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It is only a moment, not the rest of your life

Tuesday, April 13, 2010

I'm reading the November issue of O magazine (yeah, I'm a little behind) and there is an interview with Julianne Marguiles (sp?). She said that growing up, her mother used to say that to her all of the time. "It is only a moment, not the rest of your life." Her mother told her that any time something went wrong, as things will. She said that it didn't make sense to her until she was up late with her cranky baby.

Hmmmm....It is only a moment. I might want to eat, but I'm not really hungry. This is only a moment, not the rest of my life. I may really want that cookie or that second helping, but this is only one moment. I'm really tired and don't feel like exercising...again, only a moment. Those choices I make in each moment will make the rest of my life.

And so far, I like where my choices are heading. Am I perfect? Are eggs square? Exactly...NO!!! But, perfection is overrated, so I've heard. Wouldn't you love to have a square egg?

Anyway, this article just brought home to me again. Every moment, you get a new chance to make at new choice. If your last choice wasn't stellar, that's all right. Learn, figure out what you would could do differently and move on to your next choice.

My next choice is to head to bed. Gotta hit that 7 hours of sleep per night average!

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BKNOCK 4/13/2010 12:58PM

    Wow what a great blog! Actually some deep thinking attached I think! Well I thought for a moment!

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JUNIAATROME 4/13/2010 9:27AM

    Perfection is overrated?!? Really?? I needed to hear that....

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    Would you love to lay a square egg?


Great blog and a interesting outlook

Have a Terrific Tuesday

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AUNTIEANNE22 4/13/2010 8:30AM

  How are you doing with your 7 hours of sleep? I'm doing much better since I started getting more sleep.When I get tired my dizziness from the post-concussion syndrome really kicks in.
I will try to make good choices today.

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STEELERCRAZY 4/13/2010 12:27AM

    Oh my goodness! You have just inspired me AGAIN! What am I going to do with you? This is a great point and one that I am going to practice tomorrow. You've just given me a new challenge, chica!

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Does it count?

Monday, April 12, 2010

If I do the jumping lunges really ugly? Hands a'flailin', breathing ragged, form...well, what form? Doing the third level of this dang 30-Day Shred, I had two goals (well, three, if you count actually doing it as a goal...and I do!).

One - be able to do all of the traveling pushups and plank rows on my toes without having to drop to my knees part way through

Two - be able to do jumping lunges the whole time and not revert to forward lunges before Jillian said we could move on

Well, I accomplished number one a few days ago. That means I've had to keep doing those moves on my toes, dang it! LOL! I was pretty stoked! Today, I kept doing jumping lunges for the whole time. Of course, I didn't jump as often as the "bad-a$$" Anita. I didn't keep my hands on my hips like Anita. My form wasn't as pretty as Anita's. And, unlike Anita, I broke a sweat AND had to actually breathe! emoticon BUT, I did jumping lunges the whole time!! Like I said before, the great thing about setting your own goals is you get to decide if you met them. I've decided that I met these two!!!
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The bad news...I have to do jumping lunges the whole time again tomorrow. Those are HARD!! emoticon

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BKNOCK 4/12/2010 5:23PM

    Just the vision you gave me puts some picture in my head! Great job on achieving your goals!

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RWETHAIRYET 4/12/2010 4:58PM

    heehee, absolutely they count!! Who says it has to be pretty???!!!

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AUNTIEANNE22 4/12/2010 9:08AM

  Yeah, I'd say they count. I find myself trying really hard to use correct form, but it isn't always pretty.
I hear everyone talking about the 30 Day Shred and wanted to try, but because of physical problems I'm not allowed to do it.

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LMB-ESQ 4/12/2010 7:04AM

    You bet your a$$ it counts!! Anything you do that makes you move and break a sweat counts. And since Anita gets paid zillions of dollars to look and move like that and you don't, I say you get to do it any danged way you please! Congrats on meeting the goals!! You're a far better woman than I emoticon

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GEEMAWEST 4/12/2010 1:43AM

    WOW! You're a Bad A$$!

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Update on goals

Sunday, April 11, 2010

This last week, I had three goals.

1. Lose 2 pounds.
2. Do the 30-Day Shred every day
3. Stay in calorie range every day

I lost just under one pound this week, so not quite the 2 pounds I had planned. But, I'm okay with it. It's a loss!

