Wednesday, December 12, 2012
Hello my SP Friends!! Trust all are doing well in their journeys. Very difficult time of year for all of us but should you slide don't fret about it. It's just a momentary lapse of good judgement that can be fixed almost immediately by simply getting back on track.
Found something that I would like to share with you all. It is long but it is a great read & as you read it I ask you to simply think about what is said here. Is this you? It is a great message to me & I think it might ring some alarms with many of you.
A time comes in your life when you finally get it…when, in the midst of all your fears and insanity, you stop dead in your tracks and somewhere the voice inside your head cries out…ENOUGH! Enough fighting and crying and blaming and struggling to hold on. Then, like a child quieting down after a tantrum, you blink back your tears and begin to look at the world through new eyes.
This is your awakening.
You realize it’s time to stop hoping and waiting for something to change, or for happiness, safety and security to magically appear over the next horizon. You realize that in the real world there aren’t always fairy tale endings, and that any guarantee of “happily ever after” must begin with you…and in the process a sense of serenity is born of acceptance. You awaken to the face that you are not perfect and that not everyone will always love, appreciate or approve of who or what you are…and that’s OK. They are entitled to their own views and opinions. You learn the importance of loving and championing yourself…and in the process a sense of new found confidence is born of self-approval.
You stop complaining and blaming other people for the things they did to you – or didn’t do for you – and learn that the only thing you can really count on is the unexpected. You learn that people don’t always say what they mean or mean what they say and that not everyone will always be there for you and that everything isn’t always about you. So, you learn to stand on your own and to take care of yourself…and in the process a sense of safety and security is born of self-reliance.
You stop judging and pointing fingers and you begin to accept people as they are and to overlook their shortcomings and human frailties…and in the process a sense of peace and contentment is born of forgiveness.
You learn to open up to new worlds and different points of view. You begin reassessing and redefining who you are and for what you really stand for. You learn the difference between wanting and needing and you begin to discard the doctrines and values you’ve outgrown, or with which you should never have bought into to begin. You learn that there is power and glory in creating and contributing and you stop maneuvering through life merely as a “consumer” looking for your next fix.
You learn that principles such as honesty and integrity are not the outdated ideals of a bygone era, but the mortar that holds together the foundation upon which you must build a life. You learn that you don’t know everything, it’s not your job to save the world and that you can’t teach a pig to sing. You learn that the only cross to bear is the one you choose to carry and that martyrs get burned at the stake.
Then you learn about love. You learn to look at relationships as they really are and not as you would have them be. You learn that alone does not mean lonely. You stop trying to control people, situations and outcomes. You learn to distinguish between guilt and responsibility and the importance of setting boundaries and learning to say NO.
You also stop working so hard at putting your feelings aside, smoothing things over and ignoring your needs. You learn that your body really is your temple. You begin to care for it and treat it with respect. You begin to eat a balanced diet, drink more water, and take more time to exercise. You learn that being tired fuels doubt, fear, and uncertainty and so you take more time to rest. And, just as food fuels the body, laughter fuels our soul. So you take more time to laugh and to play. You learn that, for the most part, you get in life what you believe you deserve, and that much of life truly is a self-fulfilling prophecy. You learn that anything worth achieving is worth working for and that wishing for something to happen is different than working toward making it happen. More importantly, you learn that in order to achieve success you need direction, discipline and perseverance. You also learn that no one can do it all alone, and that it’s OK to risk asking for help. You learn the only thing you must truly fear is fear itself. You learn to step right into and through your fears because you know that whatever happens you can handle it and to give in to fear is to give away the right to live life on your own terms. You learn to fight for your life and not to squander it living under a cloud of impending doom. You learn that life isn’t always fair, you don’t always get what you think you deserve and that sometimes bad things happen to unsuspecting, good people…and you learn not to always take it personally. You learn that nobody’s punishing you and everything isn’t always somebody’s fault. It’s just life happening. You learn to admit when you are wrong and to build bridges instead of walls. You learn that negative feelings such as anger, envy and resentment must be understood and redirected or they will suffocate the life out of you and poison the universe that surrounds you.
You learn to be thankful and to take comfort in many of the simple things we take for granted, things that millions of people upon the earth can only dream about: a full refrigerator, clean running water, a soft warm bed, a long hot shower. Then, you begin to take responsibility for yourself and you make yourself a promise to never betray yourself and to never, ever settle for less than your heart’s desire. You make it a point to keep smiling, to keep trusting, and to stay open to every wonderful possibility. You hang a wind chime outside your window so you can listen to the wind.
Finally, with courage in your heart, you take a stand, you take a deep breath, and you begin to design the life you want to live as best you can.
That's it!!! What did you think?
Hope all my friends have a wonderful & Merry Christmas!!! That in the New Year we will each reach our goals no matter how small or big.
God Bless & Pax,
Wednesday, December 05, 2012
Hey everyone! Thought I would drop a pic and a few words from our favorite kitty, Tiny who is doing so well. He looks great!!! Check him out and see what all the fuss is about.
"It was Tiny Tuesday yesterday of course and I'm wearing my first Christmas tie. T'is the season to be mindful of what we eat. My fur-iends last week I weighed 17 lbs 6 oz and another loss this week. I am NOW 17 lbs 3.5 oz. I have lost 2.5 oz." Meows, Tiny
Hope everyone is well & trying real hard not to nibble on the Holiday Treats. I know, I know, it is so hard not to be tempted. Oh gawd how I know...lol!!!
