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Well...that didn't work!

Friday, April 06, 2012

A few weeks ago, I changed my goals to show myself losing seven pounds by the end of the year. I figured that a slow-and-steady pace would take away the stress I was feeling and make it easier to stay in calorie range.

I was wrong.

Instead of making it easier to stay in calorie range, it got really easy to be over. Not a lot (usually), but over. And, sure enough, my weight followed. I saw my highest number on the scale this weekend. Granted, I had just eaten four pieces of Pizza Hut Meat Lovers Pizza...and was physically ill! But, the number was high and I didn't like it.

So...I readjusted again. I moved my goal up to losing seven pounds in three months. My exercise goals stayed the same so my calorie range shifted down quite a bit. But, that has been good for me. I've been more focused on getting my nutrients in within my limited calories. I have been able to fit a couple of treats, but I am not indulging everyday. I'm still taking my cheat day tomorrow, but it will be one day this week, not every day this week!

The good news is that the scale is down four pounds. I realize that most of that is bloat. I don't care!!!! It's gone! LOL! And, best of all, I am feeling it. I don't know for how long or how soon I will be tempted to over indulge. But for now, I'm feeling it and I'm liking it.

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MYOWNHERO 7/5/2012 9:22PM

    You can do this, you know you can.

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CHATTIEGIRL 5/22/2012 5:09PM

    Hi Barbara;

Whatever works for you try and stick with it. I make pull apart cookies with my 8 year old DGD and I cut them in half before baking so if I have one it is very small. I have even quartered them anything that works to home loose or maintain. I can't run but I walk over 10,000 almost every day. I even have a broken little toe but stil go for it. Put forth the effort and it will pay off in the long run. God bless you always.

Smile Joyce

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JUNIAATROME 4/20/2012 11:07PM

    Slow never works for me (and fast doesn't either!). It's like running - I can't slow jog, but when I start running I can't hold it up for a minute! Not a great prospect. Since I can't run fast and long, there is just one way of doing it - learn running slow and long... emoticon emoticon

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AUNTIEANNE22 4/9/2012 8:46PM

  I ate 4 pieces of pizza the other night, too, but it was Mediterranean and had no meat. I hadn't eaten much all day and I didn't even feel full.
I'm glad you were able to tweak your goals and get back on track.

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QUIKSYLVER 4/9/2012 1:14PM

    You and me! We can do this!

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LIFE-FAITH 4/9/2012 10:57AM

    emoticon emoticon Keep on keeping on - taking care of you and finding things that work on your journey to health.

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JOHNTJ1 4/9/2012 8:24AM

    I had a boss, years ago, probably long before you and Dutchie were born, who had a small sign on his desk. It read: "What gets checked on gets done."

My dad dies a month ago today and ironically it was the last time I weighed myself until this morning. I gained 12 pounds. Now some of that is the whole grief/stress process for sure but some of it came from telling myself I had time to get everything back in line.

The important thing is that you learned from the process and in the future you'll not fall into the same trap.

Glad you are my friend

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REJ7777 4/8/2012 8:16AM

    Sounds great! It looks like you've found a goal that will be challenging enough to keep you focused. emoticon

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GEEMAWEST 4/7/2012 10:55PM

    Knowing you, you'll be back on track in no time. emoticon

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AJDOVER1 4/7/2012 4:58PM

    4 pieces of meat-lovers pizza? ya, we won't be doing that now that we're back on track! Good for you for catching yourself before too much damage was done!

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EM4488 4/7/2012 3:45PM

..Oohhhhhhhh.. ..Sooooooo.....Gooooodddddddddd!!!!

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STEVENGO2 4/7/2012 12:53PM

    emoticon I think it is great that you adjusted your goal and found out that it helped. Sometimes a jump start quick drop motivates a long term weight loss. Just be cautious to stay motivated if the scale slows down in dropping. I hope it continues in the same general direction over time for you, Barbara.

