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100 lbs gone!!

Tuesday, January 10, 2012

I can't believe it.

It's been almost 3 years (will be in March)... but today it snuck up on me.

I was hoping it would happen before the holidays but have learned to be very patient with the numbers on the scale over the last few years. My body doesn't like to move outside of it's own schedule so I focus on other indicators and wait, and it always catches up.

My 30th birthday is at the end of the month and all I knew was that I wanted to lose those last 2 lbs before then and was confident it would happen.

Then I got on the scale this am...

184.4 that's 100 lbs from where I started on March 12th 2009.

I just stood there.

I thought about grabbing the camera but didn't. I just stood there and watched the number until the scale turned off.

At first I said it didn't count, I don't like to weigh in until I've seen a number a few days in a row... and then by the time I got to work it had sunk in.

I hit the goal. Holy crap!!!

3 years ago I walked into my friend's office and asked her for her honest opinion "do you think 100 is too ambitious, do you think I could ever be 184 or am I setting myself up for failure." Her response was so supportive, and she said she absolutely believed in me and said I just had to be willing to change my goals later if need be.

Well, I have changed my goals... I'm thrilled with 100 gone, and am now shooting for 20 more - because that will put me in the healthy BMI range.

SP is an amazing community! I don't use the online tracking much anymore (and consider that I've been able to continue my weight loss with intuitive eating a personal success) but I still tell everyone I know about what a great tool this site is and how supportive the people I've met here are.

Thank you for all your support! emoticon

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GOLFLADY11 3/21/2012 8:36PM

    That was a great way to lose the weight over 3 years. I totally identify when you say your body has its' own schedule. What a great way to look at it! I've had various plateaus but I know eventually the anticipated response will come - because I am committed. I applaud your committment and success. emoticon

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BABYGURL76 3/21/2012 4:23PM


Congrats on your hard work!! You look great!

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CHRISTINA006006 3/9/2012 9:43AM

    Awesome!!!! Congrats! you look amazing!

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CHICAT63 3/9/2012 8:38AM

    Ok, I totally missed this ! Woohoo congratulations

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DONNA2238 2/28/2012 4:53PM

    How amazing your journey has been! Slow and steady wins this race...I have to keep reminding myself of that. I do this by finding SP people that have lost 80-100 pounds like I need to! Such a motivating feeling i get when I see others where I used to be and now where I want to be! I have lost 36 pounds SOOOO slowly! I am on track again this year...have lost the weight I put back on (about 14 pounds!!!) and now need to lose about another 40 pounds to go! SP is an awesome tool...I never would have remained consistent if I did not have this to come back to! Hoping you can reach your next 20 pound goal! But you look great as you are now so keep that in ind :o)!!!

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NYS_EMT 1/31/2012 10:04AM

    Wonderful!!! It's a great feeling, isn't it? :) You look fantastic and you can certainly do the other 20... you've made it this far!!!


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KJDOESLIFE 1/31/2012 9:39AM

    Yay! Great job!!

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MEGA_MILES 1/31/2012 8:41AM

    Spectacular!!! Slow and steady wins the race. You should be very very proud. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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ELYMWX 1/30/2012 11:17PM

    Well done, Steph!

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CITYZOZO 1/12/2012 5:03PM

    WAY TO GO!

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DMATT35 1/11/2012 12:51PM

    Awesome!! You are an inspiration to us all!! emoticon

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ANKLLOYD 1/10/2012 8:20PM

    Congrats! You look wonderful.


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EVER-HOPEFUL 1/10/2012 4:39PM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticoni am so pleased for you love that is absolutly fantastic.i know you can do the next 20lbs as well emoticon emoticon emoticon

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BRANDI.FEY 1/10/2012 3:40PM

    emoticon on the 100!

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FITWIFEY86 1/10/2012 1:58PM

    You're emoticon!!!! emoticon

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    emoticon emoticon What a GREAT milestone to hit!!

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EL-E-E 1/10/2012 1:29PM

    AMAZING! Way to go! I hope this post gets picked as one of the "community highlights" or Success Stories or something!!

I hope you continue to soar on this awesome achievement!


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XIUXIE 1/10/2012 1:15PM

    I am so impressed! Congratulations!

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K__IERRA123 1/10/2012 12:56PM

    Very well done! Of course it counts! Great work!

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LOSINGITNOW11 1/10/2012 12:30PM

    Congratulations on hitting your goal!! That is awesome!! Reading this shows me it may take awhile, but 100 pounds can be done.

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MAGICKBEAR 1/10/2012 12:26PM

  You are an inspiration to all of us. Thank you for sharing your story. Congratulations!!

