Friday, April 09, 2010
Someone mentioned that they wanted to try on their wedding dress to see if it still fit...or if it fit again. I started to think about that. My memories of my wedding day are all good, even feeling a little queasy before heading to the church! However, it seems to me that I was heavy when I got married. I don't think I was fat, but definitely I weighed way more than I do now. Cos I've always been heavy, right? So...I tried on my wedding dress. And it fit, very nicely!
Now, I suppose I could have decided that since I was fat (notice it's fat now, not heavy?) on my wedding day and my dress fits, that must mean that I am fat now. The whole wedding dress experiment could have caused a derailment on this healthy journey and perhaps even a binge. Or at least the gloom and doom of depression or "poor me's".
As you've probably guessed by now, that isn't what happened. Instead, I had to rethink my body image from 20 years ago (yes, my 20th wedding anniversary is this June! I got married when I was 9? ). I happen to think that I look pretty darn good right now. Yes, I have spots that are not my favorite (belly, thighs, bags under eyes), but overall, I'm happy with the way I look and the way my body can get me through the day....even after I abuse it. (Think 5 hours of sleep cos I stayed up too late Sparkin') That MUST mean that I WASN'T fat 20 years ago!
Now, don't get me wrong, I had my moments of fatness. Some of them could be "credited" to pregnancies, but the rest were just me making poor food choices. Yep, I likes me some french fries! LOL! But, I had this image of me as fat even when I wasn't! How sad is that? I really hope that my daughter doesn't go through this. What kind of life is that? Wow. Deep thoughts and I don't think I'm tall enough to figure them all out...
Okay, so maybe that's only one thought, but it's a doozy. Didn't help to let it out, though. Brain is still too full. We'll see what tomorrow brings.
Thursday, April 08, 2010
I worked out tonight, about 9:00 this time. Day 5 - straight - L3 of the 30-Day Shred. REALLLY didn't want to go upstairs today and work out. But this dang goal is pushing me!
There is part of the DVD that you cannot skip, cannot fast forward through, cannot ignore...at least not completely. So, today, in my trying to get ready funk, I slumped on the futon while I waited for the workout to begin. DD comes in with the dog's while I am slumped. I told her "Go away, I'm working out." She just laughed and proceeded to tattle on her brother. go figure.
This week, I'm going to have my family decide what we are eating for the next two weeks. DH provided a list of 14+ meals that he would eat without the sound. You know, that noise they make when you tell them what's for dinner and they don't like it, but they've learned not to say anything if they ever want to eat again? Yeah, that sound. Anyway, it's a great list. Except for a couple of small things. One, no chicken. Not one chicken dinner on there. Lots of red meat, pizza, pork and red meat. Two, some of the kids' favorites are missing (i.e. lasagna). Three, when I bought groceries based on his list, I spent between $40 and $50 more at the store. Apparently, we need a compromise. My compromise is that the family will agree on the menus so I won't hear the sound! LOL!
DS might be getting a cell phone. DH told him that if he showed that he was responsible, could clean his room and keep it that way, and could show some maturity, DH would consider getting phone for DS to use so he wouldn't have to share with DD. Since DD is a teen, DS gets to use the phone when DD is asleep, out of the house or grounded from the phone. He REALLY wants his own phone. And, it looks like he'll get it.
A boxer wearing a diaper is a funny sight. She's still in heat, but is handling the diaper much better than she did at first.
When it rains, it pours. Told the boss about a month ago that I had some extra time and could take on more work (politically correct terminology for "bored off my rocker!"). Just had two more things added to my overflowing plate today. Yippee!! In all actuality, I am thankful I have a job, especially one that I like. Plus, I'd rather be busy than bored ANY day!
My name is Brad. No, not really. At a meeting, the organizer called me Brad (we've worked together for about 10 years and I do NOT look like a Brad. Charles, maybe, but not Brad!). The other guys in the meeting have called me Brad ever since. It's been three days...may be here to stay.
There are more thoughts in my head, but it's probably best they stay where they are. Time to shower and pack my lunch for tomorrow. Nite!
Wednesday, April 07, 2010
I'll tell you what that decision is in just a minute. First, I need to explain. (As always! LOL!)
When I read, it is for pure entertainment. If I learn something while reading a book, it is purely on accident. I do NOT seek out great works of art, tomes to make me think, anything remotely educational is out! If I think while reading, it is either an accident or I'm thinking about what's for dinner. Well, Lenny48 recommended the book "The Help" by Kathryn Stockett. It is set in the early 60's, has two black maids and one white woman as the main characters and involves something that they do that changes their world.
