Saturday, November 10, 2012
It sure was a pretty morning with snow flurries all around. I love winter on the condition that I can a) shovel snow or b) look at it while bundled up indoors.
My husband wanted to go out for breakfast and check on the married children.
At the restaurant, I managed to linger in the restroom and take my time at the buffet counter. I only took an omelet and ate it rather slowly. By the time I finished it, he had downed 2 heaping plates full and was finally ready to go.
The kids managed rather well considering we had 10 inches of new snow with another 3 inches expected by tomorrow. My oldest son was without power, but they were able to restore it rather quickly - by noon. My oldest daughter was not called in to work so stayed bundled at home with her family. My youngest daughter had stayed up all night and was finally sleeping. And my youngest son (who still lives at home) was waiting for someone to call him to help do snow removal.
After the outing, I went grocery shopping. By the time I was done, I was tired and hungry. I had a small corn muffin and a low-fat mozzerella stick with a sugar free jello pudding snack. Then I rested for about an hour.
I was able to clean most of my house this week. I feel so much better when I am able to be active. Then for dinner we had ham, macaroni and cheese, and broccoli. My husband and son enjoyed the meal while I picked at it. I detest macaroni and cheese and while I love ham, it gives me a headache. I came in at lower calories than I probably should, but how do I know if it is completely accurate? Anyway, I feel satisfied and that is probably the best indication anyway.
Friday, November 09, 2012
As I lay here, trying to sleep, I hear the wind howling. It whistles and shrieks as it strips the trees of it's fall leaves. I imagine the walnuts that hadn't fallen scattered from here to all my neighbor's yards. I hear the scratch of a cat as he nervously paces about the house. (The dog gave up groaning hours ago.) Even though I have been laying here for over 6 hours, I am still quite tired.
I imagine that as the wind brings in the storm, the air will begin to calm and the rain or snow will bring the impurities to the earth. And when that too is over, I can walk out and see the aftermath of the storm. There will be tree branches upon the sidewalks and yards, and leaves scattered to and fro. The refreshing scent of clean dampness will permeate my nostrils. After a deep breath, I will be able to begin planning clean-up efforts.
How like human nature it is to sometimes feel out of control with our lives. I sometimes want to be like the big bad wolf and just blow it all away and start over. Just like it is easier to pick up walnuts that have been hurled to the ground, so too, it is not easy to decide to give up sugar or to lose weight. Now, however, as I sit in the midst of the storm of nausea and exhaustion, I can see how easy it really is to give up sugar and non-essential nutrients. I just had to be shaken a bit to get me to this point.
Soon the storm will cease and I will again stand on my own. What will my food choices be when nausea is no longer a factor? I imagine myself taking a deep breath of clean air and never turning back but instead pick up the pieces and starting all over again.
Monday, November 05, 2012
I finally was able to rest enough that by this afternoon I feel pretty good.
I know i have to be careful to not overdo the activity until I am healed, but it felt really good today to go for a walk.
I went around the block equaling about .1 mile.
I also went to the grocery store today to find foods that would help me feel better.
I enjoyed food for the first time in several days.
That may have been a mistake.
None of my family would eat it.
Why would I care about food if I can't get rid of it at the end of the meal?
Plus I ate until I was overfilled.
I guess I go back to the crap they want to eat and tell them I am not hungry, which after looking at it, is mostly true.
At least for now.
Especially since I am only down .3 on the scale to 178.6.
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