and McDuff!


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LEB108 10/15/2008 9:36AM

    Dogs are so fun, they really make life interesting. It sounds like you are having quite a new adventure!

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NEWSTART127 10/13/2008 12:31AM

    I think I'd be afraid of a charging sheep, and I'm much bigger than a Westie!
Thanks for sharing MacDuff's big adventures beyond the high wall!
I'm glad you're both settling in nicely!

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    Ha, funny story. Poor MacDuff is probably glad to be safely home again.
Thank you for leaving comments on my blogs.

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STEFIPOP 10/11/2008 8:59PM

    Oh my gosh, you cracked me up! I laughed all the way through this blog! Out loud. My husband thinks I am crazy! I went and looked at your pictures, too, hoping to see one of MacDuff. O my, he is adorable, and picturing this all in my head makes it even funnier. You live quite the exciting life, I'd say, and you have visited some amazing places! Good for you!

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SIXFULLERS 10/10/2008 5:35AM

    Poor MacDuff! Before you leave, he'll be herding sheep. ;-)

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NIGHTSKYSTAR 10/9/2008 3:06PM

    what a sweet story...but you didnt tell us what you bought at the bakery!!! LOL!!
i want to see horny sheep tooo...they cut them all off around here.
Love you!!

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MAPLELEAFMOM 10/9/2008 7:06AM

    What a cute story!! I knew there was another reason we get along well, other than you totally motivate me here! We have 2 westies. They are so much fun with their attitude and personalities. I can't imagine our family without them. My westie Watson would love to go play with MacDuff and then they could go play with the sheep!! Our other westie, Guinness, would try to have those sheep for lunch - he thinks he is the biggest thing in the world and he doesn't really like any other furry things other than Watson! (I don't think Guinness knows he's a dog!)

Have a great day with MacDuff!

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Glad to hear things are falling into place over there.

I cracked up about the sheep, I have a visual picture of this as we used to have a small flock and one mongrel of a ram. I can still remember the time when he butted my mum. She got such a shock going A over T none of us could do anything for laughing!!!!

Hope your little dog is doing better!!


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BEAUTIFLDZSTR 10/8/2008 11:10PM

    Okay so I am a dork. I swore the title was baaaaaaaaad Lane, so I got to the park of the bakery and thought ohp here it is the bad part. DUH okay so it was the sheep. HEHEHEHE

Sounds beautiful and MacDuff will conquere eventually

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MSEMBERSTORM 10/8/2008 9:36PM

    Awesome! Little MacDuff sounds like quite a character. LOL. Glad you are settled in.

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KIMCATUS 10/8/2008 8:57PM

    "When Good Sheep Go Bad!" next on Tunis tv channel #6...starring MacDuff as the innocent victim! Stay tuned!

Awwww you have the most funnest adventures! Sorry about the close encounters of the sheep kind...LOL! Only you my crazy gorgeous friend...only you!

Hey don't get that rental for too long in 260-ville...I have a feeling you will be leaving there soon! Come to Badgertown! We have sheep! ROFL

Comment edited on: 10/8/2008 8:55:50 PM

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ZIRCADIA 10/8/2008 8:29PM

    DITTO TO YOU LADY!! I sooooo wish we could be IRL pals. Alas, you are far away. *HUGS* But I've always thought of you as one of my coolest SP friends. :) I think we'd definitely hit it off if we were hanging out in person as well. EEK SCARY SHEEP!!!!!!!!!!!!!! That sounds a bit terrifying! hahaha. Poor doggie! :) What a cute story about him though. I want a dog so bad...

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COLEISMYSOUL 10/8/2008 8:06PM

    Wonderful to hear from you and read your adventures. Three cheers for MacDuff!!!

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HOFMAE 10/8/2008 8:04PM

    Sounds like a beautiful place.

And adventurous!!

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RIANES 10/8/2008 4:59PM

    Go MacDuff!

Glad to hear that you've settled in nicely. It's down right cold and damp here. Remind me why I switched Washingtons?

Talk to you later!

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~*LINDA*~ 10/8/2008 4:51PM

    emoticonYou sound like you`re settling really well,,,, glad to know you`re causing a stir!!!!! emoticon

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FROLIC838 10/8/2008 4:25PM

    Your new place sounds divine. The cooler days of fall have crept over my neck of the woods and I'm already snuggled up with hot chocolate (sugar free of course) and warm blankets. :) Makes me long for sunshine and fair weather. MacDuff's adventures were absolutely priceless. Thanks for sharing!

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SHORTTOOTH1 10/8/2008 4:15PM

    It sounds like your new place is great!! And MacDuff's big adventure made me laugh. I'm glad you are finding your place there.

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MILLER32807 10/8/2008 4:06PM

    Wow, what an adventure for MacDuff!!!! lol Watch out at the bakery so you don't eat both our shares of daily calories in one sitting emoticon Glad that you are discovering friendly people... and how cool that you just go for a little stroll and meet a man with his sheep!!!

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Procrastination and Cookies

Monday, February 11, 2008

I don't know what is the matter with me. I know I need to exercise. I know I don't even mind it that much when I'm doing it. I know I feel better for doing it, and yet I have to beat myself into going to the gym. Oh, and by "go to the gym," I mean get in the lift and go down to the ground floor!