That right there is enough to keep me from reading it. Sounds way too much like a lesson is going to be taught and I do not want to learn it! LOL! BUT, a friend recommended it and therefore I will read it. Always open to new authors and stories. Always.
Well, not even 100 pages into the book (page 63, to be exact) one of the characters learns a lesson and I listen and learn too. (dang it... )
The decision we each have to make every morning? Are we going to believe what others say about us? Are we going to let the people in our lives, or even the ones on the periphery of our lives, tell us what to believe? We are each our own person and we each have the power to choose what to believe.
I, for one, have decided that I am in charge of what I believe. No one else. I'll listen. I'll consider. And then I'll decide. Just me. Nuff said.
Tuesday, April 06, 2010
I started up the stairs around 9:45...pm. There's a reason for this and I'm gonna tell you! LOL!
Mondays are a long day for me on a regular basis. My group at work deals with companies in Korea, China, Singapore, etc. on a fairly regular basis. Each week, we have a conference call with Korea on Mondays (China is on Wednesday, Singapore is as needed...I skip the Tuesday meeting). Because of Daylight Savings Time and the fact that Korea is on the other side of the world, our meeting doesn't start until 5:15. That means the soonest I leave work on Mondays is 5:30...more often 5:45.
Tonight, I left around 5:35, drove the 35 minutes home and made dinner (leftover ham, who'd a thunk it! ) Grilled the ham with some cheese. Yummy! Anyway, by the time I got everyone's sandwiches made, it was 6:20. DD's first softball game of the season was due to start at 6:30 and I was not dressed for the weather. So, picture this...I take my sandwich and Diet Pepsi with me into the master bedroom. In between bites and sips, I am putting on long johns, two pairs of socks, three layers of shirts and some boots. The sandwich inhaled and me looking like the Michelen man, I run upstairs and grab a couple of blankets. Kiss everyone goodbye and I am out the door!
DD's game goes well (they didn't win, but they played well...mostly). By the time we get home, I can't feel my toes. I guess I needed three pairs of socks! I warm up, eat some popcorn, Spark a little and decide I'm ready to work out...at 9:15. Well, the kids go to bed at 9:30 and I need to tuck them in and make sure they actually get in bed. Can't work out until they are safely tucked. By the time they are, it's 9:45.
Now, other nights, I might have said "To heck with it!" (Literally, I have said that, out loud!) BUT, one of my goals is to do the Shred EVERY day for at least 10 days straight. I'm on a two-day streak. Tonight, I did it! Three days! AND I hit one of my other goals. I was able to do all of the traveling push ups on my toes! Woo Hoo!!!
The point of all this? Apparently, goals can be motivating! Who knew? LOL! Not only did having a very tangible goal get my butt up the stairs and into the wokout, but those same goals kept me from eating everything in the house. Healthy choices and within calorie range again today! Day 3 for that streak too!! I'm on fire!!
Okay, time to put out the fire and get some sleep. Spark y'all later.
Sunday, April 04, 2010
Holidays and going out to eat are my downfall. Both are special occasions in my world and special occasions are a reason to celebrate (translation: eat!).
Yesterday, DH and I went out to dinner, just the two of us. He asked me where I would like to go. I hate choosing because he is much more particular about his food than I am. We actually had a discussion once trying to determine if there was a place where we could go eat that he would eat and I wouldn't. We couldn't think of one. He even tried the local gas station, but no dice. They have a hot deli, lunchables and frozen burritos. I'm good!
Anyway, one of the ladies I work with talked about taking her son Goodwood BBQ for his birthday. That sounded really good to me. DH is not a fan of BBQ. I suggested it anyway. He decided that we could go there because they do have steak that is not BBQ. (Yay) I ordered the BBQ pulled pork with a baked potato, sour cream only and on the side, and steamed veggies. AND I only ate half the pork. Stayed in calorie range for the day! Woo Hoo!
Today is Easter (duh!) and we had (for us) the traditional Easter dinner of ham, mashed potatoes, green beans and deviled eggs. Mmmm...deviled eggs. Love them! I only made eight halves and there are four in our family, two each. DD didn't like hers, so I gave her extra to DH. I still have over 200 calories to use, if I want to!
AND, I worked out today and yesterday. Eight more days of L3 to meet that goal!
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