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My Birthday

Friday, February 08, 2013

HAS BEEN AWESOME!!!

I always celebrate for a full month so it's just the beginning!

This is probably one of the first birthdays that I managed to stick to my gluten-free and dairy-free diet.

Yeah. I'm awesome.

Here's to a great year of life!

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GAYLLYNNE 2/11/2013 2:50PM

    Happy Birthday!!!! Have a great day, week....MONTH!!!! Woohoo!!

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GOPINTOS 2/8/2013 6:38PM

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Smile and Enjoy the Rest of Your Day!
Melinda
SP Class of January 27- February 2, 2013
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VONBLACKBIRD 2/8/2013 12:02PM

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SUNTAIL 2/8/2013 9:41AM

    Happy Happy Birthday~!!! I'm so glad to hear that you had fun and you kept yourself diet-happy! emoticon it's a dairy free and Gluten free cake for you!

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MELMOMOF4 2/8/2013 8:38AM

    happy birthday!!!! emoticon

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FITANDFIFTY2 2/8/2013 2:57AM

    Happy Birthday!!! Congrats on eating healthy too,, so so awesome!! emoticon emoticon

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NYARAMULA 2/8/2013 12:50AM

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CHIBIKARATE 2/8/2013 12:31AM

    emoticon emoticon Happy Birthday enjoy your month hugz

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Yesterday...

Tuesday, February 05, 2013

All my troubles seemed so far away!

Don't worry.. They still do! emoticon

I just have that song stuck in my head.

My neck is bothering me a bit after my little fall on the ice yesterday, but I am over my initial anger about it. I won't be writing a nasty letter to the apartment management and I won't be staying inside until Spring weather arrives. Ha.

I have a few goals for the day and I am still motivated to achieve them!

I'll be Skyping with a friend a little later, and she is also working toward being healthier through better eating and exercise. She's always an inspiration to me and often has some good tips. Not to mention, we have been friends for about twenty years, and we still giggle like kids when we're together... even if it's just on a computer screen.

I'd be lost without technology. Seriously. Almost ALL of my friends live thousands of miles away, but thanks to the internet, I don't feel far from them at all. Yay!

I'm going to list out my goals so I feel more obligated to stick to my plan for the day!

Print out the exercises I plan to over the next week or so and put them in a binder. It's much easier for me to have them right in front of me, in order.. so I always know what I'm doing and I won't get all upset.

Stick to my calorie tracker ALL day. I knew I had a bunch of calories left a bit after mid-day yesterday so I just stopped keeping track. No good.

Say no to ALL dairy. I had a tiny bit of milk chocolate yesterday. I'm paying for it today.

Go on a walk.

Watch Star Trek: Voyager and swoon over Captain Janeway until I can't see straight.

Go to sleep before 5 am. Oops.. Too much Voyager yesterday/today.
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GOPINTOS 2/7/2013 9:59AM

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Thanks for sharing!

Smile and Enjoy the Rest of Your Day!
Melinda
SP Class of January 27- February 2, 2013
Perfect Health Diet Team
Calorie Cycling Team

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MELMOMOF4 2/7/2013 9:03AM

    you are a very busy person. that is awesome what you are doing. keep up the great work

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PATTYKLAVER 2/6/2013 6:42AM

    You're a busy person! It's great that you're dedicated.

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THE_SHAKESHAFT 2/6/2013 1:09AM

    Keep up the good work!

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MADEOFGLITTER 2/5/2013 9:17PM

    I am going to steal your idea and print out my exercises too! That will be easier than turning on the computer to check what I want to do for the day. I like your list. You can do it!! I wish I was there to swoon with you. Dang US for not putting our states closer. I'll have to save up my pennies and come for a visit.

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And Now for Something Completely Different

Monday, February 04, 2013

I woke up early.
I'm feeling quite positive.
I love February!
Early Spring, right?
BRING IT!!
There are chocolatey snacks in this house and I don't even feel tempted to eat them.
I am really enjoying the SparkTeams I have joined.
My birthday is in a few days!
I am in such a good mood that I don't even care that I my left ear is all muffled and sore. Oh well. And acne, cramps, Hashimoto's, and dermatillomania can piss right off!
I'm having a good day and nothing's going to bring me down!
Yeah! Take that!

