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Hooray!

Saturday, December 08, 2012

OK! Check this out.... I needed to get dressed in a hurry for work a couple of days ago (I overslept lol) and I reached into the closet and pulled out some jeans...raced down the steps and my daughter says, "Momma...your pants...." Now, I'm rushing so I'm like come on get your coat on we gotta go!! And she says, "But your pants are falling down..." Just as she says that I feel the jeans falling off my butt. LOL I look down at them and they are HUGE on me. I race up stairs and get the next size down, throw them on and race back down the steps. Carolyn says, "Um Momma....what's wrong with all your pants??" I look down and they are HUGE on me LOL I race back up the steps (surprised that I'm not winded and wheezing) put on ANOTHER pair of pants (yes, I have a couple sizes of pants...my weight used to fluctuate alot), race down the steps and out the door. When I get to work I notice that these pants aren't falling down (yay) and they fit good (hooray) and they make my booty look nice (Oh Yeah!!). I change into my scrubs and put the same size on I always do (I like em bigger so I have room!!) and one of my coworkers says, "You might want to reconsider that size and go to a smaller size..." I look in the mirror...those damn pants are HUGE!!! I mean like I can fit another half of me in there. So, I'm smiling secretly to myself :3 I kept the pants on though...I'm in a bit of denial. Well, I feel like the smaller scrubs wont fit because they look small. lol I'm very happy that I seem to have dropped two pant sizes and it shows me that although when I look into the mirror and don't think I see a change, there is indeed a change. And it was just the encouragement and affirmation I needed to continue on with what I'm doing. :) Made me very happy. :) And my daughter got a kick out of it too! lol She told her teacher at school "My Mom had to change her pants two times because they kept falling down!" lol

  
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BEAUTY_WITHIN 12/9/2012 1:45AM

    That's awesome! Congrats! Keep up the wonderful work!

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YESCURLYCAN 12/8/2012 11:26PM

  This was such a cute motivating story! emoticon on your weight loss and dropping 2 sizes emoticon spark on!

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MISTRESSDIXIE 12/8/2012 2:00PM

    woot woot woot. i am soo happy for you my sista. so proud that you are having such a success. way to go. keep it up. and so glad your daughter got a kick out of it too. emoticon

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PJBONARRIGO 12/8/2012 10:02AM

    Doing the happy dance; congrats on your pants falling down LOL The pants don't lie! emoticon

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CASEYSAUER 12/8/2012 10:02AM

    WOW! That is fantastic. I sounds as though you got your exercise in also with all that racing up and down the stairs. Congrats!

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KERRIELYNN719 12/8/2012 10:02AM

    Yay! Congrats on the weight loss!

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It's Been Awhile...

Saturday, November 03, 2012

Yes it has. I haven't been on this site in a very long time. While I have been gone a lot of things have happened. I was out on medical leave for two months, I found a new job, I went back up in weight and then lost twenty pounds and I've moved. lol My mental health is so much better since I left my previous job, it was a very bad stressor for me. I'm happy to have lost the weight that I did, as a result I feel much better. Now i'm focused on continuing my weight loss and changing my lifestyle. It was suggested to me that I go for a lap banding, but I truly feel that it is not the right choice for me. At one point in time I did but then I started to feel as though I really wasn't trying hard enough. So now I'm trying yoga, juicing more, trying to walk more and just trying to change my eating habits and lifestyle. I want to be more active on this site as well. I have a very busy life but I think if I can pace myself and give myself some lee-way instead of jumping to craziness that I can do it! :)

  
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YESCURLYCAN 11/8/2012 5:40AM

  emoticon job and making the comeback and eliminating a stressful job from your life. Peace of mind=priceless. Spark on! emoticon

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MISTRESSDIXIE 11/3/2012 1:07PM

    so proud of you my sista emoticon

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CHARLIESGIRL69 11/3/2012 11:54AM

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Hooray!

Friday, April 22, 2011

I don't think I've been on this site all week long =( I've been a sick Momma. lol My daughter was sick earlier in the week and stayed home with Momma everyday except today. Needless to say all that cuddling with Momma passed those little germies to me. lol I don't mind, I'm just glad she is feeling better.

