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The Bad and the Good

Saturday, April 09, 2011

The bad: I am forgetting words in a way that is very, very scary. My mother is descending into dementia and that makes my hopefully-normal memory losses feel worse. I belong to a caregiving website -- one person said her husband had just died from Alz. and Parkinsons and was 66. I will be 66 in July. Scary. I know 66 is unusual for Alz, yet it is possible. You do not hear someone 30 having Alz.

The good: Although I did not meet my Spark goal yesterday, I did better on calories than normal. I discovered this "double fiber bread". I was starving by dinner because I kept the cals low, so I ate piece of that around 5pm and I measured one teaspoon of butter. It was healthy and kept starvation at bay.

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CATTIANN 4/12/2011 11:01AM

    I know how you feel...I'm sure everyone of us on this Team knows this fear. Play games, do crosswords, listen to different kinds of music. Be well!

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VINGRAM 4/9/2011 10:39AM

    In my circle of not SP friends - we tease each other than it takes all of us to have a conversation.......with help from each other! emoticon vista

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ZEEDRA 4/9/2011 10:15AM

    I and many friends do joke about "searching for words"...for some time now I've been doing the "running through the alphabet" thing and usually the word pops up.
I have done caregiving for Alzheimer patients (all ages) and it's totally different. They come up with words that either make no sense or look at something--a common everyday item-- and have no idea what it is. Then starts the physical deterioration. Thank God most of us forgetters won't experience that!
While losing words can be troubling, it's often not Alzheimer's but an aging brain.
Sometimes laughing at things just eases pressure for the time being as it would be unbearable to constantly worry about the future.
My sympathy goes out to those with dementia, their caregivers, and to worriers. My mother was a worrier and it's not a happy state. I try to see the funny side of things but don't enjoy somebody else laughing at me. As some Maritimers would say: I get right some mad!
Take care all.

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BUSYGRANNY5 4/9/2011 9:03AM

    I had to respond to your post just to offer you some moral support! You are to be commended for your dedication to your mother; I'm sure this isn't an easy task; especially having to watch her descend into dementia. My heart goes out to you! Your concerns about your own memory loss ring a bell with me, as I too, find myself forgetting words, that HAVE always been a part of my daily vocabulary. I've even considered speaking to a neurologists, but haven't gathered my courage enough to do so; it irks me that some of those closest to me find my lapses to me funny, while I find them to be quite scary... (They're caring people, but just don't understand my fear)! Anyway, I just wanted to offer you some support!!

Good for you for making a conscious effort to keep your calories under control... change begins with awareness!

Have a great week-end!

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YESWEDID 4/9/2011 8:58AM

    no starving allowed! keep some fresh cut up veggies.

my mom has dimentia, i'm 54, and i often forget things and wonder what the future holds for my mind. sometimes i think just worrying about it makes it worse - so i try to shake it from my mind....but then i forget. :)

give all your worries to God, he will help you.

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TATTER3 4/9/2011 8:52AM

    Just keep Sparkin'!!! Life tends to go in circles and take care of itself. The more you fret about it, the more stress you feel and the worse it gets!!!

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Friday, where did the days go?

Friday, April 08, 2011

My mom is improved; turned out the opiates in the pain meds caused the horrific behavior. Still things are dicey, but not out of the stratosphere.

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VINGRAM 4/8/2011 4:58PM

    Glad to hear things are at least somewhat better today. Hang in there!

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Tuesday, 4/5/11- Herself or a witch?

Tuesday, April 05, 2011

Depression sets in; things going very badly with my mother. Dealing with very old age is one of the hardest challenges a person has to face.

Got away to a movie last night, Jane Eyre, turned off the cell phone, and it was nice. Ate buttered popcorn, but then only had half my dinner, because was full from the p.c.!!!

Have not weighed myself yet. Was not able to record in food journal yesterday. Will try again today. I always used to love a new day, but now there is a dread wondering what my mother will be today? Herself or a witch? I do not know.

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JOANNS4 4/5/2011 7:33PM

    I know how sad it can be to have a parent with dementia or Alzheimers. I missed my mom so much when her memory left her.
I'm sorry for your pain.

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JEANNE229 4/5/2011 11:43AM

    I dealt with Altzheimer's disease with my mother. She got VERY cruel before she stopped talking altogether. It was heart breaking to watch my mother become a stranger. So sorry, Carolee.

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Monday, April 4, 2011-Kudos to Spark!!

Monday, April 04, 2011

I just got a consistency award, but I have not been on Spark in a few days. Getting something from Spark motivated me to get back with the program. Whoever designed this Spark program is a genius!!!! I still really really hate the ads, and I would gladly pay for a Spark version with no ads.

I went out to lunch yesterday; the people I was with both ordered steaks and they felt stuffed and sick afterwards. I ordered a crab salad and I felt good afterwards!!! I also ordered Ice Tea instead of a sugary drink. I did not feel deprived at all. Maybe I am finally changing my habits. (I do not really like steak, though, so maybe this is not fair, and I LOVE crab)

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VINGRAM 4/4/2011 4:22PM

    It's all about could have the steak, also......choices, choices. Every day, every meal. emoticon emoticon emoticon vista

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Lent!!! Who would have thought?

Wednesday, March 30, 2011

Down another .5 lb. today. It is the no alcohol for Lent scenario!!! Amazing. Now, I do not want to get back into the wine/beer habit. What will I do on Easter? Drink gin fizzes with the relatives? How do I get out of that?

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VINGRAM 3/30/2011 6:22PM

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