Sunday, May 02, 2010
I wish that when we are down or have bad days we could find the one thing we need to change and then move on. It has taken me 5 days to figure out why I was so down last week and I was helped by perspective from my therapist.
1. By being retired and spending time on my own or with small groups, my threshold for lots of people, little or no time alone and lots of stimulation is to shut down. (Hence all the time with people at the conference and being in Chicago last week.) This was insight from therapist.
2. I had a glass or two of wine everyday we were gone (5). I rarely drink more than a glass a month and I think with my meds the alcohol has an increased depressant effect. (But it did taste good).
3. I had a major complication develop with my daughter over the timing of some events surrounding her graduation. I ended up with a minor panic attack. Luckily my therapist called to change an appointment time and talked me to a place of calm and understanding. And, of course, she was right, when I had the conversation with my daughter, she was completely understanding of my perspective.
4, I missed my yoga. I was exercising each day, but I did no yoga for over a week... my body doesn't like that!
Now I know some things to do. It's amazing how figuring all that out brought my mood and energy level up.
Sorry to go on so long, but I needed to write this out to clearly understand it. Thanks for reading.