Sooo, I went to my doctor to discuss my weight loss and found out that I haven't been taking the meds that were prescribed to me. I don't know how to explain it, other than I did go to get a few of them prescribed and the prescriptions were expired. I was anxious about them taking my BP because I know that I was being a bad patient and had not been taking my BP meds. Long story short, my doctor told me that I didn't need to be on my BP meds any longer AND he took me off of the two anti depressants that I was on. YAAAYYYYY!!!!! We also decided because my anxiety has lessened considerably that we could lower my dosage of Xanax and cut the count back. Which comes to the question from my doctor of what did you change in the last two months in your life that has fostered such a significant, positive change? My answer:

I switched to night shift.

I knew that I was under a lot of unnecessary stresses and that working days with certain people was giving me terrible anxiety. I had no idea that it was taking THAT much of a toll on me and I can't even begin to express how pleased I am to be off of those three medications! All I have now is my inhaler (albuterol) and a nice low dose Xanax for those times when my anxiety is absolutely uncontrollable.

I. Am. So. Excited!

Although I feel like doodie from my cold....my mindset is right and I feel like my will is strong...I'm feeling GREAT!

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OLLYBIRD 4/22/2011 5:45PM

    That is awesome news! Congrats! I hope you get to feeling better!!

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TURTLERASKIN 4/22/2011 5:21PM

    Congratulations for making such a positive change!

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ARLENE_MOVES 4/22/2011 5:04PM

    The work environment can destroy you, as you know. I'm so glad you made the switch and it has helped your health.

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Rising from the ashes

Monday, April 11, 2011

Lately, I've been having this vision of a pheonix. Thru my short time on this earth, I've endured two transformations; rising from the ashes of what life has thrown at me. I feel like it's time for me to do it again. I am not happy with myself. Depression and anxiety are something that I struggle with daily, some days better than others. My weight is something that I have struggled with for the past 11 years. I have always been "thick" but not obese, and very active. One mentally and physically abusive marriage leading to divorce later, depression almost takes my life a couple of times and I blow up like a blowfish. By the time I finally get this man out of my house, I have a broken jaw, belly full of sleeping pills and am off on leave for 4 months. I lost weight then because I couldn't eat. Back in the swing of things, divorce not quite final, I find out thru my ex-mother-in-law thru an email that she sends me that the soon to be exhusband has a baby with the new gf. Serious blow to my self esteem and confidence.

I find myself lately with very low self esteem and confidence. I hate how I look. I hate how round my belly is...and I'm not even at my biggest! (thank goodness!) I'm ashamed to admit I was bigger. :( But now, I feel like I want a change...not that I need a change but I want it. And because I want it so badly I feel confident that I will be able to attain my weight loss goal. I want to be healthier. I want to be healtier mentally too. I don't want to keep putting myself down in my head. When I look in the mirror I see an ugly woman and I wonder why people bother with me when I don't feel like I'm anything at all.

I'm glad that I found this site. It's something or someone else to be accountable to, to help me stay on track and give me support when I need it. I hope that I can give support to people that I meet on here too.

I am like a pheonix...I will rise from the ashes. Watch me rise.

  
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ARGYLE-RUNNER 4/18/2011 9:55AM

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NPA4LOSS 4/12/2011 10:14AM

    You are rising out of the ashes and into the light. emoticon on all the successes. Starting over is not easy and you are off to a great start. We are proud of you! emoticon

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JUANITAGUERNSEY 4/11/2011 9:15PM

    You've made some wonderful successes already starting with getting the ex out of your space. Then you made the decision that you wanted to change. Then you came to our team. Wow, girl, you have got a lot going for you already. Baby steps lead to bigger steps in time.


I've been there with the ex and physical/mental abuse. It's difficult to get out of it, but just doing so shows that you are an intelligent, self loving person; you know there is more to life than constant abuse. I'm sure as we get to know you we will love you too. I already feel a kinship toward you after reading your blog.

Many hugs and best wishes as you start this new journey to loving yourself more. It will happen. You are a lot stronger than you feel right now.



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MOMX2G1B 4/11/2011 7:09PM

    Way to find the good in the bad. Keep your head up, be happy and thankful and believe in yourself. You can accomplish whatever your goal is.
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