Saturday, July 09, 2011
I over-indulged in wine last night, and I do not know what I was thinking. Possibly that I am still 30 years old??? At this age, I cannot even handle a second glass that well, but a third? When will I ever learn? Wine is actually harder for me to control than chocolate. At least at restaurants now, I really can limit myself to one glass. It is a habit I truly have changed. So, there is hope.
On another front, I bought a chocolate bundt cake from Trader Joes. They came in a set of four small ones. Spark has most of the calories for Trader Joe items, listed from other members. Well, the calories on this baby were over the top. I forget, but maybe 600 or so... I gave one to my mother, I ate half of one, and I froze the other two. Now what I do if I have a chocolate craving, I slice off just a piece of the cake, microwave it for 10 seconds, and it satisfies me. It is so rich and chocolately, I really do not want any more. I think the amount I eat is about 100 calories. I should figure it out by the grams. I find using grams keeps me really honest.
Friday, July 08, 2011
I just cannot believe it is Friday already! Every Friday, I pay the caregiver at my mom's. It seems to come up so often, and the money is going, going, going......
I went to a "chocolate tasting" at the library last night. A local chocolate maker gave a talk on the process, answered questions, and she was not fat. The secret to chocolate craving is just eat really good, hand made chocolates. They are hard to find, and will limit a person's intake. This chocolatier is located about 30 minutes away from where I live, so that is good. I can make it a special outing and enjoy the trip, but not do it too often.
Thursday, July 07, 2011
I have a sub-basement in my house that has 40 years of stuff in it. Over the years every now and then I have a done a cursory cleaning, but now the time comes to really get it organized. I started with my garden items, and I found doubles and triples of things like rose food and snail bait. I have so many clay pots, I do not know what I was thinking as I bought more and more.
I discovered a typewriter from my college days, the memories make me feel I am still 18 years old and fresh in the world. Then there is a section of my kids' old Fisher Price toys, that I hope I can entertain my little grandson with. Then there are sections with my long dead hobbies, yarn from the knitting phase, fabrics from the sewing phase, cords from the macrame phase.
In the next room is camping equipment. How sad I feel that my body cannot take it anymore, squatting in a tent while trying to get dressed is impossible. I loved camping; now it is over. I think I should save the tent, ropes, and stove for my earthquake preparedness kit. Is that really why I am saving it?
I feel like my whole life is in that subbasement. Each object brings memories... joyful, yes, but at the same time sad to see various parts of my life over. When the pain gets too great, I have to stop and try again another day.
Wednesday, July 06, 2011
The day off was good for me; just like a weekend is good off work, and then you are glad to get back, refreshed. I still have not reached my goal of limiting my calories to 700 before dinner, but I will keep trying. There is no way I can eat less than 1000 calories at dinner, so if I can do this, 1700 would be okay for the day, because my usual caloric intake is about 2400.
Tuesday, July 05, 2011
I am taking the day off Spark, for today,but I am still doing the blog!!
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