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Thursday, August 11, 2011

It's been a while - I really had to stop doing anything but teaching and finishing my dissertation for a few weeks (a month? - I have no idea, because I really did not look up). In fact there were days and days when I stayed in my nightie all day, and I'd look up and realize it'd been 3 or 4 days since I'd taken a shower. Ick. So Mike and I are back on it, especially with food tracking. We've continued to measure stuff but the between-meals eating has not been all that healthy or measured, and nothing at all was tracked. Whatever. But what I don't want to do is gain everything back that I'd lost. I won't be weighing myself 'til next week, and tomorrow in the early morning, we'll go out for an easy mile walk. I am still extremely busy - I have to get all the changes requested for my diss. complete & to my chair by 8/17, plus all grades for the 3 courses I'm teaching are due to be posted by 8/16. Oh, and school starts again at the end of the month. One step at a time. I'm glad to be back on track!

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CJWORDPLAY 8/14/2011 3:04AM

    Glad to hear from you. I'm wishing you clarity of mind and lots of energy as you focus on the finish line. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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MRS.PRINCIPAL 8/11/2011 9:17PM

    It's all a downhill sprint from here with your dissertation! There is a reason only less than 1% of the worlds population get their doctoral degree. Glad you are getting back.

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SARAWALKS 8/11/2011 4:44PM

    Yes, welcome back! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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55WALKER 8/11/2011 2:50PM

    Welcome back!

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Absolutely awesome, and it's all his fault.

Friday, June 24, 2011

Four-ish years ago, my friend, partner, and now (as of a year ago) husband moved in with me. The day he did, I went vegan, figuring it couldn't hurt, and would probably help. At least, we could save on groceries.

Plus, you know, I had been diagnosed with diabetes, and I hated the whole metformin thing, hated measuring food, hated turning control of my life over to a bunch of doctors and dietitians. There I was, busy as all get-out, mid-doctoral coursework, and the doc wanted me in there once a week. I tried for months but it was just too much for me. I was stressed out, constantly, and felt chained to various desks at 4 different locations, since I wasn't 'just' a doc student - but also a research fellow at 2 locations, and a research assistant. When you're up all hours finishing off that research paper, you (ok, I) tend to reach for the easiest thing: pizza deliveries, bags of chips, all that. Even though I love to cook, there was no time to do that, and exercise had become confined to walking between bus stops on my hours long daily commute. Still, I was aware, and scared. I was tired all the time. I wanted change, knew my diet was dangerous. Perhaps I wanted more than anything to turn back the clock and unsay that diagnosis, which can lead to blindness, amputations, and more.

So, when Mike moved in, I went vegan overnight, and learned to cook a whole new way. To my amazement it wasn't hard, and the great surprise was that it was a lot of fun, delicious, and anything but deprivation. We ate super well, and still do. With his presence, I looked up from my computer and began to have a real life apart from my work. For so long, even before I began my doc studies, my life was work. I had worked hard to get to this place, academically, but at the same time, my health was declining. That happens when you don't look up. Maybe it's one of those Murphy's Law things, a corollary to work taking all the time allotted. You know, if you don't take time to balance your life, you pay the price. Dread visions of myself, too ill to defend my dissertation... having to quit the program due to health. And still having student loans to pay off! Uh, no. Not acceptable, not in the least acceptable.

So then, we married last year. As a gift to ourselves, we used wedding money to buy an elliptical trainer. We became active in sparks... and then we began going to a gym, and running. (running? me? yeah, me).

I'm a little stalled out right now because I'm on deadline. I'm trying to hold the line, at least maintain my weight, while teaching full time and finish my dissertation. My job is at stake, so everything else is on hold, and I do mean everything. Mike is right here with me, cooking wonderful food, being there to listen - everything.

This is a long way 'round the block to tell you my good news. Today, I went to a doc for a checkup. She asked me... so when was the last time you got your blood sugar checked? (Ulp, I said) - about 3 years, expecting a lecture. But you know, I said, I've lost 40 lbs, we've been running, we're vegan.

MY BLOOD SUGAR IS IN THE NORMAL RANGE. She said: you are doing fantastic.


You know, when I was a kid I never wanted to be normal. Now, this word means life. And it is his fault.

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CJWORDPLAY 6/27/2011 5:03PM

    What terrific news! And a great reward for all your hard work. This is the best gift you could give yourself and your sweet hubby. Congratulations! CJ emoticon

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MYSTERY4EVER 6/26/2011 10:42PM

    That is so wonderful. A real, measurable accomplishment.

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CHRISHOWARD4273 6/25/2011 11:33AM

    When I was pregnant with my third child I had gestational diabetes. Luckily that goes away, but it has remained a warning forever that my risk is high and I can still change my life. I am so happy for you!

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BEATLETOT 6/25/2011 11:01AM

    Awesome, congratulations!!!

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JENNSWIMS 6/25/2011 10:58AM

    What a fantastic blog! I hope you told your hubby how you blamed him for your good health!

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DEWACHA 6/25/2011 10:12AM

    Must make you feel like saying "THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU" What wonderful news...what a wonderful story! NORMAL.... WAY TO GO...

And the good luck will continue I am sure - as you complete your dissertation.

