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DisneyLand 2011

Monday, August 16, 2010

My main goal this week is to clear my house of crap and starting learning to eat clean.

I have some motivation I have not had in a long time. My mom is taking me and my daughter to DisneyLand next August. Now normally I would go DisneyLand cool but never think about losing weight to go. However going to DL in August is going to be nightmare-ish if I am the same weight I am now. It is going to be HOT and if I lose weight I will be able to deal with the heat better and there is going to be a TON of WALKING! I love to walk but at my weight now my back has not been happy walking around. So for those reasons I am going to work hard on my goals.

I have some tricky parts though. My family...I LOVE them but they make it hard on me to eat healthy so I just have to not care what they think and know that if I am eating healthy then they should be too and if they really don't like it they can fend for themselves.

Reaching goal is my other tricky part. Number one I have never reached goal...always given up way before getting there but just because I am losing this weight to feel better when I go to DisneyLand does not mean I want to gain it back after going...so I really have to have some plans in place to maintain my loss and continue on my healthy plan after the trip.

I think that is why I am so excited about eating clean! I got a magazine from Costco last Thursday night and I am loving it. It is called "Clean Eating" and it seems like a simple concept. Eat foods in its most natural state or as close to it as possible. The magazine provides a lot of information and recipes. And it all sounds easy and delicious.

I am looking forward to this phase of my journey!

  
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SKINNYSOON13 11/24/2010 2:22AM

    Well, here's some motivation - LET'S GET TOGETHER WHEN YOU GO TO DISNEYLAND!!! No matter what happens, even if we're the same weight, let's get together! :-D

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TRACYZABELLE 8/24/2010 5:07AM

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OKOBOJI4 8/18/2010 3:21PM

    I seemed to have found some of your motivation as well. This is going to be a bit of a book- I apologize- but I'm excited to share! My pup, Riley, tore his ACL in June. He had surgery about 6 weeks ago. As part of his rehab, he has to go on short walks 2-3 times a day. Since we both work, it's only 2x a day. It's important to me to make sure he regains full function of his leg and that he's rehabbed correctly. The "side-effect" of this, is that I'm walking 20-40 minutes a day (however slowly...) Then I started reading "The Spark". I found a spark some where in me, and now have been doing the stairs from the 12th floor (down) 1x day and walking for at least 10 minutes at lunch. Between walking Riley and lunch, I did a total of 33 mins yesterday (according to my pedometer). Chris Downie talks about how a spiral upward can be just as powerful as a spiral downward. I'm so far finding that to be true. He makes a lot of common sense in his book, darn him! I'm glad you're back to your motivated self!! Welcome back! Glad I'm here with you again, too!

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FITLIKENIC 8/16/2010 9:33PM

    Can I come too?! Although it will be HOT it's Disney! Let me know how you like the magazine, I have heard/read several sparks talking about it.

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WALKERSSS 8/16/2010 2:37PM

    KC - You can do it. How's the magazine? I like having something to work towards. A set time to give us a realistic goal. Having enough time to change. I'll be here losing with you. Aug. 2011 here we come! Last time I rode the Materhorn with HB the belt was so tight I've never tried to go on that ride since. I felt like I couldn't breath. By 2011 I plan on being able to ride the Materhorn and never worry about squashing my gut. From gut to flat. Lets do this and never think we can't. BLC 14 will count. emoticon

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APRILA1073 8/16/2010 11:58AM

    Alright Casey!!
that sounds like a fun trip! you need to tell me more about that clean eating, it sounds interesting.

I am here for you if you ever need anything, so lets do it!! =)

good luck on the "clean" journey ..... and remember one step at a time!

Love ya!


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current issues...

Friday, August 13, 2010

it was suggested that I do a blog about the stuff my weight is affecting so that I can read it and reflect on why I am working toward a healthier lifestyle.

My current issues are:

have a hard time sitting in the Key Arena seats at the Storm games and because of that don't want to get up and participate in the audience yells and chants. (as well get up to let people pass in front of me)

my back aches when I walk a lot and I like to walk but the extra weight is really hurting lately.

I am so tired in the evenings that I fall asleep on the couch at about 8:30pm or it goes to the other extreme that I can't sleep at all.

I am so big again that I had to by bigger pants just so that I had something to wear.

My thighs rub together so much that I am in pain often in the groin area. (that is gross but it hurts!)

I have a belly crease that I hate.

I get winded more easily than I had been because I have not been exercising as much.

I depend on other people way to much to motivate me...but currently I have no motivation, because I am not doing the "right" things.

I don't like the way I look in the mirror.

I don't like the way I feel and the lack of energy I am experiencing.

I am not a good role model for my daughter in the healthy/body image aspect although I am trying to teach her what not to do when she gets older. So at least I am trying without hounding.

I let my husband influence my choices and I should stay strong in my decisions but when he says I sure could go for "fill in the temptation here" and it sound soooo good it is hard to say "NO! We are having FISH".

I have very low mileage and have been in the garage for quite a while again and that has to do with both myself and my husband not feeling healthy. (Julie that was for you) Makes me very SAD.

I am going to a great water park this weekend and I am concerned about my appearance. I know I will have fun and mostly won't care while I am there but I will not be taking a ton of pictures like I usually would (I am a picture JUNKIE) because of the way I look/feel.

I hate how my mind knows that I want to lose weight and be healthy but it still screams "BROWNIES" at me.

