Friday, April 16, 2010
I will fill one bottle with the way I am feeling now. Lethargic, a little sick to my stomach, tired, and fully disappointed with myself. Okay, maybe not disappointed. I made choices today and the majority of them were poor choices. I think what I'm feeling is the consequences of the choices. I'm not beating myself up at all. Just very aware of what happens when someone does what I did today!
What caused these feelings, both emotional and physical? Overeating, and a lot of it! Started with breakfast. Tried to go to Subway again and they were out of muffins. Really...I think they didn't want to honor my coupon. (no, I'm not at ALLLLLL cynical!). So, headed to Jack in the Box. I ordered one breakfast sandwich. Yep, just one. Oh...did you know that today is free french fry day at JIB? Yeah, me either until I got free fries with my breakfast. Of course I ate them! Did you really have to ask?
For lunch, I packed a sandwich and baked Cheetos. I ate a Burger King Jr. Whopper (no mayo, no cheese!) and fries and ranch. Then I had some peanuts. And a Fiber One bar, and a snack size Reeses, and peanut M&M's and Kit Kat. Then I ate my lunch for dinner. And had a chunk of DH's cinnamon pull apart. And another bagel smothered with peanut butter. and a Mike's alcoholic drink. I'm pretty sure I captured everything, but today was obviously a day full of not so healthy choices.
If I could bottle this feeling, I could open up the vial, take a big ol' whiff (or just a small one, depending on the day) as a quick reminder of how I feel at the end of a less than stellar day.
That's one bottle. What do I want to put in the other bottle? The feeling that I have when I do make the more healthy, better choices. For example:
I took the doughnuts from yesterday to work so I wouldn't eat them.
I ordered only one sandwich for breakfast.
I had a Whopper Jr with no cheese, no mayo and the small fries.
I took the extra hour I found by leaving work early to go work out
I drank 11 glasses of water .
DH told me that I really needed to change before I took DD to her game, because I looked too good in my workout clothes and he didn't want other guys to look at me. That felt good.
See, the day wasn't JUST bad choices. But the bad choices out weighed the good. If I had that second bottle, an easy way to remind me how good I feel when I make the choices to get me where I want to go, today might have had fewer bad choices.
Hmmm....maybe I'll find some small bottles and make my own physical reminders....My mind is churning...I'll let you know what I end up with.
Besides a day full of good choices tomorrow! Starting right now!
Friday, April 16, 2010
Today started out the normal way. Not anywhere near enough sleep, stumbling around, getting ready for work. But, had a DDS appointment at 8:00, so I left home about 30 minutes later than normal and got to work two and one-half hours later than normal. I ate my morning snack later and then my lunch later. Because of that, you'd think that I wouldn't be hungry quite so soon after work, right? Nope.
As soon as I got home, I took my son to the library to get his book and then ran to the store for dessert (DH said please). I found some old-fashioned donuts and bought two boxes (they were on sale 2 for $4. I HAD to buy two!) I was so hungry by then that I ate one of the donuts on the way home.
Came home, ate dinner and told myself that I did not have to go to the gym. Cos I said so. I was tired. I didn't want to go. But, then I started thinking (yep, it hurt! LOL!) about the fact that I posted in more than one place that I was going to exercise today! If I didn't go, that would make me a liar. And you all might not believe me the next time I tell you something (cos EVERYTHING I say is always so true!)
So, because of all of YOU, I went to the gym. And was very glad that I went! Thank you, Spark Friends, for making me go!
Thursday, April 15, 2010
Okay, so it wasn't really *that* bad, but I did not complete my to-do list and I'm a little annoyed. But just a little.
Here are the deets: Stayed at work late for a meeting (same one every Wednesday). Came home and made spaghetti sauce to go with the noodles that DD had cooked before heading to softball practice. Tried to guilt DH into making the sauce, but he's immune by now.