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CARLANNIE 4/7/2012 8:34AM

    Now you know what works for you! If you are like me, now you will want to program your brain to remember this next winter when you are tempted to go back to Plan A! Have a Happy Easter!!!

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KENDRACARROLL 4/6/2012 11:46PM

    Yup, it's real easy to start over-indulging even if it's ever so subtle.
Best way I found to keep this in check is by weighing in once a week. This way I can take corrective action quickly if needed.
Keep fine-tuning, these pesky pounds should be long gone come summer.

Having said that, I broke into the Easter candy yesterday. The candy I had bought to make Easter baskets for the kids. Well, now I have to go and get some more tomorrow, which will hopefully make it into the kids' baskets...
Weigh-in is on Sunday. Looks light it might be time for a very well behaved week next week :)

Happy Easter!
Enjoy your weekend.

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DUTCHIEKIWI 4/6/2012 8:49PM

    Well done you... I wish your determination would rub off on me at this moment in time xoxox

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BETHGILLIGAN 4/6/2012 8:14PM

    Good for you getting back on track!!!

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A-Z Random Facts (thanks to others!)

Saturday, February 25, 2012

A. Age: 43

B. Bed size: Queen

C. Chore that you hate: Cleaning the toilet

D. Dogs: Two - Shihtzu-Papillon Mix (sorry, don't know how to spell either of those) and Boxer

E. Essential start to your day: Breakfast, usually leftovers from last night's dinner

F. Favorite color: Green (or sometimes orange)

G. Gold or Silver: silver

H. Height: 5'1"

I. Instruments you play: None

J. Job title: Assembly Product Engineer

K. Kids: Two (Unless you count my DH, then three)

L. Live: Idaho, USA

M. Mother's name: Leona

N. Nicknames: Babs, Barb (But not Barbie, unless you want the Barbie giggle)

O. Overnight hospital stays: Two, one for each kid

P. Pet peeves: Using your when you're is appropriate

Q. Quote from a movie: I can't remember quotes...sorry!

R. Right- or left-handed: Right

S. Siblings: Two brothers

T. Tattoos & Piercings: None - although my ears used to be pierced

U. Underwear: Yep, I wear 'em.

V. Vegetable(s) you hate: Brussels Sprouts (although I hear that's cos I've never had them prepared properly)

W. What makes you run late: Other people

X. X-Rays you've had: Teeth

Y. Yummy food that you make: Chocolate Covered Peanut Butter Balls

Z. Zoo animal: Giraffes

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CHATTIEGIRL 3/20/2012 1:20AM

    Hi Barb;
Love it and I was wondering what I might put down from A - Z. Oh by the way I will take some of those chocolate peanut butter balls my favorite things. Got to have fun so have a great 2012 and reach the goals you set. Keep living a healthy life style so you are around for a long time. God bless you aways.

Smile Joyce

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STEVENGO2 3/2/2012 5:23PM

    I am glad to hear you wear undies, especially if they are clean!

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BKNOCK 3/1/2012 9:44PM

    Very interesting!

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GEEMAWEST 2/26/2012 10:01PM

    I agree with John. emoticon

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JOHNTJ1 2/26/2012 9:02AM

    Agrees with ELYMWK, lol

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AJDOVER1 2/26/2012 8:55AM

    Idaho? I didn't know that!

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SPEEDYDOG 2/26/2012 8:40AM

    Hi Barb,

It is OK to hate brussels sprouts, prepared correctly or not.

Thanks, Bruce

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ELYMWX 2/25/2012 11:30PM

    Yup, an easy three points!

And I'm glad to know you wear 'em

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JERZGURL_NAN 2/25/2012 11:29PM

    thanks for that list - I've been planning on blogging my a=z list for a few weeks and need to get my rear in gear. I appreciate the motivation. - I do have to say that you Y is a little challenging though- what a teasing temptation!! lol - at least it's late enough to just go to sleep and avoid any temptations for the day. :)

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New Do - With Pictures

Saturday, February 18, 2012

My hair was red for years. Different shades and different colors mixed in, but always red. I would love to be a natural red head, but I hear natural red heads wish they weren't. I guess it's a matter of wanting what you don't have.

