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How I reached my goals

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

I feel really good about myself. I found the right plan and stuck to it.

I have always been good about exercise. I walk or do Leslie Sansone tapes about 5 days a week. I lift weights about 3 days a week. I love walking in the Holden Arboretum or one of the local state parks. It is not a chore.

jenny Craig taught me something about portion control.

But the problem was the bingeing almost every night. Never huge binges but sometimes enough to make me sick.

I fought this....really fought this...but my trigger is sugar. I would bring home jenny craig desserts for a week and eat them in one night. At one point in my life I would go to Dairy Queen about 3 times a week for a Triple Chocolate Utopia. I would try to lose weight with Slim Fast products. Or eat Fiber One bars as a "healthy" snack.

I read the Sugar Addicts Total Recovery Plan over a year ago. The same author wrote Potatoes, Not Prozac. She has a phd in addictive nutrition. And if you have problems with alcohol, bingeing you probably have a sugar sensitivity that sets you off.

I eat 3 meals a day and make sure I get enough protein with each. i watch portions. I eat about the same foods every day just to make eating something I automatically do at the right times and not dwell on what I am going to eat that day. I want to think about food as little as possible.

I have given up desserts. It is a choice, not a forbidden food. I had cake at a retirement party and it made me sick. Kathleen DesMaisons who wrote the above mentioned books says that sugar in some people works like a drug. And the effects are not pleasant.

I have found that if I want wine I drink it with a meal. That lessens the effects of the sugar in your body. Same if you wanted a dessert. Needs to be eaten when you have food in your stomach.

And now my nightly snack is a potato. I prefer the little reds. I eat them cold with mustard. you can eat it anyway you like but without protein. It is supposed to naturally raise the serotonin levels in your brain.

All I know is the plan is working. I am at my goal weight but more importantly no bingeing. No desire to binge.

For me sugar is the key.

  
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CHANCE0719 5/28/2009 4:19PM

    Thank you for sharing Carolann!

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SHANNONSNAIL 5/27/2009 12:38PM

    Thanks for sharing this with us!

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TONIMARIE79 5/26/2009 10:55AM

    Thank you very much for this entry. I have just started to try to lose weight and my eating behavior is so similar to how you have described your previous behavior in this post! I am going to check out the book you have mentioned. Reading about you overcoming your sugar-addiction gives me hope that I will be able to as well. Keep up the good work! and thanks again!
-Toni

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Shrink Yourself

Monday, July 28, 2008

I'm working on the exercises with Shrink Yourself. I am identifying my feelings and seeing how they tie in with my bingeing behavior. This is the best book I've read on emotional eating. I have some hope that I will be able to get it under control. I am also watching my calories as i really want to lose weight and lower bp and cholesterol without meds. You would think that would be motivation enough. Instead of losing I've gained 4 pds. All due to overeating and bingeing. So i start again and hope that i can pause in that minute between the feeling and the eating.

  
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BRINA2BSKINNI 11/21/2008 9:27AM

  Thanks for the book recommendation. I am a fanatic about reading on emotional eating and binging. Guess that's better than being a fanatic about food~

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06/23/08

Monday, June 23, 2008

I am starting all over...day 1. I am determined to be successful. I just came home from my niece's wedding. I am very inspired by what she has accomplished. She has had tough times..gained weight, drinking problem. she is 27 y rs old and has put it all together...a wonderful husband (who she has been dating since college), and a job she loves. And she lost weight and ran a 9 mile race in cincinnati.

I can do this. I am almost 60 yrs old and am not going to be a "glamor girl" again but I can try to do my best with the time I have left in this world.

  
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MOV4WARD 6/26/2008 2:11AM

    {{{carolann}}} it's ok to start fresh ~ we get to do that each day, each meal, each snack! And eventually, through the struggle, it will ease and we'll find balance, just like we've done with other past struggles!

emoticonbtw, congratulations on the quit smoking & the quit drinking!

I also had to quit smoking ~ i'd been trying since 1983, 2 or 3 serious attempts each year and after 3 hours, 3 days, 3 weeks, when something happened or stress hit or I found it too hard, I'd throw down the towel and smoke my brains out again... until i'd get the wild hair and courage to quit again.