Inhaled dinner so I could hurry to pick up DD from SB practice. Turns out she had another 30 minutes, so I left! Came home, changed into workout gear, cooked my broccoli and Sparked while I waited for it to be time to go meet with the SB board. (Actually, an executive committee meeting...read "suckers who agreed to show") The meeting was supposed to last 30 minutes, 45 minutes MAX. I could then head to the gym and then come home and relax.
The meeting lasted almost two hours. AND, we have another meeting on Friday with the whole board to discuss and make a final decision.
After the meeting, I came home to tuck in the kids. By then, it was 10:00 at night and there is no way I'm going to work out that late. Not that I couldn't, but just not happening! I would need to take a shower afterwards and then chill for awhile. That would be after midnight before I got in bed. Since I get up at 5:30 for work, I determined that working out was not my best option. Oh well. Tomorrow. I will work out tomorrow. For real!!
Cook dinner - done
SB meeting - done
Get DH from SB - done (DH got her!)
Cook broccoli - done
Send e-mails/organize background forms - not so much
Workout - not done
Overall, not bad. Just really wanted to work out! I will totally work out tomorrow, like for real!
Wednesday, April 14, 2010
And I even do it! My son finished his book two days ago. He is required to read for 20 minutes every day for school. Last night he read a book of poems, which is fine. It is "Where the Sidewalk Ends" by A.A. Milne. Great poems, great book. The only thing is, he's read it a hundred times and it is about 2nd grade reading level. He is in 5th grade and reading on the high end of the scale (yes, that is a little big of bragging you hear in that last sentence!).
So, tonight, I take him to the library to pick out a book. I've been trying to help him find books that he would like to read. If I pick out a book and he isn't interested, I put it back. No pressure from me to read it anyway or "just try it." (yep, more bragging!) I'm starting to get an idea of what he likes and am doing better at not picking out "lame" books. Tonight, he found two books in the search that he wanted to read. Deadly Dungeon and Dungeon of Doom (see the theme?) We couldn't find either book on the shelf, even with librarian help! So, we reserved those and finally found him a book that he could read until the "good" books were available.
After he read for his 20 minutes, he was annoyed at me for telling him he was done. He didn't want to have to stop reading! Good thing he didn't get one of the "good" books to read! LOL!
How does this make me a good mommy? I missed the first 15 minutes of my TV show (Biggest Loser) and didn't rush him at the library at all!
PLUS, my DD asked me if she could play me the song "Let It Be." On the guitar? Yes. Of course you can! I even actually wanted to hear her play! She has just started learning to play the guitar in the last few months and I am very impressed with how much she has learned and how far she has come in such a short time. She practices without being reminded and I can recognize some of the songs she plays! (Yep....Bragging!).
So, the good mommy part of that? I listened. I told her she sounded good.
Basically, I did what I could to make both of my kids happy. I don't do that every day. Maybe I should.
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
I'm reading the November issue of O magazine (yeah, I'm a little behind) and there is an interview with Julianne Marguiles (sp?). She said that growing up, her mother used to say that to her all of the time. "It is only a moment, not the rest of your life." Her mother told her that any time something went wrong, as things will. She said that it didn't make sense to her until she was up late with her cranky baby.
Hmmmm....It is only a moment. I might want to eat, but I'm not really hungry. This is only a moment, not the rest of my life. I may really want that cookie or that second helping, but this is only one moment. I'm really tired and don't feel like exercising...again, only a moment. Those choices I make in each moment will make the rest of my life.
And so far, I like where my choices are heading. Am I perfect? Are eggs square? Exactly...NO!!! But, perfection is overrated, so I've heard. Wouldn't you love to have a square egg?
Anyway, this article just brought home to me again. Every moment, you get a new chance to make at new choice. If your last choice wasn't stellar, that's all right. Learn, figure out what you would could do differently and move on to your next choice.
My next choice is to head to bed. Gotta hit that 7 hours of sleep per night average!
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