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Kadusha: 2003-2007

Sunday, December 23, 2007


Kadusha died last night. I still can't quite grasp it. I found her in the Animal Market, a sort of take away zoo in Dushanbe, Tajikistan. She was a tiny, starving puppy, and the man was going to drown her because no one wanted a female dog. She was crying her heart out; she was so young that her eyes were still blue.

Impulsively, I bought her for $2.70. Kadusha joined my westie MacDuff, and we traveled the world. Four months ago, we moved from London to Arlington, Virginia. Kadusha struggled with the adjustment and developed some problems -- nothing that seemed too serious.

It all went wrong after lunch yesterday. By 6 p.m. we were in the vet's office. Kadusha was such a fighter. The vet marveled at the dosage it took it finally put her to sleep. I held her and reminded her of all the amazing adventures we had together as she gazed at me with those beautiful whisky-colored eyes.

I know it's going to be a long time before I'm over her. MacDuff keeps checking her crate and looking around the house for her. Odd things suddenly make me think of her and I cry.

I love the Christmas season, but this year is tough.



  
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SCHNOOGLES 1/3/2008 10:57AM

    Oh honey! I'm so sorry to hear about Kadusha. I lost my dog earlier this year, and it still hurts. Then a family member on top of that - although frankly, the dog was a family member too.

For some reason, our birthdays were the hardest thing for me this year. My dog, me, and my family member all have birthdays in a row, right around Christmas. This year I lost both my birthday buddies. Nobody to "share" my cake with. (OK, plenty of people to help eat it, which is good.) That was hard.

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HRDWLBY 12/31/2007 9:58AM

    I am so sorry to hear about your loss. Losing a pet is terrible! I've been there as well. There is such a hole in your heart. I know you'll never forget her. Hopefully you will remember the happy times with her.

Helen

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GETMOVIN 12/29/2007 5:07PM

    CATIATM,
I'm so sorry to hear about Kadusha. She will always be in your heart and you can always feel good about how much you did to give her a good life.

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QUEENOFSCHMOOZE 12/27/2007 10:30PM

    It's hard, but it's so good that you were there with her. So sorry about your puppy.

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ACESANDEIGHTS 12/27/2007 12:41PM

  I'm so sorry to hear about your lost. I know how hard it is to lose a family member like that. I recently lost my Gus, he was a Westie. It was so kind of you to adopt her. At least you gave her a better life. Take care

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H2O4LIFE 12/24/2007 12:28AM

    Boy, that takes me back. OUCH! I'm so sorry for your loss. My pup still brings me to tears and it's been 2 1/2 yrs. We'll always have our memories.~hugs from the Dark

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KIMCATUS 12/23/2007 9:40PM

    I am so so sorry to hear about your precious fur baby...she was gorgeous and was very lucky to have such a wonderful and caring home. I'm so sorry for your loss... :(

*hugs*

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MSEMBERSTORM 12/23/2007 5:11PM

    I am so sorry! It's amazing how close we get to our wonderful pets. Mine are my family! My heart really breaks for you. Best wishes!

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250STRONG 12/23/2007 2:52PM

    My thoughts and prayers are with you.

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GREENT 12/23/2007 11:33AM

    It's great that you rescued Kadusha and gave her a loving home. I'm sorry that she is no longer with you. I hope that you are comforted by the memories of your friend & companion.

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MUSTANG0421 12/23/2007 10:04AM

    I am so sorry for your loss. I became higly allergic to my cats and had to give them up a little over a year ago. I still miss them and have moments when something reminds me of them. Kadusha was so lucky to have had you. Hopefully in time your memories of her will be comforting to you.

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COLEISMYSOUL 12/23/2007 9:53AM

    I am so sorry for your loss. Our pets are such special angels to us. Remember the wonderful times she brought you as she knew the life you brought her.

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BARKSHIREWOODS 12/23/2007 12:37AM

    Hugs to you at this time. My Reeses the red dog in my profile is chugging along despite the vet insisting he can't figure out how. That makes this xmas feel a little worrisome for me. God bless their dear hearts. http://teams.sparkpeople.com/2008

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