I have a feeling ALL doors are open to you now!


p.s.. look at your running pic - wow....... and wow.

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    aw so sweet in the best way!!!! emoticon

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DR1939 6/25/2011 9:23AM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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MRS.PRINCIPAL 6/24/2011 6:13PM

    Great job! Sounds like you and DH are really meant to be together! Getting due for another locked in weekend at a nearby hotel for your study?

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SCOTTGARAN 6/24/2011 6:12PM

    Hey that is great story, and congrats on being normal. Whatever that means!!! LOL

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SARAWALKS 6/24/2011 6:02PM

    Oh this IS completely awesome and I'm glad you gave us the slow buildup! SO worth it...and I'm so happy for you that you no longer have to worry about diabetes! emoticon emoticon and your DH is indeed the emoticon

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Happy First Anniversary to my favorite husband!

Sunday, May 08, 2011

Mike and I are both fairly stressed out right now, and I've had limited time to do much of anything. He's finishing up his 2nd Master's while simultaneously doing all cooking and cleaning (and running to the store, etc.) while I'm closing out the spring semester on 3 courses, trying to prep for the 3 courses I'll be teaching this summer - and oh yeah, finishing my dissertation. We both are hanging in there, at times just barely, with running and staying on track with food intake - nothing like a little/lot of stress, day in and out.

But it's about the journey. As we move toward this crucial 'endpoint,' after which much may change (I have applied for a job elsewhere, he will be looking for one but we don't know where), there is already so much to celebrate.

What I celebrate today (and every day, in fact) is our relationship, friendship, and marriage. Today is our one year anniversary, though we've been friends for 10 years. We're still sappy about it, and I hope we stay that way - when we're not working hard in our respective offices at either end of the house, we share (truly) silly in-jokes and wonderful philosophical discussions, sometimes in the early dark of morning. We have our small rituals, like walking through the garden and discussing growth we see (and here, too, he deserves credit: every speck of earth and grass blade has been dealt with by him, every growing tomato, chard, bean, lily, petunia - all his work, and part of daily pleasure for both of us).

It's really something, you know, when your life partner gives so much. He does so in the most generous way, and I only hope that what I give offers him as much joy and peace as he gives me.

This journey is filled with joy. Sure, we could spend time feeling guilty - over things undone, or thinking about the inevitable sadnesses we've all got. At moments, I do that, and that's ok. But not everyone is as fortunate as we are, and it's important to spend time acknowledging the joy. Good thing I do so every single day.

My favorite husband: I think I'll keep'im

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CJWORDPLAY 5/8/2011 8:07PM

I think you both are a couple of keepers! Enjoy! emoticon

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When we married in May

Saturday, February 05, 2011

We'd had our rings custom made. The gold is reclaimed, and the design is a vine, because we thought it was beautiful. The rings are traditional and modern.

We had to have them sized up a bit (the jeweler lives elsewhere) to fit. Mike has been carrying his on his keychain, and he can wear the ring with the keychain's ring still attached - with room enough to see plenty of daylight between his finger and the ring. Mine has been looser and looser but you know, I hated to take it off.

For so many years I have worn no jewelery. This stays.

I thought the rubber band was a nice touch :)

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BARTINPC 2/7/2011 1:03AM

  Mine flew off my hand a couple weeks ago. Luckily it happened in my truck and not at work (where it would have been gone forever).

It's sitting in front of my computer until I have time to drop it off to get resized.

It is one of those cool problems with losing so much weight. ;)

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MRS.PRINCIPAL 2/6/2011 11:16AM

    Another non-scale accomplishment! Good for you! Beautiful ring. Maybe re-size so you don't loose it?

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ACROSONIC 2/5/2011 9:27PM

    Maybe it's time to think of getting it resized to your new size!

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Unexpected joy: a milestone

Monday, January 31, 2011

Saturday I had a meeting with students (I teach completely online, so this is an unusual thing - happens twice a semester). I love the opportunity to meet face-to-face and this time thought to bring a camera. I am in several of the pics, and this morning looked at them. Gasp! Fist pump! Newsflash! When I look at the pics of me I don't think: gawd I look fat. Even the pic of me and Mike in our running gear had me thinking that, to be honest - this does not, for the first time in far, far too long. I may wear this on my forehead, and to hell with naysayers who find it unprofessional :)


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DAHLFAN 2/1/2011 1:56PM

    Yay! Liking how you look is such a great boosting motivator! Maybe wear it on your shirt, instead, then you could see it ;)

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SARAWALKS 1/31/2011 5:23PM

    Terrific! What a great feeling! emoticon emoticon

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MYSTERY4EVER 1/31/2011 1:53PM

    You look great! Keep up the good work.

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MRS.PRINCIPAL 1/31/2011 1:30PM

    You should be proud! Bet your students loved face time with you! I know, as an on-line university student, I would love to meet my professors! Congrats on your great photos!

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BRAINYBLONDE5 1/31/2011 12:55PM

  you look so happy!!! :D

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BEATRICEBUNNY 1/31/2011 11:13AM

    What a lovely picture. Those colors suit you and you shine!

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RHCOOKSON 1/31/2011 10:44AM

    Awesome! Good for you!

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