Anyway, I have recently been drifting more to the blonde. Still some red and even a little brown thrown in. As requested (KRICKET4), here are some photos. Rules are - only look at the hair, not the face!! Some old lady took over my mirror (and camera) and she won't leave! LOL! And, sorry for the poor quality of photos. The camera is my phone. 'Nuff said!

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JUNIAATROME 4/6/2012 1:43AM

    Did I see any of your pictures before? Don't think so. You are lovely. And may be that on old post now and the do isn't new - but it suits you very well.

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REJ7777 3/22/2012 6:31AM

    Looks beautiful! emoticon

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STEELKICKIN 2/28/2012 11:48PM

    I still say you're a natural biker babe. You look absolutely awesome and I loooove your new shade!! Nuff said!

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AUNTIEANNE22 2/23/2012 10:39PM

  I should look so old! Your hair looks a whole lot better than my new do. It's been a week and it actually looks worse.

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CARLANNIE 2/21/2012 10:20PM

    Your new do looks great on you, even with the fuzzy phone camera. And what are you talking about with the old lady face? You're just being silly now. emoticon

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NEWNAC304 2/20/2012 2:05PM

    Thanks for sharing! I don't think you look old at all!

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AJDOVER1 2/19/2012 6:38PM

    Thank you! Now I'll recognize you when I finally catch up to you on our Route 66 walk!

Lately, I've been getting progressively less red and more brown -- no one has really noticed.... Maybe a blue streak would get their attention.

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GEEMAWEST 2/19/2012 12:59PM

    Great color, very natural looking. Love the new do and the face that goes with it, whoever that may be.

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JOHNTJ1 2/18/2012 11:16PM

    Love your smile Barb

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CHERIRIDDELL 2/18/2012 11:14PM

    I love the new do and you don't look old and my hair is naturally red ,trust me there are lots of colours that aren't flattering but my skin is white white too so i just leave well enough alone.

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BKNOCK 2/18/2012 9:11PM

    Wow, you look like such a nice person! Oh, like the hair too!

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KENDRACARROLL 2/18/2012 8:04PM

    Hey, thanks for posting them. Love the color!
I peeked too. That old lady peeking over your shoulder is not that old...
BTW, your cellphone camera sucks! :)

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OUTDOORGIRL70 2/18/2012 4:08PM

    Love it.

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BETHGILLIGAN 2/18/2012 2:39PM

    I love the hair color!! Mine has a reddish cast that I don't like. did blonde highlights forever but new stylist is toning that way down!! (due to my age??) Now I just feel like my hair is too dark, too reddish but don't know where to go from here. My hair is very short so I guess it doesn't really matter! LOL I like your face (yes, I looked). You are very cute!!!

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Goal Timeline has been Extended...Indefinitely

Friday, February 03, 2012

Eight years ago, I was at goal weight. I know this because one of my goals was to actually weigh what my driver's license said I weighed. And it did!! I just renewed my driver's license and it still says the same weight. However, I am now hovering between six and then pounds above that number. Why? Because I thought I could eat what I wanted during the Christmas season (three years ago) and still maintain my healthy weight. Why would I think that I could forgo my healthy habits and still be healthy? That's a topic for another day.

Anyway, I gained. Then I wised up (a little) and reinstated the healthy habits that got me back to my goal weight. And then those 6 - 10 pounds just kind of snuck up on me and pounced back onto my thighs! So, for about eight months, I've been trying to shed those pounds. Lately, I've noticed that I would eat really well on Monday and Tuesday. Wednesda and Thursday were less healthy. Friday through Sunday were free-for-alls. Sometimes Thursdays would join the free-for-all crowd. Sense a pattern? Me too.