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OZARKMARY 1/10/2012 12:21PM

    emoticonYou have totally made my goal achieveable. THREE years! Not 1 yr, but 3! Thanks! Congratulations to you!! I know the feeling of NOT posting losses because of wanting to know they are "real", but you HAVE made it! Good job and congrats on making a new goal. You are young and smart enough to know you need this NOW. Glad I saw your post and will be encouraged by you. I WILL still make MY goal, even if it takes THREE yrs!! Yay!!! (I'm counting from Feb 2010 :) ) emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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NYMORNINGGLORY 1/10/2012 12:15PM

    Congrats on hitting your goal! How wonderful!!! I wish you continued success! emoticon

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    Congrats! It's nice to see such progress, and at a steady pace. You're inspiring :)

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ONEDERLAND! - A Journey with Pics!

Tuesday, June 14, 2011

I can't believe I finally get to write this blog post!

I started this journey March 12th 2009 - and 86 lbs heavier!

Its been a lot of hard work!

I've had to learn why I have some nasty eating habits so I can gradually work toward fixing them. I know I'm not done either :P

I've learned to LOVE fitness.

I ran my first 5k last December.

I so don't even care how bad that picture is :P I was happy to be wearing a race bib!

Now I've lost:

86 lbs
10 sizes (went from a 22 and am currently a 12)
12+ inches around my waist
A lot of bad habits
Some of my fears

But what I've gained:

Nutritional knowledge
self confidence
a little humility :)
a lot of AMAZING friends and support here on SP.
I started my own healthy living / recipe blog.

Thank you SP and thank you to all your support!

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MEADSBAY 11/30/2011 12:53PM

    Holy moly!
You look sosososososo emoticon
Bet you feel grrrrrrrrrrrrrreat, too!
emoticononbeing today's MOD.
Enjoy your day of fame.

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GOING-STRONG 11/30/2011 12:28PM

    Great job... keep on sparking and all the best to you in 2012.

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JANEYINMADTOWN 11/30/2011 11:40AM

    emoticon Youre definitely living that healthy lifestyle!

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HEALTH-E-CLARE 11/30/2011 9:39AM

    Congratulations on all your success!

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CHANGINGELAINE 11/30/2011 9:21AM

You look great!

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BAKER1009 11/30/2011 9:11AM

    That's awesome! Keep it up!

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GUITARMAMA80 11/30/2011 8:29AM

    You are a real inspiration! Way to go! emoticon

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TRACYZABELLE 11/30/2011 4:09AM

    Awesome job! Keep up the good work

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MMUSICK85 7/11/2011 7:04PM

    What an amazing job!

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BAKER1009 7/11/2011 9:46AM

    Awesome job! Keep up the great work! Sometimes the more we lose the more we gain!

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JUFOME 7/11/2011 12:37AM

    You are absolutely inspirational! Simply amazing!

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MARIO432 7/10/2011 5:39PM

    You look amazing, now I'm going to check out your blog @

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DRB13_1 7/10/2011 4:33PM

    Loved this blog and the photos!
You're doing great, keep going!
One-derland is so much easier on your knees and joints.
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IMJUSTFLUFFY 7/10/2011 4:05PM

    Congrats on your wonderful progress!

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SCOUTMOM715 7/10/2011 2:39PM

    emoticon You look fantastic!! Your hard work is paying off. emoticon

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DEBBIEOLMOS57 7/10/2011 1:45PM

    way to go

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SANDYCHICAGO 6/20/2011 11:36PM

    You are AMAZING!!! And so inspirational!

Nice Job!

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CITYZOZO 6/16/2011 1:32AM

    fantastic job!

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CHICAT63 6/14/2011 11:08AM

    OMG Doing the Happy Dance for you.....Woohoo, congratulations ONDERLAND amazing feeling. You go GIRLFRIEND, just awesome.

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MOETR345 6/14/2011 8:55AM

    YAYYYY!!! emoticon

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CODEMAULER 6/14/2011 8:43AM

    This is terrific!! You have worked hard and IT SHOWS!!


It's an amazing transformation and I'm so glad that you shared it with all of us!

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MEGANANDERSEN 6/14/2011 8:39AM

    YAY!!!! Here is a HUGE (((HUG))) for all the work you have done!!!! Congrats and keep going!!! You are AWESOME!!!!

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WATCHMEGO2 6/14/2011 8:32AM

    I'm SO happy for you that you finally get to write this blog too!! Congratulations girl! You have worked hard for it.

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The Eat Clean Diet

Monday, June 13, 2011

Hello All,

For the last week I gave week 1 of the eat clean diet a try. As many of you know I really don't like the word diet, its all about lifestyle change for me.

Week one is more like a diet and is designed to prime you for the rest of the lifestyle. I'm not sure if I buy into it but when my personal trainer suggested it she said "its just one week." So she was right, I'd give her just one week.

I'm not starting week 2+ which is exactly what you'd expect from eating clean - whole unprocessed foods that are good for you.