I've done the 30-Day Shred every day this week! Two more days and it'll be 10 days straight! Woo Hoo! Good thing I had this goal. There were a few days that I really didn't want to do it, but didn't want to break the streak either!

I was over on calorie range two days. day, I was only over ~200 and the other day ~400. AND, I didn't use the excuse that since I was over, I might as well just eat everything I see.

So, I'm calling the week a success. That's what happens when you set your own goals. You get to name your own successes too! LOL!!

Goals for next week. I've decided that I will not set a weight loss goal. I cannot control whether or not my body will let go of the poundage. I can only control if I stay in calorie range, if I exercise and if I get enough rest. So, those will be my goals.

1. Stay in range 5 out of 7 days this week (already out today!)
2. Work out 6 of the 7 days this week. A sub goal is to burn the number of calories I have listed in the fitness section.
3. Average 7 hours of sleep each night. Starting Saturday night. This one will be a struggle. During the week, I am usually in bed about 11:00 and up around 5:30. Will need to get to bed earlier!

BTW, when it comes to menus, I do get input from my family. They are also allowed input as to the timing of some of the foods. For example, would you rather have hamburgers or hot dogs tonight? Whichever one is picked, the other will be eaten later. However, if I've made the food or started it, that is what's for dinner. If you do not like it or do not want to eat it, that's fine. You may have sleep for dinner. emoticon emoticon I definitely do not run a restaurant and they do not get to order from a menu. I'm just tired of the complaining. Oh well. Maybe I'll break a bone and they'll have to wait on me instead. Tee hee!

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BKNOCK 4/11/2010 9:46PM

    Great plan for this week! I am not sure a broken bone would be too good. Why put your self in pain? I think you need another plan!

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AUNTIEANNE22 4/11/2010 2:59PM

  Good job with your goals. do you really believe a broken bone would get you off cooking duties? Don't try it just to find out.
I'm glad you're not running a restaurant. I was brought up the same way. Eat what's put in front of you or go to bed hungry. Obviously, I didn't go to bed hungry.(LOL)

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CARLANNIE 4/11/2010 12:06PM

    I love your thoughts about the weight loss goal - you can't 'will' your body to drop a pound, but you can control what you put into it. And how you care for it. Congrats on the one pound down and for completing all your workouts!

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Let's see if we can empty the brain tonight

Saturday, April 10, 2010

Did the 30-Day Shred again tonight. Day 7. Three more to go. DS made some smart aleck remark (I know, who'd a thunk that a kid of mine would have a mouth! emoticon) about me being out of breath. I told him that if he thought it was so easy, he should do it with me. He did. Sorta. He wasn't able to keep up the whole time, nor did I expect him to. But he did try! And, he distracted me enough that the workout wasn't AS hard as normal. But just barely.

I will try to post a picture of my in my wedding dress tomorrow. Will try to do 20 years ago and this year. Just gotta get someone to button the buttons and take the photo.

Tomorrow is grocery shopping day. Tried to get the family to agree on the menu. DH did NOT want to play. Told me to use his list that he already made. I explained that his list was not perfect and we needed to compromise. (Yep..made the list pretty much on my own.) DH made the comment that there was no way that they would all agree on every night. I agreed. Then said that I just got tired of hearing the noise (I made it for him...tee hee) and tired of feeling like some members of the family didn't understand that I was trying my best, even though I couldn't please everyone. He got very quiet. I don't think I'll hear the noise as least for a couple of weeks. emoticon emoticon

HUGE list of things to do tomorrow and places to go. DD has softball practice at 9:00. Have to meet someone at the city fields at 10:00. Groceries with at least two stops, maybe three. DD wants me to take her to the mall to shop for her friend's b-day gift (this one may not happen). Gonna workout. Library day! Need to (okay, want to) make GF bread for the boy (and me!) to try. Gonna have potato soup with it. Yummy. DD needs black SB pants.

Speaking of the softball pants, that's gonna be a treat! Or not. emoticon DD is built like me in that she has a waist and hips and her legs are not skinny. She's not overweight at all, but she'll never be a size 2 either. Because of her body shape, to get pants to fit in the hips, the waist gaps. So pants shopping is painful. Now, imagine it's softball pants. Meaning baseball pants...built for boys...who don't have hips. I am not looking forward to this at all. Sigh...

