Saturday, November 12, 2011
Okay, I love yoplait pina colada yogurt and got into a middle of the night habit of eating one!!! I wake up, my mouth is all dry, and it is so satisfying to eat while I read waiting go back to sleep. I feel like it is not messing up my teeth, the way crackers would, although it probably is.
It is 170 calories for one of those tiny containers. So this morning I made my own using the nonfat Greek yogurt, canned pineapple, bagged coconut and a bit of sugar. It was okay, but not like Yoplait. Hmmm. But it is only 90 calories, I checked with the sparkrecipe website (a fantastic resource by the way, have you tried it?)
Yesterdays trip was two hours because one hour on the train, then half an hour to get to the train and wait, and another half, well maybe 10 minutes to get back. I was able to read a fascinating story by an author I did not know: Alice Munro. Does anyone know her? I never had time to read when I was working, and being on the train is easier than jockeying for position on that horrible bridge and tunnel. Two places where congestion reigns. So, even though it truly is a 40 minute car ride, if there is a tie up (common), it goes to 2hours.
Friday, November 11, 2011
5 am and my daughter needs me to babysit. This is starting to get old, I am not in the mood to do it, but I am sure as soon as I get there, it will be fine. It takes two hours to get there,that is the problem and if my grandson was at my house, it would all be so much easier. I feel somewhat irked because she stopped daycare to save money. But then I see her spending it in other ways.
I will take my ipad and try to keep track of food choices. Very important to do.
Thursday, November 10, 2011
Well, I had 356 calories for breakfast, and I am not hungry yet, and it is 11 am. Great!!! A person really does have to chose their calories, because 356 calories of something else, and I would have been starving by now.
Got going on my cleaning the basement project; great day for it.
Feel better today than yesterday. Those sad feelings are so strange, you just never know what will evoke them. Have to always remember: everything changes.
1pm 458 calories for lunch - wasn't even that hungry
Wednesday, November 09, 2011
I woke up early and I thought I would sort memorabilia. Oh, what a big mistake that was. It evoked so much pain that when I tried to walk in this beautiful morning with my upbeat, march music on my headphones, even that did not work. I only got 1/3 of a mile away and I was crying so much I had to come back.
Specifically, I found papers from the War Department, dated 1943, where my dad got certificates of training for radio work. My dad was 4F and my mom always mentioned it, which I thought was very mean. Here it turned out he did do important work for the war effort.
Pain attacks me.
Then I found cards from my former husband, saying things like we should go to Europe again, just the two of us. He did love me at one time. More pain attacks me.
Then I found a card from my daughter that was so bright and cheerful from about 15 years ago. Now she suffers from depression and I never get cards like that anymore. How deep can this pain go?
I had no idea this would happen to me when I started out to sort all these papers. I better just stuff them in a box and return them to the basement.
What a huge mistake it was to unearth these memories.
Wednesday, November 09, 2011
I woke up at 4:30 am this morning (fell asleep at 9pm, probably because of four mile walk!!) and the full moon was shining over the ocean. It was magical.
A busy day today with my brother and mom and a friend of his, out to lunch, so not sure about eating situation.
Goal for today: since it is early, get off computer, and straighten up mess in basement!!!
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