You can read my review about the eat clean week and also some individual posts on my blog:

The one good thing is that it seems to have busted my plateau. My official weigh in is tomorrow but based on what the scale has said the last few days things are good and I'll have some very good news to share with you :)

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BAKER1009 7/11/2011 9:49AM

    I really enjoy eating clean! I feel so much better when I'm eating things that are good for me. Processed foods are hard on the body and take longer to digest. I still have my days where I struggle, but I can see why eating clean is a good idea. I'm still meeting all my nutritional goals and staying at a healthy calorie range. The cool thing is, as long as I eat clean, I don't even have to worry about tracking calories. Saves me time, and loses me some weight!

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DEBBIEOLMOS57 7/10/2011 1:45PM

    you did it

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Staring One-derland in the Face

Friday, May 06, 2011

As many of you will know, Iíve been struggling with some plateaus for a while now. In the last year Iíve lost about 15 lbs. Yes thatís still movement but 15 lbs over a year is frustrating. Iíve increased my fitness ability and kept up (even improved) my healthy eating habits. Despite feeling discouraged at times, Iím very committed to eating healthy and being active so was able to stay on track. After all, even if I stayed where Iíve been thatís really not that bad. Sure its not idealÖ but itís a hell of a lot better than where I started (in terms of health etc).
I started to think some time ago that being stuck might be related to not eating quite enough. I was nervous however because as someone whoís lost 80+ lbs its hard to think that youíre should eat more. That and Iím not hungry. I felt very nourished, had enough energy and was eating within my sparkpeople range.

A few months ago I decided to get a personal trainer. Iíd struggled with this for a while because Iím stubborn and wanted to be able to say Iíd done this all on my own. Well, eventually I got over myself and thought Ė even if someone is guideing me on what to lift, how many times to lift it etcÖ I AM STILL THE ONE DOING THE WORK!!

Sounds simpleÖ but Iím stubborn.

The one thing the trainer flagged was that Iím not eating enough protein. I get about 60-70 grams a day which is in the bottom range of my SP tracker. The trainer felt that since Iím trying to gain muscle and spend a pretty good amount of time exercising I should aim more toward the top of my range (around 100-120g a day).

Well, I can tell you that Iím no where near that range. Itís a struggle every day to add a little more lean protein here and there. Plus it fills me up more and Iím already not always hungry when I eat something. ( I know thereís someone out there just starting out whoís hungry and wants to chew on their arm right now that just wants to reach across cyberspace and smack meÖ its ok, Iíve been there too. Eventually its gets MUCH easier).

Iím eating about 75-80 with the add ons. But so far, its working.

Prior to going on vacation Iíd seen a drop and got to 203. I was thrilled. After being on vacation and getting sick afterward Iíd shot back up to 206. Then from feeling pissed that even after being really well behaved on vacation I still gained weight I got back to 208. The first couple left quickly and now its finally taken friends!

Last week I was back to 203.

This Monday I was at 202

Mid week I was at 201

And todayÖ today, I was at 200.2

I actually just stood on the scale and watched that number for a minute. 200.2. That is so close to 199. That is also so close to 196 (which for me is where my BMI hits overweight).

Big things are happening!

As always, you can check out my fitness updates and healthy recipes at :

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STELLA0583 5/13/2011 5:08PM

    I was thinking about you today and was wondering how you were doing. Great to hear that "Onederland" is so close!!! I have 5 pounds to go until my bmi is at over weight and not obese yipppeeee!!! I have been going thru the same plateaus for months now, basically since the new year. I'm positive it was because I was not eating enough, well and I was just being lazy! I bumped up the nurition a bit, started writing everything down again and the 30 Day Shred has saved me once again. Happy to say I woke up this morning at 189.2! Slow and steady wins this race:) emoticon

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CITYZOZO 5/12/2011 10:42AM

    SO CLOSE ,, you will make it,,, way to go---zo

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CODEMAULER 5/7/2011 8:49AM

    This is really terrific news!! You've worked hard and should feel very proud of all that you've accomplished!!


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WATCHMEGO2 5/7/2011 8:36AM

    I have no doubt that on Tuesday you will be posting a big woot! woot! for reaching onederland. You have got this girl! emoticon

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How do you deal with a case of ďFat HeadĒ

Thursday, February 03, 2011

Ok, I hate the F-word as much as the next person and really think it should be treated like the other f-wordÖ or even worse because in my life the 3 letter F-word has probably been more damaging.

Iíve been ďthe fat girlĒ my whole life. I was a chubby kid, a chubby teen and then eventuallyÖ an obese adult. Its funny, people are resistant to use the O-wordÖ I know it scared me for a long time.