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AWOLF24 2/13/2013 10:53AM

    WOOHOO!!!!!!!!!

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GAYLLYNNE 2/6/2013 6:55AM

    You are amazing!! What an inspiration!!!

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THE_SHAKESHAFT 2/6/2013 1:09AM

    AWESOME!!

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CAPTAIN33 2/5/2013 4:42PM

    Thanks, everyone! A bit after after I posted this, I went outside for my walk and I slipped on the ice. OUCH! For a moment, I was really mad, but you know what? I didn't let it ruin my day. I got an ice pack for my arm and went on with my good day. emoticon

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GOPINTOS 2/5/2013 3:03PM

    emoticon Thanks for sharing!

Smile and Enjoy the Rest of Your Day!
Melinda
SP Class of January 27- February 2, 2013
Perfect Health Diet Team
Country Living Team
Dr Oz Show Fans Team
Wheat Belly Team

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TIME2BLOOM4ME 2/5/2013 10:17AM

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MELMOMOF4 2/4/2013 11:53PM

    stay positive. i hope you continue to have such a great attitude.

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MADEOFGLITTER 2/4/2013 10:00PM

    Yes, to all of that!

Sounds like you are starting the week of awesomely. I like it. Yay! I am excited for you!
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CAPTAIN33 2/4/2013 5:50PM

    YES!!! Sorry, I got a little excited about the "invincible summer" thing. emoticon

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SUNTAIL 2/4/2013 5:20PM

    AWESOME!! :) Am Super glad our team can inspire you!! :) It's great to remember that even though life throws tough things our way that we can at least fight back with an invincible summer! :) emoticon emoticon

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Nope. Nevermind. (One thing I never fail at is failing to care.)

Thursday, January 31, 2013

I was going to start the Biggest Loser 30-Day Jump Start today.
Not happening.
I hate exercising.
I know why I hate it.. It's a nice mix of not knowing what the heck I am doing and my body hurting so bad that I just worry I am doing more damage than good.
I sure do miss the days of having a personal trainer to help me know how to do things correctly and an acupuncturist to make this dumb knee of mine function a whole lot better.
Those days are long gone.
I don't know what to do.
Honestly.
I mean.. what the heck do you do if you're in too much pain to do simple stretching exercises??
I am sick and tired of not doing anything to improve my health, but this sucks. My knee hurts so bad right now and I did a few stretches. Wow. Big deal.
How can I lose weight when I can barely move? Am I hurting my leg more by forcing it to do things or will it help in the end?
Who the heck am I supposed to get answers from? No one.
Awesome.
I guess I'll just gain another twenty pounds this year.
Or heck.. Maybe more! I have to have achievable goals, after all. I bet I could gain fifty pounds! With Hashimoto's on my side, I can conquer the world! I can get huuuuge and continue down the path of Sciatica! Yay! I can be using a cane in no time! I always thought of myself as being a bit like Dr. House anyway. Why not? I look good in blazers and tennis shoes. I could rock a cane.

Joking aside for a moment.. This was a really discouraging attempt to do something sooooo simple. I can't imagine actually going to a gym or something. Ha! Forget it.

I know negativity won't get me anywhere positive, but... uhhh.. I really don't see any positive way of looking at this. You know, aside from being cool like some character on tv in the future.. who.. in reality.. isn't real.. and is played by a guy that is much older than me and does NOT use a cane.

I could pretend it will get better. My leg will get better. My neck will get better. Everything will get better. But, of course, not on its own.

Of course.

Ugh.

I give up really easily. REALLY easily. I also get really mad.. really easily. First I get mad... then I give up... Then I get more mad.. then I get sad.. then I get more mad... then I just go escape into some tv show or something. It's "worked" for years now.
Worked against me.

And the worst part? I am really good at telling myself it's not worth caring about. That I am not worth caring about, I guess. That it doesn't really matter. That I don't really matter. And, it never fails that I always fail at caring. I guess I don't actually try.
"Do or do not, there is no try." I agree, Yoda. I totally agree.