Went to Subway for breakfast this morning. I was planning to take myself out and get one of the fast food sandwiches at ~2000 calories apiece. Then I read the SP blog about Subway serving breakfast. (Man! They are good!) I decided to give that a chance. Two 90-calorie English muffins with egg, ham, pepper jack cheese and tomatoes. No sauce. Toasted. Yummy!! I would eat that again. emoticon

Sent out my e-mail to my Bunco ladies to see who was going to be able to attend next weekend. Out of the seven people who responded today, six could not make it. emoticon Can you say "reschedule"? Polling everyone to see which of the next three weekends works best for the most people. Sad cos I like Bunco and want to play and see my friends. Happy cos I have at least one more week to clean!

Just remembered, I need to get my oil changed tomorrow too. That might have to wait until Sunday.

Deep breath. Pause. Yep, I think this did it. The brain is emptied out and all is quiet. Of course, that may just be the quiet before the storm! LOL!

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BIG_SCOTS_LASS 4/10/2010 6:48PM

    I think you're very tolerant to get everybody's opinion on what YOU should be cooking(!) If I was in your shoes, they'd be told to eat what was put down to them or go hungry. When they start cooking they can decide on the menu! (Yes, I am a hard ass, and proud of it!)

Good luck with the pants shopping. My friend is built like you and your daughter (more due to her weight training than anything) and had huge thighs and a tiny waist. She has to buy trousers 2-3 sizes bigger than she actually needs to accommodate her massive quads. I'm sure she'd sympathise with your predicament.

Great job on the 30-Day Shred. Keep up the good work (and keep showing up the boy!)
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IMCONFESSIN 4/10/2010 12:13PM

    Glad to read a positive Subway breakfast review. Can't wait to try it!

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    Sounds like it's gonna be a long week, but you are doing all that in one day! OMG. You got me out of breath just reading your blog, LOL

Enjoy your journey as best you can. We can tell that your health is coming around. Awesome that you can wear that wedding dress from 20 years ago. I'd offer to help button it, but back when I was single, my expertise was to unbutton, ROTFLMAO.


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BKNOCK 4/10/2010 8:51AM

    Wow, what a life! My list is not quite as extensive for today. I hope that you achieve it all and still have time to rest!

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AUNTIEANNE22 4/10/2010 8:42AM

  who needs exercise with your schedule! Just out of curiosity, do you wear a pedometer while you're running around?
I will be sitting with a client from 10 o'clock this morning until 9:30 tomorrow morning. Then I go to a second client. Both are wheelchair bound so not much exercise involved. Sometimes I can get the second one out for a walk when the weather is very warm. I have been known to push her for 3 or 4 miles.
Don't you just love Subway breakfasts? The flatbreads are really good too. I like the prices too.

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STEELERCRAZY 4/10/2010 1:07AM

    Yes, cuz we all know there's a tornado in there turning at all times! LOL! Get some rest!

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SANDIE4HLTH 4/10/2010 1:06AM

    All this and you're doing the 30 Day Shred, too?! No wonder that wedding dress from 20 years ago still fits you! I hope you're able to post the picture. I'd love to see it (I love weddings, wedding dresses, wedding flowers,...).

Good luck with all your goals tomorrow.

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MEDDYPEDDY 4/10/2010 12:59AM

    Wow - there was a lot in there. I am impressed by your energy!

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I's gots me some more thoughts tumblin' out!

Friday, April 09, 2010

Someone mentioned that they wanted to try on their wedding dress to see if it still fit...or if it fit again. I started to think about that. My memories of my wedding day are all good, even feeling a little queasy before heading to the church! However, it seems to me that I was heavy when I got married. I don't think I was fat, but definitely I weighed way more than I do now. Cos I've always been heavy, right? So...I tried on my wedding dress. And it fit, very nicely!

Now, I suppose I could have decided that since I was fat (notice it's fat now, not heavy?) on my wedding day and my dress fits, that must mean that I am fat now. The whole wedding dress experiment could have caused a derailment on this healthy journey and perhaps even a binge. Or at least the gloom and doom of depression or "poor me's".