I figured out that part of my problem is that I was stressing about staying in my calorie range. There were days that it was a real challenge to stay in range and, if it was a rough day, I decided not to meet that challenge. In fact, I often decided to show that calorie range who was boss and just how far away from that top number I could get. Take that calorie range!!! emoticon

Yeah...that didn't work so well in helping me reach my goal. This week, I decided to change my goal. The ending goal weight is the same. I've proven to myself that I can get to that weight and stay at that weight relatively easily AND I have some cute clothes that fit well at that weight. What has changed? My time frame. I've given myself until the end of this year to get back to where I want to be.

My calorie range is huge now! I can meet that range and not feel deprived. There is even room for cookies or chips or an occasional cocktail. Knowing I can makes me want to less. Paradox? I think so (assuming I really know what paradox means! LOL!)

I'm feeling better this week. Making room for healthy foods but leaving room for other stuff. I think this is totally doable!

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SANDIE4HLTH 2/9/2012 9:14PM

    This exact thing happens to me, too. I forget how much hard work it was to get to my goal weight and start letting many things slip. My exercise slips, my nutrition slips, my trips to the scale slip, even my visits to SparkPeople slip. Then I jump on the scale and -- oops -- there are those same pounds I worked so hard to get rid of right smack dab on my core (I tend to put weight on in my stomach area and -- don't laugh --my freakin' FACE. No lie). Thanks for writing about this and reminding me that here I am doing the "determined" side of my battle with weight once again. And reminding me that, no I can't do whatever I want once I reach goal. I have to keep working just as hard as when I am in "determined" phase. Great blog!

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AUNTIEANNE22 2/5/2012 9:22PM

  I like your plan. Never deprive yourself of things you like. It's not realistic to think you can live your life this way.

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BKNOCK 2/5/2012 7:45PM

    Sounds like a plan!

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NEWNAC304 2/5/2012 1:57PM

    You show those sneaky pounds who's boss! emoticon

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AJDOVER1 2/4/2012 9:48PM

    Great plan! I do much better with my weight when I don't go crazy trying to micro-manage every calorie. I also feel better now that I've increased my exercise. My next weight goal is to get down to my legal weight (the one on my driver's license). We can do this. It's not a race.

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SKMINNY 2/4/2012 1:00PM

    Don't know why the cookies have to migrate to the thighs, dam cookies!

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HDHAWK 2/4/2012 9:24AM

    Sounds like this plan will work for you. It's so much easier to find a doable plan instead of forcing ourselves into one that doesn't fit!

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JOHNTJ1 2/4/2012 8:16AM

    You have set a realistic goal for yourself and by doing so have removed the pressure to be perfect.

But wait.......... Those of us who konw and love you konw you are really perfect, "as is."


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BETHGILLIGAN 2/4/2012 8:00AM

    I love this blog because I so relate to it!! I tend to get in the mindset that I "deserve" these cookies/cake/pie, etc. I don't know why? They only make me fat and miserable. I also have this "I'll show you" attitude. As if not exercising and eating too much makes anyone feel bad but me. I continue to work on these attitudes, too! Thanks for sharing this!

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KENDRACARROLL 2/4/2012 12:59AM

    Isn't it just disgusting that ALL weight gained goes straight to your thighs?
I'm in the same boat. Just not fair!
Sometimes people here post their stats onto their blogs or pages and I've seen posts from people who carry 20 or more lbs than I do and their thigh measurements are inches below mine! Again, not fair!!!

I think it's a great plan to just slowly taper down those pesky extra pounds by the end of the year. As you said, this takes the pressure off and that is definitely a good thing.

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What is my "Why"?

Friday, January 20, 2012

I like Jillian Michaels. I like her workouts. I like her attitude. I like her straight forward way of communicating. I don't agree with everything she says, but I like to hear her say it anyway.

One of the things she says (and I'm paraphrasing here) is that you can handle any "how" if you know "why". If you know why you want to do something, you're able to handle any how that comes at you.

Which brings up the question, why do I want to lose weight and then maintain? I really need to figure this out. I've been maintaining between six and eight pounds above my goal weight. For about six months now. I have been doing great with exercise. However, my eating has been erratic at best. I can eat really well for a day or two and then I eat way too much the next day or two or six. Or...I eat well all day and then go nuts at or after dinner.