I had to unravel smoking from almost everything I did ~ get up & smoke, b4 & after all meals & breaks at work, to & from work, talking on the phone with friends, over drinks... well, i'm sure you get the idea, eh?

and... eventually I relearned how to do it all without sickerettes! Sometimes, at 2 1/2 years later (almost on 6/30), i still get a whammo urge, especially when it's super stressful or i unexpectedly run into someone smoking..... but it passes.

the thing with bingeing is we can't quit cold turkey. We still have to keep eating ~ but we actually have to relearn our eating...

relearn how to eat appropriately ~ keep the good reasons, times, ways, what we eat...

replace the inappropriate eating (over-eating/undereating, wrong reasons, bingeing, emotional eating, tired eating, etc) with better.... and that will take time and practice...

and for me, it's turning out to be harder even than quitting smoking, and it's taking longer... but i think it's because it's so complex ~ part physical/genetics/hormones but also social attitudes that go way back to early childhood for me, advertising that makes me drool... a "love2eat, don't wanna quit" feeling/rebellion where I need to get my heart to understand and feel what my brain already knows... that diving into food and bingeing hurts me...

:::sigh:::

the very good news is that as we keep doing this, the time between binges get longer, the binges get shorter, the reasons we dive into binges gets to be less and less, other ideas and distraction alternatives begin to work... our habits and our preferences begin to change.

and some of it may not ever go completely away because food is such a huge part of our lives, but this really can and will get better!

methinks u really rock! u have already beat a lot of "addictive" habits ~ methinks u will get much better at this too.

emoticonhave patience with yourself, be gentle & don't beat yourself up! think of an athlete who's trying to learn a new dive ~ they look at the oops, try to figure how to do better next time, and keep practicing until they get it!

& u will too :)

cheers, jules :)



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6/13/2008

Friday, June 13, 2008

Not doing so good. Had one streak of 7 days and another of 12 but this last week I"ve binged 3 times. Dont know why. I'm frustrated at work but that is nothing unusual. I have a list of activities to do instead of night time eating but when the urge to eat hits I just ignore the list. On days when I'm not bingeing I think I'm also taking in too many calories. The only thing going right in my weight loss efforts is my exercise...but that is all being sabotaged by my eating. I have to change. I have had great successes in my life...quit smoking, quit drinking for 15 yrs, lost 30 pds Why did I have willpower then and absolutely none now? this is a good period of life for me. I only have to work 3 days a week. I have free time. I love my walks. I love the time to read. I love going to church. But there has to be more. My work is not fulfilling. But I get to volunteer at the humane society. Nothing seems to satisfy me. I've read so many self help books, so many spiritual books and the answers elude me. I guess I've just got to keep trying.

  
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JERI1952 6/14/2008 11:16AM

    Sounds like you are in a blue funk right now. When I feel like I need to eat something, I eat popcorn. Read the calories, you will be surprised to find out that a regular (not 100 calories) bag of the microwave butter popcorn only has totally about 120 calories and that a 3 serving size. After it is done popping, put a mixture of splenda and cinnamon on it and shake it up. That usually satisfies my sweet tooth. Eat the whole thing, I do and then I am stuffed. Make sure you have things around the house that you can "binge" on if you need to but that won't do too much damage. I have cans of green beans (ugh) that I eat cold, with my fingers when I just need to eat something. That does 2 things for me. Fills the snack urge by using my fingers (most snacks are finger food) and fills me up. They are really not that bad cold and I know that I haven't shot myself in the foot by eating something - the whole can is about 40 calories. The whole idea is to get by those times when you feel out of control and have to do something. Here's another idea, a vegetable sandwich. Use just a little salad dressing for taste and load up the veggies on it. The bread gives you a dough fix and the vegetables have very few calories. Good luck.

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PATTYSH 6/14/2008 8:49AM

    Hi Carolann--
Instead of looking at the week as binging 3 times, how about looking at it as not binging 4 out of the 7? That is much more positive! You are really beating yourself up right now--take it one day at a time and celebrate that day only for the success that you had. Maybe a week is too long. Even breaking up the day and celebrating the success of the morning, or afternoon, or evening. You can do this, and your SP friends are here when you need a little kick.
Good luck,
Patty

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day 9 binge free

Thursday, May 29, 2008

It is definately helping me to add more calories to the day especially just before dinner time. I can have some wine as long as I get something in my stomach and then eat my entree around 6 pm..then just a snack at 8. I'm feeling good.

  


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