I wonder if Yoda is available for some personal training sessions.


  
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CAPTAIN33 2/3/2013 4:05PM

    Thank you everyone for your support and advice. It's a lot to take in and consider. But that's great! It's nice to have options and to know someone understands and cares. Thank you. Really, I can't say it enough. I have read these comments over the last few days and I have already felt more positive. I know I will have negative thoughts, of course, but I can get through it. I have taken a walk every day since this blog post. I even took one the night I posted it and it's all thanks to your comments! I called my best friend who lives far away and I just talked to her while I walked. I need other people in this and it's really nice to know that I have them/YOU! :) We're gonnnaaa maaaake iiit aaafterrr aaaall!

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1CRAZYDOG 2/2/2013 5:58PM

    Sweetie, I hope you DO have something positive to cling to!

Have you explored chair exercises on this site? It might be worth a try anyway.

Here's the thing . . . you're guaranteed not to fail if you don't try something, but you won't succeed . . . 100% guaranteed.

I can literally hear the frustration leaping thru the screen and I wish I could give you a hug. You deserve to be kind to yourself. Sometimes it seems so much easier to be kind to others and just plain nasty to ourselves!

(((((HUGS))))))

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XNANNY 2/1/2013 4:25PM

    You might try fasting for a change! No food at all can be nice, no thinking what can I eat or what has fewer calories. I do mine one day at a time with an eating day the next.

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TIME2BLOOM4ME 2/1/2013 10:43AM

    Oh, I forgot to say when I really hurt my favorite workouts are www.classicalstretch.com they help to un-kink the fascia which causes lots of pain issues. Also James Knight has a Somatic yoga dvd. Both are extremely effective with pain issues.

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TIME2BLOOM4ME 2/1/2013 10:41AM

    "I just want someone to tell me exactly what to eat."

I have a wonderful MD, PhD who can do a free phone consult. I started with her in November. I was so sick I didn't think I had much time left, in severe pain, weak lungs, could barely walk. . . My blog has my progress since then. She totally turned my life around. If you want more info. call me. I can pass your name on to her assistant who can give you more info. and set up a free consult. She is like a Dr. House, doing labs on me that showed I had issues going on that I didn't knew existed. She uses mostly natural supplements and diet to resolve issues. She has helped the incurable people and complicated patients like me that other Dr.s have turned away. emoticon

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SUNTAIL 1/31/2013 10:59PM

    I know I need to eat my own words here but, don't be so hard on yourself. Really. You're already lapping everyone on the couch!! You did good today--you tried, and yes you might hurt--but that's more than you did the day before. sometimes our bodies need to take it slow and taking it slow is NOT a shameful thing.

Don't let yourself be discouraged! Tomorrow is another day and you can keep at it! do as much as you can and that's enough for now. You'll slowly get stronger if you keep with it, :) good habits take 2-3 weeks to form--just stick with it that long and it'll seem like second nature!

Also--Just because you don't have needles doesn't mean all is lost! Try acupressure! Same jist just using a pencil head or your fingers--plenty of sites online will show you points for knee pain--find them on yourself and press away for 5-10 minutes.

You might also wanna look into Moxabustion--that's easy enough to do at home too and heat is good! :)

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MOMMASLILGUNNY 1/31/2013 8:28PM

    Stop being so hard on yourself.

It may be hard but try to walk for just a few minutes everyday. Start with 5 minutes today: add a minute the next day, keep adding a minute until you can do it for 20 minutes without stopping. Do twenty minutes for a few days then add 5.
You can also use resistance bands and do arm exercises while you are sitting in a stiff chair (like a dining room chair).
It may take time; but you will get there.

Good Luck.

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CAPTAIN33 1/31/2013 7:47PM

    I don't want to be so negative in my blog posts, but....

While I'm at it..

I really get discouraged by my inability to follow any recommended diet in any book/program. Like the Biggest Loser on for example...
I CAN'T EAT ANY OF THAT!!!
And the diet I was considering following on bodybuilders.com would have been death by eggs.
I just want someone to tell me exactly what to eat.
And they can cook it for me too.
Is that so much to ask?! ;-p

Okay.. Tomorrow I will post nothing but positive things. I need to balance out this icky negativity.

