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I rode my bike for the first time in years!

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

One thing I haven't done in years because of my weight was ride a bike. Tonight, my husband and I decided to pull our bikes out and ride up to the grocery store to pick up a few items. The store is pretty close, so I suggested that we go pedalling around the neighborhood some first to get some extra exercise. Hubby, being the voice of wisdom that he is, suggested that we better not, because we haven't biked for so long, we'll probably get sore and tired and then not make it to the store. I'm thinking to myself, you've got to be kidding, what a wimp!

Well, in the end, he was right, and I'm glad we did it his way. After the 15-minute round trip to the store, my butt was killing me and my legs felt like overcooked spaghetti. (I wonder how many calories are in humble pie!) That's not going to stop me from doing this again, though. I can't believe how fun and exhilarating it was. I am so thankful I can comfortably balance my body on a bike now. I never could have done that before I lost weight. I can't wait until we can do a family bike trip.

But I definitely need a new seat first. Ouch!

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BLAZINGSWORD 6/5/2010 8:26PM

    Get some biker pants. They make them for both men and women just for riding bikes. They have extra padding in them. They are expensive but so worth it if you are going to ride a lot. Or you could see about getting one of those gel seats too. Keep up the good work! You look great!

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LINDAMARIEZ1 9/22/2009 4:00PM

    I am 62 and have been riding my bike for years but....I don't go miles and miles like some people! I have the old fadhioned kind with a basket on the front and big huffy tires! Lol

love it!


ps I also have a motor scooter! (see my pics)

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BUBBLES1541 7/28/2009 9:18PM

    How exciting to go bike riding!! I remember when I got back on (after 30 yrs), I had a hard time balancing & kept falling. The first few rides were painful! After I got the hang of it, I fell in love all over again. Keep riding!! Bubbles emoticon

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RAGGEDYANN4563 7/17/2009 4:51PM

    I'm so envious of your bike ride! When we were younger my husband and I had bikes..Now he won't even consider getting out and riding bikes and I hate to go alone. I would LOVE to have a bicycle again and get some exercise that way! So, I just dance in the living room and play around on the mini trampoline..I'm too afraid to actually "jump" yet! lol One of these days I'd love to find a biking buddy! Enjoy your bike! emoticon

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GROOVY_GURL 7/15/2009 5:41AM

You just inspired me. I bought a bike this weekend and plan on riding it weekend mornings. I will have to remember to start out small and work my way up to a longer ride.

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Afraid to buy new clothes

Monday, July 13, 2009

I have been struggling with this for awhile now, and I am hoping this blog will just help me come to terms with it and move on.

I am afraid to buy new clothes. I don't even want to go to the store and try them on. I've lost almost 60 pounds, and I'm running out of things I can wear, and the things I am still wearing are just hanging on me. At first I thought it was just about the money, but I am beginning to realize that was just an excuse. What's really bothering me is fear--I'm afraid that when I start trying things on and have to look at myself in the mirror, I still won't like what I see, that things still won't fit me any better or any more flattering than they did when I was at my heaviest, which will make me come face to face with that old fat girl inside again - a huge reminder of how much work I still have to do to get to my goal--almost like starting over. In a weird way, it's comforting wearing these big, baggy clothes--they are the tangible evidence that I carry around with me every day, reminding me of how far I've come. I find myself wanting to get rid of things that no longer fit, but at the same time, not really wanting to part with them.

I've lost weight before, but I can't remember ever feeling this way before. Has anyone else experienced this, and if so, what did you do?

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CORRINER 7/14/2009 9:10PM

    I understand your feelings, I, too, have had those same thoughts. But I bet your first smaller outfit will give you more confidence and help you renew your efforts to stay in control and achieve all of your goals. Good for you! emoticon You have come so far and need to celebrate yourself.

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MILDEXSPI 7/14/2009 12:57PM

    Don't be afraid. Embrace the new you. If nothing else, go out get yourself one new pair of jeans and a nice shirt. Once you put them on you will see just how good it feels to have clothes that fit.

I have also lost over 60 pounds and still have many more to go. I went out last week and bought a couple of new outfits for work. I have gotten nothing but compliments since. People will notice your progress even more.

You should be proud of your accomplishment.

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RUNNER4LIFE08 7/14/2009 10:01AM

    I can relate to this.....

The pants that I wear I can take them on and off with out unbuttoning or unzipping them. But yet, I won't go and buy new ones. Mainly because I want to save money and wait a little longer (because I have so much more to lose) but I still hate seeing clothes not fit me.

But 60 pounds is a huge accomplishment and something that you should be very proud of. You may even be surprised at the size you will have to get in the store.

