Monday, June 13, 2011
For the last week I gave week 1 of the eat clean diet a try. As many of you know I really don't like the word diet, its all about lifestyle change for me.
Week one is more like a diet and is designed to prime you for the rest of the lifestyle. I'm not sure if I buy into it but when my personal trainer suggested it she said "its just one week." So she was right, I'd give her just one week.
I'm not starting week 2+ which is exactly what you'd expect from eating clean - whole unprocessed foods that are good for you.
You can read my review about the eat clean week and also some individual posts on my blog:
The one good thing is that it seems to have busted my plateau. My official weigh in is tomorrow but based on what the scale has said the last few days things are good and I'll have some very good news to share with you :)
Friday, May 06, 2011
As many of you will know, Iíve been struggling with some plateaus for a while now. In the last year Iíve lost about 15 lbs. Yes thatís still movement but 15 lbs over a year is frustrating. Iíve increased my fitness ability and kept up (even improved) my healthy eating habits. Despite feeling discouraged at times, Iím very committed to eating healthy and being active so was able to stay on track. After all, even if I stayed where Iíve been thatís really not that bad. Sure its not idealÖ but itís a hell of a lot better than where I started (in terms of health etc).
I started to think some time ago that being stuck might be related to not eating quite enough. I was nervous however because as someone whoís lost 80+ lbs its hard to think that youíre should eat more. That and Iím not hungry. I felt very nourished, had enough energy and was eating within my sparkpeople range.
A few months ago I decided to get a personal trainer. Iíd struggled with this for a while because Iím stubborn and wanted to be able to say Iíd done this all on my own. Well, eventually I got over myself and thought Ė even if someone is guideing me on what to lift, how many times to lift it etcÖ I AM STILL THE ONE DOING THE WORK!!
Sounds simpleÖ but Iím stubborn.
The one thing the trainer flagged was that Iím not eating enough protein. I get about 60-70 grams a day which is in the bottom range of my SP tracker. The trainer felt that since Iím trying to gain muscle and spend a pretty good amount of time exercising I should aim more toward the top of my range (around 100-120g a day).
Well, I can tell you that Iím no where near that range. Itís a struggle every day to add a little more lean protein here and there. Plus it fills me up more and Iím already not always hungry when I eat something. ( I know thereís someone out there just starting out whoís hungry and wants to chew on their arm right now that just wants to reach across cyberspace and smack meÖ its ok, Iíve been there too. Eventually its gets MUCH easier).
Iím eating about 75-80 with the add ons. But so far, its working.
Prior to going on vacation Iíd seen a drop and got to 203. I was thrilled. After being on vacation and getting sick afterward Iíd shot back up to 206. Then from feeling pissed that even after being really well behaved on vacation I still gained weight I got back to 208. The first couple left quickly and now its finally taken friends!
Last week I was back to 203.
This Monday I was at 202
Mid week I was at 201
And todayÖ today, I was at 200.2
I actually just stood on the scale and watched that number for a minute. 200.2. That is so close to 199. That is also so close to 196 (which for me is where my BMI hits overweight).
Big things are happening!
As always, you can check out my fitness updates and healthy recipes at :
Thursday, February 03, 2011
Ok, I hate the F-word as much as the next person and really think it should be treated like the other f-wordÖ or even worse because in my life the 3 letter F-word has probably been more damaging.
Iíve been ďthe fat girlĒ my whole life. I was a chubby kid, a chubby teen and then eventuallyÖ an obese adult. Its funny, people are resistant to use the O-wordÖ I know it scared me for a long time.
At this point Iíve lost 81 lbs in my weight loss journey. Iím sitting at 203 lbs and being on the edge of One-derland is taunting me like you wouldnít believe. But Iím confident that Iíll get there, donít you worry! And oh will I jump for joy! I havenít been less than 200 lbs since I was a child.
One of the biggest challenges of weight loss has been wrapping my head around the changing me. Donít get me wrong, its not always easy to eat right late a night or resist some fried food while out with friends but I anticipated those challenges.
I didnít anticipate looking at a pair of pants in disbelief only to try them on and say ďwow, they do fit over my butt.Ē
I didnít anticipate how amazing it would feel to be able to buckle a plane seat belt without saying a silent prayer in my head that this belt was a little smaller than others.
I didnít anticipate the problems with my self image. Iíve always had a pretty healthy self-esteem despite not loving my body.
A few months ago I realized that self image was starting to become a problem, that despite all the success Iíd experienced, I still really disliked my body and would focus on the things that I didnít like over the things I did like. Instead of looking at how much thinner my waist was getting I would look at how wobbly my thighs looked.
To say the least, this wasnít productive thinking!
In an act of desperation, I made myself several cue cards with instructions on them and set them by my bed. A couple times a week I would pick them up and following the instructions.
They were things like:
- Name one thing you like about yourself
- Whatís one thing you can do now that you couldnít do 2 years ago?
- Whatís one kind thing your friends would say about you?
It felt cheesy to me but I knew I had to do something. I thought that even if I lost all the weight I want to it wouldnít be good if I was physically healthy and not emotionally healthy. And what if it turned out that my weight wasnít getting in my way so much as my bad case of ďfat head.Ē
In a way I was suffering a sort of identity crisis. I had built up so many defences over the years to cope with my weight and am still struggling with how to cope with them. Iíve started noticing things that people will say around me, comments people make about overweight people.
I find this very upsetting!
1) it is upsetting that people talk like this.
2) it is really upsetting to know people have probably talked about ME like this.
But I try to focus on the positive. If someone is making these comments in front of me it is because they donít see me as part of that group. But to me, Iím still very much part of that group and I think I always will be. And donít you worry, Iím the type of person who speaks up in those situations!
Well I think my efforts to ride myself of ďfat headĒ thinking have been helping.
I of course still have unhealthy thoughts but its getting easier to re-route my negative thoughts. Iím getting better and looking at the positive and diverting my attention from the negative. There are still road bumps (ie bathing suit shopping for my upcoming vacation was rough!) but I survived it! Funnily enough I focused on one very small thing. I bought 2 tankinis and focused on how now when I turn in a tankini and a little midriff pops out its no problemÖ where as 80 lbs ago I was showing off some serious tummy if that happened!
I think one of the keys to success is stopping yourself when you think those bad thoughts. I think of it in terms of ďdo not pass go.Ē When the bad thoughts start I just have to push them away and focus on the positive. One thing that works sometimes is looking at a before picture. After all, its been 2 years or gradual change for me so sometimes I forget and donít really think I looked different.
What tricks do you guys have to stop a bad case of ďfat headĒ? AKA, how do you stop the bad thoughts from taking over and focus on the positive?
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