Monday, August 29, 2011
hey guys! Guess I'm gonna try to blog more! Just to help me stay focused,determined and on track..So I'm gonna go back over some of my past for myself and to fill anyone of my teammembers in who are reading..
Let me say that I do not want a repeat of my last pregnancy..I was younger, 23 when I became pregnant I was not taking care of myself,didn't exercise,ate horrible I was having alot of depression problems. I started the pregnancy around 230 lbs..finishing up at 283lbs.I ended up on blood pressure meds,cholesterol meds, being watched closely for type 2 diabetes it was scary. I watched 2 other kids during the day and did nothing really to take care of myself during the pregnancy! I was so wrapped up in helping everyone else taking care of everyone else and getting ready for my 1st baby.I was so so so unhappy about myself..plus I did not shine with my hormones so wacked my whole face was one big nasty red rash by the time I had Logan.
Then there he was! My Sunshine! I love my son Logan more than anything in this world! He helped opened my eyes to learning about eating healthy and taking care of your body,he gave me a reason to want to do these things! I knew it was time for a change! I didn't want to teach him my unhealthy habits!
In a year and a half I lost 100lbs I went from 283 to 183! The healthy and right way and with the help of Sparkpeople and great teams! I felt amazing! I was happy, as a mom, happy as a person! But sooo hard on myself and had my ups and downs of course.
Unfortuanatly end of 2009 I have gained back to over 200 lbs..Losing track of myself again, I was still eat better than before and for 2 yrs worked a very physically demanding 3rd shift job.But with bad sleep no time for family and without taking the time to focus on myself..it happened.The past half year I've been around 215 lbs ..and stayed in that area and maintained ..well this past May my DH found a 2nd shift job, after recovering from back surgery, he was ready to go back to work! and we decided I would stay home with Logan..finally a normal schedule again,some time to be with family and have a life again!
So,It's ME time! I knew it was my time to shine I felt it down in! I was free from 3rd and it was time to get take back control of my body and health! June 2011 I came back to Spark! I found my old team! And I got my butt in gear!Why wasn't the scale going down?
..News flash end of July I'M PREGNANT! again! YAY!! I wasn't even sure with my PCOS I'd be blessed with another baby! Thank ya jesus! For a such a blessing.Still realization smacks me..I'm prego and over 200lbs again..which takes away my chances of a not having to have a c-section this time..and which guarentees the scale going up.ugh!!! Disoppointment sets in I wanted to be at my goal weight for this pregnancy I wanted to try for a natural birth..but It is was it is..I put myself here! So what now?
I am happy to be pregnant! I am blessed to be pregnant! No it's not ideal health wise but I will make the best of it! Baby is Due March 2012!
1.I accept and deal with where I'm at on the scales.
2.I make a commitment to myself and this baby to walk everyday! alittle or alot doesn't matter just get active!
3.I make a chart menu for eating each week and may change it around to accomidate things that my nauseau, but can not go outside of the options for the week menu.
4.I track with Spark food and exercise logs!
5.I go to my team for support! To be there for them and to stay determined and focused on having a healthy and strong pregnancy!