Saturday, December 04, 2010
Here it is December 4th, I am so not "in the spirit" of Christmas!
I miss my Mom and Dad and other family and friends, more so at this time of year I think... or it is just that I miss them more all the time, than I have in the past, and I just keep saying it's because of this or that... like I need a reason to miss them!
I am so thankful for the husband, children and family that I still have, so I need to NOT get bogged down in the misery of missing the ones that are gone!
My husband's family is not much of a "catch", so we have a very small family holiday planned this year!
Over the years my husn=bnad's family has gotten so screwed up, that this year his mother actually "rescinded" her invitation for the family gathering next week! Can you imagine a Mother... who doesn't want to host a holiday gathering if her daughters won't come?? The girls have "issues" with one brother, so therefor they won't attend... and instead of celebrating the holiday with her 3 sons... she chose to CANCEL the party!! Can you just fell the love???
This makes me sad... for me and more importantly for my husband, and his brothers! I have always felt out of place with his family... but usually have a good time when all is said and done... so yes even I will miss the get together.
My husband however, has basically been "told" by his own mother that the "boys" aren't worthy of her hosting a get together without the girls!! Imagine the hurt that these (grown) sons must feel... being shunned by their own mother!
Everyone gathered for her 80th birthday this year... yes we all went to dinner... spoke to each other... had a wonderful evening... then all of a sudden at the holidays the girls don't want to be with the youngest brother... so therefor the rest of the family is "punished"!
So next Sunday... when we were supposed to be celebrating Christmas with my husband's family... instead we will have a nice family day here - at our house - with MY sisters and our children.
To HELL with his mother, sisters, the whole bunch of them...
This HAS been a hard thing to get over, and as you can tell I am still NOT over it... I have extended an invitation (again) to his Mother to join us for Christmas dinner... but she hasn't replied yet... and I am sure she won't! She never lets us know until the day before if she will be joining us or not... and over the past 15 years she has NOT joined us at our home for Christmas. That was the year the youngest daughter started having children, and "her place" was with them.
I should feel relieved, as now we don;t have to make the 2 hour drive down and back, plus spend the day with all the stress of who is in which room talking with whom... and it frees up the day for us to enjoy here at home with each other.
I am trying to overcome the hurt and instead focus on the positives!
Time will tell if it works or not!
Saturday, November 13, 2010
Well my vacation is almost over...I have not gotten much "done" around the house, which is what this vacation was supposed to be all about! It makes me feel crappy to see all I didn't get done... but know that feeling better is a good thing... so if laying low all week got me feeling better, than screw housework!!
I was also supposed to work on a wedding album for my niece... that didn't get done either... feel bad, but it couldn't be helped!
Yesterday I finally got outside... worked for 4 hours in the yard! Beautiful warm sunshiny weather... did the raking / mowing / sweeping... will hope to finish that project tomorrow, but for today I work inside!! It is still going to be warm and sunny today, but I will have to enjoy it from inside!! Burning those 1000 calories sure helped my mood yesterday!!
Thinking of putting up Christmas lights tomorrow... seems most years it gets too cold and then we miss the chance, so this year maybe we put them up tomorrow and just not light them until Dec 1st?!??!?? Hmmmmm....
Tuesday, November 09, 2010
So, I got home from California yesterday. We gained the one hour DST Saturday night in CA, then flying home Sunday night / Monday morning, we lost three hours, so to say I was tired is an understatement!
I also came home with a bad head cold, so I took plenty of NyQuil, had soup for supper, and slept for 12 hours!! I feel a little better today, but since I don't go back to work yet, I will indulge in naps and laying low today!
I have a healthy dinner planned... need to get back on track, and what better way to do that then to be on vacation at home, and have plenty of time to do it all! When this cold "passes" I will do some form of activity for a minimum of 15 minutes a day, but not today!
My weight gain from 4 days in CA comes form not overeating... but... not drinking all my water - I walked a LOT, so should have had extra water, but didn't! We ate a nice breakfast at the hotel every day, ended up skipping lunch, ate a fairly healthy dinner... but chose alcohol over water in the evening! Even while out walking around all the "cities" we didn't drink enough water to sustain us walking in the warm weather!
Today I know I will not meet my calorie goals or any goals for that matter, except water!
I am sure by Monday WI I will have the vacation gain and more gone!! Today is concentrate on fluids and rest...
Tuesday, November 02, 2010
I am not even sure how long I have been gone from Spark People, but here I am back on Day 2!
Day 1 didn't go so well... I didn't eat enough of any of my goals... didn't feel well, so didn't exercise... but hey, not looking back, just looking ahead!
Today I am on track! I have had all my water, gotten 15 minutes of walking at lunchtime, got all 5 of my F?V, so yes folks I am on a roll!
I leave for a mini vacation Thursday, and want to maintain my focus while in California. I will still eat and drink, but I don't have to go overboard! I expect to walk every day, either on the streets of L.A., or the beach... will get my head on straight then come home to face the cold New England weather! LOL
Back to work, lucnhtime is over... I still have some water to drink and an apple for the ride home. Not sure what dinner is, but whatever it is I can make it fit into my day!!
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