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Baby steps

Saturday, March 10, 2012

When i last lost weight, i grieved over the lost sweets I could not eat. I didn[t want to feel deprivede anymore! I still have work to do, but I know that it will be possible.

This morning I weighed in at 175.3, again. My weight has bounced around quite a bit and so I was actually relieved that I hadn't put on any weight. At work, I had 2 people trying to offer me the best sweets, and I was surprised when I heard myself telling them it was fine,I didn't need any cheering up today. One of those was my favorite cupcakes - 6 of them! I gave 4 away before I caved and ate one. Then I gave the remaining one away so that I wouldn't try to take it home and eating it all the way.

I have told my inner child that if I can go all day without sugar, I will be allowed a small amount as a reward just before making dinner. Today I didn't earn that right, and when that happens I have a harder time keeping control. While I didn't do as well today, I did better this week than I have been doing lately. I am sure I can do this, one baby step at a time.

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MISHMOM 3/12/2012 8:59AM

    Good for you - moderation in all things, right? The fact that you only ate 1 cupcake is still exercising self-control so good for you! It is hard. I am finding that by eating something small every 2.5 - 3 hours that my blood sugar is staying stable, and I am not craving sugar so much as I normally am. By adding fruit and nuts to my "snackage" it really seems to be helping. Hang in there and keep up the good work! emoticon

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SUSIEPETE 3/10/2012 11:18AM

  I like that your calling it baby steps. Reminds to keep on going. Also, I know how you feel about missing out on sweets. It is hard when my husband dishes up a big bowl of ice cream. I also try to wait until late to have anything too sweet. That way it's closer to bed time and if I'm sleeping I'm not tempted.

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SCHECK5 3/10/2012 9:51AM

    Yes it is baby steps but it sounds like you are getting control over it!!!

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I can change

Saturday, February 25, 2012

My mom always used to say: "You can only change yourself." I discovered that this quote can be changed slightly to be even more powerful. "I am the only one who can change me."

I have a really good sparkbuddy and several people that have sent comments that have helped me recently as I am trying to find out who I really want to be in relation to my weight, health, and lifestyle. I know this is possible even if it isn't easy.

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SCHECK5 2/25/2012 9:05AM

    Stay Strong you can do it!!! emoticon

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JUSTMI1 2/25/2012 7:34AM

  It's not easy.....but we ARE doing it!

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Why am I doing this?

Wednesday, February 22, 2012

I weighed in higher at 175.3 again. I was a bit depressed. So, yesterday I set a commitment to go without sugar for 1 day. How hard could be one day be? I lost by 12:30 yesterday. I lost again today by 1:40 pm. I know I am better than this, so why am I purposely sabotaging my own efforts?

After some time for reflection, I realized that I don't want to be judged, for good or for bad. People are too kind to come out and say "MY, you are getting plump!" But, the comments surely come in when I lost weight! They would say, "You are being so good!" (Little did they know.) Or ask, "What kind of program are you doing, because that never worked for me..." (Is that to make me feel guilty?) But the two that hurt the most was the one from my doctor (who got me to start my weight loss journey the first time) who said,"I am beginning to think you are anorexic" I was only down to 150 and I was proud of my efforts. And the one from my husband, "I don't like skinny girls".

So, I realized the harder I try to lose weight or keep my goals, I am also putting more and more obstacles in my own way to "prove" that I can't do it. I don't blame my coworkers for bringing in the delicious cinnamon bread - I am the one that chose to eat it. I just don't know how to get past the hurt and stop hurting myself.

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STRIVERONE 2/22/2012 12:28AM

    "The question isn't who is going to let me. It's who is going to stop me?" Ayn Rand

You don't need to be her fan to appreciate this particular statement. It is right on and it applies to all of us. We donít need permission to take care of ourselves and we should challenge anyone who throws up roadblocks between where we are now and where we need to be. But you know that and you will prove that you can do it.

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All things are possible

Saturday, February 18, 2012

It is the end of another week. I am down to 174.9 lb. today. I am at the lowest I have been all month. Can I continue to lose if I continue to keep my calories within range?

I really shouldn't have such a hard time dieting - I have done this before and this time around I am eating better foods. I am not really hungry all the time like I was last time and although my mouth and brain wants more food constantly (especially sugary foods), I rationally know it is not necessary.

My thought? Every hour, every minute of every day I must remember that I can re-lose the weight and with God and good friends to help me find the way, all things are possible.


First 5K

Sunday, February 12, 2012

I never thought I would ever run in a race. I like to run. I run for fun, just me and my dog. She is 10 years old and runs rather slowly anymore, but that is okay with me. I just like to move. Then my foot started hurting and I had to cut back.

Our school hosted a race and I wanted to support the kids running, so I thought I would work up to it. I signed up. I worked on endurance. Yesterday, I stretched and prepared and headed off to the race. It was so much fun! I can't believe I haven't tried it before! Now I have a greater reason to lose weight - so I can run without as much pain! I hear there is another race in our city in July!

I ran and walked the whole race and by the end my asthma kicked in. I was sounding pretty awful as I crossed the finish line, but I made it in 32:20! By the end of the day, I couldn't walk without a lot of pain, but I took some meds and this morning feeling better.


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