Friday, November 16, 2012
My boss had a family member die from Carbon Monoxide poisoning. Several of us went to the viewing tonight. The lines were long, the people sad. He was only a young man. The coronor did a good job with the body. I wish I were better at knowing what to say at these things. I would rather sit unobserved and, well, observe. It isn't easy to lose a love one. It isn't easy to go on without them. But go on, we must. Life continues. This young man will always be in the hearts of his family members.
It makes me think that I should not waste what time I have here on this earth with miserable health when I have the choice to move, to live, to feel good. (So why is it that dieting is so hard if it makes us feel good???) It isn't easy to focus on the good choices that will make us happier in the long run. It is why emotional eating gets to me - frequently.
So what can I do to change my situations that I find myself in, so I will avoid the temptation to Eat, just a bite, or a lick, etc? I can have no "go to" foods in my house. I can remember that I DO NOT eat sugar. I can remember that when I am tired, I need a rest; when stressed, a walk; when bored, another bottle of water. I can find excitement in watching the scales drop the ounces and rekindle the need to watch that happen. And yes, I need to do these things frequently, almost on an hourly basis.
For now? I vow not to eat any more calories today. Water it is then. And tomorrow? It is another day.