I'm not overrating because I'm hungry. I'm eating fruits and veggies. I'm getting lots of water and nutrients. I'm just eating too much.

If I knew why I wanted to lose the last few pounds, why I wanted to be healthy, why I want to eat well and exercise, I could handle the how. I would be able to avoid the afternoon runs for cookies. I could reduce the size of the portions I consume. I could reach my goal weight (and probably not care about the number on the scale!) and stay there.

So...what is my why? I need to figure that out...

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02SERENE 6/7/2012 3:52AM

    from your blog... " is that you can handle any "how" if you know "why". If you know why you want to do something, you're able to handle any how that comes at you."

That is such a good question, what, why, how.

I am sticking with the even more basics of just changing a tiny bit at a time and positive self talk.

For me, it is an inside out job, when I am more emotionally in touch, I make better choices those days. Even today when I first thought about I was ready to call it a wash, until after I reflected and went -- no I did get exercising in, food was better than before sparks.

So, no more "quick" snap judgments on myself , I hope.

Maybe by now you have already figured out your "why".

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HDHAWK 2/5/2012 9:56AM

    I listen to a podcast called "Inside Out Weight Loss". The first 2 or 3 episodes talk about toward and away from motivations. Away from motivations are those things that compel us to get pants won't button, I can't stand how I look, etc. Then we lose some weight and our pants fit, we look better, or our cholesterol is better. Then we need to find our toward motivations. What are the ultimate goals, the big "why" we're doing this. To look good in a bikini, to buy any clothes we want, to be healthier? I've heard this many times on spark and have experienced it myself. My clothes fit great, I feel great, what can get me to lose those last 5-10 lbs? Good luck setting and reaching those goals!

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JOHNTJ1 2/5/2012 8:44AM

    Delusional???? lol

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AUNTIEANNE22 1/23/2012 2:52PM

  Is where you are a bad place? Are you in the healthy range for your height? Why beat yourself up over a few pounds if you can maintain where you are and be happy? Did you ever take the happy weight test? Maybe you are already there.
I'll keep encouraging you whatever you decide.

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GEEMAWEST 1/23/2012 2:36PM

    Great Blog! Really gives me something to think about. But what does John mean about 'starving children in Oregon?' We take care of our own thank you very much! emoticon

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NEWNAC304 1/23/2012 1:50PM

    Good point. Maybe I need to really figure out my "why" so I can get control. I'm like you, I do great all day and then lose all control at night. Or I'll do good even during the week and stumble on the weekend.

I hope you can figure out your "why".

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GLAMNGLOWDIVA 1/23/2012 3:08AM

    That is an interesting question. Good luck working on it. I know you will find that why and it will all click.

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ILUVTOTAT 1/22/2012 8:00PM

    I've been right where you're at for a while now, barely maintaining what I've done so far because I'm eating too much and sometimes eating with little to no control, so I appreciate your blog.

I hope you find out your "why" soon!

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CARLANNIE 1/22/2012 6:18PM

    Good luck!

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KENDRACARROLL 1/21/2012 10:55PM

    I wanted to write a really brainy response, but I've come to the conclusion that you'll have to settle for response :)

Your blog made me think.

When you're overweight, or grossly overweight, the why seems easier to see. If your blood pressure is sky high, you have diabetes, can't walk up a flight of stairs, can't see your toes, the 'why' is right in your face.

But what if you're already in the healthy range? What determines where you set you goal weight? And what will motivate you to drop those last 10 lbs or 5 lbs?

Vanity or midlife crisis?

In my experience, even if you don't have 100 lbs to lose, losing weight and successfully maintaining this loss involves so much more than continuously eating less and moving more. It requires being real with yourself and facing your demons. It requires learning and re-learning how to deal, how to cope, how to react, and how to roll with the punches.

Some of my 'whys':
I can kick any 20-year-old's butt in kickboxing class.
I can live in my 29 Levi's.

