Thursday, July 14, 2011
After thinking about my kids, I realize when I was their age, I was pretty selfish too. Age does bring understanding and willingness to help. And it is perfectly normal; I think it was Carl Jung who talked about stages of life and the ages of 25-50 the person has to do everything they can to become themselves, establish identity. Then later a person can let it go and be there more for other people. So, hopefully by the time I need help, my children will be in a different space.
Thursday, July 14, 2011
Whoops, did not do an entry for Wednesday? Trying to be consistent. Had a great day in Sonoma and Napa Valley; wonderful big lunch, and so had salad for dinner.
Today, I need to go to the museum; instead of driving, I will walk in keeping with my desire to cultivate a walking habit.
My mom always had a membership and we let it lapse because after all, she cannot go by herself anymore, she has to be with me and I have a membership. But she misses getting the newsletters in the mail, and I realize the expense of it is worth her sense of self. I am learning so much about old age, which will be upon me before I know it. And, all I am learning is incredibly sad --the worst part is losing your identity. Very hard to put a good spin on it. And, to be honest, I seriously doubt my kids do for me as I have done for my mom. They are just too selfish. Not to be negative, but in general, I and my entire generation have spoiled our kids. My mom and dad and folks in their generation did not, because of their experiences with the Great Depression. No one is right or wrong here, it is just consequences of how we were all raised. What I am saying is they raised us a certain way because of their early lives being so difficult. I raised my kids a different way because of my early life, not being as hard. Also, the society in general influences all of us as we are growing up.
I do not look forward to growing into my older age. Walking, eating right, having friends -- that is the best preparation I can come up with. But the day will come when I cannot walk, when I cannot buy the food for myself, and my friends will die. I see this now that my mother is 93. I just hope someone will be there to help me the way I am helping my mom.
Wednesday, July 13, 2011
Went downtown to the Gertrude Stein exhibit at the MOMA. On the way home, I got off the train several stops ahead,and did a great walk. Very pleased with my iphone, which has a gps map and easy to follow directions. Feel very good that I could be in a museum for 2 hours, and still do a great walk!!! Was a bit tired when I got home.
Monday, July 11, 2011
I was not in the mood to walk, but I forced myself out of the house. But, when I got out, the fog was so thick it was like rain and my iphone was getting wet. I had planned to use it to figure out the map feature and I wanted to hold it as I walked along. I went exactly one block and came back.
Then I had the great idea of driving to Noe Valley where the weather is usually better because it is not as close to the ocean. The only parking I could find was on 25th street and Diamond. The name Diamond Street intrigued me. I used it as a goal. I walked as far as I could on that glittery street until I came to a very steep hill, then back again, past my point of origin, and up another hill. I did two hilly miles. (used the wonderful mileage tracker on Spark)And 5000 steps (remembered my pedometer)
Accomplishments? First of all, I have been slacking off Spark, and doing this walk motivates me to limit calories today. Secondly, this walk took me into another reality. Ten minutes away from me the world is different. Instead of houses all the same, there are charming Victorians. More people on the street than in my neighborhood, more evidence of young people, stores with names like Kangaroo Korner, a kayak hanging upside down in one of the front yards. And fantastic views, lots of people walking dogs, lots of life. Now I have a goal to do all of Diamond Street and take the bus back. I also would like to go back and take photos of the sweeping views and interesting streets.
Saturday, July 09, 2011
Apricots are my favorite fruit-maybe because it is such a short season? I got out 7 apricots for breakfast, and then I weighed them in grams. I did the Spark journal for both ways, and there was a 50 calorie difference. So, weighing is best, even though it is a real hassle at times.
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