Thursday, September 27, 2012
Why hello my Spark friends! I trust everyone is doing well unlike myself since leaving the hospital back on June 27. But that is another blog for later I'm thinking.
I'm here to write about my favorite dieting feline. Yes, Tuesday past was Tiny The Cat's check up & weigh-in and here now is Tiny telling you how he did/is doing these days...
"It's Tiny's Tuesday and time for my weigh in! I am getting so close to my goal weight (15 - 17lb) that I can taste it! Well maybe that is just the aftertaste of the yummy morsel of tuna I just had in celebration of my most recent weight loss. But anyway, I digress..................... I am proud to say that I've lost again! I now weigh in at 18lbs and 7oz! I lost 5oz last week! Your continued support means the world to me - thank you my furiends!" ~ Meows, Tiny
Friday, July 06, 2012
Hello to all my Spark Friends! Hope everyone is well! I'm home a week now from the hospital & things are moving along just fine. Albeit slowing they are moving just the same.
Speaking about moving, our Famous Friend Tiny is continuing to move his weight in the right direction. This is the post from FB on Tuesday July 3rd...
(It's Tiny's Tuesday and time for my update! I now weigh in at 21lbs 3.oz, down 4.5oz from last week! I feel so great. It is hard to believe that I have lost what some cats weigh. Thanks so much everyone for your continued support. ~ Meows, Tiny)
Everyone please take care, be safe & have a great weekend!
Friday, June 29, 2012
Hello my Spark Friends!Hope all is well with everyone! I have been trying to catch up on everything.
Many may have wondered where this soul has been for just over 100 days? Well, I am here to explain how my life took a turn for the worst on March 20, 2012.
For weeks I was suffering from severe back pain. It actually started on February 13th, the very day that my DW's mom passed away. I tried many things to relieve the pain. From Tylenol(3) to those ridiculous Hot-Icy Patches but nothing worked for me.
I headed off to the ER of local area hospital only to be sent home with Arthrotec, a drug prescribed for sciatica. So, I'm thinking now we have the answer, a diagnosis finally, & the proper meds. Just have to wait & see if the medication will work.
On March 20th, I got up from the couch to go to the bathroom. I remember looking at the time, it was 6:48 AM. My legs buckled under me. Screaming for my DW I knew I wasn't going anywhere soon. Couldn't muster the strength to get up to do anything. The rest of the day was a blur. I know I told my DW to not call an ambulance. So all day I sat on the couch relieving my bladder at different intervals throughout the day. I am told that I was having trouble breathing, that I was in so much pain. I have no memory of any of this. My DW called our 18 old son who ended up calling an ambulance. I'm told the fire department were on hand first with the paramedics. Then, another call went out to another EMS Team. I do have a memory of seeing an old friend standing in our living room I used to work with in the Security Field who is now a full time paramedic. Guess they asked me questions. Pretty standard ones, you know your name, your DOB, the year & where I was. I'm told I failed royally in answering some questions. I blew on the year & where I was. Told them I was in the living room of the QEII-Halifax Infirmary. It was then decided they were taking me to the hospital. Full light/siren & I have no memory of that either.
This was the beginnings of my 100 day stay in the hospital & rehab. I entered triage very ill. I had Sepsis, a nasty little fella, Sepsis is a potentially deadly medical condition. The body may develop this inflammatory response by the immune system to microbes in the blood, urine, lungs, skin, or other tissues. A lay term for sepsis is blood poisoning. I was in rough shape. Our son & my DW were told it's 50/50 on whether I would make it. A wait & see thing. I'm told they tried twice to re-boot my heart into a regular rhythm. I now have another condition called atrial fibrillation. Could be a direct result of the Sepsis or it is something I had & didn't even know. I'm on Warafin now to prevent a Stroke.
Spent 2 weeks in ICU. Four days on a ventilator! If that wasn't enough to put my DW over the edge she was tested a third time in about 6 weeks. Remember my pain began on the day her Mom passed. Then I enter the hospital with her not knowing if I was going to make it. Two days after being admitted to ICU my DW was informed that her sister had passed away. She was 52 with third stage COPD. Still, her death was so unexpected.
My poor DW, I couldn't be there in her hour of need this time b/c I was so selfish in not taking care of myself. I couldn't wrap my arms around her & console her grief. It was a very difficult time for her & her family.
From ICU I to went into Acute Care for about 9 wks or more then to the Rehabilitation Center for my therapy. You see, my left leg wasn't working right. Still pretty much in a state of sleep. Hasn't been the same since I entered the hospital. My Rehab stay was just the better part of 5 weeks or so. Here, I learned how to walk again with the aid of a cane & a 4-wheel walker all the while getting stronger each day. Steady on my feet but still need a little help.
So, there you have it. I was released from the hospital on June 27th. I have to use many gadgets just to do the simplest of tasks. A bath bench, cane, walker, commode, bath rails & so on.
But I'm still here. I thought I could beat LIFE at its own game but on March 20th LIFE had a different plan for me. Basically it won & I lost the battle but I will continue to get stronger with outpatient therapy & by the stuff I do at home. This is not a forever way of living for me. I refuse to live & die like my birth mother. Unhappy, obese, & doing nothing about it.
Everyone please take care. Have a great Canada Day to my Canadian Friends & to all my US Buddies, Happy 4th of July!
It's good to be back!
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