About erratic eating; I'm still working on this as well. Actually, I wouldn't call my eating erratic, rather sketchy. I'm currently not tracking, and I'm having a heck of a time getting my fruits, veggies and water in on most days. There is much room for improvement.

I know that I am not getting the full nutrition I need on a daily basis (ice cream counts as dairy, right... ?)

You're right, it's hard to find a 'why' when on the surface nothing seems to be broken, really. Especially frustrating if you know what you should do and still don't.

Guess, we'll just need to keep chipping away, and continue to fine-tune as we go.

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BKNOCK 1/21/2012 9:46PM

    Wow, good blog with lots to think about.

I also think that my problem is that I love food and it seems like my family celebrates with food. It is so hard to be with the family and not partake.

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STEVENGO2 1/21/2012 4:41PM

    Along this journey I would drop weight than pause for weeks or months at a time at a certain 'goal' number. I would be satisfied with my achievement for a while. Like you know I really enjoy numbers. Besides just the number on the scale I would also have my HDL's, LDL's and triglycerides checked. Throughout my journey these numbers have gone in the correct direction. For instance my triglycerides started at above 700 and are now in the 80's. The motivation, the why, sometimes is very elusive though. I want good numbers but I want that slice or two or three of pizza with extra cheese and pepperoni. Sometimes the numbers win sometimes the pizza wins! Like today, I will be honest, the pizza won! It was enjoying the comfort of a food that I have always loved.

Also I find motivation when I spark another person to begin or continue their journey. Last summer I helped spark my nephew to drop 25 pounds over his summer break. At the beginning of this year I asked a friend, who is at the beginning of his journey, why do you want to loose weight? His answers were, one to get his type 2 diabetes under control, two to be here for when his kids have children. Three to have more energy to do things he enjoys. Four to look better. Five to drop clothes sizes. So far he has dropped 5 pounds this month and is hoping to drop below 300 before the end of the month.

I am not sure if this helps you with your question of Why? But seeing the positive results from my own journey has given me the spark to want to finish a goal that I have had for a long time. I want to complete a degree in Economics. Knowing that I can set goals and achieve them through hard work encourages me that I can accomplish my goal in my education.

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SKMINNY 1/21/2012 1:27PM

    I cant say i gave it any thought of the :why". I think i really need to figure it out too!

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JOHNTJ1 1/21/2012 8:07AM

    I have pondered the same issues my wise friend emoticon.

For what it's worth I think over eating, whether it is healthy food or not is a matter of conditioning. It's the old "Clear everything on your plate because there are starvinig children in Oregon." emoticon We also live in a super sized world where we are rewarded with a reduced price or a trinket for making a meal larger.

I know the "why" but like you I really struggle with the "how." All I can say is take my hand and the one on the other side of you and just remember we are all in this together and I'll support you and be there to encourage you.

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HOT4FITNESS 1/21/2012 7:55AM

    For me it was taking a look back at the WHAT. I kook at my before pics, I was not healthy. I looked at my past cholesterol reports- not good. and the good cholesterol still needs work. I was out of shape, and I so much wanted to run a half marathon or even a 5 or 10k like my hubby. I want to enjoy my grandchildren. I want to fight against cancer and heart disease. Sometimes you just have to look back at your journey and see all that you have accomplished and soon you will have answered your WHY.

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ZURDTA- 1/21/2012 5:46AM

    That's so true. I'm trying to work that one out too. I think my why has changed since I started Spark a few years back. I have had health reasons and I have had vanity reasons... but I'm not sure either of those are strong enough anymore. Maybe it is something deeper and more personal - or perhaps, I really don't want to lose the weight because I fear something..

A deep question and I hope you find you why! Going to keep looking for my owm too.

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RCW0442EHS 1/20/2012 11:06PM

    I'm always asking myself that. It's good seeing how it can become a productive part of all of this and not just staying as some nagging voice in the back of my head. It was a good post, I hope you find your "why"?

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