As you've probably guessed by now, that isn't what happened. Instead, I had to rethink my body image from 20 years ago (yes, my 20th wedding anniversary is this June! I got married when I was 9? emoticon ). I happen to think that I look pretty darn good right now. Yes, I have spots that are not my favorite (belly, thighs, bags under eyes), but overall, I'm happy with the way I look and the way my body can get me through the day....even after I abuse it. (Think 5 hours of sleep cos I stayed up too late Sparkin') That MUST mean that I WASN'T fat 20 years ago! emoticon

Now, don't get me wrong, I had my moments of fatness. Some of them could be "credited" to pregnancies, but the rest were just me making poor food choices. Yep, I likes me some french fries! LOL! But, I had this image of me as fat even when I wasn't! How sad is that? I really hope that my daughter doesn't go through this. What kind of life is that? Wow. Deep thoughts and I don't think I'm tall enough to figure them all out... emoticon

Okay, so maybe that's only one thought, but it's a doozy. Didn't help to let it out, though. Brain is still too full. We'll see what tomorrow brings.

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GEEMAWEST 4/9/2010 9:56PM

    Yep, body image is everything. Now I want to see a picture of you in your wedding dress. Come on, girl, show us!

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    You are awesome.
There is NO WAY that I could even think about fitting into MY wedding dress!

OK OK, not in my suit either.

Keep up your great work and happy anniversary (20) in june a little early. Just think, soon you will be the big 30 years of age. LOL

Have a wonderful weekend!

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RWETHAIRYET 4/9/2010 12:00PM

    All my life I heard from my mother about how she was always fat...always! Now, I've seen photos and sometimes she was a little heavy, sometimes not. But there's one thing I know for sure.
A few years ago, my mother gave my daughter Rikki, the dress that she had bought oh so many years ago for her first formal "date" with my dad...late 50's era, black satin, full white chiffon skirt. It was a dress that I was never able to get into, nor my sisters, nor even my oldest daughter. But my 5'5", not 100 lb soaking wet size 3 daughter fit into it perfectly. So much for always being fat.
I always thought I was "heavy" too. But I look back at those photos of me in a bikini when I was 18...I might have been "curvy" but certainly not fat.

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BKNOCK 4/9/2010 10:43AM

    It is amazing when I look back at pictures of me and see how thin I really was and how I thought I was so fat too! I am glad that you have a good body image of your self now and I hope that some day soon I will too!

Thanks for sharing!

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CARLANNIE 4/9/2010 9:17AM

    Yes, I've gone through that whole body image thing, thinking I was 'fat' during my teenage years when in fact, I was just right! I was the right weight for my height, but my track coach was always telling me, "If you could lose 10 pounds, you'd be 'really' fast." What a bad thing to do to a teenager! Anyway, when I look at a photo of me in my first year of marriage, I can't believe I thought I was fat then. My goodness our minds do awful tricks to us.

Congrats to you for pulling that dress out and wearing it so well!

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AUNTIEANNE22 4/9/2010 8:38AM

  I don't have to worry about whether it would fit or not. I sold it after my divorce. It was a size 10 and I'm not there YET.

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BIG_SCOTS_LASS 4/9/2010 8:09AM

    I stumbled across a photo of myself aged 16. I was always called "Fatty" at school, but when I look at the photo I'm bloody not! I wish I was that "fat" now, but I've got a long way to go before I get there (I have to lose at least a small child before I'm even close!).

Fat is relative - what you think is fat isn't necessarily so. Times have changed a lot since I was 16 and these days I'd be considered "normal" (whatever that is).

I'm glad you got into your wedding dress, though. Do you have plans for a renewal of your vows? You could get a second wear out of your dress.
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LMB-ESQ 4/9/2010 7:31AM

    This is great! I wonder if I'd fit in mine? I don't even know where it is, to be honest. It wasn't a traditional wedding dress, it was just a dress that my mom made for me. It was very nice and I loved it, but it wasn't like an heirloom that you would go to special pains to store and then pass on to someone else.

I think I'm smaller today than on my wedding day too (or at least I'd like to think so!) Hmm... maybe I'll have to go dig it out of hiding.

Thanks for sharing! I love your random "tumblin' thoughts" !! emoticon

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DUTCHIEKIWI 4/9/2010 1:35AM

    On this journey we truly learn to love ourselves.
Body and soul, and I tell you, I really needed that!

Not there yet, but certainly on my way.

You look great!, I'd love to see a wedding pic though!


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SANDIE4HLTH 4/9/2010 12:43AM

    Body image is such a huge issue for so many of us women, including me. It takes a lot of work to mature into accepting ourselves, curves and all. I am glad you realized that you weren't fat then, you're not fat now -- you look great!

And congratulations on fitting into the wedding dress you wore twenty years ago. You have worked hard and you should be patting yourself on the back.


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