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REEN325 7/14/2009 7:52AM

    I can so relate to this.
I actually bought my first 2 tops in the Regular section (not Plus size).
I felt like I didn't belong there. I have shopped the Plus Size department for the last 20 years. It felt kind of creepy.
I can't come to getting rid of my larger sizes, because I continue to have thoughts that I will gain the weight back again.
I tell you, when you wear that new item of clothing in the smaller size, people notice. I got 3 compliments last week when I wore the new clothes, I have been banded for over a year.
So, go for it - Treat the shopping spree as a reward for your commitment and hard work. You deserve it.

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BONTZI 7/13/2009 10:57PM

    Just keep some of them like souvenirs. This is what I did when I lost 60 pounds some years ago. It worked for me. emoticon

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SUZANNE3018 7/13/2009 10:55PM

    I've experienced that before. My "fat clothes" as I would call them were like my security blanket. I could hide behind them and that was the way I felt most comfortable. But now, since starting my current job 5 years ago, and making some new and wonderful and encouraging friends, I say, "If ya got it, flaunt it!" Of course, going from one extreme to the other was just not me, so my "flaunting it" is still pretty conservative ;) I still even have a few baggy clothes around for those days when I need the comfort.

So, girlfriend, throw off those baggy clothes and strut your stuff! You have done magnificently well, and all your hard work will show.

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They told me this might happen...

Saturday, July 04, 2009

But I didn't really believe it....that weight loss might stall when graduating from liquids to purees. Day 1 of purees, and I was up 1 pound, but that came right back off the next day, so I thought that was the worst of it. However, since then I have continued circling the same pound or two, so I think I'm temporarily stuck.

I have been eating typically between 800-1000 calories a day (I do share my log, if anyone wants to check it out), primarily protein, and carbs I eat are usually veggies/fruit. So, I'm wondering, is this just normal, or is there something I could be doing differently? I know it is not recommended to eat less than 1200 calories as that can slow the metabolism--could this be the trouble, and can it happen that quickly? With the lap band, should I be eating that many calories, and if so, how? I am already eating 3 meals that are 3/4 to 1 cup of food, plus 1 or 2 snacks, (my surgeon's office prefer no snacking but will allow it if portions are small and choices are healthy).

Am I in a rut from eating so many of the same things over and over? I have heard of calorie cycling to jump start metabolism, where you eat higher protein for a few days, and then have a day or two where you eat lower protein and higher carbs to kind of "trick" your metabolism. Has anyone with the band tried this?

Or maybe my weight stalling is totally normal for this stage, just like they said. Maybe my body just needs some time to adjust after having lost 10 pounds on liquids. I'm meeting with my dietitian this week, so I'm sure she'll have some insight for me.

The really cool thing, though, is that in all of this, I haven't been frustrated or tempted to "jump" off the wagon, which is what I have done so many times in the past. That "If I'm not losing anyway, I might as well just eat whatever I want. Why bother trying." thinking has been my arch enemy in the past. I don't know if I've really licked it for good, but for the moment I'm enjoying victory over it. I just keep plodding along, knowing that I've made a healthy change for my body, regardless of what my weight shows. I love my band!

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BANDSTERGAL 7/6/2009 6:53PM

    While everyone's weight loss after WLS is different, from my experience this is very normal. My physician (who has a lapband too) regularly eats 800 or 900 cals a day - all optimized as protein and few carbs, too. You are doing great!
The big difference is the exercise. we MUST move ourbodies a minimum of 30 mins a day. I have not gained any weight going from liquid to mushies to normal foods -- but I also have not lost a whole lot. There are stretches of 10 days where the scale does not budge. So I recommend picking up your exercise and see what happens! emoticon on the meal plan, btw. Keeping to protein and 3x a day with 1 or 2 protein snacks is the key.

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CARAMBA09 7/4/2009 12:59PM


You will notice this rut going away after your first 2-3 fills
I did not lose ANY weight from week 3 until my third fill happened - on week 13!

Do not be hard on yourself, have patience! enjoy the ride

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It's official, I'm a bandster...

Saturday, June 13, 2009

I came home from the hospital Friday evening and today is my second day of clear liquids. So far, so good. It's all still a little surreal--after waiting for so many months for the big day to arrive, it came and went so quickly.

I couldn't wait to weigh myself when I got home...dumb move. I was up 5 pounds from the morning of admission. Of course, I know that can't be fat, it has to be fluid retention. I'm thinking I should stay off of the scale for awhile least until I'm out of the clear liquid stage. We'll see if I actually have the willpower to leave the scale alone...I'm usually an "every day" weigher.

I'm enjoying my "cocktails" every 15 minutes, but I sure am looking forward to progressing to more than 1 ounce at a time. It's still three weeks until I get to pureed foods, so patience and determination are going to be the things I work on most right now.

