Friday, October 26, 2007
Well I must be doing something right, because I lost another two pounds!! Woot woot!!! Dave said, "How does it feel that you're going to be 196 by Valentines day?!" I hope I'm going to be. Now I'm below my goal line, so that makes me feel safe, I have a bit of time to plateau if my body needs to. But I need to remember... it's not the time I do it in, it's just being healthy!!
Tomorrow is my birthday, yay! I'll be 23 years old. Tonight my bf and I are going out to see the play CATS, and tomorrow he is taking me and my best friend to see the pink floyd light show, and out for dinner. We'll be going to my new favourite restaurant, Saigon - Vietnamese food! Like I did for Dave's birthday, I'm not going to deny myself, I'll just plan for it, by eating less throughout the rest of the day, and making sure I get in some good exercise. Wish me luck!
Monday, October 22, 2007
For the first time in many months, I felt out of control with my eating. I felt like I couldn't measure how much I put in my mouth, I just had to consume. (I do have an exam tomorrow morning, it's a stressful time)
But, I MUST say, it's still better than it used to be... for instance, I only had half a piece of a kaiser bun... but lots of peanut butter, margarine, and jam :( But only half a glass of milk... AND I recorded it.
I hated the feeling of being out of control... so tonight to take control back, I went for another jog with my bf. Yet again, I went further and faster than ever before.
I think my need to binge was related to the changes in my body that have been taking place... I talked with David about how I'm scared of the changes, scared of people being judgemental of me in a way that I'm not used to, scared of fitting into a different stereotype, of people giving me more attention because of my healthy weight, etc... It was good to unload. In the end, he coached me that even if first impressions might be skewed, you'll still know a wolf in sheep's clothing within the first few minutes of talking to someone... you'll be able to tell if, yeah, this kind of person would not have been interested in the bigger me, this is a fair weather friend.
Anyway sorry for the ramble, I'm at a very scary time in my weight loss, I'm at the point where I might want to turn back. But, like I did with my jog... I am trying to be resolute. This is for myself, and no one should scare me out of it!
Monday, October 22, 2007
From the article "Top 10 Reasons to Drop 10 pounds"
Top Ten Benefits
So, what are the top ten health benefits you can expect after dropping 10 percent of your weight? In no particular order, they are:
10. Better blood pressure
9. Improved heart health and lower cholesterol levels
8. Decreased risk for diabetes
7. Enhanced sex life
6. A better night’s sleep for those with obstructive sleep apnea
5. Less pain associated with arthritis, joint disease, and lower back pain.
4. Better breathing
3. Decreased risk for colon and breast cancer
2. A healthier gallbladder
1. More energy
Which ones can I tell you from personal experience, really are true??? Well... definately 1 & 7!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Friday, October 19, 2007
(a picture of me in high school - I cut off the picture above my belly so you couldn't "see" how big I was!)
Over the months since June, you could describe my experience with food as a definite learning experience. And it's been characterized by SMALL CHANGES. Very small changes, one at a time, to go along with the learning experience. I've been going along on a mistake / fix mistake path.
For instance my biggest problem even while eating healthy was I would indulge in a late night snack of a huge peanut butter and jelly sandwich with a couple glasses of milk. I didn't try to deny myself that, I knew that would fail. What I DID do, was started giving my boyfriend a single bite of it, so one less bite for me. Then after a week or so, I would only eat three quarters of it, and make sure I only had ONE glass of milk. Then, I went down to having only one piece of toast, and one glass of milk. Then it was a half a glass of milk. You see the pattern.
Now, it is VERY rare that I have a PBJ craving in the evening, and if I do, I'll give in but it might be by having just a BITE of bread with a teaspoon of pb! These small changes in all areas of my diet have made all the difference in the world.
For the first time in my life, I usually don't eat anything in the evening. I sometimes have a glass of apple juice, or a couple almonds.
ALSO, and this might be ridiculous but.....
I HAD NO IDEA THAT A PERSON COULD ACTUALLY STAY ALIVE EATING THE SMALL AMOUNT OF FOOD I'M NOW EATING.
I used to think you needed THREE BIG meals a day, and if you didn't get those, you would fall ill. Well, I'm healthier than ever, and yesterday I ate...
oatmeal for breakfast with milk
a chicken and veggie schwarma wrap for lunch with LITTLE garlic
crackers, gouda cheese, and turkey ham for dinner
glass of apple/peach juice
a diet coke/vodka in the evening
banana, peanut butter, and milk before bed
WHAT DID I USED TO EAT? Well, when I was at my heaviest...
a triple stacked peanut butter and jelly sandwich in the morning
with three glasses of milk
and sometimes a cookie or two
for lunch, kraft dinner and bologna and a couple glasses of milk
in the afternoon, 2 hotdogs with doritos and pickles and more glasses of milk, cookies for dessert
for dinner, potatoes, cream corn, chicken leg, white bread, water, and apple sauce and cookies.
before bed, a peanut butter and honey sandwich and milk.
My poor abused body!
Wednesday, October 17, 2007
Last night while studying, I absent mindedly flexed my bicep and when I looked at it my eyes BOGGLED!!! And when I felt it, I screamed!!! hahaha hilarious this weight training stuff is so much fun for me, I love it I love it!!!! I'm seeing results and they are so incredible!
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