At this point Iíve lost 81 lbs in my weight loss journey. Iím sitting at 203 lbs and being on the edge of One-derland is taunting me like you wouldnít believe. But Iím confident that Iíll get there, donít you worry! And oh will I jump for joy! I havenít been less than 200 lbs since I was a child.

One of the biggest challenges of weight loss has been wrapping my head around the changing me. Donít get me wrong, its not always easy to eat right late a night or resist some fried food while out with friends but I anticipated those challenges.

I didnít anticipate looking at a pair of pants in disbelief only to try them on and say ďwow, they do fit over my butt.Ē

I didnít anticipate how amazing it would feel to be able to buckle a plane seat belt without saying a silent prayer in my head that this belt was a little smaller than others.

I didnít anticipate the problems with my self image. Iíve always had a pretty healthy self-esteem despite not loving my body.

A few months ago I realized that self image was starting to become a problem, that despite all the success Iíd experienced, I still really disliked my body and would focus on the things that I didnít like over the things I did like. Instead of looking at how much thinner my waist was getting I would look at how wobbly my thighs looked.

To say the least, this wasnít productive thinking!

In an act of desperation, I made myself several cue cards with instructions on them and set them by my bed. A couple times a week I would pick them up and following the instructions.

They were things like:
- Name one thing you like about yourself
- Whatís one thing you can do now that you couldnít do 2 years ago?
- Whatís one kind thing your friends would say about you?

It felt cheesy to me but I knew I had to do something. I thought that even if I lost all the weight I want to it wouldnít be good if I was physically healthy and not emotionally healthy. And what if it turned out that my weight wasnít getting in my way so much as my bad case of ďfat head.Ē

In a way I was suffering a sort of identity crisis. I had built up so many defences over the years to cope with my weight and am still struggling with how to cope with them. Iíve started noticing things that people will say around me, comments people make about overweight people.

I find this very upsetting!

1) it is upsetting that people talk like this.
2) it is really upsetting to know people have probably talked about ME like this.

But I try to focus on the positive. If someone is making these comments in front of me it is because they donít see me as part of that group. But to me, Iím still very much part of that group and I think I always will be. And donít you worry, Iím the type of person who speaks up in those situations!

Well I think my efforts to ride myself of ďfat headĒ thinking have been helping.

I of course still have unhealthy thoughts but its getting easier to re-route my negative thoughts. Iím getting better and looking at the positive and diverting my attention from the negative. There are still road bumps (ie bathing suit shopping for my upcoming vacation was rough!) but I survived it! Funnily enough I focused on one very small thing. I bought 2 tankinis and focused on how now when I turn in a tankini and a little midriff pops out its no problemÖ where as 80 lbs ago I was showing off some serious tummy if that happened!

I think one of the keys to success is stopping yourself when you think those bad thoughts. I think of it in terms of ďdo not pass go.Ē When the bad thoughts start I just have to push them away and focus on the positive. One thing that works sometimes is looking at a before picture. After all, its been 2 years or gradual change for me so sometimes I forget and donít really think I looked different.

What tricks do you guys have to stop a bad case of ďfat headĒ? AKA, how do you stop the bad thoughts from taking over and focus on the positive?

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40PLUSANDFIT 2/3/2011 12:09PM

    First, you've done a tremendous job and look great. Yes I know you are still a WORK in progress. I've had a case of the fat head all my life, although technically when I was younger I wasn't fat. I'm not sure what caused it (oh yeah, great parenting ... not). Anyway, since I've lost my 25 pounds and (am still stuck on a plateau), I have those bouts myself. Sherri you thighs are still so huge and cellulite ridden, etc. Instead of noticing how STRONG they are and well musculared. So I have to one, get rid of all the old clothes. For some people this works. Two, stop the negative talk. I have to remind myself that I look much better. I'm in great shape. There's muscle tone where there wasn't before. I can't give any great tips. You just have to keep rewinding when the negative hits and work on the positive self talk. It will eventually take over.

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RACERXGIRL 2/3/2011 10:48AM

    I have a not-so-good habit of dwelling and stewing on the negative, so I try to be "in the moment" and live as consciously as I can. I, too, struggle with self esteem issues and what others (family and exes) have said as I was growing up really took root in my coconut. I had a therapist of mine suggest something similar to what you are doing with your cue cards. If I was in front of a mirror (at home, restroom at work, putting on my lipstick, etc.) I had to say "I love you" to myself. I felt like a total goober doing it, but it *does* make a difference. It's still a work in progress, and some days are better/worse than others...but if we keep making these positive changes they will push out the yucky stuff stuck in our brains. Oh, another thing she had me do was when those negative thoughts/voices from the past are tromping around in your head, think about it as if they're coming from a radio. Turn the volume knob down on the voices, eventually turning the radio off...then unplugging the radio and chucking it out, OR changing it to a good 'station' filled with positive self-talk. :)

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