I had a pleasant surprise today and got to come home early. Did I work out early and get it done? Noooo. I packed my gym bag HOURS before I finally went downstairs. Pathetic.

But go down I did. And considering my recent surgery, it was actually a pretty energetic workout. I worked out for close to two hours, doing both cardio and weight work. The endorphins kicked in early on, and I felt great by the end of it.

The concierges bake cookies every evening. As I come out of the gym, I often turn into Jerry from the Tom & Jerry cartoons, floating on the wafting scent of fresh baked, still warm cookies. (Cookies, not cheese, but you get the idea.) One evening, I was eyeing up the cookies but decided I needed milk to really enjoy them. Cesar, the concierge that evening, actually kept them in the back room until I returned from the convenience store with milk, so that they would not be scarfed down by other residents before I returned!

Cesar was on duty again this evening, as I left the gym, feeling both pride and a sense of accomplishment. Why do I struggle to do what I know I need to do, especially when there is a possibility of a cookie afterwards? One would think I'd be desperate to get down there and get cracking! Walking through the lobby on my way to the lift, I scooped up a chocolate chip cookie and called out to Cesar, "I love you!"

He grinned, and we were both happy.

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MSEMBERSTORM 2/17/2008 1:09PM

    You are doing awesome. Don't beat yoruself up! You worked out and not too long after having surgery. Be proud of yourself! You rock!

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ABM909 2/14/2008 10:42AM

    I think Cesar loves you too. Way too go and if you want cookies then I think its just fine. Especially if you are able to work it into your daily calories. AND you worked out first. I think you are super. Keep up the good work.

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TABSNPICKLES 2/13/2008 12:27PM

    Hiya darling! Well DONE! No I MEAN IT! It's a lot more than I have been doing! And I have been scoffing all sorts of naughties!! But I am now home - good ol' Blighty! It took an ice storm, sun, and far too many train journeys to get here - but look I am already putting up an answer on SP and I have 2 screaming cats, a damp house (the boiler went into lock out - D'oh son why didn't you check that instead of forgetting my milk??? or even as WELL as I should say!) but I am home - I loved seeing everyone - but oh am I glad to be home! As for workouts..... I think I got mine carting all my baggage over the stairs at the station, dragging them up the drive and sorting out the boiler - at least I now have some heat! So HAVE A COOKIE FOR ME (after you have done your workout! LOL!)
Love and lots of hugs

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TIME4JUDI 2/13/2008 6:26AM

    I agree with everyone else...we all KNOW we need to exercise, and feel good afterwards, but it is hard to get ourselves to do it no matter if it is just down the lift (or in my case in the room next door!)...BUT, the more often you CAN push yourself to do it, the more of a habit it becomes, and the easier it is! Good for you for getting that workout in! Allow that cookie to be the secondary reward to feeling good about working out, and yes, shout it loud when you have done it! (I have unlimited texting....I'd be happy to be your "text buddy")....I have another SparkFriend who likes me to send her an email every day to encourage her to work out (of course then I have to work out too!) Have a great day! {{{sweaty hugs}}} Judi

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    I like Cesar already! Sounds like my kind of guy. And excellent work on getting to the gym and getting a great workout in!

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KIMCATUS 2/12/2008 1:03PM

    Ooooh cookies!! Yummy! I wish I could help you out on the working out...all I can say is just do it. yeah I sound like a sneaker ad, but seriously. Is there someone you can work out with? Or someone that can call you and say, hey go work out!! Or hey...if you have unlimited text messaging (like I do with a teenager in the house)...I'll text you at a specific time and tell you to get your butt up and go!! lol

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MYSHERIANN 2/12/2008 12:49PM

    PUSH so it becomes habit! My son (who's in 5th grade) shared with me he was taught in school.......if you do something (the same thing) for 21 days, it becomes habit to our brain. So i'm testing his teacher! I'm workout for 21 days straight.

I have the same issue you're speaking of. I enjoy working out, I love the results and boy do you feel awesome afterwards............SO WHY IS IT SO HARD TO GET UP AND DO IT????.........ugh! lol Let's nip that RIGHT now and make working out a natural habit!!!! I'm w/ yah!

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AMUNET_RA 2/12/2008 9:46AM

    Oh, Amanda, if I could stop at one cookie! LOL!

Congrats on your workout! That is GREAT! I too, love the feeling after a good workout. Yesterday after I left the pool, I ran part of the way home from the bus stop (not because I'm energetic; because it was -40 with the wind chill) and I could feel that my lungs were starting to stretch...getting more accustomed to cardio; it felt great! Sadly, I went home, baked cookies for my BF and scarfed down about 700 calories worth of cookie dough LOL! (yes, my exercise bank account is already in the negative)

But I digress....enjoy that will grow and reward've earned it! ((HUGS))


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H2O4LIFE 2/12/2008 12:25AM

    ..and ya know, after a good workout is the best time to splurge...if you're going to. Depending on the intensity of your workout, your body burns more calories for up to daon't feel guilty about a cookie. It was deserved.~hugs from the Dark

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SCHNOOGLES 2/12/2008 12:09AM

    One cookie isn't a bad thing after a workout. I'm proud of you for going to workout! Good job!

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