I go through shoes way quicker now because of all the weight they have to handle.

I am sure the list could go on and on and on but I will stop here because I think I could get really nit-picky and I don't need to do that to remind myself why I want to be healthier.

  
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BETHEBUTTERFLY 8/15/2010 1:08AM

    I'm with Lollipam, it was super courageous to post this. You can and will overcome.

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APRILA1073 8/14/2010 4:17PM

    Hey Casey.. I feel ya! I am in the same boat. I have constant reminders throughout my house of why I need to work harder on making the right choices,
I have my "skinny" dresses hanging on my closet door, I have my old photos on the fridge.. I still have moments where I make bad choices and well my belt notch reminds me that I failed that day..
We all love you! And know that YOU CAN do this!!

Hugs!!!!

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KAYEGURL08 8/13/2010 11:49PM

    I love it!!!!! This is the time you are going to win, if you start doubting come back to me and I will kick you in the blog. You are just an awesome woman. Your skinny self wants out, mine too. We can do this! emoticon

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TBVALEGIRL 8/13/2010 9:47PM

  You are such a strong person , because you aren't afraid to admit your weakness. Stay strong, don't give up!! We are in this together.

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FITLIKENIC 8/13/2010 9:41PM

    Wow! Very honest blog you have, LOVE it!!! I so can relate to you and the things you listed, plus some of my own~ like you I WANT to look better, feel better, be healthier, live longer but cave to those 'cravings'... interesting thing is when I do not have sweets after a few days i no longer want them... so why is it so tough to let them go?! UGH!

Anyway take these things and turn them around, remind yourself how you felt, 5-10 pounds lighter and set goals to get there... get hubby on board too, then keep going from there... together WE WILL succeed in becoming the healthy ladies we desire to be!

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LOLLIPAM 8/13/2010 6:30PM

    You are very courageous to put this all down in writing! You are a beautiful woman and you can do this!! Remember these things that make you unhappy now - use it as your motivation.

Good luck in your journey!

Pam

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I wish...

Friday, August 13, 2010

My current wish list:

I wish I would take full and total control of my eating habits
I wish I would take full and total control of my emotions
I wish I would make myself exercise daily even if I don't feel like it
I wish I would permanently ignore my cravings
I wish I would eat only healthy items and be satisfied with them
I wish I would be happy with who I am, right now
I wish I would be comfortable in my skin
I wish I could afford to take a vacation to see my friends Cyndi and Patrick in Connecticut
I wish I had the ability to make my husband understand how difficult it is on me to have "crap" in the house
I wish I would break some of my bad habits (i.e., drinking a Dr. Pepper with pizza or casseroles...getting a craving for brownies and not caving to it until the 5th day, etc.)

Lots of wishes!! I had better get working on making them realities!

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KAYEGURL08 8/13/2010 5:39PM

    I enjoyed your blog and you initial spark page. YOUR WISHES CAN COME TRUE!!!! I say that even though I have had a super slow start. Weight is a demon, it sucks up too much negative thinking and living. Instead of a wish list, make a list of all of the things your weight issues are keeping you from. That really has helped me and every time I have wanted to blow it this past week I GO READ THE LIST FIRST. It has really helped. You go girl!!! emoticon

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I love my husband!

Tuesday, August 03, 2010

I love him all the time but I have to say today he is doing something he would really rather not do just for me. He is traveling the 3+ hours in rush hour traffic to tape my daughter at basketball camp so that I don't miss it.

Thanks so much Jonathan! I love you!!!

  
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KRZYKAT3 8/10/2010 4:15PM

    now THIS is a good husband!

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BETHEBUTTERFLY 8/4/2010 10:56PM

    yhay! That worked out afterall!!! I'm so glad!

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APRILA1073 8/3/2010 3:49PM

    Awesome... he rocks! you guys are just too darn cute.. sure would love to go up there an visit you all again! miss you all!
Hugs!!

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LUCKY8GAL 8/3/2010 3:15PM

    How cute!

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BMAN419 8/3/2010 2:58PM

  Super family bonding time.

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Bummed...

Tuesday, August 03, 2010

Ok first of all I am bummed because my daughter is at basketball camp 3 hours from home and tonight is family night. Family night starts at 6:15 in order to get there in time I would need to leave at 3:15pm the only problem with that is then we are right smack dab in the middle of rush hour traffic by the time we get to Seattle which means we probably would not make it to the family night on time and it is only a 1:45 minute program. I really really really want to go because I hate missing stuff that Judi does but at the same time I already told her we would not be able to make it, and it really isn't easily feasible. BUMMED!

And then there is the weight loss portion of bummed. I was doing great not counting calories but watching what I was eating and being more active. And I was seeing results on the scale.

Well then I started counting calories and trying really hard to eat really healthy so my weight loss could progress faster and in the 3 days that I have been actually tracking I am gaining weight. I am a bit FRUSTRATED. I know I should give it time but I was doing well with out actually taking the time to count calories and now that I am and eating even better than I was I am gaining...what the heck??

Ok rant over. I am just feeling low today because of weight and wanting to be there for my daughter.

  
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AMANDAHURN 8/3/2010 12:03PM

    I can understand that you want to be there for your daughter.I am sure she knows you love her and that you really want to be there for her. As for the weight lose it will come.I felt the same way a week ago and then this week I am down a pound. Keep your head up the best that you can and I am sure your daughter understands why you can't be there.

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