Tuesday, April 26, 2011
I went to an all day seminar on this topic yesterday, designed for nurses, therapists, etc. I learned how habits are unconscious. The teacher was a neuroscientist from Stanford and she explained how the brain makes these pathways. and will power really cannot do it. The way to change a habit is to surround yourself with people who have the habits that you want to have. Spark is excellent for this purpose, but there is no face to face contact. I wonder if I should join Weight Watchers?
The seminar was all day, so I can't really explain it all here. I knew about the unconscious, but the science of how the brain makes these pathways was startling to me, and kind of depressing at the same time. With foods, I learned you really have to substitute. You cannot just use will power to say you are giving up candy. It does not work. (well, we all know that, don't we?)
Sunday, April 24, 2011
I had my own family dinner last night because today I am going to my fiancee's family dinner today. It is getting harder and harder for me to do things like these dinners. Even with people helping, setting the table, getting the extra chairs out, putting, all the dishes away, it just borders on overwhelming.
It is a shame. My oldest daughter could not come because her depression has her feeling too bad to get out. But my mom was in great shape and we did have some family laughs. It is very hard to see the end of a 40 year tradition, but I see it ending. My younger daughter and husband and baby stayed overnight--Easter egg hunt for the one year old was cute . I feel let down now that they have left. I loved my life when I had a family. It is peaceful now, but hard to live alone now. I have not been doing Spark, I feel like giving up, on not just Spark, but everything. All my life I have tried too hard. Too hard. It is deeply depressing to have a mentally ill child who is almost 40. These are not good Easter thoughts. But they will change. Easter is a potent symbol for that fact.
Tuesday, April 19, 2011
Does everyone know those yellow sugary marshmallow "Peeps"-- only available at Easter?
I have a terrible sinus infection again. I went to bed, but woke up after a short while, dry mouth and uncomfortable. I went into the dining room where I had positioned the Peeps for my Easter dinner decoration, and tore open the package. All night long I kept waking up with a dry mouth, unable to breath, and so I would pop in a peep!!! I cannot believe I did this, think of the dental implications.
You know what? I don't care. They really helped me emotionally and they were only 100 calories or something. (they are on Spark)
Better than Sudafed!!! (which causes sleeplessness)
Monday, April 18, 2011
Had to go early to the post office to post my mother's taxes. Even though it was obviously going to be a busy day, they only had one person working a booth. So, I got into a conversation with the woman next to me, who was posting her daughter's taxes. She started telling me about a senior center she goes to. When I told her I was 65 ,she did not believe it; she said I looked too young. So, out of the post office's inefficiency (and the accountant's who did not finish in time to get my "signature for permission" to efile), I ended up feeling good.
Tuesday, April 12, 2011
Goal for today:
Record all foods in food tracker.
Will be hard because going to daughters house to babysit one year old grandson all day. Do not think I have pulled an all day shift yet!!!
Record results at end of day here:
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