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BANDSTERGAL 6/20/2009 9:11AM

    Welcome home! I was so scared to swallow those first few days... sip...sip...sip. It would take me like four hours to drink four ounces lol.... tomorrow will be my 3-month bandiversary... and no, I did not weigh myself the day I got home, lol. Way too many fluids in my IV at the hospital! My advice (not that you asked, mind you!) is to walk, walk, walk. That left shoulder pain will hit and you need to walk -- I have a ranch home, so it is all on one level so it was easy peasy. I would slowly walk from room to room... Also if you have (can borrow) a rocking chair, sitting in it and rocking helps Alot with the gas pains.

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JAZZYJUDE 6/17/2009 12:00PM

    WELCOME to Bandland Grace!! Just remember to sip, sip, sip, and do LOTS of mini walks - not long ones. Not only does this helps with the gas bubbles but also some form of exercises to keep you going.

Remember to keep the focus and use sensible portion control. During your liquids days, you should be drinking 1/2 cup at a time, as many times you want thoughout the day. Also, there is no calorie counting during this time either, as you are trying to heal from your surgery.

Good luck on your weight loss journey for you are going on an amazing adventure!
emoticon Jazzy!!

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IAMSOWORTHIT 6/15/2009 10:11AM

  Congratulations! I am happy for you! :) I didn't realize your surgery was this close. The last time we talked, you were still in the deciding phase. I am happy you are doing well and confident you will succeed. Just remember to drink a lot of liquids by sipping them and walking a lot. It took me a good 3 weeks before I felt like myself again. Take it easy and congratulations! :)

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!!KELL!! 6/14/2009 9:13PM

    I'm newly banded also....I got mine last Monday....I am glad you are doing well....I didnt think it was going to be this easy, did you? My nurse told me not to weigh for about a week because of all the fluids they pump you with, so I waited 4 days post-op and had lost 7 pounds, so give it a few days then weigh.

Congrats and we are on our way to HOTNESS!!!! LOL

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CARAMBA09 6/13/2009 2:30PM

    my advice is to stop weighing yourself for the next 6-8 weeks and this is why: First of all, until you begin your fills...your weight loss will be minimal at best. I only lost 10 lbs post-op compared to some who lost 20-30...everyone is different, it also depends on how "fat" you are and how much lean muscle mass you have. People who are heavier tend to lose more the first two months.
Secondly, by week two - three you will begin to get the mental hunger that I have told you about earlier. By day 21 when you can begin to eat solids, it will feel like heaven and your weight loss will all but stop.
Until you hit your first 2-3 fills, do not be too hard on yourself...this is a journey and you have a long road ahead, but it is so worth it. My husband actually came up to me this morning and said "gosh, I cannot believe looking at you from the side how much weight you have lost"
When I weighed myself, I was still stuck at 180 lbs...I think it is inches he is seeing go away.

Anyways, I am so happy for you!

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Surgery date is almost here...

Monday, June 08, 2009

So, my surgery date is finally here, this week on Thursday (6/11). Seems like it has been forever that I have been waiting for this. I started this journey last October, and for the first three months I just floundered--ate what I wanted, didn't exercise, and gained more weight. It wasn't until the middle of January before I started changing my lifestyle, and gradually over the following 5 months I felt like I really had this new lifestyle down. I lost 45 pounds and felt fantastic.

Then, it happened.

The closer my surgery date got, the more I started to mourn all the tasty foods that I wouldn't be eating anymore. Funny, I hadn't really thought about them at all over the last 5 months, so why they put me into such a tailspin now is beyond me! At first I let go a little bit and indulged in a few items...I tried to fight it, but I thought enjoying just a little bit would help keep me balanced and get it out of my system. But the closer I got to the big day, the stronger the pull was, until I finally stopped tracking my food and let loose completely--pizza, PF Chang's spicy shrimp, cheeseburgers, pasta, cake, cinnamon rolls, ice cream, pop--way too many indulgences in way too short a period of time. Today I am up 6 pounds...that's 6 pounds in 2 weeks...and I deserve it.

But, I think I actually did get it out of my system. Today I am re-focused and eating light and clean. My goal is to get this heavy, bloated yuck out of my system and get "clean" so I'm ready for surgery. I pray that my liver will be okay when the big day comes. I'm focusing on having primarily liquids today and tomorrow, and then all liquids on Wednesday. I am going to start walking again too. (I wish it wasn't so cold here!!)

I think I'm as ready as I'll ever be. I'm looking forward to having some R&R after the procedure.

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SDEHNKE 6/10/2009 1:19PM

    Good luck with the surgery! Let us know (Doxie Lovers) how you are doing from time to time.


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    That 'last supper' syndrome is common don't beat yourself up. I had several 'last suppers' out of fear that I would never be able to have certain things again. Just do what you said and get back on track! Looking forward your updates! Best wishes with your surgery! emoticon

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CARAMBA09 6/8/2009 5:48PM

    So excited for you Grace!
I did the same type of binging and put on 12 lbs before the big day.
these next few months will be a huge mental switch for prepared and be strong!

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