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My own worst enemy

Tuesday, November 05, 2013

I really am my own worst enemy when it comes to diet and health. For a couple of years now I've been on SparkPeople and have lost nearly 60 pounds, 80 total since I've been dieting. But most of that was the first year.

The past year has seen a slow loss but nothing exciting. I know why, it is because I don't stick to my eating plan. I'll lose 4 or 5 pounds and then gain them back over the course of a few weeks. Then I'll lose again and be maybe a pound or two ahead of the game. Always, if I kept my calories below about 1300, I lost weight. But if I ate 1600 or more I gained. I track everything even when I'm not sticking to the preferred ranges so I know when I'm eating too much.

I'd been doing pretty well and had finally reached my 3rd 10% (my mini goals are 10% of the starting weight) when the CHF decided to flood my body with water. I gained 8.5 pounds in one week followed by another 3 pounds the next week. Gaining the weight was frustrating but at least I knew it was from water and not fat.

But then, for some inexplicable reason, I stopped trying to eat within range. I've been routinely eating more than 2000 calories a day and sometimes close to 3000. This means that even though I dumped 9 pounds of water in one week, I bounced back up 7 pounds...and that 7 pounds is fat, I'm sure of it. Or at least some of it is fat.

I know I'm still retaining a lot of water (my legs are huge) but I also know that I'm retaining fat too. But for all that I know how to get rid of the fat part, I'm not controlling my eating. I am my own worst enemy in this and it is disgusting. I bought some new clothes in the smaller size and now they are too tight.

I'm very discouraged. I don't expect anyone to have any solutions I don't already know but I just needed to vent. Hopefully getting it out there will trigger something in me that will get me back on track.

Thanks for listening.

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KIMSOKAY 11/6/2013 9:53PM

    Cathwren don't beat yourself up! Focus on how beautiful and unique you are! There is no one else like you. We don't have to be perfect all the time. Believe in yourself, nourish your temple and spirit and all will be well!

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JOANNKW 11/6/2013 1:48PM

    Oh, Cathwren, wouldn't that be great!

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NICKLESPICKLES 11/6/2013 11:00AM

    emoticon 80 lbs!!! That is awesome..."Go confidently in the direction of your dreams. Live the life you have imagined"...Henry David Thoreau...
You keep on trucking. emoticon

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WOUBBIE 11/6/2013 10:17AM

    A pound of fat is 3500 extra calories over and above what you burn up, so take heart - if you gain several pounds in one week it is largely water and only a little bit of fat.

The thing that is driving the water retention is your carb levels. If you go over 100g per day you will start retaining water like a boss. The lower you go on carbs the less water you will hang onto and the fewer cravings you will experience. The whole process is driven by insulin levels (insulin is the "fat storage" hormone) and insulin levels are driven by blood sugar levels.

It's may not be sugar itself that is the problem. Starchy foods generally have a higher glycemic index than even sugary foods, meaning your insulin levels spike faster and higher when you eat potatoes than when you eat cookies.

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CATHWREN 11/5/2013 7:21PM

    I know what you mean. I can actually be talking to myself as I make the wrong choices but I don't listen. It IS like I'm 2 different people sometimes.

Thanks for the sympathy. If only you could subtract it from your calories for the day. emoticon

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JOANNKW 11/5/2013 6:43PM

    emoticon So frustrating. I am sending sympathy. I sometimes watch myself eat as if it were another person.

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Cathy shows us how it is done

Wednesday, October 30, 2013

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TLG71567 11/3/2013 5:55PM

    I understanding completely. I am pleased to say that I made it through Halloween this year and only ate three Reeses cups. Not too bad.

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KICK-SS 10/30/2013 10:44PM

    I'm sorry to say that I have done that myself. Anymore I try not to though, but it's easy to do.

A small amount of the "good stuff" should eliminate the cravings...

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WOUBBIE 10/30/2013 8:04PM

    LOL! Just eat the damn candy bar, Cathy!

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CATHYLC 10/30/2013 5:42PM

    Sadly, that's how this Cathy does it too! emoticon

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Water weight is still extra weight

Wednesday, October 09, 2013

I have congestive heart failure and sometimes that causes me to retain water. Two weeks ago, I had a flare and gained 8 pounds! My legs were so swollen that I didn't even have ankles, they went straight into my feet. Since I've been told that you can retain a quart of water in your legs *without* even seeing it, I must have been retaining about a half gallon in each leg.

This is very frustrating because I had finally "broken" 220 and had hopes of getting to onderland before the end of the year (or at least early next year). That won't happen now. It could take weeks for the water to go away despite the medication.

It didn't help that in my frustration, I made no effort to control my eating last week and actually ate 3000 calories one day and more than 2000 calories daily for the rest of the week. But that is just an excuse. I'm determined to do better this week.

Do you have a health condition that can derail your weight loss program without warning? How do you handle it?

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TLG71567 11/3/2013 6:12PM

    Yeah, I can relate. I have diabetes, reactive airway disease, several bulging discs and a herniated disc that is going into my spine, among other things. I have lost a total of 46 pounds from my highest weight. I have hit a plateau unfortunately though and have been stuck for a while now. I have two pounds to lose to get to my original low, then it's 67 more pounds to be at my final goal. I just keep trying to make more healthy choices than unhealthy ones. I try to get in more steps everyday and I try not to beat myself up when I don't meet these goals. Keep working on it and don't let this get you down. You'll get there. emoticon

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NEENSTER1 10/9/2013 3:57PM

    Water retention is something else!! emoticon

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CATHWREN 10/9/2013 3:53PM

    Thanks MJRVIC2000. I know that losing weight will help my health. I've beat diabetes with weight loss so far. It is good to know that CHF can also be beat without drastic measures.

Congratulations on your return to health. I'm sure you worked hard to achieve it.

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MJRVIC2000 10/9/2013 3:45PM

    In 2007, I had a massive heart attack, CHF. But in 6 months in 2008, I reversed CHF without drugs or surgery. You can do it too! God Bless YOU! Vic.

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exercise cartoons reflect real life

Wednesday, September 11, 2013

Or at least, it reflects mine.

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MJ7DM33 10/9/2013 8:38PM


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LINOVER 9/11/2013 10:10PM

    True for me, too! I try to find a class later in the day! emoticon

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JEWITCH 9/11/2013 7:51PM

    Good one, thanks for sharing. Brightest blessings and warm hugs.

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JOANNKW 9/11/2013 6:21PM

    I love it!

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ALIDOSHA 9/11/2013 5:45PM

    Cute! emoticon emoticon

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Sometimes I feel like doing the easy thing.

Friday, August 23, 2013

Putting on weight is so much easier for me.

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TLG71567 8/24/2013 3:02PM

    I think it is for most of us, but the health issues that come with it just aren't worth it. Keep working at it. Even a little weight loss is a victory. emoticon emoticon

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KATTREE 8/23/2013 9:59PM

    emoticon yes sir it sure is!

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CANADIANFROG09 8/23/2013 5:00PM

    emoticon me too! emoticon

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JOANNKW 8/23/2013 4:51PM

    Me too! emoticon

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