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Anxiety

Wednesday, January 30, 2013

I has it.

Bad.

I forget how bad it is until I actually try to go somewhere and do something. This time I got all ready, I left.. and then...I just changed my mind and went back home. Ugh.

I don't think positive thinking and acting as if I don't have this problem, is going to make it go away. I think it needs to be addressed. Again. I haven't been to a therapist/counselor in over three years.

Looks like I have some calls to make.

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MODESTASHEGETS 2/4/2013 3:42PM

    You need to see if you can find a nurse or counselor that does biofeedback. They hook you up to a type of EKG machine and go through deep breathing tutorials. You get to see your heartrate change during the exercises. That kind of did it for me. Just seeing that I had control over my heartrate and breathing patterns flipped some switch and helped me tremendously. Worth trying.

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CAPTAIN33 2/3/2013 4:31PM

    Melinda, It's so true that you're never too old for a little comfort from your momma. :) Your story about your doctor makes me miss mine back in Seattle. I love when a doctor really knows you and cares. How nice that his office called and set everything up for you. My former doctor still calls me and checks on me. I look forward to continuing treatment with him someday.

Thanks for the tip on the book. Turns out my library has a copy so I can check it out (literally) before I just go ahead and buy it. I also looked on the book's website and it sounds great! Yay!

All the best!
Kim

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TIME2BLOOM4ME 2/1/2013 12:57PM

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GOPINTOS 1/31/2013 8:47PM

    Never too old to talk to your momma. I have 4 kids and I hope they always come to me when needed. emoticon

When I was at my worst, after our house fire and I gained another 60 or 70lbs, I did call my doctor's office to schedule my breakdown. And I went to his office, had a good cry, and felt better. I needed a new cpap machine but I could not even call them. His office called and set it all up, told me all I had to do was answer the phone when they called so they could deliver and set it up.

Anyways... you asked about a book. I think one of the best out there right now on nutrition is the Perfect Health Diet. Not diet as in something you are on, but diet as in this is the way we need to be eating for long life, a lifestyle.

Best of luck to you!
Melinda

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CAPTAIN33 1/31/2013 7:16PM

    Your comments and encouragement are appreciated. I took one step which is really all I can do today (and with how this day is going.. it's a bit of a miracle that I managed it). I didn't call, but I did text my former counselor. She was my counselor when I used to live here and I have recently moved back. We've become a bit more like friends so I am not sure if she should still be my counselor, but I know she will at least help motivate me to seek out someone else (and she'll probably know of someone good for me).

I also plan to discuss it with my mom... which may be a bit lame for a 30+ year old, but she's definitely my support system here.. and it doesn't hurt that she's studying to be a therapist herself. ;)

I've just been really embarrassed to talk to anyone about it. Especially my family and close friends. Which may seem weird. Or maybe not. Anyway, I feel like I at least somewhat addressed the issue today.

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VONBLACKBIRD 1/31/2013 10:08AM

    emoticon Just pick up that phone and call...do it now!!!

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GOPINTOS 1/31/2013 9:23AM

    I have been there, still there sometimes, but nothing like it was. I think what helped me, was getting my nutrition under control, feeding my body the right vitamins through food, etc and the fog has lifted.

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Thanks for sharing!

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Smile and Enjoy the Rest of Your Day!
Melinda (gopintos)
SP Class of January 27- February 2, 2013
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FROOTBAT 1/31/2013 8:16AM

    As a phellow phone phobic (see what I did there? Haw!), I hope you are able to wrangle that wicked serpent, pull out its fangs, and make that phone call! You're in a strong place right now, that place where you can see things clearly and you know what you need to do. Harness it, make the calls you need to make, and you will soon be feeling better--you know I'm totally right :)

Take care,
^..^

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GAYLLYNNE 1/31/2013 6:50AM

    I'm sorry you are feeling like this. I suffer from similar things. If, perhaps you could find a friend to lean on and even make some calls for you, this could help. I sending hugs and good wishes!!

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